#and he said (he hadn't even seen me atp so he didn't know what i looked like)

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A Little More on Daemon, Nettles, and Rhaenyra from this last ask

Even though I also have said what I am going to say below many, many times about this thought anon presents, I will bring them up anyway, along with those links jic there are other new people reading from me:

Daemon stayed behind to kill Aemond/Vhagar when he could have run away with Nettle if he loved Nettles so much more than Rhaenyra

how if he wanted to kill her first three boys who aren't his and are before their shared boys in the line f succession, he would have at least tried once and/or he wouldn't have gone out of his way to avenge Lucerys' death through an act that would have always made him "unfit" to be seen as a ruler in his own right to other lords so it could only have been about true love for both Rhaenyra and her first 3 boys...you may argue that this was more out of pride and to hate the enemy, except you'd also have to underestimate Rhaenyra's regard for her own kids and herself as there was at one point where she was angry and kept herself at a distance form Daemon (or seemingly so) after 111 A.C. where he couldn't even be welcomed by her on Dragonstone

how it was Septon Eustace--who hates and twists a lot of shit abt Rhaenyra to make her seem "worse" through stuff and descriptors that are actually not really morally bad but are actually but sexist shit meant to diminish woman (pregnancy weight, throne cut that even Aegon I had atp, Mysaria who Daemon hadn't seen in years and point blank said was a "lying whore" with no demonstration of pretense to the most objective, then-observing maester mentioned in the Dance era, Norren)--who says Rhaenyra "allowed" the "cheating" b/t him and Mysaria...so she never "lost" her beauty or her looks or whatever, Septon Eustace simply said that to diminish her as much as he could...and you yourself, anon, buy into that fatphobic misogyny, so really should anyone trust how you reason things? Relying on misogyny and fatphobia, etc. can indicate low intellectualism or just plain stupidity (fatphobic sexism is closely related to racism as EUs used "fatness" to further impose standards of superiority through their years long processes of colonization but before such, "fatness" or really "thicker" bodies, esp amongst wealthy or nobles, was considered attractive bc it showed how you didn't have to work yourself to the bone to live as luxuriously or have any economic means)

Daemon didn't exist in the first few drafts of F&B/Rhaenyra's story...she was married to Lyonel Strong...Daemon was literally created specifically for Rhaenyra to function as one, if not one of the only, most devoted supporters and family members...yes Daemon and Laena had a good marriage and loved each other, but why exactly does that mean he "hated" the woman he literally died for? Weird.

Then there is this post of an anon who explains to the purposefully illiterate Daemon's reaction to Rhaenyra's letter and how it shows how he def loved her and very likely did not cheat on her. I also mention some of that anon's thoughts abt Daemon and the letter along with others in this post.

These are most of the arguments I and others had for Daemon having truly loved Rhaenyra AND her sons. they have circulated on Twitter and Tumblr for MONTHS now.

It can only be that anon hates Rhaenyra themselves and are projecting, hoping, praying canon!Daemon does as well instead of writing a fanfiction about it.

Even when we're talking about Rhaenyra's treatment of Nettles and how it mirrors Jezebel misogynoir shit--even if we can prove w/o a doubt that this was really Septon Eustace again muddling shit, as he also makes it seem Mysaria "bewitched" Rhaenyra, as he hated Mysaria as well--it'd still be projection. I know some people wish to believe and realize the idea that Daemon didn't love Rhaenyra as a sort of self-comfort and sticking it to the racist/misogynoirist white woman who some might have genuinely experienced in real life (I certainly have), but we really need to call a spade a spade and read with our eyes open.

And the narratively desired man sometimes loves/cares for the woman we hate or judge to be "unworthy" of any sort of love, that's just how it be sometimes.

Daemon loving either Rhaenyra or Nettles does nothing--inherently--to their worth as people. At least it shouldn't...or you'd just be buying into more sexist shit, which I suspect anon is already in as they also try to upset me.

[s3raphinaa]

TW: mentions of an ED and self hatred

kinda intense and very long lmao, a thorough trauma dump

Hi i'm Sera and about a year and a half ago i had a huge fight with my parents because they had noticed my obsession with counting calories and over-exercising. they confronted me about how they caught onto me flushing food down the toilet and my mom started going on about how she hadn't seen me eat anything in 4 days and how my excuse of "water fasting" was starting to sound stupid so i panicked and ran out the house before anyone could stop me. except i was stupid and it was literally 10 p.m and i was walking alone at night as 14 year old girl in tiny pajamas. fast forward, i'm 40 minutes away from home, it's dark out and the streets are empty, i can hear stray dogs barking aggressively in the distance and i'm genuinely terrified. i enter a random Mcdonald's because i don't want to be alone but i also don't want to see my parents. i sit in a corner and i'm just kind of there for a while and then this old man (literally over 60) comes and sits in front of me at my booth (it's like 11 p.m atp). now on this particular night i was not only stupid, i was also naive. this man asks me what's wrong (i had just got done crying and i looked miserable) and i feel like i have a tendency to trust men his age because my own dad is in his 60s (like i have old parents so i kinda tend to trust ppl their age???). i was still really emotionally distressed so i opened up to him and he was actually very kind and comforting. he really validating me and offered to buy me something to eat and i was beginning to trust him (again, naive and stupid). and then i notice how he keeps complimenting me in kinda inappropriate ways and calling me pretty, he even asked me how much i weighed and mentioned how he bench pressed my weight (he was old but looked really strong). this was very validating for me at the time. now i was in a really rough place back then where i really hated myself and thought i was hideous and i would often over-sexualize myself to feel pretty so i kept talking with him and ignored the other things he was saying, focusing on the comfort and validation. and then he gets up to buy me a water even though i said i didn't want anything and that's when i realize this man has a raging boner and i feel my heart drop out of fear and i finally think "okay, maybe i should go home now". and then he comes back and i tell him i should go and my parents will worry (they had been calling and texting but i kept sending it to voice mail, they don't have any trackers on my phone). he asked when he could see me again, i didn't want to be rude because i was scared of what he would do to me so i said something like "oh idk, i don't come here often" and then he asked for my number and i said no. he asked a couple more times and then offered to walk me home. i managed to shake him off and i left to walk home (again, fucking stupid, it's almost one in the morning). and then i realize he's following me and i'm scared shitless. i start taking wrong turns because i don't want him to know where i live and then we walk into a street with a bunch of stray dogs and they start barking at us. he got distracted so i took my chance and sprinted into the cvs the next street over and hid in the bathroom. i finally decided to use my brain and called my dad to come pick me up with his car.

i brought airheads xtreme sour bites and we can eat the whole bag if we want to because life is too short to be afraid of food :)

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Candy bowl for Christmas but with ✨ TRAUMA✨:

Hi I'm Ysabelle/Bella and when I was 4 I was taking a bath with my brother and we're playing peekaboo when he surprised me and I hit my head to our toilet bowl,I had to go to surgery because I slashed the side of my left eye,The Doctors had to stitch it back together and I had thread on the side of my face😀😀,And I Brought Mars bars!!

Your guy's TURN!

@sapphic-soool @shipspainfulships

@ultravioletbrit (anyone can do this so feel free to say your trauma!!)

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the espn review for the trilogy shows just how in the gutter some dudes minds get. ralph is either too skinny or they harp on about how ~obese and old~ he is grrrggfhhh /chews pillow

jfsfkjjdf i can't do it anymore. i just.

1.) the karate kid is supposed to be skinny. that's the whole thing. if they started out with a ripped dude half the premise would make no sense.

2.) ralph in kk3 was never even "overweight/obese" (not that it even matters). to me, it just looks like he was finally going through puberty lol. like he has a small frame in his early years and even in tkk 1 & 2 during his early/mid 20s. but timeskip to '93 when he was in naked in new york (chris my beloved) and he has the frame of an adult. kk3 to me was just the in-between period, like he's just a human person who's growing. not to mention he's like an adorable pissed off kitten in that movie so--

3.) you can't even make an argument that he's old, because it doesn't matter. the man doesn't age and he's a good actor, so why not stick him in young roles? as long as he's not kissing costars that are minors (like they were going to do with jessica until they changed it), i don't see the issue. it's not like grease where they were all 36 playing 16 year olds, ralph looked 15 playing a 17/18 year old, and now he looks 40 when he's 60

i dunno, i'm teetering on getting into a Social Justice Thing because it reminds me of a different thing but i will sum it up to say this: i wish men would leave other non-traditional men alone, they'd leave women alone, and they'd stop trying to spread these one-dimensional beliefs on what constitutes as "attractive". some people are different. the movie is a classic because it subverts tropes/expectations. if it contained the traditional things they wanted to see, people probably wouldn't remember it

[perfectfangirl]

ooo a part three and four! yeah, the joke is kinda that they "yassified" ghouls for the show but then again this could be said for the games, bethesda changed them up and took them in a different direction and even between fallout: new vegas and fallout 4. a theory for the show unifying the lore is great, i have been wondering if lore from the show would effect and/or involve the games more...

oh this is interesting, i think i'm inclined to agree with it too. it would explain so much because as it stands, it's a little vague otherwise why ghoulification results in going feral. i'm not sure i've seen other explanations [besides just the radiation itself] and this one is very good.

yeah, ghoulification is weird because this theory calls into question some other stuff because there's definitely lore on drugs causing ghoulification [no radiation as understood whatsoever and people becoming ghouls well before the bombs dropped] and born ghouls [people being birthed as ghouls and/or experimented on to be born as ghouls]. but i still like the theory because it's such a reasonable explanation and it's not outside the realm of the lore for it to happen, you know

yes ok that ghoul child in the fridge presents a host of lore issues on its own! not sure why he was included or made in the way he was but it turns the idea that ghouls need food, water, and air on its head, it implies multiple things like that the fridge didn't shield him, he survived without food, water, and air and that ghoulification? was what kept him from passing all this time. this also goes for another character that was buried [much like cooper] from an earlier game.

there's a few theories that kinda i guess make it make sense--- much like how how cooper was buried, there's some idea about a type of hibernation. but that still begs the question of how so without the serum. or other human and being alive things one needs for this to make sense. not sure why they decided on this. but then again, there's non feral glowing ghouls, ghouls who turn into trees, and ghouls who may never go feral, perhaps bethesda just likes being a little vague here dkgkdk

yes, when i first saw the show, i furrowed my brow over the serum because it didn't really make sense to me and with the games at first--- i had never heard or seen it and saw people say it muddles the the lore up too. i didn't even realize this! that the ghouls in the super duper mart didn't take any vials and/or didn't need any. nice catch, that's so interesting they didn't. and stuff like this is why i call into question if the serum is forreal or just a scam, because it's got to be on purpose showing mostly only cooper and roger taking the serum and/or the idea that it's not widely known for its healing and/or antiferal properties.

i have seen speculation maybe cooper was involved with some ghoul experiment vault as a theory [would make sense to me atp!]. omg no ok but him having ended up in vault 4 to be experimented on, wow. i hadn't quite thought of this [mostly because the doctors knew him and the vault experiments at least in the beginning seemed to be centered on a very specific type of creature they were making but]. this checks out so much, friend. they would "help" people there before i'm sure and then experiment on them oof

ooo the serum being pre war would be so interesting. there's also a lore discrepancy with various chems like this, some characters claim to have created them at certain points in the timeline that don't always make sense in other games, very interesting to think about with this to me. ok but i do wonder if the snake oil salesman knows what the serum is. and that's why maximus tells thaddeus he thinks he's a ghoul because the serum has some type of healing properties? i don't exactly think it's the same one but who knows, right? that instant healing makes it seem like it is so i get why one would think so. ah, the clinic having it would definitely make it seem like it's pre war, wow yeah. totally right

omg i didn't think of this either [not good at math dglld] so i didn't realize cooper may have met roger as a human. this means the next time he seems roger, his friend is already feral ☹��. see yes ok, i don't think it prevents him from going feral, i think it just staves off symptoms of something else he has going on idk? omg wouldn't that be interesting, radaway [and/or rad x] being the opposite type of solution and then there's this radiation packed serum.

i firmly think thaddeus might be turning into a super mutant but i guess just as well the show could be introducing us to drug induced ghoulification too. i noticed the vials had like, skulls and stuff on them but i couldn't guess what it could mean. i guess it's like almost saying it's poison. whoaaa--- cooper maybe not being radioactive enough? your mind. wait omg, i don't think i realized he didn't trigger the geiger. because... didn't it go off with monty? this would be crazy?? it not going off with cooper? oh it makes me want to rewatch for a third time because whattt

modifying the serum to make it more addictive would explain how i feel about it for cooper's experience with it to me and also unify the possibility it really was doing what he thought it was supposed to do, wow, your mind again! maybe the serum i guess it's a catch 22. taking it prevents ferality in ghoulification but if you stop, perhaps the withdrawals make ghoulification worse or make ferality faster idk... lmao not colander lungs 😭 i was thinking he coughs because radiation [and smoking pre war] done turned them into swiss cheese but. it is almost certain that all them bullets has effected his breathing too omg you're so onto something

ooo i just know bullet wounds [and them healing over, making his body react], ghoulification, taking that serum [then having withdrawals? from it], all that sand, having no nose, smoking pre war, and possibly having asthma or some other respiratory problem is compounding into what we see with him and his breathing and coughing. i think it was with purpose not showing him starting to go feral because ferality is the end stop for all ghouls. they at least want to stave off any true implication of that. i also think they wanted us to notice and figure out what it means, too. because there's so much vagueness and discrepancies, it's making our heads spin ldgldl

starting to see the poetry in moldaver keeping rose all this time in her feral state and the possibility of cooper and lucy forming some type of bond where lucy would theoretically do the same [though i don't particularly think cooper would end game exactly this way at least not in the show] but then i started wondering... just how long was rose ghoulified? i am curious if they'd show moldaver and/or rose flashbacks because a timeline or even just scenes would be interesting to the story. like if rose's ghoulification was fast, i wonder if moldaver was incredibly sentimental and grief stricken and this situation just happened? or was it slow. like most ferality is. and moldaver and rose got to talking. what if rose asked moldaver to keep rose around even... after... as... evidence? i mean lucy got to see all what hank did this way. with verified proof. it's obvious there was sentiment there too with moldaver but... the twist, the exposure of that what hank did was the sharpest revelation, i think. at least the most prominent in those moments... i think moldaver [implied at least to me] loving rose and then keeping her as a feral ghoul is with detailed purpose. i definitely think there's going to be more things similar to this in the show. whether it has anything to do with cooper and/or lucy, i guess the writers will show us in time but i can see parallels being drawn, maybe not as tragic or even as stark. but i do think there will be more than what we saw with roger and rose.