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piplupod · 7 months ago

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the reason Juno can be so pleasant and niceys to be around is because me and a couple other chucklefucks back here are taking on the brunt of the less pleasant symptoms that you get when you are abused your entire life by the people who are supposed to keep you safe. if you think Juno's pleasant and kind and soft, it's because some other parts of the brain have to hold all the ugly "bad victim" reactions and temperaments.

I'm just pissed that people who haven't gone through this shit get so shocked and horrified at some really common sentiments among abuse survivors.

#saying ''bro are you okay??'' at a REALLY common sentiment is so stupid #no dude we are not fucking okay!!!#there is no way to BE okay when you have this type of life #the closest thing you get to okay is not wanting to kill yourself for a while and maybe finding a bit of joy during the day #but you still have to live with the knowledge that you will never get that safe childhood. your brain will never be normal #you will just be fucked up for your entire life. there will always be triggers and flashbacks and the chance of you slipping back into shit #even if we get over a lot of things (doubtful) our brain still never got the chance to develop properly. its going to be skewed forever #there's always going to be the chance of you relapsing back into having triggers or seeking out being abused bc its familiar #or other maladaptive behaviours #and i KNOWWW this sounds pessimistic and I'm being a huge downer right now lmfao I'm so goddamn aware #but I'm pissed the hell off at people being so shitty to abuse survivors who don't act all nice and pleasant all the time #not to say we should get a free ticket to being a piece of shit all the time but just like. if we're not hurting anyone... shut up. yknow?#chase on the mic #abuse tw

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