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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 2 years ago

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Me: I'll take a Vyvanse, nothing has ever gone wrong with that. And a quick soda. And a little bit of a shake. Surely today will not give me anything that will make me anxious, to which the stimulants will only make worse.

#thank you Universe #this is exactly what i wanted today #last time i took vyvanse it kept me up for 28 straight hours. but i was tired this morning so i took it again #and it worked. i was doing great. job was going well #and fhen i saw a text from my friend's brother #'when was the last time you hung out with my sister. and did she seem weird?'#i happen to know that his sister is not doing well at the moment. mentally #but i didnt say anything when i saw her!#last i saw her was Sunday #tw ahead for suicide and self harm #when she showed up she had a travel mug full of alcohol. she drove herself. thankfully she hadnt drunk any before she first drove #and she let me dump it before she drove home. but she had full intentions of drinking while we hung out and then driving herself home #and she had fresh cuts on her arms. and talked about killing herself #not in an active way though #or so i thought #no matter what i shouldve said something. all of those red flags. i knew she wasnt safe #so why the fuck didnt i say anything?#her brother texted me that shes in the psych ward rn. safe and uninjured. thankfully #but it might not have ended like that. she couldve killed herself. and i didnt say anything #im friends with both of her brothers. i could have told them my concerns. or her mom. or anyone #but i didnt. and i dont know why #thankfully shes okay. but god my heart is racing. and i feel terrible. getting that first text from her brother was terrifying #he didnt reply for almost an hour. longest hour of my life #but he just texted to ask if id seen any red flags when we hung out. what do i say to that?#'yeah i saw shed hurt herself and wanted to die and planned on driving drunk.'#how can i say that to him? that i saw the signs and didnt say anything?#how do i tell him that i saw she was in danger and i didnt do anything #what kind of friend does that

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