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ryderdire · 1 year ago

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thinking about that one time I posted about going to an rally organized by STUDENTS at my shcool. In support of Pro-Choice stuff, out of all the werid anti life retrotic that got thrown around in my notes and the notes going “uhuh r/thathappened” comments what discouraged me the most where the notes going off on me about how I didn’t do “enough” and how it hardly mattered and wasn’t going to change anything. And what that says about how the internet views it.

Looking back I remember feeling so ashamed of myself that I even brought it up or that I wasn’ t doing “more” and how it made me not want to get involved again because the only ways i could where small and “didn’t matter “ because of an situation out of my control that I was (AND STILL AM IN BY THE WAY) in. How people thought it was appropriate to chastise me for not doing enough because of that.

Oh and by the way when I made that post I was 16. So yeah great job guys /sarcasm

#And then because of that I turned down several oppturinties to get Involved again.#I mean there’s other reassons. My parents are still werid about that stuff and it would mean risking having to deal with their bullshit.#It would��ve meant putting myself at risk at either lying to my parents forever or dealing with their abuse for no reason #fuck everyone who came to my personal post about that and got mad at me for not doing enough fuck off I was 16 #okay to rb #honestly I think that’s there’s a discussion here about how we treat young people trying to get involved in actvism but I’m pissed off righ #now and also sleepy as all hell so not now #my situation has improved greatly since then but part of that was because I got so good at not rocking the boat as they say #I’m safe and stuff dw but at the time I just didn’t know for sure if I was? kinda ? like. my parents might have gotten upset #and cut off all internet access and friendship access if they decided I was to rebellious so you know #now that’s just straight up not an issue (mostly because I was almost never rebellious)#and am now 18 therefore theve chilled because it would look bad if they didn’t #this is kinda a bunch of jumbled together thoughts #I might expand or like make a better post later #the first draft of this was unreadable my bad It’s late and I didn’t sleep last night

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