#and also that somehow wyatt rubs me off as someone who cared more despite being an evil asshole

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So, it’s something I’ve wanted to touch on for a while now, and I guess I’ve been putting it off out of lack of the right words, or perhaps not wanting to offend anybody with my own opinions, however I guess it’s time to sum up my bittersweet relationship with Chris-Crossed and personal feelings on the matter of Chris and Bianca.

Before I begin though, I would like to point out I DO NOT HATE BIANCA, quite on the contrary, I ACTUALLY LOVE HER CHARACTER, and I think she had a lot of potential, that kind of went to waste because of at best sloppy writing of Charmed in season six.

Alright, so now when we have that out of the way, let me introduce you to a few points and thoughts I have on this, hopefully making some sense. Let’s break this down.

CHRIS-CROSSED. The reason I have issues with Chris-Crossed is very much mainly the inconsistency with Chris’s writing. Don’t get me wrong, it’s an ongoing issue especially the further the show proceeds ; I am also very aware a person acts differently around different people, and for different reasons. However, with only one episode to showcase a quick look into the reality Chris comes from (which I still love despite everything), I don’t think they made quite sensible choices when it comes to character continuity, seeing as Chris behaves very out of character for much of the episode.

MY POINT. Basically, I didn’t like the way their relationship was written in, resorting to a cheap love interest plot that had the character act ooc. Now, before you get mad at me ; Bianca wasn’t actually, in my opinion, rendered to a cheap love interest  ——  just and episodic character with wasted potential. The love interest was made out of Chris, who up until that point in time expressed clear manipulative nature, very clear-headed, calculated actions, and definite of emotional attachment (which with knowing where he came from makes a lot of sense), however rendering him to this…  lost person who needed love for the humanity factor.

MY VIEW ON THEIR RELATIONSHIP. Now again, don’t get me wrong, I love Bianca. I think she had so much potential, and I think many people would agree with me that she also deserved much better than she got. The thing is, however, with Charmed being very much a 90s family show that paid very little regard towards mental issues, or the characters’ backgrounds, or even the rules of the world that given the circumstances were always different, their story wasn’t really developed in a way that made much sense. That being said, I think it was far more complicated than what we received, as well as beneficial to both sides, with a spark of kindred spirits in very extreme and traumatic circumstances.

HOW I THINK IT PLAYED OUT. Listen, they were both trapped in the world created by Wyatt, with difficult pasts and very little control over their own lives. They both had a part to play, and the beginning of their relationship wasn’t brought by fate, but by Wyatt himself. See, Chris was difficult, resilient, and that’s enough to understand he must have spent at least some time by Wyatt’s side. And Wyatt to somehow prompt his change, decides to send his trusted assassin to turn Chris ; but with Chris already knowing how to survive in this horrible world does him a disservice and instead turns Bianca. Resulting in only ever trusting her, in hiding with her when he was planning his journey to the past. All the way up to a relationship. Keep in mind, it was 100% Chris’s plan because consider sensibly, despite what the episode provided  ——  why would Bianca care with what happened to Wyatt, if Wyatt never did her any favours, and was no family to her.

SOME TRUTHS & REASONING. When you consider where they come from, and what their past is, their scenes in the episode start having more sense, and why what was between them is suddenly more interesting, reasonable, and in my opinion, better.     ——  First of all, keep in mind Bianca was a couple of years older than Chris. She was already a young girl when Chris wasn’t even conceived, which considering the fact it all played out sometime from when he was sixteen to nineteen and onwards, it had to play some part in it.    ——  Given Chris’s past, and everything we know (or don’t know) about him, it’s safe to sayChris was beyond traumatized, and filled with loss, as well as displaying extreme trust issues, and with a good reason. That left very little capacity for love and trust during that time, especially if he had to fend for himself, and his own survival (and I truly believe it was the same for her).    ——  You do, however, need to trust someone sometime, and I think the beginning of everything was Chris deciding to take a risk. I  think especially the beginnings of their relationship weren’t very healthy. I personally believe it was simply a mutually beneficial relationship, with a side of Chris displaying a lot of his (canon) manipulative behaviors, that keep in mind must have been much worse considering the kind of world he lived in.    ——  It’s only from there that feelings grew, as complicated as they were. I think they found many mutual goals, as well as some comfort in having someone in a world in which people like them couldn’t really afford it. I think that was how loyalty shifted from Wyatt to Chris, especially since he made a compelling case ; then again shifted towards mutual loyalty, before feelings started to grow, essentially rendering each other perhaps the only true allies, a warm body in the face of painful loneliness, and soon a makeshift, broken family.    ——  Finally, in terms of engagement, my logic here is much like behind Chris being solely the planning party behind everything, opposed to the way Chris-Crossed displayed. I truly believe that was actually a bit of a desperate move on Chris’s side, and while I also will continue to say he meant it, it was a bit of a manipulative move. I am not afraid to admit my muse being problematic. Now, consider this ; that’s a promise of many things, and above all loyalty. Considering what Chris’s plan was, I am certain he was very aware he would most likely not come back, and especially not to a world such as he left it, if things worked out. There were literally only two options ; he goes back to a changed reality (for the sake of his brother), or he dies. I guess both happened. But if he is leaving her behind, it’s better to leave hope. And that’s why it hurt even more when she appeared in the past. Because it was a betrayal, although understood from the point of knowing who Wyatt was ; but still, a betrayal.

MATTER OF LOVE. Now, we’re coming to a point that I think is the most important to me. I do strongly believe Chris loved Bianca, in his own way, true to his own ability for that feeling. However, seeing as after everything he has been through, his capacity for it was low at best, it was never as easy, as simple, or truly as healthy as it could have been if the world wasn’t shit. I think what Chris valued the most, very much outside of the romantic factors, was the friendship they shared, the fact that as paranoid and unable to trust (for good reasons) as he was, he still had that one person he could trust. That he could turn to, and work with, and finally even find comfort with in terms of emotional, as well as physical support.     Which is also why Bianca’s death truly, genuinely upset Chris on a very deep level, as she remained the last person he cared about to have died on him. I think on some deep level he expected something like that to happen either way, which along with having a lot of practice with people close to him dying (often in his arms), as usual he couldn’t let this bring him away from his initial goal. One which always remained his priority.     Finally, I also strongly believe Bianca loved him a little more than he loved her. As I said, for Chris doing what he went back to do was his main priority, and something he was ready, and did end up sacrificing everything for. Bianca didn’t really seem to have anyone but Chris, but for Chris there was always still that  ——  and of course his brother, who despite doing him no good, being turned evil, and despite better judgement, remained Chris’s only family, and therefore someone he cared about, and wanted to save despite everything.

AFTER DARK FUTURE. Well, this gets a little tricky. I strongly believe their maybe in the Changed Future probably wouldn’t happen. If they met at all, I don’t think (considering their age and affiliation) it would be something that would last. Perhaps they’d grow close, perhaps they wouldn’t, maybe they’d end up together for a while, but I think their story is very much meant to remain in the Dark Future. I don’t think it’s a love that would essentially lead to a long-lasting relationship, and frankly I am more inclined to believe they’d remain close in another way. Or not, but that entirely depends. I also believe that because of my headcanon Chris ends up remembering the Dark Future on his 23rd birthday (aka the day he died in the past),I think he’d rather leave that chapter in the past for both of their sakes.

TO SUM IT UP! I wanted to put this out there, because it’s primarily the headcanon I will always use for myself. It doesn’t at all mean I don’t want to rp with any Biancas or anything, quite on the contrary. I would die to develop this relationship, to explore it, and I am also by no means closing up my options for the endgame part, and definitely not the ship part, it’s just Chris is a very difficult and essentially broken person  ——  and that strongly depends on chemistry that would follow.