#and Lithuania gives me almost everything I crave for - it's just that my previous experience doesn't always allow me to take it...

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Rewatching Mamma Mia - and although I still love this movie madly, the tears can't help but dwell in my eyes...

This is all I ever wanted to have: a nice little house with land about which I could have been telling funny stories about my ancestors to my best friends... Childhood friends, who scream happily when we meet each other after a long time no seeing, and whom I can hug and share secrets without being afraid for my family's life and health... My dear mom also being able to share her feelings with her best friends, instead of just keeping all the pain in herself, making me feel absolutely powerless... the family concerts or karaoke nights... I've never been to karaoke, btw! I have a professional opera voice, I performed solo, in the best choirs, on Kyivan Philarmonic's, on other stages - multiple times! and I've never been to karaoke with my family or friends! Isn't it crazy? I wish it was so easy to visit my family... I always wanted to dance and sing freely, with those whom I love.

Mamma Mia 1st part is like a pure concentrated happiness, an unreachable Heaven, which seems I'll never be able to own... but you see, it will work out. Even if some things are irretrievably gone, lost, killed, destroyed, missed - I have the clear idea of ​​what I want out of life and what I don’t.