#and b.) it wont just be happy ever after now that they're living together even tho I wish it was that easy

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This is a long one !! sorry!! here's some true brothers angst thinking (with comfort at the end) for you guys though <33 (also read the tags after reading this if you do read this maybe cos I go on another mini ramble lmao)

Thinking about maybe when Hanseo and Vincenzo live together in Malta, since all Hanseo’s ever known is getting abused (both physically and verbally) and hurt over any mistake he made no matter how small, he automatically assumes Vincenzo will do the same to him (of course he would, that's what he “deserves”, right?).

So he tests the water with Vincenzo a bit.

To see what Vincenzo’s limits were, what to avoid doing to not get hurt, what the unspoken rules were (after all Hanseok had plenty).

It starts with small things, not tidying up after himself, breaking a plate “accidentally”, leaving milk out to spoil (also “accidentally”).

But Vincenzo doesn’t hurt him.

He helps Hanseo clean up the plate he dropped, checking to see for any possible injuries. He casually tells him to remember to put his things away when they’re all over one of the rooms. He only ever lightly scolds him (it was more a reminder than anything) in a light tone to make sure to not leave out the milk out next time for too long because it’ll spoil, but it was fine, that they could just ask a maid to add milk onto the grocery list.

It both confuses and scares Hanseo.

It meant he didn’t know what would set off Vincenzo, and he couldn’t handle the anxiousness that clawed at him whenever he was around him because of it.

Plus he was apart of the literal mafia, who knew what he and his mafia family (that also lived on the island) would do to Hanseo when angered?? He had seen first hand all of the various ways he toyed with Hanseok, and couldn't forget what Vincenzo had done to him before he joined his side, so who knew what methods he'd use when angered?? He needed to find out what to avoid, and fast.

Vincenzo starts noticing and asks if somethings wrong and why he's been avoiding him, to which Hanseo was terrified (and slightly relieved) that this was when the other shoe would drop and Vincenzo would shout at him or hit him.

But that never happened.

When Hanseo told him nothing was up, that he was struggling to sleep a bit lately so because of that he's just been a quite tired recently and out of it, Vincenzo seems to buy it and offered to get him a therapist, as after all it makes sense he’d be restless after everything that happened not too long ago in Korea. He ruffles his hair and leaves and Hanseo is just left shocked.

Why was he being so patient with him?? Hanseok would’ve hurt him at so many points in this test, why didn’t Vincenzo? (“Any other person would’ve by now right?”)

Was he toying with him? Making Hanseo more and more relaxed around him so that a real punishment would sting more and Hanseo would blame himself for it?

No, he shakes off that thought immediately. His hyung wouldn’t do something like that. It had to be something else.

He needs to know when the other shoe will drop. So he escalates things. Better to know now than fuck up later and have his hopes ruined.

So he keeps “forgetting” to go to his therapy appointments. He “tripped” and broke one of Vincenzo’s prized art pieces, he refuses to move his things or clean up after himself. He goes out to drink almost every day and comes home at like 3am, sometimes blasting loud music when Vincenzo's sleeping.

Anything. Anything for the second shoe to drop.

And eventually, Vincenzo can’t take it anymore, but it didn’t go as Hanseo expected it.

Vincenzo and him get in a huge argument, Hanseo’s refusing to listen (the shoe has to drop now right?) and Vin just exasperatedly like “why are you doing this?” but he isn't shouting at him or upset, just… concerned?

What??

Why wasn’t he mad??

As Vincenzo is asking him to explain why he was being like this Hanseo can’t bottle it up anymore and just bursts out with “because you won’t hurt me!!! why wont you hurt me??? just get it over with and scream at me for screwing up or slap me or anything! just do something so I'm not always anxious around you and... scared everything’s going to- I don’t know, straight up collapse at any moment or something!! just tell me what your rules are!!”

And that's when Vincenzo realises.

Oh.

His heart sinks. Because he now knows exactly why Hanseo’s doing this.

He’s trying to figure out what Vincenzo would hurt him for.

He thinks Vincenzo is going to hurt him eventually like Hanseok did.

Oh.

It takes Vincenzo a moment to process this and it's suddenly silent and Hanseo thinks this is when the other shoe has dropped.

He’s filled with fear once again, but this time it spills over any sort of relief he could’ve gotten at finally “finding out what Vincenzo’s limits were” because Hanseo can’t read Vincenzo’s face right now. He associates that unreadability with the unreadable expression Hanseok would have on his face before hurting Hanseo.

He's bracing himself to get shouted at or hurt so he goes back into Hanseok-mode and takes a step back, starting to cave in on himself as he's about to try to apologise and take back what he just said.

Thankfully, Vincenzo realises this and immediately snaps out of his head to reassure Hanseo. "Hanseo... I'm not going to hurt you... I was never planning on ever laying a hand on you. Ever. Nor was I planning to ever shout at you."

And Hanseo is just.

Stunned.

He doesn't know what to say so he's only responds with a meek "Why?"

For Vincenzo to be like "what Hanseok did to you wasn't normal or even okay in the first place, and you'll never get any of that horrible treatment from anyone again." (Vincenzo will make sure of that).

And Hanseo's just. speechless.

He can't figure out what to say or do so he's just there, starting to tear up like "hyung..."

Because this is when Hanseo realises that for the first time in his life, he's truly, truly safe now.

Because now he has a home, and he didn't just mean the island they lived on, but Vincenzo himself. Vincenzo was home to him, and he was more of a home to him than any fancy villa Hanseo had had before could've ever been.

Yeah, he'll be okay now.

After all, no matter what happens, he has his home to go back to.

[kissmetwicekissmedeadly]

B R Y N

😭😭😭😭???

IT WAS YOU!!! I FEEL SO BLESSED OMG

You already saw my first reaction to receiving this HAHAH but now that I read it. Ohhhh now that I read it.

:)):)) ok how do i point out everything that made me gasp and kick my little footsies as i laid in bed to read this last night . lets try! THE TITLE IS SUPER FUN AND CREATIVE AND I LOVED IT. I HAD A FEELING OF WHERE THIS WAS GOING JUST BY SEEING IT AND IT MADE ME EXTRA HAPPY TO SEE IT COME TRUE! also guess what: the day i received this was, no joke, the last super hot day of this summer (or at least i personally can't imagine the temperatures reaching that high again after they dropped super low now haha) so this amazing coincidence just turned reading the fic into a memory now. it was so easy to enter the atmosphere, you know? 😭😭 i loved the opening scene, i could hear like marching music as sirius handled off the guns HAHA and of course fenrir jumped in to suggest protecting her right away!!! oof he is just so lovely right off the start of this :') the smooth transition to explanation of their dating life! it got me super intrigued and it also makes so much sense for them - that's exactly how i feel like they'd be! bye that drunken confession scene deserves its own fic 😭😭😭😭 shhh it's a fic inside my head! ah, this is truly the type of fic that makes you daydream about the little details that become alive and have so much to think about - my absolute favorite type of fics i'll have you know AAAAA “Our princess said to watch ya back, your highness,” ^^^^ mo is dying SETHIE! of course he is handsome in this as ever!! i simply cannot be mad at his little betrayal HAHAH i loved how you included him in this!!! ray's strategy making is ...hot? im sorry who said that. i just love his serious side and THEN fenrir's response. aaa!! Luka was fantastic as well! You made excellent work of writing everyone plus their battle styles, im amazed at this. it was so animated in my mind i could say the whole fight 😭😭 congratulations of writing such a scene, it seems hard to figure out somehow from a writer's perspective!! you're truly amazing!! the nonchalant way in which mc said the award she planned for fen is killing me. i can't tell you enough how much i love it . them sneaking inside while everyone's busy? top tier smut setting.

“Not my fault you were being dumb and sexy out there.” ^^^^MO IS DYING AGAIN “Oh good, I didn’t miss out on much,”  <- help why am i imaging ray asking "what did i miss" and fen going "this DICK" and then ray saying that JGKHDJKHJK okay but that “We’re just here, getting up to no good.” bryn why are you so good with dialogue . literally gasping left and right at everything they're saying ray referring to his book as his babies is my new favorite thing im 100% making this canon in my head from now on ... this and fenrir being always too loud . it makes perfect sense. i love it.

“I love watchin’ ya both. You look so good together.”

Ray shook his head in protest, pulling Fenrir into the sweaty pile. “No, we look good together.” ^^^bryn im from desktop and it wont let me use the smiling crying emoji pls pretend you see a row of it right here every bit of banter between them was pure gold. i live for this. you did it so perfectly it's always playful in the most loving way and speaking volumes of the wholesomeness of their relationship im crying and. fen pinching ray's butt. wow. what more does a girl need in a fic. this girl here? super satisfied. even the evening is perfect. i don't know what to do myself ever since i reached the ending of this 😭😭😭

BryYYYN Im sorry for this loving word vomit but i couldn't help myself - not only is this fenray x alice, it's by YOU, it's for ME, this is literally one of my favorite fics ever. it had everything i wanted in it and im sure i never mentioned some of these things in my form!! it's just like i put my silly daydreams into a fic making machine or something.... i want to thank you a thousand times for this!!! im gonna reread this over and over again and treasure it forever 😭😭😭❤❤❤❤💗💗💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💞💞💕💕💕 Thank you, Bryn, for this amazing work! Thank you so much!!

Revenge Best Served Wet (Ikémen Revolution)

Pairing: Fenrir Godspeed x Alice (MC) x Ray Blackwell Word count: 5.2k Warnings: NSFW content (threesome, dirty talk, unprotected sex) - you must be 18+ to follow my blog but if you somehow managed to slip by, please do not interact with this post. 

Author’s note: @xxsycamore​ Mo! I was so happy to receive the assignment to write this for you for the Ikémen Revolution gift exchange that @sunnyikemen​ and I were hosting together! This was such a fun piece to write and I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it. Your ideas you sent it really inspired me and this helped reinvigorate my love for Fenray x Alice uwu ~ I wanted to combine your love of summer with the prompts you gave me and came up with this. Thank you for always being so lovely; I always enjoy our conversations and I love hearing from you! 

Autumn was quickly approaching Cradle and although the trees were beginning to droop and the flowers were retreating into the ground for the cold winter season, it was still exceptionally hot going into October. Warm enough that most of the army members still wore shorts and tees when off the clock and Alice wore a slightly hemmed skirt - with Seth’s help, of course - and a less constricting top to the dress.

While everyone was relishing the last few long lasting days of summer, they were still expecting the Black Army to complete their daily training and that meant no slacking off until the boss said so.

Sirius Oswald, Queen of the Black Army, well-known hardass with a golden heart was not one to go easy on his troops. He was always one step ahead of the game, always knew what to do to keep the troops morale boosted high. On this last warm day of the season, there was no difference, he knew exactly how to have them train whilst also relishing in lovely weather mother nature had left them with.

He was walking up and down the troops’ orderly lines, handing each member a water gun with the most serious face one could muster when reaching into a cold bucket of water to hand the next person a brightly colored plastic gun. Sirius hadn’t said anything to any of the members, only the King had any clue what he had planned.

When handing off a gun to the last army member and all of the leaders, a soft smile fell on his lips as his eyes met with Alice and he held out one of the last two guns as an offering. “What do you say, little lady? Wanna join in training today?”

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