#and barda wanting to reject the traits she's acquired from her trauma while scott doesnt

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something that's been on my mind as of late is the way people see some characteristics (specifically a negative one) of themselves that originate from traumatic events in childhood as somehow interfering with their "true self", and wantning to get rid of it through methods of self help/therapy/etc., but that the attitude itself can easily be a manifiestation of self hatred. like how traumatized does one need to be for their self centeredness to be pathologic instead of simply an aspect of themselves. how wrong are you allowed to be as a person and who draws the line. why can other people be shy or rude or loud or selfish and still be normal while all these aspects are seen as pathological only thanks to a more clear point of origin. when does it become a sport of dehumanization against yourself