#and i can't even be mad at my [relation] for trying to comfort her because she's a good fucking friend! that's what good friends do!

[heartsmourne]

sometimes i think of that phrase, "you're going to the hardware store for oranges," whenever my [relation] complains about her "friend" (shitty friend who is not good to her and whom i kind of hate for being so shitty to my [relation]) not being a good friend back to her and i'm like. you're going to the hardware store for oranges, mate. you are asking [friend] for something that [friend] is categorically incapable of giving you. if [friend] were a grocery store, she would be able to give you oranges (in this case, oranges are emotional support and reciprocity of kindness) but she's not. she's a hardware store. you can go to her for oranges all you want but she is never going to have them for you. maybe to other people she's a grocery store, but for you she's a hardware store and that's not your fault and there's nothing you can do to make her be a grocery store for you. after a while you have to accept that [friend] is never going to have oranges in stock, and you're just hurting yourself by asking her for oranges, and you being my [relation] it hurts me to see you get hurt like this over and over again. also [friend] fucking sucks and i wish you'd let me beat her up for you.

[httpswritings]

unable — Alexia Putellas x Reader

Warnings: mentions of past sexual abuse (not getting into detail of how that happened) and what it leads to for reader, therefore mentions of anxiety, fear to be touched, etc. 

Word count: around 770

Summary: Second part of discovering true love. Alexia and reader get into a relationship together, and reader have the need to tell Alexia about her past. Alexia comforting reader.

A/N: I've already warned about these sensitive topics above, so please only read if you feel like you can. 

After your conversation last week, Alexia had been educating herself about how you felt, how to behave so she could help you, and what the procedures were in case you experienced a panic attack or anything related.

Sometimes she felt awful for desiring you.

Her eyes wandered throughout your body, but she stopped when she noticed her arousal grow.

You were also struggling with your desire for her.

Craving her sexually, but being too afraid of the idea of sex was driving you mad.

Alexia was sweet. Her voice tone was delicate, and her laugh was adorable.

You noticed the way she avoided touching you, just in case you felt uncomfortable, and honestly, you were grateful she was being so considerate about it.

You two kept having conversations about different topics, including your past, to get to know each other. 

As you saw Alexia interacting with friends and family, you noticed how much physical contact she held with everyone she was close to.

Some weeks passed by, and your trust in Alexia kept growing.

She didn't insist on you doing anything to or with her. There were no stolen kisses. No waist-grabbing. No second intentions. 

Your girlfriend was respecting your boundaries, and for the first time in a really long time, you felt like you were being respected.

When Alexia was kissing you, her hands stayed on her waist. 

It would probably look weird to someone who was not familiar with such a sensitive topic, but you appreciated Alexia's consideration, even if you knew she was craving some physical contact from you.

It wasn't until the third month of your relationship that you felt the desire to be touched while you were kissing.

The thought of it interrupted your make-out session, and you abruptly broke the kiss.

“There's nothing wrong, Ale. It's just... I want you to caress my waist, my hair, my cheek, anywhere that's not sexually intimate, while we kiss. Is that okay?”

“It's okay for me. Are you sure, princesa?”

Her face showed a worried expression, making you melt.

“I'm sure.” 

You looked at your girlfriend, as you held both of her hands.

You placed her left hand on your waist, slightly reacting to the contact.

Alexia looked at you worriedly, but you assured her that you were okay.

Actually, you were a little bit uncomfortable.

Her hand stayed still, but the feeling of being touched grossed you out.

You didn't know how to explain what you were feeling.

Craving Alexia's touch, the desire to feel her hands throughout your body.

Feeling as if you wanted to throw up, your body unable to be relaxed.

Alexia noticed how your breathing increased, and she abruptly removed her hand.

“Talk to me, princesa. I need to be aware of what you're feeling so you're as comfortable as possible.”

Your shame only grew faster. Alexia was so caring and supportive of you, that you couldn't bear feeling so disgusted by her touch.

“I'm so sorry, Ale.”

She didn't understand what you meant, reassuring you that there was no rush in your process.

“No, I'm not referring to that. I feel like such a horrible person because you're trying to be as good as possible, and I can't do anything but feel disgusted. I feel like a failure. As if that person broke me when they did that to me. I'm so sorry you cannot experience a normal relationship, but—”

Alexia stood up. She wanted to get your attention as you were rambling, but she knew touching you was not an option.

“Listen to me. I love you, and I'll wait for you. I know that you feel disgusted, even when our arms are touching by accident. At first, it was hard. I'm not going to lie. But knowing that it is a common trauma response, I do not take it seriously. You're not broken, nor are you a failure. You're someone who is not only so strong, but who deserves time to heal. So again, I love you and I do not regret being your girlfriend. It's true that I'm sexually attracted to you, but that's not the only reason I love you. You're funny, caring, and intelligent. You have a great ability to memorize things; we share the same favorite book and the same love for football. I could spend hours talking with you about anything, and you know that I'm not a talkative person.”

You were left speechless by Alexia. You noticed how red her face was—not out of anger but carried by pure emotion.

You held her right hand and kissed it, unable to contain how moved you were by her words.

[googledetective]

my thoughts about the new drdt episode...

I want to start off that this episode has not left me in a great mental state and this piece of fiction is starting to effect my reality in a negative way, currently. I do suffer from mental health issues, so please be sympathetic. If something I say seems too emotional or a bit off, that's likely why. My therapist will be hearing about drdt, lol. No hate towards drdt, it's an amazing project, and I'm amazed at how the piece of fiction is able to make me react in such a way.

1. I am not educated on ASPD or anything like that, so if I say something wrong feel free to correct me. I had a feeling that Levi likely had it from his secret, but this is a cool confirmation. I like that this is represented in a really great way, and that the reactions to his confessions are also very realistic. I like Levi a lot, but now I understand him so much more, and it makes me really appreciate him.

2. I find it interesting how Levi is so detached, as Veronika said, to everything. Even if I was not capable of remorse, I would've remembered killing my own father. I wonder what his father did to be so looked down upon.

2.5. OKAY SO HES KINDA JUST LIKE ME FR. like I stated previously I've had some bad mental health issues in the past to the point I've kicked windshields of cars in and attacked people. It is not my proudest moment, but holy shit I can relate to this a lot. It makes me so good to see someone who's done shit like I've done who's trying to change.

3. Ace really did care about Levi and considered him a friend, which warmed and broke my heart at the same time. I really hope Ace finds another friend, because he deserves to feel some comfort and joy. I hope he learns about Levi's ASPD and realizes Levi has no malicious intent towards him. I find it nice that Ace did really trust and look up to Levi though, it proves him capable of friendship and deeper feelings that people usually overlook. Great complex character.

4. I was shocked that Levi sided with David, but honestly I do too. David is a good person, and we see that later in the ep where he doesn't tell Eden what Arei said.

5. J CALLED OUT HU??? UNEXPECTED. called her a stupid argument moderator. Interesting. I love you J, but watch it.

6. Veronika's secret isn't the worst thing she's ever done- interesting. I think it could be the thing she's the most ashamed of, but you never know. It really breaks my heart for Hu, and I hope we get a backstory on her soon.

I'm coming back after point 14 and adding this: these secrets don't seem to be any of the worst things they've ever done, nor relevant to the killing game (besides "Xander's"). These secrets are personal. I think they each have worse secrets but they are too related to the killing game so they couldn't give those out.

7. Excuse you, David. Freaky ass.

8. that is NOT Teruko's secret 😭😭😭

9. This is seriously rich coming from J, as she usually escalates the situation.

10. Eden's monologue broke my heart. I am so glad David lied to her at the end, or I think Eden's heart would've been broken. This just makes me so sad.

11. "That maybe there would be a world in which we would be friends." I'm sure there would be, since your fans have created worlds that you're dating her.

12. Arei needs to genuinely shut up. This is where I get very upset and irrational. I am so fucking mad at Arei for lying to Eden. For the rest of Eden's life she's going to be wondering what she could've done or if her friendship was enough. Why the fuck would you lie and say you believed you could change, only to come back and admit you know you can't. My heart breaks for Arei though, because I believe she could've changed. This especially makes me so upset because as a previously bad person who relates to Arei and tries to change, I feel like I'm going to give up hope to do so too. Obviously I gotta overpower and not let fiction effect my reality, but it really hurts.

13. Arei's worldview that nobody is a good person mirrors David's (though David excludes Xander). Makes me really sad. I can hope, but there's really no hope left.

14. Well we know who attacked Xander (what the actual fuck). I hope we learn how that ties in later. Eden's hidden quote, "you can never go back, no matter how hard you try." maybe it's referring to this incident instead of the situationship with her friends in the past.

15. Love this.

16. WE HAD A JRUKO MOMENT!!! So happy about this!!!

17. Why the actual fuck does Whit know so much about how that hanging mechanism would work. You're making yourself look so suspicious. High and low were highlighted, which was interesting.

18. Whit said this murder would've been hard if Arei wasn't a willing victim. If she was, this just makes this case even more tragic. She may have convinced herself to give up hope and cooperated with the killer, which pains me a lot. I think this was due to David's secret.

19. I love the carousel bit! And the banter between Arturo and Whit. They had banter last trial too, so that's a continuation. Maybe they'll have a confrontation in the future.

20. NICO FUCKED BRO

21. At this point my only logical conclusion of who I think the killer could be is J.

22. Everyone is bringing up Ace's friend- Taylor! It's seriously throwing me for a loop bc that's my name!

ENDING:

To clarify, I think it's sad that Arei believes she can't change and even started doubting Eden.

[dyemelikeasunset]

I can't sleep so I'm venting. for the most part i love my d&m readers, but oml sometimes i get qpoc blues so bad 😭😭

It's just liiiike. ppl either don't talk about Mor or completely misinterpret her personality. Like I can always tell if my readers are black or not because nonblack readers no NOT see Mor's significance, or just miss the mark when they talk about her, or they misread her personality. Like I don't understand what's so hard to understand about a cute and thoughtful artist??

AND LIKE LMAO Dom's sexuality gets brought up all the time but no one talks about Mor being a lesbian and how rare that is to find in media 😭 white lesbians are always talking about "we need more open lesbians in media!! ppl shouldn't be afraid to use the word lesbian!! blah blah" and i'm like "here you go!!" and no one claps at all lmao. Like I get it, i know why it happens, i understand racial microaggressions, i know how fandom spaces treat Black women, I UNDERSTAND BUT I CAN STILL BE UPSET. I have the right to be upset about it!!! 💀💀 And I know fem lesbians get ignored all the time, invalidated all the time, but it just sucks to see it happen to my character. I just feel like her being lesbian doesn't clock a lot of people, and I get asked to do more thirst trap art of Mor and I do want to but i'm also trying to be careful about like. Idk reducing a dark skinned fem lesbian to being validated only thru being sexy? LMAO.... Mor should be able to be attractive and lovable without tons and tons of thirst trap art (and it's not like I don't do it at all!! I'm not trying to be overprotective or deny her sexiness but I guess it's considered not enough?? give me a break)

And mannnn I was so mad actually that several comments voiced thoughts that essentially said Mor didn't "help" or "take care" of Dom enough, and that when Dom was finally opening up to her it was "Morgan finally doing something" LIKE HELLO??? HELLO??? It's DOM'S flaw that she can't open up? And Morgan does a lot??? I know immature ppl do not appreciate more soft and domestic/feminine forms of care bc they're used to taking their mothers for granted lmao but wooow I was taken aback. First of all, like, I try to show that Mor is the main cook, works just as much as Dom (let's go double income household), is always checking in on Dom's comfort as she navigates being queer, and is overall a very considerate girlfriend. AND SECOND OF ALL LMAO like even if she didn't do all that she doesn't need to have relationship currency to have a doting girlfriend, like the fucking trope of black women needing to suffer for love is so terrible I'VE HAD ENOUGH AND i"M NOT EVEN BLACK. Like there is NOTHING WRONG with their typical dynamic and I'm sick of people acting like there is. SOMEONE SAID DOM WAS LIKE A COMFORT PILLOW W NO AGENCY AND i"M LIKE WTFDYM???? She has TONS of agency and her sense of agency says she wants to LOVE AND DOTE ON HER PARTNER LIKE LMAO. WHAT?? Why is that hard to understand??? Is it because I made one (1) joke bout Mor being a pillow princess and the anti-princess squad are grinding their teeth in the bushes seething over it? Ppl are so twisted sometimes oh my goddddd. Like as an ace who was very confused navigating the lesbian dating scene as a teen and young adult I WISH i had met a pillow princess. Sometimes ppl don't realize that stone dynamics are very safe for aces!! Dom literally says she prefers it!! It's not Mor being selfish like lord please GOD ALLAH I'M TIRED I'M SO TIRED

and like on the topic of Domi overall she is more "popular" but sometimes I feel like people don't even really take the time to appreciate the significance about her either. She's not just a funny thirst trap 😭 and I feel like ppl dont acknowledge that she's asian half the time. I have so many white aces who only zone in on that aspect of her and it's like YEAH I GET IT, I'm ace and we don't have a lot of nuanced rep but she's also got more layers than that too. Tons of people related to her in the chapters where she talks about her childhood abuse yet very few people really, like, talked about the type of generational trauma that is very deeply embedded in her different cultures, no one saw that and oooof idk idk it felt inivisible. It's sometimes harder to talk about the racist microaggressions that Domi experiences thru my readers bc ppl will argue "well most webtoon leads are asian" but not many of them are asian in a way that like. talk about it. I'm born in the US so my experiences with being othered as an asian is just gonna be different and it's gonna affect my art and writing but it feels so unappreciated. I've had some queer asians relate to her but i can count them on my hand 💀 (I actually think it's two LMAO i"M SO SAD)

And going back to Dom and the comfort pillow w no agency comment lmao. This is another thing that rubs me the wrong way is once again, people are ignorant to the ways asians get pigeon-holed to media roles that have us being depicted as incapable. Maybe I want Dom to be more of a protector archetype bc I'm tired of meek Asian women in media? 🤔 Maybe I want Dom to be a prince-like character because asians get emasculated a lot?? 🤔🤔 Maybe I want Domi to maintain her prince persona instead of being "'physically' androgynous/masculine but really soft and girly on the inside uwuwu please treat me like a 'real' girl" because even in east asian media we won't allow women to exhibit strength and dependability??? 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 Like why is a tough girl empowering but once we have a gentle and doting personality in a romance it's considered cliche and the flaw of her partner for being "too weak." MAYBE THEIR PRINCE/PRINCESS DYNAMIC COMPLIMENT EACH OTHER??? HAVE YOU CONSIDERED? I WROTE THEM THAT WAY FOR A REASON??

Good lord this turned into an essay but I have so many things on my mind always

if you read this all. Thanks. I mainly needed to scream into a towel and put this down somewhere bc I complain about these issues to my discord and they understand/validate me all the time, but I wanna give them a break 😭 I also lowkey wanna document my various feelings as I work through Dom & Mor so I can remember and also grow from it

[starryredpandawrites]

Born From the Same Ink (Siblinks) Masterpost

Yanno, I've made enough content about Audrey and the Ink Demon being siblings that I decided it might be good to put everything in the same place. Might even call it something official like the "siblinks au" if that's not already taken lol

AO3 link: Read the full fanfic here

Bendy Bites: Also known as the random tidbits about the siblinks that I either can't figure out how to fit into the fic or am too impatient to wait to share. Also includes some fluffy headcanons I have for the siblinks that might not even be story related. Can also be found using the "Bendy Bites" tag.

Ink Demon carrying Audrey

Snack (a slightly different version of this is in the fic now)

Feral Audrey

Kitty (post-escape, Audrey and Bendy adopt a cat)

Sign language

Ghost in the apartment (Since writing this, I've had some new headcanons that changed Audrey's living situation but will keep those to myself unless/until they become relevant)

Unintended consequences

Hunting (how the Ink Demon deals with his bloodlust/kill drive in the real world)

Healing Kisses

Asks: I'm not putting every Bendy related ask here (even though I love them all), just ones that I ended up elaborating on and sharing possible story ideas in the process of answering them. You can see all of them by searching the tag, "answered ask" or "ask" on my blog.

Barrel scene (Bendy getting mad because he figured out Audrey hid from him in a barrel and he still couldn't find her)

Height differences and the resulting sibling shenanigans

Krampus Ink Demon

Slicer/Carly (thoughts on how Bendy would deal with her since I left her out of the fic)

Sammy's reaction Audrey and Bendy's bond

Sammy's and Bendy's reaction to Audrey changing the cycle with The Illusion of Living

What if Audrey was taken by the Keepers instead of Bendy? Also, Bendy's reaction to Malice taking Audrey from the manor

What if. . . Wilson succeeded and made Audrey into his "perfect creation"?

What would happen if Gent found Bendy and Audrey if the real world?

First Aid (Bendy's reaction to injuries in the real world vs the ink world)

Audrey smells like the Ink Demon

Audrey's "sisters" (elaborating on Joey's previous attempts to making Audrey)

Copycat ask (eheheh puns, ask based on the Kitty and Unintended consequences Bendy bites)

Can Audrey sense when Bendy's nearby? (based on events in chapter 16)

Miscellaneous:

Halloween with the siblinks

Sammy vent post (the man made me rewrite a whole chapter and section of my outline)

The Ink Demon wiping his tears with Audrey (I didn't write anything on this but thought it was funny)

Scene description: Audrey sketching with the Ink Demon

Fanart: (also known as the best section) I think I tagged everything under "batdr fanart" if you'd rather use that to peruse all the amazing art people have made of my fic. Huge thanks to @tiredtrashpandaart, @mulligansstuff, @magicicephoenix, and @akiraidraws for their wonderful, wonderful art!

Audrey and Bendy meeting and holding hands for the first time

The Ink Demon tapping his claws on Audrey's barrel/hiding place

The Ink Demon waving at Audrey after massacring lost ones in Artist's Rest

Bendy realizing Audrey hid in a barrel when he was trying to find her as the Ink Demon

Elevator scene

The Ink Demon reveals he's also Baby Benders to Audrey

Bendy clinging to Audrey's leg

The Ink Demon hugging Audrey

The Ink Demon hanging with/comforting Audrey plus offering her a tasty, tasty widow pod

Hotel pun

The Ink Demon listens for Audrey's heartbeat

The Ink Demon tackles Audrey

Audrey gets jumpscared and Bendy laughs at her

The Ink Demon saves Audrey from a Keeper

Fic highlights sketch page

Look at them!

Henry's sketches (fun fact, I was originally going to add a description of Henry drawing Boris to his sketching scene but cut it cuz I felt the scene was dragging on)

Sammy arguing with Audrey

Audrey sketching with the Ink Demon by Mulligan

Audrey sketching with the Ink Demon by Akirai (scroll down to see the art, it was added as a reblog)

Audrey tries to banish the Ink Demon

I'm not adding the sneak peeks or chapter announcements cuz all that can be enjoyed just by reading the fic itself (unless someone REALLY wants me to add them, in that case I guess I can add them on here later).

Lemme know if I missed anything or if any of the links are broken and, seriously, thank you so much for enjoying this story with me. It means the world that so many of you lovely people enjoy reading my work. Thanks for everything!!!! 🤍🖤🤍

Note to self: last edited on 11/17/24

[aroaceleovaldez]

thoughts on leo valdez? headcdanons? i

[stares at own url] ...I'll give you one for free, lol

Aro/ace Leo.... listen. He explicitly states that he plays up his false persona in aspects that he feels are lacking in his actual personality in an effort to make people like him more, and in his POVs we get a lot of him doing acknowledged-as-nonserious joke-flirting as part of his false persona. Guy who doesn't realize he's aspec trying to overcompensate for his lack of attraction by excessively hitting on people to hide that he doesn't feel attraction towards anyone? Him wondering if he's broken in a whole bunch of ways and trying to make up for it externally while having an identity crisis about that? Something something metaphor about him wondering if cause he's a Hephaestus kid he's a little too much like a machine/robot and can't feel love or The Right Emotions In General™ because of that cause he doesn't know about aspec stuff yet (or that he's autistic)? Can anyone hear me.

Related to that: Leo landing on Ogygia (island of unreciprocated love) and meeting Calypso, who (probably through love magic) actually seems to be attracted to him? And him trying to force himself to reciprocate because he figures that's just how it's supposed to go and maybe for once he's actually experiencing romantic love? And he's so desperate for someone to like him and to feel useful to someone (re: 7th wheel)? But it fizzles out almost immediately after they leave the island, because the heart-eyes wear off for Calypso, especially once she technically no longer needs him, and Leo can't keep up trying to make himself reciprocate (and can't keep up trying to put his mask back up for her, especially now that Calypso seems to actually care about it). I am literally always thinking about this.

Short king,,, I don't care what anybody says he is NOT 5'6" that is way too tall for him. My guy is 5'5" absolute maximum. I usually place him at 5'3". Tiny guy. Made of pipecleaners. Built like Bilbo Baggins...

I've mentioned it before in a couple of places (i know [here] at least) but I did not like his fake-out death in BoO. Also I'm just mad about his dropped character arc(s) in general. My ideal substitute is that instead of dying and being revived, Festus just crashes in the woods nearby and Leo has overexerted his powers too much a la Nico's shadow stuff and is nearly dead but once they get him to the infirmary he recovers and can start working on recovering from his whole depression arc too. Also maybe he loses a leg in the crash so he can match his dad just for funsies, and so that there's some amount of consequence to his sacrifice to make up for him not dying (not like in canon there were any consequences to him dying and being revived anyways...). Also something something accidental Hiccup HTTYD joke. Leo with a prosthetic is always fun. More Hephaestus kids with prosthetics.

I am very amused by the concept of Leo never having any romantic attraction to Hazel at all, possibly even negative romantic attraction once he finds out she dated his great-grandpa (especially since in canon like 90% of his thoughts about Hazel are just kind of appreciative and genuinely thinking she's really cool, if a little confusing at first), and Hazel pretty quickly gets over her side of things once she gets used to the fact that this is Definitely Not Sammy, he just Looks Like Sammy (and does not actually act like Sammy, that's just a fake persona that is eerily similar by coincidence. Real Leo is actually quite reserved and not so much of a vocal goofball most of the time). So they're just besties after their mutual weird Sammy vision and understanding the deeper sides to each other and are each other's person they're most comfortable letting their guard down around cause they've formed that level of trust. Except Frank's over in the corner seething cause he thinks this is a love triangle but he's the only one who thinks that. Leo just thinks Frank hates him for the general reasons he thinks everybody hates him (which is just an assumption he's kind of used to and expects from people, so he does not question it at all). Hazel knows Frank thinks Leo is trying to steal her from him but she's having trouble trying to keep the two of them from nearly killing each other. It's a very homestuck auspistice dynamic.

Leo and Frank eventually work out their stuff and become very good friends to meeee... let them bond over their mutual fear of fire and dead mom trauma! they have so many parallels and I want the two of them and Hazel to be a funky cute little trio!

Dragonkin Leo! That boy is a dragon!!!! I usually say his stuff is kind of spiritual origin (he doesn't really know how to explain it other than his soul is just a dragon) versus like Jason being a wolf therian with a more psychological origin (being raised by an immortal wolf pack rubbed off on him) (rip Piper being the only non-alterhuman in their trio LMAO). I imagine whatever type of dragon he is probably is very similar to Festus, which is part of why Leo clicks with Festus so quickly - he just sees himself in Festus and it's very comforting to him. He definitely makes himself some fun 'kin gear, like a nice weighted tail and wings and claws to try and help his phantom shifts feel a lil less wonky. Also him having dragon talon weapons just sounds cool. He also totally makes gear for any other alterhuman demigods.

[museumofunnaturalspectacles]

okay, so while going through 3dwi, i noticed these interactions between amber and holland that i interpreted as their relationship deteriorating (fast).

first, we see their first interaction between 50 and 60. amber approaches holland first while she plays, but because pat intervenes, there's no real interaction going on, so i guess it's better to word this as an attempted one. friendly, nonetheless.

their first actual interaction occurs between 95 and 105, where it's just the 2 of them outside on the beach.

while we cannot see the faces of the characters, we can see their body language.

amber is hunched over and refusing to look holland in the eye as she talks about... something. whatever it is, it might have shocked holland, as she suddenly moves slightly backward and begins shifting her body toward the house. she gets up after amber either gestures toward the sand or house (i honestly can't tell if it's her moving out of anxiety because of the potentially uncomfortable subject or not), and goes inside.

after a little more forum talk, we then see this interaction between pat and amber, or at least we can assume so due to the obscured view. occurs between 111 and 121.

amber appears to be backing away from someone, presumably pat. there might be a hidden 3rd person here, as on 116, both of their heads move that make it look like they're looking at someone else. here's a gif to illustrate what i mean, as the head movements are minimal (from 115 to 117):

she ends up going down into a sitting position and slumps over as pat talks (down) to her.

with that in mind, here's amber and holland's next interaction with each other. compared to the attempted and first real interaction, it is very one-sided, with holland trying to interact while amber is indifferent and ignores her. (between 126 and 133)

see that in the wheelbarrow? it's the red spheres that are later talked about and shown in the story, with the minimum being at least 3 in that scene. they are directly related to amber's wellbeing, from what we understand. now this is where i start interpreting it a little more my way, as what they exactly represent isn't as clear. they could be traumatic memories or visual representations of each version of her before a traumatic event, who knows? but it is interpreted by the in-universe players as a health status indicator.

and we know she's going out to dump them, because they are shown near the end of the story to follow the above image's detailing of the process and correlates with the first question posed by Thomas:

(i personally interpret each sphere as a "version" of amber before a traumatic event occurs.)

going off of this, it may mean that amber confided in holland about the abuse she's been through. holland either confronted the adults about it or let it slip from her lips, but i'm guessing that holland went for a confrontation due to her immediately going inside after the conversation ends and because amber is her friend. (a child would not know the ramifications of this, they just know they want to stand up for their friends.) this lead to the separate incident with pat, likely resulting in further abuse functioning as punishment for telling holland and an attempt to keep her silent about it. this is why i posted thomas's message in full, because it seems to be from the perspective of amber feeling hopeless about her situation due to nothing changing.

of course amber would be mad if this lead to further abuse, it's why she doesn't even look at holland, the latter of which throws a tantrum when she is met with no response to play with a rock(????).

their next interaction is from far away between 139 and 152.

holland appears angry for whatever reason and kicks the sand and almost falls. it looks like amber tries to comfort or talk to holland during her fit, but the latter stomps back toward the house. after a moment, amber seemingly breaks down crying. (i don't think it's important to note grace here in this particular post, but just in case, she's either ignoring them or is oblivious. doesn't move throughout the entire interaction, even when amber begins to cry.)

there's less to work off of here. it looks like it was taken in the middle of something, as holland is walking in the first frame of this, so she may have come straight from the house or was talking to amber from a distance before walking to the water, since the latter is already facing the former. regardless of what it's about, it's clear their relationship is strained with holland largely ignoring amber's presence. it even seems like amber briefly turns to look at the door of the house to see if holland came back out, but looks back to the ocean upon seeing no one is there.

the next scene they have together (after holland brings out a lamp for whatever reason) is between 184 and 194.

the ignoring is now mutual. they don't move at all and are facing away from each other. (besides their relationship now ended, i find it funny how joe senses how awkward the silence is and attempts to find something to do without leaving.)

i thought this was an interesting dynamic, especially given the fact that holland is the only known person in the story to have given amber her friendship and attention. amber is literally and metaphorically isolated from people, so losing her only positive connection was definitely a blow.

[alornights]

⟢ push pop

➜ in which ! scott can't get enough of the naive new girl.

🌷 ﹫scott tenorman.

✩ 🦩 warnings﹗suggestive, death threats & smoking.

🍧 ⟡ notes — ahah i’m back? ima bfr i was binge watching shows sooo yeah anyways here’s my fav of this series ever 🫨

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"Look at her- she's like god- but better."

"You're so overreacting," Scott murmured watching you and your friends walk over to one of the lunch tables outside.

One of his friends sniggered nudging him, "Scotty my girlfriend became friends with the new bitch in town.”

“You’re not setting me up with her if that’s what you’re trying to do,” Scott grumbled smacking his friend's neck loudly.

"Nah, I'm sure you're going to absolutely love her!"

he really didn't intend to go that far with you.

the only time he thought he would ever be talking to you is when the entirety of the friend group was around.

but somehow you always found a way to weasel into his life.

even when you weren’t there you just seemed to pop up into every conversation of his.

not to mention that whenever you saw him you’d latch on to him making yourself way too comfortable around him.

he was definitely pissed off in the beginning because who fucking cares that you were hanging around some freshmen dork.

slowly but surely though- he found himself listening to anything relating to you just to get the slightest information.

and sue him because anytime you’d walk into a room he’d be on you- talking and laughing like never before.

and lord, he’s trying his damn hardest not to just pick you up and take you away every time you even make the slightest suggestive motion.

even though you don’t notice the change in personality, his friends sure do.

"Don't even," Scott grumbled as his friends continued rolling around the floor laughing like never before.

One of his friends gasped for air, "You- Scott Tenorman FALLING for Y/N? Oh, this is fucking gold."

"Oooh she's so dumb, she's too girly, she's just a dumb bitch right Scott?" Another one teased before they all burst out laughing again.

"This has to be some sort of discrimination."

"Yeah okay, ginger." Another snorted holding out his fist to Scott.

"I hope you all kill yourselves." Scott smiled fist-bumping the guy back.

"WOAHHHH-"

he surprisingly isn't that whipped for you. on the outside at least.

on the inside this guy can not stop feeling so fucking flustered, there’s not a second where he doesn’t feel butterflies.

his mind starts racing whenever you're around and it’s like no one but you exists.

he and his friends are playing baseball and you come over? bro is packing up his shit and leaving to take you out on a date

he sees you hanging out with your friends while skipping school? say bye-bye the two of you are going out to the mall or whateva.

you just make him do things that are just so uncharacteristic for him and he isn't sure how to feel about it. though- he isn't mad.

like the way he can’t stop staring at you as you're running around in gym, his eyes never leaving you just savoring your body like it was something only for him, something god created with his bare hands.

it's not that he’s obsessive or anything weird like that it’s just the urge to be around you whenever he can because he likes you that much!

maybe to the point where he might slip that he “wanted to crawl around your room like a spider and live in your walls”

but according to him, he never said such a thing.

"I didn't."

You smirked wrapping your arms around his as you clung closely to him. "Oh but Scotty, you did!"

"Proof?" He questioned looking at you with an innocent smile.

Your smile dropped as you began to pout, "I was going to say I'd so let you, just so you can see everything about me. Y'know, to be informed."

You let go of his arms before walking away as he laughed catching up to you, laying his arm around your shoulder, and bringing you in to kiss the top of your head.

"Aww, c'mon sweetie you know I was only teasin' you."

his dad was/is part of the denver broncos so you know that means hella lot of money.

and because you had made such a good influence somehow on his family, they already began treating you as their daughter in law.

his family is nice enough to let you go on vacations with them which is a beauty.

so you got to go to the bahamas or whatever just because your dating scott. for free!!

if he's feeling nice enough he might even take you somewhere you really wanted to go by just asking his parents.

he’s not very into pda in public he’d obviously hold hands and like little kisses but he likes to keep it private.

all for himself! :)

in the comfort of his own bedroom, he is very physical, often initiating cuddles or whatever. like a cat, but bitchier.

he enjoys these days!!! most of the time.

"Move bitch, I gotta pee oh my god-"

You shook your head wrapping your arms more tightly around him with a smirk, “Aaaah I would but ‘m too comfortable. I think ‘m gonna fall asleep.”

Scott groaned trying to push you off him, "Y/N, baby, please move. I’ll stay with you as long as you want afterward just gimme a second."

You shook your head sinking your head into the crook of his neck, “Nah, that’s not my problem.”

“I will just piss myself right now.”

"WAIT NO-"

scott likes to notice the little details about you instead of the bigger ones.

since he's not that big of a romantic he does try his best to make you feel loved.

if he sees you staring at a ring in passing when you’re walking around the mall, you’ll find it in your locker with a small bouquet of your favorite flowers.

you guys are walking at the park and he remembers you said you liked skipping stones? he'll make sure to have the best stones and the best view for you.

a bunch of guys flirting with you and making you uncomfortable? they’re going through a week of hell never to recover.

you're sick as fuck? for the next week, you get presents and gifts galore of health care and things you simply love.

also, i just feel like scott smokes which he thinks makes him 10x more attractive.

he’s obviously stopped whenever you didn’t like it or just plain out quit if you really disliked it because anything for you.

ahahaha make out session while smoking?

“Scotty…” You murmur laying your head on his lap as he looked down at you

“C’mere pretty girl…” He whispered as you moved up to sit on his lap facing him. “Need me to stop?”

You shook your head, “S’fine… just want you.”

He laughed lightly taking a hit of his cigarette before bringing you closely to kiss you- the smoke filling your lungs. You giggled a bit as he brought you closer by the waist.

“Y’know…” He whispered as you blew a puff of smoke out, grinding down on his lap, “I really think you’re gonna be the death of me with that whinin.”

[childrenofcain-if]

Hi! I want to start by warning that this will probably be a long rant about how much i love your IFs. But first, I hope you feel better soon!

The first IF of yours i played was the pjo one, which sent me down a rabbit hole of going through the rest of them (still haven't played tcs but i will soon 🤞🏻). It was just BAFFLING how people could be so purposefully ignorant about the concept of fanfiction and accused you over and over of plagiarism like, please go outside and touch grass, clearly the internet has stopped your brain from developing critical thinking.

Anyways, the adaptation was so well done and faithful while also exuding a newness to it that i am very excited to see unravel. I understand at the moment it has been paused (and I don't know if you've addressed why it's no longer up) and i hope with time you can feel comfortable with it again. None of the shit you've gotten was deserved or even understandable but alas, it still happened. As a content creator myself, i truly truly sympathize with you. I hope these words offer some comfort, however small.

Same goes for WLB, but the awe at how descriptive and raw your writing is really peaked through in something of your own creation. I find myself revisiting it and experiencing the exhilaration from my first reading all over again. I can't wait to watch everyone around my mc descend into eldritch madness as they become more and more unhinged. Consequences of my own actions? Never heard of them, i want my mc to go apeshit!

Now, gods where do i start... TBOTYG is *chef's kiss* flawless, i never thought i could become so obsessed with anything with only one part. I awaited the demo with baited breath, already anticipating all the ways you would surprise and impress (and you did). Every choice, every scenario, the way you build your plot and characters, your descriptions (I don't know if you can tell that I'm a little too hung up on the writing aspect of it) of characters and actions and feelings. The amount of work and effort you put into characterization is so very clear and it feels very freeing to have that amount of control over a character that we're supposed to "relate" to (in the context of the narrative, almost as if living vicariously through them). i think that no matter how much time passes, your IFs will remain a staple in the community and every player who finds your gems will feel blessed and changed after playing.

It's gotten to the point I've created a whole google doc of my MC, and made fake ig accounts with interactions (just for myself, to cope with the anticipation) and this is a level of commitment I've only felt with my own OCs and works. In such a short time, your IFs have carved a deep space for themselves in my life. I find myself replaying and going through their official pages religiously even though I've read every post already.

a question! will every LI's gender be chosen individually? I'm wondering because C and D are suitmates, but is it doable if they're different genders? same for mc and V. I'm thinking yes but also wanted to be sure

Honestly very very sorry for the long rant, I'm sure you have better things to do 😭😭 but i had the uncontrollable urge to express my feelings on your art and it took me an entire day of trying to talk myself out of it (i failed).

(also, here's my mc's profile and dm box. her royal highness maxine's ig profile is private btw. going for c route first. Mitică is the romanian diminutive for the name Dimitru, and opsis is an ancient greek concept i thought would fit V)

i’m speechless (sentimentally), dear reader 😭 i still can’t believe some people would take the time out of their day to think about my silly little worlds and the characters in it, less of all like how i’ve written my works. every single time i hit a writer’s block or have the whole doxxing trauma flare up again, i think of quitting but it’s the urge to write stories and the joy of sharing it with everyone that is still keeping me going.

i can’t explain how much your words mean to me because this is what i write for. to have people relate to or identify with or adore the world and characters i’ve built is such a dream within itself. from the bottom of my heart, i am thankful for every single reader who has always been nothing but supportive from day one. if elias has his apple, i have y’all. and no, it doesn’t mean y’all can have my meagre inheritance but it’s the sentiment that counts.

to answer your question, every single LIs gender will be selectable! blackthorne hall has individual bedrooms per suite so y’all will only be sharing the common areas and kitchenette with V while having your own personal space. it’s more like an apartment than a usual college dorm tbh.

oh and please, rant away! i’d love nothing more than to hear about your MCs and the various headcanons, questions, or theories you might have!

(also please knock C down a few pegs, they desperately need it 😔)

[faelune-home]

FFXIVWrite 2024 #4: Reticent

(A/n: Originally when this prompt came up, I wanted to write about the twins father and how stuffy he is, but on the day, I didn't have the time or the proper idea to see it through. And now, this deep into the month, I'm so set on adding to the role quest rewrites (and occasionally breaking up with FoM AU to relax) I felt I had to use this prompt for one of those instead.

And I suppose that is a bonus of featuring the Scions, it's also finding ways they relate to some of the role quest cast in ways maybe msq can't dive into. The fact that even deep into EndW, Alphi still kinda blames himself and is haunted by being the cause of the Bloody Banquet could be grounds for a connection with Fordola (While not downplaying that her actions were also much bigger in scale and impact cos actual warzone etc yknow, its mainly about the guilt).

Word count: 790)

Their last meeting hadn’t been on the best terms. She had every right to call him out of course, and he knew that he could try and approach with an open mind to try and bridge the gap. But a stubborn part of him kept putting a damn mental wall on him, thinking it’d be best to keep his distance.

“You’re both a lot more similar than you realise,” Arenvald said, giving Alphinaud a nudge. He finally tore his eyes away from Fordola, sitting off in the darkest spot away from their campfire, just outside Ala Gannha’s boundary.

“Always beating yourselves up for things you did, even if you’re working to do better now,” he continued, trying to offer some comfort with a smile.

“Perhaps,” was all Alphinaud responded, knowing Arenvald had a point. Maybe on some level Fordola’s deeds may have had wider reaching consequences than his own, but letting loose a militia into the world hijacked by a mad man desperate for revolution at any cost was still something that left a severe impact on Ul’dah and the Ala Mhigan revolutionaries that join the group.

“C’mon, I’m sure if you both sat down and tried to talk about it, you’d have plenty to say.”

“Not to be rude Arenvald, but I am here on business,” Alphinaud huffed, not trying to dampen his friend’s enthusiasm, but still well aware of where he stood with Fordola, even if he were to get over the hump of interacting with her in the first place, “Even if we did have common ground to communicate on, I doubt we’d be branching out into stalwart companions afterwards. We’re allies in this fight and that’s it.”

Unperturbed, Arenvald just shrugged.

“We’ve managed to be mates just fine and we’re pretty different,” he said. Alphinaud sighed, but offered a placate smile in return all the same.

“I’d say that’s your own character that makes you so approachable, my friend,” he responded, “And it clearly works on Fordola as well, since you’re the only one that she seems to talk to on a casual basis.”

“To be fair, we were often assigned together on primal slaying duties as part of her rehabilitation before the Silver Griffins. She didn’t really have a choice to get away from me.”

“And yet even with more freedom now,” Alphinaud countered, well aware that ‘freedom’ still didn’t mean much for the woman, “she’ll still turn to you for companionship.”

“I’ve rubbed off on her then,” Arenvald simply smiled, earning an amused huff in reply.

“And hey,” he then continued, giving Alphinaud’s arm another nudge, “even if you’re not exactly going to be mates, I think it’d be good for her to have someone else to lean on. It’s hard enough for her. And maybe it’ll be good for you too, if you’re still giving yourself grief for all of that.”

“I’m mostly past it now, thank you,” Alphinaud said sharply, trying to stop the conversation even as he knew the whole conversation had already dug up memories of that night at the Bloody Banquet and the impact it had on the Scions, even if only indirectly.

Because of his foolish pride, his idea to form the group, a group that pursued them into the night and held a sword to his neck, and led Hydaelyn to summon forth Minfilia into the aetheric sea, and now she’s dead and beyond them–

“I mean it though,” Arenvald insisted, shaking Alphinaud again from his thoughts, “These things always come back to you. I’ve seen it in the other soldiers. Even when you move past it, it comes back like a thief in the night to haunt you sometimes.” Alphinaud just pointedly looked away.

And ended up staring right back at Fordola, still minding her own business.

“She’ll take some time to warm to you, but she’s not as much of a hard-arse as she may seem,” Arenvald finished, finally deciding to wheel away and leaving a quick word over his shoulder that he was off to bed.

As though finally sensing she was being watched, Fordola looked around, on high alert with her hand near her weapon. Until she chanced to see it was only Alphinaud. He tried to offer a friendly wave in return, just to be polite.

And she pointedly looked away, grabbing a blanket from her backpack and curling up into it.

Despite the brief disappointment and resignation he felt, he had to concede it wasn’t the best time to be trying to extend the olive branch. In fact, it was rather late, so maybe he’d be better served trying the next day, after a good sleep. And hoping that the old memories resurfaced during their chat didn’t linger in his dreams.

[ne0nwithazero]

obligatory apology for how many of these i’m going to send HAHA 🏳️‍🌈 👻 🫂 🪢 🖕 😬 for klieg?

Yay headcanons game! And by headcanons I mean it's all canon because they're my OCs :3

🏳️‍🌈 A sexuality headcanon

Klieg is aromantic and gay :) Though I have imagined that he spent many years identifying as AroAce because his interest in romance and relationships was so non-existent it just never even occurred to him.

I feel he always knew he wasn't into women, and that paired with his general anxiety around sexual situations just lead him to take quite a while to connect the dots :)

He's aroallo but shy about it LMAO

👻 A headcanon about what scares them

He is scared of a lot of things, but I feel like one of the things that worries him the most is his whole impostor syndrome and the idea of losing everything he's worked so hard to get. :')

What good is he if he can't do the one thing he's good at?

🫂 A friendship headcanon

Klieg has a hard time figuring out when he is or isn't friends with people. And since he assumes that everyone hates or dislikes him by default, he does tend to be closed and hostile if he sees someone approach with dubious intentions.

His closest friendship is with Mittens as he has spent just enough time with her to be comfortable with her regarding her as Safe. He hasn't really told her this directly, but she can figure out quite easily that he trusts her the most and she wants to make sure he feels comfortable.

He's not very good at showing his appreciation for others, but he'll still try, usually in the form of favours. Like Mitts will happen to need help with something in the cooking channels and Klieg just immediately makes himself available to help her ;;

They're very good friends and I care them so much. 

🪢 A headcanon about their family

Unless in cases like Button and Match, or Tenna, I don't tend to give my darkner characters family members or relatives ^^ They just exist on their own.

I can give headcanons about Klieg's future family though!

I imagine he would be really into making home films with Rouxls and Lancer, and eventually Lava as well!

Someone does have to take the camera from him because he starts treating the films like he's directing a serious movie and that is only cute for so long x)

🖕 A headcanon relating to anger

He's actually not as prone to anger as I've drawn him! He will get exalted and loud when working, but it's usually more out of a "These people only follow my instructions when I'm yelling them".

He is very passionate about his work and interests, and he will express himself in over-the-top ways, but it rarely comes out of a place of anger, only enthusiasm.

If you want to get him mad, you ask about his opinions on movies he hates, or you make him walk into a cinema where people have spilt popcorn on the floor and it's all sticky and gross :) That should get him worked up!

😬 A headcanon about the worst thing they’ve done

Countless dadaist cocomelon-esque movies at Tenna's request have been Klieg's worst cinematic crimes and he'd gladly exile himself if it means he must be confronted about it.

[nnnn99999]

I have been thinking a lot about peaceful property the past few days. One of the things I couldn't understand was why I was not bothered by Pangpang not being that mad at Home. After all, Home was the reason she almost lost her only family member, the reason her beloved brother's career was ruined. Home is responsible for pushing her and Peach to the dire circumstances they are in currently. So why is it that she was not as upset as Peach when they found out the truth about Home? And why did I not feel weird about her reaction? Because normally, I would feel a little ? pop up in my head about stuff like this. So I thought about it, and I realized, it kinda makes sense.

Pangpang and Home are similar in the way they use their loud and boisterous exterior to mask all their vulnerabilities hidden inside, desperately hoping that people will be too distracted by their eccentricities to notice their true emotions. I don't mean to say that Pangpang or Home are not weird and energetic and all that by nature, because they are. It's just that often they use their eccentric nature to hide their insecurities and discomfort. Because Home and Pangpang are so similar in this aspect, they truly get each other. Not just in a superficial "we match each other's freak" kind of way, but also in a "I see you and I kinda get why you're doing what you're doing" kind of way. Without rewatching the entire show, I can think of two instances when this bond between Pangpang and Home was shown very clearly.

The first one is when Home tells Peach about Pangpang trying to overcompensate in episode 4. It might be because I was too distracted by PeachHome being domestic when I first watched it that I breezed past this moment. But the more I think about it, the more I am fascinated by the fact that Home, a random guy that has only known Pangpang for a short time, and who has a very limited capacity for empathy, is the one who notices her behavior and goes "yeah something's up here". While her own brother, the one who is closest to her, and who should supposedly know her best, didn't think anything was off with Pangpang's behavior until Home explained it to him. And even then, Peach was not so sure about it until Pangpang finally exploded later in the episode. I have to mention again, Home does not have much empathy, even for the people he genuinely cares about. He doesn't really understand anyone, including Peach, who he is the closest to in this ragtag family. It is very difficult for Home to look at things from others' perspectives. That leads me to believe that Home relates to Pangpang a lot because he is very similar.

The second one is when Home tells Pangpang to let Peach face Chef Hong's ghost alone in episode 5. Clearly, Pangpang is not comfortable with the idea of leaving Peach alone. She experienced firsthand the trauma and guilt Peach has lived with for the past 3 years. She knows better than anyone how much Peach has suffered. And she knows how terrified Peach is in that moment. As his sister, of course she can't bear to let him face this alone. She wants to support him, she wants to be there for him. And yet, one sentence from Home is enough for her to suppress all her discomfort and leave Peach alone to deal with the whole thing by himself. The amount of trust she puts in Home, a guy she hasn't known for long, in this moment is huge. She really has no reason to put so much trust in Home, especially when it comes to her brother, unless she truly believes Home genuinely cares about Peach and wants the best for him. Let's not forget that Home is their employer, and he threatened Peach to come to this place he is clearly uncomfortable with. Yet Pangpang trusts Home enough to go along with his plan despite being uncomfortable with it.

About the part where Peach and then Pangpang find out that Home was the one who hit Peach, the focus of their conversation was off from the start. The first thing Peach said was "How could he hide this from us? Was anything he did for us even real?" (I haven't rewatched the scene, just citing from memory so this may not be his exact words but it should be close.) So Peach is upset not because Home hit him with a car and left him there, but because Home did not tell him about it. Which is crazy. This man is more concerned about the fact that Home has been hanging out with him and being nice to him not because Home actually likes Peach, but because he is compensating for his past actions out of guilt. (Peach is blinded by love that is the only explanation thank you.) And Pangpang does not see anything wrong with this direction of conversation. (She knows they are in love that is the only explanation thank you.) Her mind doesn't think for even a moment that Home is horrible person for doing what he did. Which is crazy, again. Rather she is more concerned about hearing Home's explanation before jumping to any sort of conclusion. Because she gets Home. She knows Home is not the kind of person who would randomly hit a man and leave him to die. He must have his reasons and Pangpang wants to hear them. I swear Kan is the only person who does not have a love filter on for Home. Home is a shitty person for driving irresponsibly. This should be the focus in this situation first. Then then focus can shift to maybe he is redemable but he is also shitty for hiding it from the siblings. Peach and Pangpang, my dearies, why in world would you totally skip the first part? Love truly does make you blind I guess.

Anyway, this is why I think Pangpang is not that upset with Home. She gets him, she loves him, she trusts him, and she just wants mom and dad to stop fighting and get back together. Maybe the reason I was not bothered was that the siblings themselves were not bothered 🤔.

[xerith-42]

I decided to watch Void Paradox

I'm about five minutes into the first episode and I'm still not entirely sure if this is a good idea or not, but Laurance has already spoken like three lines of dialogue and I felt my heart wrench at just one of them, so clearly I'm in too deep now.

This post serves as my live tweeting/mental break down that I am currently having as we speak. It is very incomprehensible because it is literally just my thoughts as they happen, and given how much I have to say, I'll probably make proper posts out of a lot of these points once I finish the series.

This mess is just giving you a taste of the madness I truly posses.

I am only three minutes in before I have to pause and feel the urge to scream about how bad the dialogue in Aphmau series can be. Like this series is fairly okay, especially based on the standard set by her other shows but man... something is just not working here. The whole thing feels very clunky and while I can get the gist of what Jess is going for, the execution of said gist is leaving a lot to be desired.

[Laurance shows up]

nevermind Laurance is on screen and fully voice acted everything is better

Literally nobody talk to me I need to scream about Laurance Zvahl because he is EVERYTHING in this series. The way he very softly says Aph's name when he sees her, the immediate instinct to hug her because he's so relieved to see her, the fact that you can hear the smile in his voice the minute he registers that she's there and alive!! AUGH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!

And I literally screamed when he revealed that he was transported to this AU right at the end of season 1. Oh my Irene, I screamed. I collapsed. I was truly defeated by a single line of dialogue. I don't know where this series is going to go but I am here for it. And the fact that he knows Garroth did it and hid it from her???

I can't overstate how genuinely healing it is to hear Laurance fully voice acted. I know Sebastian Todd is retired from voice acting, but when he retired, he took down all his posts, including what I considered to be a comfort video. That video of him reading iconic Laurance lines from before he was in mcd/lines he just didn't act? That video was my everything when I was trying to hold onto this version of the character I knew I loved who was different to what Jess made him. When that video got taken down it was a major cowabummer bc there's so little properly voice acted Laurance content that isn't mcd Season 3 or My Street stuff (and I can't stand My Street like 80% of the time)

Hearing his voice, hearing him get to be properly expressive, it's just doing things to me man. I missed this character a lot. I've mostly been enjoying him through fan content or my own work. It's nice to say I enjoy a piece of canon content involving him, at least so far.

Still not sure how I feel about literally anything else. The whole relationship between Aph and Tommy feels very... weird. She describes herself as "basically his mother" after she's left with him, and treats him like it in the opening scene. But then when he's mocking her for being attracted to Laurance (so relatable), it seems really weird for a [checks wiki] 14 year old kid to be calling out his mom for finding someone hot. Feels a lot more like sibling dialogue to me? Which I guess they could be seen as siblings, but the series explicitly stated that she views it like motherhood??? But I don't think Jess is even thinking that deeply about it, I just over analyze her work for fun at this point.

Okay what the actual fuck is going on with the inside of this house???

Why is the color scheme purple and yellow? And not in any kind of flattering way which is possible with opposite colors, it just has both of them. The wallpaper changes when you get into the living room except not entirely on the windows, and in an earlier scene it looked like it wasn't even put onto all of the walls. And the wood that she used as supports just does not compliment either of these colors as they are. Just make it all purple, you know you want to Jess.

Also is the texture on the table and the glass the same??? I don't know a damn thing about modding or making texture/data packs for minecraft but that just seems. odd.

Laurance: mentions the nether Me: [screams just a little]

Tommy: shows up and gives a random ass lore dump Aph: Kay thanks go back to your room

"I don't know what I can do to help."

"Just be there for me. I just need someone to ground me right now."

I literally want to shake Laurance around like a rag doll and give him a stupid kiss on his stupid fucking face UGH why can't I be normal about this block man and his stupid feelings?!?! The way his voice breaks as despair sets in?? The fact that he's no doubt pieced together that Garroth probably stole the amulet and plans to use it to hurt Aph and he can't do anything about it?? I'm literally losing it.

How did I not watch this series before.

Literally about to cry over him just calling Aph "M'lady" out of pure instinct. He didn't consciously do that. He just misses her that much.

oh no spooky evil alternate Laurance or whatever--

MAN I'm so happy I decided to watch this series. This was probably a mistake though :)

[a0wz]

MAWS Thoughts on S2E5

Spoilers Including Pictures Ahead!

TLDR - I wasn't a fan of the way things went. I think there are better ways to execute what happened in the ep.

Relationship Conflicts: Lois and Jimmy

1. I think it's corny to have Clois' "break up" be because of a bachelor's show. Yes, Lois is always questioning her worth and has terrible abandonment issues, but I feel like it could have been approached in a more realistic way.

2. In combination to that, Jimmy shouldn't have to hide from Clark because of the convention when Clark was there seeing how much Jimmy was trying to defend him. Jimmy didn't know they were going to bring out Lex and discus Superman being an problem. He was put on the spot and Clark knows that. Why can't he use the brains he has to hunt down cryptids and make the simple conclusion that Clark wouldn't be upset with him and would even find comfort that his friend was put on the spot and still did his best to defend Superman.

Side note. There are 24 hours in the day, Lois and Clark have phones and know where each other lives yet we are to believe they have found ABSOLUTEYLY NO time to talk to each other???

I make these two main points to propose a different sequence of events that still impacts significant relationships after the attack in S2E4:

After the attack, Jimmy suggests that Superman lays low for a while since so many influential people seem to have been convinced of Superman being an issue. Of course Clark would disagree because he can literally hear and see how bad things can get without him helping out and he needs to be identifiable to his cousin when she shows up. After hearing the assignment being given to Cat, Clark finds out that he is wanted at the Bachelor event and would be happy to attend because it's for charity. The issue is he doesn't tell anyone about it because Jimmy and Lois agreed he should lay low. Lois confides in Jimmy about her job offer in Gotham and he offers to go with her to check out the city because he also is following a story about some mysterious things going on there (this could be a way to hint at some batman related stuff). Jimmy and Lois run into Kara and because they have more than one braincell, they figure out she's Clark's cousin and try to bring her to him. Lois find out from Kara's rambling that Clark set off the beaker without telling her and she's upset with him while trying to understand more about Kara. In looking for Clark they find Superman on the dating show but missed the part where Superman explained he was seeing someone. Lois is even more upset since Clark didn't tell her about it (this would be a genuine asshat move on his part, a real flaw instead of some childish thing) and by how well Superman and Silver are getting along and even how she defends him. All of these things compound into her spiraling and Kara has a bad impression of Clark after seeing how hurt Lois is by him and his actions (the concept of being a bad s/o has to exist on Krypton if they are similar to earth enough to have marriages). Kara flips out on Clark and Lois and Jimmy can't convince her to stop. Clark finds out that Kara is mad and him for hurting Lois' feelings and they fight. Kara takes Superman. END OF EP.

Criticisms of Kara + her being set up with Jimmy.

She looks out of place. I get her design is directly inspired by Android 18 from Dragon Ball but her hairstyle specifically is too anime for the more Western based show and MAKES HER LOOK 14 YRS OLD which leads me to my other point.

2. It's weird that she looks 14 and is being set up with Jimmy who's 23 (wiki says he was born in 01'). It's giving the older caretaker of a uneducated child orphan vibes when he was taking her around the city showing her things instead of a first date vibe the show was going for.

3. How is Jimmy in love with her??? Because she's pretty???? He knows nothing about her and why isn't he freaked out by the fact that it obviously seems like she's never experienced extremely common things like hot dogs and ice-cream. His entire deal is sniffing out weird alien and supernatural stuff so how was the way she behaved not a red flag to him??? Also I feel like her being so naive of Earth's culture plays into her being inappropriately young.

[thenerdnextdoorxo]

may you write something where peter is pranking the whole team nonstop and the others are used to it but reader isn't so she just gets irritated but she tries to keep her cool each time but one day she just gets tired of it and punches him. the team starts to bitch at her but wanda stands up for her.

this was all a random thought i had so i don't exactly know where to go from here uhm if you'd like you can choose how this goes💕

I can relate, my brother pranks me all the time and I hate it lol

You walked out of the avengers tower to your car, you wanted to buy yourself books because you had a long week with missions and paper works. You noticed that the ground was wet and the sky was pretty cloudy so you thought that it had been raining and the front windows of the car had rain drops all over it so you decided to wipe them using the window wipers and when you did, a red color appeared from the wipers.

"what the hell?" You said, walking around the car to see what caused this color to appear. That's when you started hearing Peter laughing from your side. "you should have seen your face!" He said and continued laughing at you and you tried to be nice and laugh to hide the angry feelings you felt because now it will take you forever to clean.

For what seems like forever, Peter had got this habit of pranking everyone. Everyone seemed completely fine with it and actually found them hilarious, but you couldn't bring yourself to feel the same. You have hated pranks ever since you were little because you used to get bullied and all the time so it usually triggers bad thoughts and emotions which take you a while to calm them down.

Every time Peter pranked you, you would just pretend that you are okay with it and try to fake laugh your way out of that situation, but every person has a limit. One day, you got back from college after a long and stressful day and decided to treat yourself with one of your favorite drinks. You walked all the way back to the tower and walked to your room but when you opened it a loud sound came from what seems like the back of the door and you dropped your drink. You looked at the back of the door and saw that it was a airhorn taped to the door.

"Gotcha!!" Said Peter from your side and then you started hearing the rest of the team laugh. You could feel your anger clawing at your chest. An anger that was held for so long had finally exploded. Before you can even think, you punched Peter on his nose. Everyone gasped and Bucky rushed to Peter's side quickly to see if he was okay. All he had was a nosebleed.

"What the hell Y/N?! Why did you punch him!?" Tony exclaimed. "I've had enough!! These pranks should stop!!" You responded. "C'mon Y/N it was just a joke! Why can't you just take a simple joke?!" Everyone seemed to be on Peter's side. Everyone except Wanda. She knew about your past, she was the only one you relied to to open up to. She understood exactly why you were so mad at Peter's pranks, so she stood up for you.

"Not everyone is comfortable with pranks, you know!" She said standing up. "You might be okay with it but she isn't so respect that! Put yourself in her position, what would you do if someone did something to you that you were not comfortable with at all! How would you feel?" All that can be heard was silence. You were so grateful for having Wanda stand up to you because you were about to breakdown crying from humiliation.

"C'mon Y/N, lets go somewhere else," She said, wrapping her arms around you and guiding you outside the tower. You looked at her and tried to give her a smile but you were barely holding back tears. "Thank you Wands, I really appreciate it," You said sniffling. "it's okay, you don't have to thank me, I care about you. Now let's go somewhere where we can spend the afternoon at, okay?" You nodded smiling softly.

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I feel like this was rushed, sorry T-T I hope you enjoyed it though

My requests are open

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[foryoupeko]

I saw someone asking why I labeled something as Peko/Buki even tho I'm a Kuzu/Peko shipper. Other then the fact multishippers exist, I didn't consider that as a Kuzu/Peko comic. Ibuki expressed more interest in Peko than Fuyuhiko.

Call me asexual but I don't think just because Fuyuhiko was close to Peko's hip, it should be considered explicit shipping.

So just to be clear on my stance, I am okay with you ppl labeling my art as any ship but there are some boundaries.

Don't label it with problematic ships like incest or age gap.

If the art is clearly about one couple, don't make it about another. But if it's just a group of ppl chilling then you can find whatever couple you like.

I personally hate Mahi/Peko but I know I'm gonna draw things exploring Mahiru's crush on Peko so that's on me if ppl interpret it that way. Just don't be weird, because I have no quams with never drawing Peko and Mahiru within 5 feet of each other. I've drawn Case 2 ten times and I've only drawn Mahiru once.

I made a list of Peko's relationship with others if you wanna know my stance on her ships.

Hajime -I will never let people forget Hajime has a canon crush on Peko. Besides that, Hajime is Peko's first true friend. Outside of Fuyuhiko, Hajime is the only person Peko feels comfortable confiding in her secrets. He doesn't judge and is very kind. Meanwhile Hajime goes to Peko when he needs a cool headed and rational opinion.

Chiaki - Queerplatonic, they snuggle a lot. Chiaki is chill and her games makes it easier for Peko who has no experience talking to people have things to relate to. Peko understands when Chiaki is emotionless for the most part and then burst into excitement when it's something she's passionate about. They developed their own little language in those situations.

Nagito - Nagito likes to take advantage of Peko’s kindness and clings to her. Peko doesn’t mind hanging out with Nagito but stares dagger into him when he’s being too forward with others (he doesn’t read social cues so he’s not gonna catch it). Nagito thinks of himself as a diet Fuyuhiko. As long as Peko provides support, he'll look out for her.

Teruteru - He's super turned on by Peko but gets flustered when she genuinely cares about him (turns out he does not have a mommy kink). Peko enjoys Teruteru teaching her about cooking so the two eventually bond over that.

Imposter - Peko’s best friend on the island. They both relate to not knowing who they’re supposed to be. At the same time, they don’t see each other as just victims. They’re both people trying to grow and become better. When these two are together some say they're TOO COOL (actually Ibuki is the only one that said this)

Mahiru - Mahiru has a giant crush on Peko. At first she believe she knows what’s best for her and tries to takes her away from Fuyuhiko. Once she accepts Peko doesn’t want her help, she tries to be happy for Peko and Fuyuhiko.

Hiyoko: Is jealous of Peko so she lashes out at her a lot. Originally it was for looking mature/sexy and gardening Mahiru’s attraction. But after she learned of Peko’s past, she’s jealous that she didn’t have her own bodyguard to protect her from the multiple assassination attacks she went through.

Ibuki: Queerplatonic, they kiss A LOT. Ibuki loves seeing Peko awkwardly cheer for her at concerts (imagine Pearl from Steven Universe type of awkward) Peko made Ibuki realize that quiet is okay. Because only when it’s quiet, she can hear Peko’s heart beat speed up. I think they would be a cute fling but these two come from two different worlds. Ibuki is a party rocking planet and Peko is a silent moon. Maybe if the stars aligned they could've made it work. But that doesn't mean you can't appreciate eclipses.

Mikan: Mikan’s ability to read micro facial expressions helps her interpret a lot of Peko’s hidden emotions. Peko likes Mikan but Mikan mistaken Peko’s quietness with secret resentment (she can read that Peko isn’t mad but sometimes mental illness makes you ignore facts). Mikan is had to get close to and Peko doesn't have the social understanding to truly know her.

Gundham: He has adopted her as his own. He feels the need to protect this person on par with his traumatic backstory. She must realize this too, that’s why she keeps flocking to him and his four dark devas. Meanwhile Peko only understands 50% of what he’s saying but she’s trying. Sonia (and Gonta in non despair AU) has to interpret sometimes. Giant Big Brother and Little Sister energy.

Sonia: Sonia is the extrovert who adopts an introvert. Sonia wants to hang out with all her classmates and one of the few who doesn't see Peko cool demeanor as disinterest. Sonia is the only one who can relate to Peko's isolation and only she knows the kind of loneliness that can come with being around others. Peko doesn't realize this on her part and it hurts Sonia. But Sonia doesn't stop trying.

Kazuichi: Scared and aroused by Peko. I head anon one time his trash picking robot accidentally took Peko’s sword and it exploded. Kazuichi was so scared to admit it to Peko but once he did - Peko was more concerned about him than her sword. He’s convinced she’s in love with him and begs Fuyuhiko to ask her out for him. Peko bluntly declines.

Nekomaru - Nekomaru passionately talks with Peko about a lot of things. At first it was Kendo, then it was training, proper diet, and it spiraled into Nekomaru talking excitably about his day. Peko is a good listener but even she can go deaf from all the yelling. Ibuki bails her out sometimes. I think Nekomaru and Sonia are the only people who know how to push Peko out of her comfort zone without overstepping. Ibuki can be too excited in getting Peko to do new things. Hajime and Chiaki doesn't see a problem with Peko doing her own thing.

Akane - The girls bond over being asexual together. No talk about love or mushy stuff. They talk with battle! At least according to Akane. Peko is hesitant to train with Akane because she believes only someone strong like Sakura could handle her blade. Akane takes that as an open challenge and tries to blindside Peko until she takes her seriously. Akane does have to learn boundaries at one point. Maybe the person who grew up in constant danger doesn't want to keep looking over her shoulders in case her classmates attack her.

Fuyuhiko - Ultimately, though everything, this blog will always be a Kuzu/Peko blog. Growing up, Fuyuhiko developed a crush on Peko but never acted on it. Only after a chance conversation with Sakura about what being in love is like, Peko realized in middle school she is in love with Fuyuhiko. By that point their relationship is strained. Fuyuhiko is constantly telling Peko he doesn't need a tool and pretend they don't know each other. Peko doesn't want to be forgotten by Fuyuhiko, this person she spent everyday with. She planned on asking him out, as equals, but then Twilight Syndrome Murder happened. There was no time for love when there was so much hate in his heart. Eventually after everything, the two realizes they need each other. Fuyuhiko only pushed Peko away because he thought she couldn't grow as a person if she was constantly worried about him. Peko realizes she can still care and protect Fuyuhiko as a fellow warrior by his side. These two understand each other so well that they don't need to talk. But this also leads to terrible miscommunications.