#and also i see this rhetoric after every loss i'm tired of it

[pinkcaraz]

ok starting to think that the people on twt blaming it all on carlos' team when he loses and calling for a team change just can't bear to put the blame on carlos. like he isn't a helpless baby, he can make decisions for himself, and when he makes mistakes he can own them. he made a lot of mistakes this match and that's mostly on him. especially when he's losing his head, then really the best his team can do is try to calm him down. i guess w the introduction of the new coaching rule maybe they can give some tactics tips but i doubt it makes much of a difference. saying that they don't do anything but say vamos to him during the match is so reductive and makes it seem like people don't actually understand what's going on in a match 🤦

[separatist-apologist]

Omg wait why are you a book review blog now LOL I love it! What’s your most loathed book that is very popular? (Mine is crescent city)

Anon said- hey MB cancel yourself.

It's Throne of Glass. The whole series. Every single book, even the two I didn't read.

I could talk about my problems with TOG until I die. It is often touted as SJM's best work and I sometime think if I'd started reading when I was like, 14-15, I would have loved Aelin. But I started as an adult, and so I don't love Aelin.

My issues are numerous- the most egregious is that the first three books are not interesting and the fandom knows it. People are CONSTANTLY telling new readers to push through the first three books before it gets good. And I'm tired of this standard of like, suffer to get to well-written content. If you can't write a good FIRST book, your series is bad. Full stop. The first book is where I should have quit, but I knew too much and I wanted to see it all play out.

Aelin is the BEST assassin, teenager or not. We're told this every few pages (along side how beautiful she is gag me SJM), but when we're shown Aelin in action, she has loss after loss after loss. Is she the best? Because I was banging my head against the book like, where is this famed talent of hers? SJM makes EVERYONE the best and then realizes there is no plot if your heroine can best everyone with her eyes closed so she has to lose, but then its like...okay but why did she eat shit here?

Also, I have suffered through so much "Rhys is abusive" rhetoric and that should make Rowan REALLY nervous. I was really excited to meet him since I'd been spoiled and knew he was the main LI. And he is...I mean, again WHAT DO THEY LIKE ABOUT EACH OTHER? Being in the same room DOESNT COUNT. Oh no, the ancient man is sad, I guess that makes it okay to tell a suicidal teenager she should have died. Definitely okay to hit her in the face. And miss me with "they were both bad" because he is an old ass man and she is deeply traumatized. Like oh no, did the teenager say something mean? Grow up. I hated him all through that book, so the shift where shes like, oh hes my mate and now we're in love was just. Okay. Very SJM though so I don't know what I expected.

I never finished the final book and I didn't read Chaols book either. Say what you want about me, but I am a quitter. I was just bored. You know how the series ends. Not to mention the near blatant LOTR plagerism that no one ever brings up but gets emblazoned on t-shirts, as well as like, the inspiration for her plot in a way that feels very obvious.

Like TOG is done, and maybe in its heyday people were with me on this. Let the past stay buried, that's fine. And if people love it, I'm not saying they're wrong for liking it (or liking the main pairing, so much of the art of Rowan makes me question myself). But for me, reading it all at once, it was not it. I don't like it but I WILL be buying the Dominique Wesson dust jackets for my collection so.

[zeezelweazel]

I saw the nightmare scenarios with Beidou, Fischl, and Lumine. Is it okay if I request Ningguang, Keqing and Mona with the same scenario?

Genshin Impact| Nightmare Scenarios | Pt 2 | Pt1

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My first request yayy, I definitely encourage for more but I'd advise you to look at the pinned post first.

Also this is slowly becoming an angst blog and I'm living for it.

I'm sorry if keqing's and ningguang's aren't original lol. The only traumatic experience I can thing of when it comes to them is the fight against Osial.

Characters included : Ningguang, Keqing, Mona

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�� Ningguang •

You were happy to be back at Liyue after months of adventuring.

There have been some unexpected events, like treasure hoarders and abyss mages but you were back with Ningguang.

You woke up in the middle of the night because of the feeling of your stiff muscles.

You turned around in hopes of getting more comfortable so you can sleep a bit more but the sight in front of you made you uneasy.

Ningguang was laying on her back ruby eyes wide open.

"Ningguang, are you alright?"

That was a rhetorical question. Of course she wasn't. You heard what happened while you were on your travels. Ever since you came back at Liyue you have been waiting for Ningguang to open up.

"You know you can talk to me right ?"

"There is no need to talk, dear. What happened was necessary and Liyue is now advancing towards a greater era. I, as the Tianquan-"

"Lost everything you have been working on ever since you were a child. You mean to tell me that after you threw your Jade Chamber, your palace, your home, your pride and joy, Liyue's symbol at the ocean with an ancient god you're fine ?"

Ningguang sighted and closed her eyes but didn't answer your question, so you kept going.

"Have you even slept these past few days Ningguang ?"

"I can't. Today, with you I thought that it would be different but it wasn't."

You looked at her with a troubled and confused expression and waited for her to continue.

"My dreams are filled with the sorrow memories of that night. Every time I close my eyes all I can see is the Jade Chamber falling, as I do nothing but stand there helpless."

"You had a nightmare and you didn't wake me up ?"

"You just came back from your journey. You're tired and I-"

"No. This isn't about me, it's about you."

You felt anger slip into your veins but you stopped yourself. Getting irritated and arguing like toddlers about this isn't going to help at all.

What you did instead was take Ningguang's hands in yours. And as she turned her attention to you, you told her in a quiet but sweet wishper.

"You're not the Tianquan of the Liyue Qixing here Ningguang. Not with me, in our home at Archons know what time of the night. You can be stoic and strong when you face everyone else, I won't argue with that, but please don't be like that with me."

Ningguang looked at you with hesitation, as she studied your face, looking for unfaithfulness perhaps.

When she didn't find anything she closed her eyes once more and you saw the moment her resolve broke.

Tears now flowed freely from her eyes and you held her close as she confessed every feeling and emotion that she had burried down for so long.

After that night Ningguang changed. She was more open about her feelings with you. She too has realized that opening up is actually very helpful.

You were glad that after all the pain, loss and suffering something good came out of the Osial situation.

Of course you felt incredibly mad when Ningguang told you that it was the Fatui who were behind the attack but you did everything in your power not to butcher every single agent you met in your adventures.

And that took an incredible amount of control and anger management.

Ningguang keeps saying that all this piled up anger isn't good for you and you know that she's right but just talking about this isn't helping either.

She just wanted to help you and you appreciated it. She thought that you were giving her too much attention.

Every time she complained or made a snarky comment all you said was :

"That's how relationships work Ningguang. When one is breaking down the other is there to help them. That goes both ways. You can't help me if you're broken so let me help you first, you disserve it. Plus you're stuck with me for as long as you live so you'll have time to pamper me with love. This is a mutual thing that takes time and it's going to be hard but as long as we're together, you have no reason to pretend."

• Keqing •

You and Keqing had taken a commission together. A few ruin guards were spotted at Guili Plains and you had to defeat them.

It wasn't anything hard for you and the Yuheng so you were done by afternoon.

You decided to spent the rest of the night at the plains and go back to Liyue in the morning.

You had some food that Xiangling cooked with you and you set up a tent so you can sleep somewhat comfortably.

You were supposed to be asleep, your eyes were closed, but you were wide awake.

There was something bugging you, but you didn't know what.

Everything was fine. Liyue, and Keqing, survived the fight against Osial. You were taking a break. Going on a fun adventure with your girlfriend.

You opened your eyes when you felt Keqing suddenly sit up on the bed.

She was breathing hard and her eyes were looking around as if she was looking for something.

Or more like someone, because when her eyes laid on your form she lunged forward and hugged you so tightly you were bearly breathing.

"Oh thank the Archons Y/N. You're okay."

If you weren't worried before you are now.

Keqing thanking the Archons? You were sure you'd never heard her talk about them in a positive manner.

"Uuhm Keqing of course I'm ok. Why wouldn't I be?"

She let go of you just enough so you could breath properly.

She leaned back but her hands were firmly positioned on your soldiers as she was still checking your face.

"Another nightmare?"

She sighted and slumbed against you, nodding.

"I would rather not to talk about it now. I'm quite tired."

You stared sternly at her and she fidgeted under you gaze.

"Do you really feel like that or are you avoiding your feelings to be strong?"

"I-I don't need to avoid my feelings to be strong Y/N"

Now it was your turn to sigh.

"I know dear, I'm sorry."

"I can't talk about it now. I feel uncomfortable. I don't want to be exposed in the middle of nowhere, while we're inside a tent."

"I understand. We can talk about it tomorrow."

"Thank you."

Keqing looked like she wasn't going to sleep so you both decided to get up and start heading towards Liyue.

It's been three days since you returned to Liyue.

Keqing kept having those nightmares but refused to acknowledge them and you were way beyond irritated.

Once she returned home from her affairs you told her to come and sit with you on the couch.

"I think you're having night terrors."

Keqing looked blankly at you and then blinked twice.

"You went through something extremely traumatic and you keep having those dreams and I can't do anything to help you."

You didn't wait for her response, as you presented a solution to your problem, even though you were sure she wouldn't be happy with it.

"I think you should consult a therapist."

You closely examined her face and waited for her response.

"If I do that people will think I'm broken and weak I'm supposed to protect Liyue."

"You did Keqing. But will you be able to do it again if you're tired to death? Please, do this for me. I can't watch you torture yourself anymore."

Keqing sighed and looked at you in the eyes with determination, then nodded.

"I will. If it makes it stop."

"Thank you. I may not be able to help you with this one but I'll be your support all the way through."

• Mona •

It's been a while since you came back to Monstadt.

Mona and you kept in touch via letters so you knew everything regarding the strange meteorites and the Fatui Harbinger.

Mona has disregarded your worries about her well-being but you were still unsure about it.

Well unsure is an understatement.

You were convinced that Mona wasn't ok but an astrologer never lets anything get in the way of their pride.

But since you know how much Mona loves these values you decided not to comment on it.

At least not until something out of the ordinary happens.

It was bound to happen but you didn't expect it to be during the noon when you were coming back from some errands.

You walked up to your house but you found a strange mark at your door.

"Uum Mona? You in there?"

"Y/N? Is that you?"

You stared at the door in confusion before answering.

"Yes. Who else could it be?"

When you recieved no answer you called out Mona's name again.

After a few minutes she opened the door. You didn't have the chance to even look at her before she grabbed a fistful of your shirt and pulled you in.

"Mona what in the name of Barbetos is going on?!"

Before you could lecture her some more you got the chance to look at her.

Her eyes were red and puffy and her hands her clenched on her sides.

You gulped nervously as worry overtook your features.

"Mona what's going on?"

You were confused, worried half to death and slightly mad at who ever caused this.

Mona looked at the ground and refused to answer your question.

You sighed and pulled her in for a tight but warm hug.

"Whatever it is you can tell me."

"I'm scared."

It came out as a whisper and you bearly heard it. But it was there.

"Is there anything I can do."

Mona looked like she was hurting, so right now you didn't care about anything else.

"I- Can you protect me?"

You were shocked by this to the point where Mona opened her mouth again to take her statement back.

"Of course I can. I'll always protect you."

Your Y/V glowed from its place in your body like it was agreeing with you.

"That's not what I mean Y/N."

Now you finally understood.

Ever since you and Mona started dating there was always this dynamic between you two.

You both protected each other during battle and when you were safe at home you shared loving touches.

You both sucked with words so communication was something that came from physical touch.

But right now Mona just told you that she needs a different kind of protection.

"I know that this kind of thing is hard for you- for us but..."

"You need it."

Mona looked down and nodded.

She looked so small and frail and oh so different from the Mona you know and love.

The Mona with the confidence that everyone dreamed of having. The teasing smug look at her face making all her enemies fill with rage before they're brought to their knees. The way Mona carried herself was what cough your eyes in the first place.

Seeing her like this filled you with a strange emotion.

You wanted to make things right.

You took a deep breath and realized way too late that you have been quiet for too long.

You felt tears stain the fabric of you shirt.

You took Mona's face between your hands but she just cried harder.

"Mona look at me please."

You waited patiently for her to meet your eyes and when she did you continued.

"I'm probably going to suck at this talking thing but for you I'd melt the ice from Drangonspine. I love you my star and I'll help you find yourself again. Whatever it takes."

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