#and how that'll mean taking a sledgehammer to the person i used to be
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> You are encased in the cement that is those you love who love you.
> It protects you. Makes you beautiful. It will immortalize you.
> Your legs are restless.
> You're going to have to move, sooner or later.
> The sun will blind you, at first. The wind will feel like razors against your skin for a time.
> Do you think it'll be worth it?
> Who would choose to become human, over art?
> There will be times where your once graceful shoulders will hunch in pain. Your formerly serene face crumpled in ugly anger.
> You will be so scared to turn around and see the wreckage. Chunks of cement and dust are all that will be left of the statue you used to be.
> Aren't you scared?
#whoah personal#poetry#i guess but also oh god this sucks#idk. im just thinking about who i want to be#and how that'll mean taking a sledgehammer to the person i used to be#and I'm scared that whatever is left after that destruction won't be worth it#that I'll be so much smaller and more twisted than I was before#and I'm also scared that the people who lean on me as i am now will topple and break if i change#what if i look too different underneath. what if it hurts them. what if they leave#destroying a person who based thenself off of the love others gave them is gonna mean rejecting the love i took#all for what? to become something else? to change in ways I can't prepare for yet?#or what if the people who love me are hurt in the aftermath?#i love them too. it's just im always scared that love isn't enough on its own#i cant just be someone who loves them. i need to be someone they love too. someone they need#god who even am i#i dont know who i would choose to be if i ran away tomorrow#thats why i wrote this. i want to run away and start it all from scratch#but im scared to run away. i know itll hurt. would it be good or bad?#this poem is inaccurate because it paints their love as smothering. its not. i smother myself and i dont know why#but its warm and nice and safe#this is also sort of about being trans but thats like. not even half of what this crisis is about#its not enough to just be a daughter. you cant just be a daughter or an older sister or a friend your whole life.#that cant be all of who and what you are. you have to be you above all else and thats fucking terrifying#idk. anyways iput sparkly license plate covers on my work vans 2 months ago and if my bosses find out I'll get yelled at#so i'm going to go take those off now. bye
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We approved our son's plan and he's way past me annoyed by you Trump you're a sucker and you came by and asked for it his plan is to get rid of you and we approved it and we're going to help him run the plan to get rid of you and starting now and you're going to be off and gone thank God and you're going to the race in Portugal and you're going to die in the first race starts on the 20th the second on the 21st and the 3rd on the 22nd and the third is the actual race the first two are qualifiers are you going to die each and every day that you try and get there starting today that bike is in your possession it's in your garage in a different house no it's over with staying and Stan's been ordered to kill your ass she's going to see you in there with carbon monoxide of your own to your dead everyday it's a good job our son would do it too. You're affected my life in a way Trump you're going to leave stan says. And the max say they don't want him in that race for multiple reasons I don't want to take the Japanese on and a boy here doesn't care if we do so he's stuck in this pickle between f****** loser who can put in jail when he wants he's a huge deal out of it cuz he doesn't want to lose sleep or have to beat the guy to death and he wants them in the race to get us set up with that but it might not even do that he says it's true too it doesn't have a massive effects with BMW and other motorcycles but we feel like we should do it Tommy f adds mac daddy says it's true. She was going to sit there and kill me because this race because this tile job. Another confirmation Trump says f****** die how about that Trump for confirmation everybody hates you I don't want you here ever and have you killed every time you try and get here I mean I heard they killed you a few times before you got here and you wouldn't listen...CAA says. And it did die and we saw him die and he came back and he died again and came back went to jail came out died and there he is trying to be the tile guy to mess around with you and yes do the Tommy f and mac daddy who are wimps and can't handle you and because of trump I say this if you leave him alone it's a regular person you doing what you're doing it's going around like a bull he's going to roll your car over with you in it then pull you out and beat you to death and see him saying it too I'm going to push your f****** car over. That'll be a fun day when you walks over and does that and you assholes won't bother him for a week then you start your nini s*** this sucks so bad you're all so stupid, he looks at me right in the eye and says it's Trump's fault you have to avoid him you're harboring him and you're stuck with him and we need to kill him you already had a stroke because of him he already tried to poison me read the time though I had some bugs that needed to go really bite me and they get poisoned I can't believe it it's like with Dan he's getting bit like crazy and so this f****** Trump can go and get bit by all those snakes it's worked up as immunity and someone's doing it probably the max I want to get rid of this f****** piece of s*** I know something else everyone wants to kill you when you keep coming around asking for it these are the people that want to kill you and we're doing it so you stay home trying to read the Lord in jail or you die Stan says
And I'll pay for the work when I can and then try and get this job done here get it out of here cuz it's such a huge pain so things can be someone normal and stan you need it done and we know it yes we don't stan. Mac says.
If you move in next door and you're dead Trump I'm going to hit you in the head with a sledgehammer I don't want you moving in I need to violent it with you and just because I haven't doesn't mean I won't you're piece of dog s*** you're going to be moving out in your characters are going to die
The furthermore get off our channel stuff having a safe stuff in space you're out of here you d****** we're getting rid of you this week is going to get rid of you man I can't stand looking at you dumb dog s*** file a s*** do you want to mess with his lungs I'm going to mess with your lungs you piece of s*** you're going to have your lungs ripped out even have you bite them off that's what your pussies end up doing you hardly have to be affected at All by anything just a little bit of shellac and you're freaking nuts and we can have you do that you coughing up and then you bite it off that's your future like everyday we're going to have some kids running around find your lungs and burn them.
I'm enacting that too in other tortures anyone wants to do in you you're a f****** loser I don't want you near him you keep coming back and saying I couldn't help it so say it will kill you and you die and we couldn't help it every time we have to do it this guy needs it let's go to this area and take him put in a nice big block of concrete in the middle it's for the walled area in the middle it wasn't very crushed buildings I don't care he's a piece of s*** who lives that way and says he can do it with us what he wants we do what we want with this areas so I did that the same time that John rima Lord was yapping in his stupid escalator whatever it is and he started yelling at them because we were doing it he saw it on his phone so yelling more and more a screaming so they're not doing the thing John to read my Lord what's your problem since screaming at our son is yelling his name they get dropped off and said you're not ever going back there you go back there and we're going to arrest you and he's screaming driving away. As you got to take those lips Justin and smash them and continuously do it whenever you see them back. I took his lips Justin said and I hit them so many times that they're never going to smile again.
We're going to take his lips everyday we see him and we kill him every day here in Asia I'm going to continuously burn them and nobody cares they need these people gone and we see why these trumps are the biggest assholes in history his son's trying to survive him and our son is difficult he's a huge moron so go around town and we pick them all up they come out we pick them all up they come out we pick them all up we want them dead so we're making them dead you people should learn from him cuz I can disease he just comes back stronger next time you have to get rid of him and he doesn't say that about many people and slowly narrow down to this one idiot who's doing brain surgery and trying to blame us he's trying to play George and he's trying to blame Tommy f and he's a loser he had it with Tommy f and failed started going around to everyone else and this a****** is going to have him send an aircraft carrier back in time by the way and he's going to mess everything up as it is with Tommy f might die if he doesn't so he's going to do it because it's time he happens he's going to do it because Tommy f beating the s*** out of trump. Wie says. I'm going to beat the s*** out of you ourselves Trump you're not to show up there and there you were breaking all sorts of laws now we're going to call the cops on you cuz you're more or less forced yourself on stan and yeah the first lady former first lady she should divorce you she should renounce you your positions should be gone Trump and people are revoking them all over the world they're saying you're no longer here and they're getting rid of your people and you try and go there and they hold you out it's only a matter of time and you'll be dead and he was used you up to destroy our realm it's pretty clever before you an a****** to him his sister looking at you knowing he can kill you by the way I think he's killed you a few times this is someone new we didn't know that Tommy f says
Everyone knows it too if he kill someone even by accident they're out their brain leaves they just keep doing this s*** that makes it easier we have to get rid of trump we're having a meeting now me and mine other Max are too to get rid of you you stupid f***
Queen gilene
I have to tell you he's kind of an average with you a little but you really one of the princesses and he likes you because you don't like this idiots and he likes to clean too because of that you have all these plans for him but nothing ever goes through cuz theses retards
Hera
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