#and Im gonna be ok someday
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#a clover? a talking clover!?#the rsd and social anxiety are eating me alive lads#and I feel stupid bc everything is FINE#like. Nothing has happened to make me feel this way. Nothing that actually MEANS anything you know?#like yeah ok this was triggered by stuff but nothing that's a real issue#which isnt me minimizing! Its more like. Nothing is wrong. which means SOMETHING must be wrong and I just dont realize it#you get me???#like. everything is fine and dandy and I do not cannot trust that#so the tiniest fuckin things are setting off alarm bells bc I am desperate for anything to justify this terror#but there IS no justification outside of my own trauma#and this is NOT 2016. I am NOT surrounded by those people anymore.#I am NOT a teenager being alienated for coming out and neglected by the adults in my life#I am not on the side of the freeway with my mom anymore#I am safe and I am cared for and I have ppl who genuinely like me for myself#and my mom is gone and she cant hurt me anymore#and Im gonna be ok someday#fuck it. Im gonna be ok someday
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i just wanted to draw the ave mujica outfits .
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#nenekasa#<- i like them.#sorry i like mygo + avemuji but cant make fanart of anything im not Fucking Crazy about normally#had to touch it up digitally because i tried coloring a Pen Drawing in with Watercolor. in earnest.#Everything think the announcements gonna be a new unit. I think that would be hilarious and the worst possible timing#Given where everyone else's arcs are but the miku design looked cute so if its jsut a new game that would cheese me#My tag blabbering... what else ... im artfight slacking. my wrist hurts. course selection is next week. SCREAMS#please pray to God i do not have any 8am classes. PLEASE. my college commute takes over an hour. If i have to wake up at 6am i will k#Oh my God i have to go to the dentist tomorrow too please fucking helpme THEYRE GONAN FIDN AMILLION CAVITIES AND KILL ME. AAAAAHG.#Every time theres another proseka broadcast announced i get scared cause i have so many song covers i want in the game but.#I want to draw them first. So that if they Do get added to the game i cna go HEH... >:)....#Thats whyi did skeleton orchestra emnn and scissorhands rks. I want scissorhands in the game reallybad i love that song#3DMV EVEN PLEEEASE but also nothing can too miumes choreography from like a decade ago i wanna do a cosplay performanc eof it someday...#i ❤️ waacking.#actually the one i Really want to draw is ALSO nenekasa. record red save me. ILL DRAW IT OK
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i cant help but imagine what maybe couldve happened if you werent just an online love ☹️
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You know I think one of my favorite things about Cinder is simply the fact that he's an elemental master with an element that we really didn't get to see a lot of before. And I mean, a lot of the elements from before are ones we haven't seen much from simply because there wasn't a lot of screentime they could feasibly give to the other elemental masters, but I just find it cool that now we have a much more important character with a previously underutilized element that we're able to see in action more.
#random ramblings#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago cinder#i had this opinion before season 2 even came out#and we really only had cinder's design to go off of#but i still stand by it#honestly if they introduced other new characters with preexisting elements#i would be all for it#i also feel like with cinder existing#it also opens the floodgates for people to make em ocs#with preexisting elements#maybe I'll do that someday if i feel like it#i mean i have alumi but they're not related to dragons rising so they don't count#ok im gonna stop rambling in the taga now and go to bed lol
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ghost!toji x reader ….. hmmmm hm hm hm
#THINKING MANY THOUGHTS#one thing abt me is i fucking LOVE ghosts easily the best supernatural creatures ill forever die on this hill#anyway my idea for it is cliche but im weak for it ok 😔😔#reader can see ghosts obviously. and ghosts need to settle their scores to move on properly#but toji is jaded and cynical and refuses to. he meets reader and is surprised they can see him but also doesnt really give a shit#but reader wants to help ghosts ichigo kurosaki style and ends up persuading toji to let them …#just. putting flowers on mamagumi’s grave… making sure gumi has a proper support system . checking up on shiu. etc etc#and obviously toji grows fond of reader because he hadnt realized how lonely he was#so maybe he asks for one final favor — for them to let him stay by their side for a bit longer ..#im also very much imagining this as a roomate au . toji crashes on your couch and you have to listen to his snoring from the bedroom <3333#I JUST THINK GHOST!TOJI IS SO GOODDDDD HE’S SO SAD :(((( but also such a prick#also 100% the type to spook anyone who tries to flirt w reader and theyre like ??? wtf was that for. 🤨🤨 he ignores them .#scary dog priviliege except the scary dog is incorporeal <3333 protects you but like . transparently#need to write this someday#i have a lotttt of trouble imagining toji romantically though like that’s my whole father …#IM GONNA TRY THO !!#ari noises ✩
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I can't art today, my day at worked whupped me too badly but I'm thinking about Wyll thanks to @halsinkisser 😭😭💖💖💖 FUCK me he's just so sweet!!
I think my s/i has always been very sheltered, especially in matters of the heart. She was just so devoted to her studies. She read about love in some romance novels that she kept in secret now and again and always thought it sounded so nice. She just didn't know if she'd ever get to truly experience it herself, that is until she met Wyll! He was just like the princes from her books; kind, brave, chivalrous, handsome. He treated her like a princess when she's only ever been treated like a bit of an oddball before, he didn't mind when she ranted about her interests. Even encouraging her when she got passionate about them!
She definitely fell for him first. Thinking about him at night sleeping just mere feet away from her at the campsite, listening to his anecdotes about his upbringing, his father, his cause.
And to think he was hiding so much pain. She didn't look at him differently when he changed, she didn't cringe at the sight of him. Instead she looked with awe, admiration, even intrigue as she ran her fingers curiously over the ridges and curves of his new horns. She told him they were proof that he did the right thing, symbols of his honor and willingness to accept his mistakes and atone for them. She made him look at them differently. She fell first but he fell HARD for her.
If he was treating her like a princess before he was treating her like a GODDESS now. There's nothing he wouldn't do for her if only she would grace him with her smile, she's his power, his heart, his world. He's her dream, her strength, her knight in shining armor.
#jane journals#self insert talk#🗡 the heart is mightier than the sword 🗡#OURGH THROWS UP#THIS IS CRINGE DON'T LOOK AT IT#im just waxing poetic#wyll makes me wanna do that ajfjgjg its just HE is so poetic with his words#i think she'd match that energy and be just as flowery talking to him too#and lemme tell ya i dont think hes used to that AT ALL 😂😂😂#i still wanna draw that comic idea someday...#ok i die now#im gonna just lay on the couch and listen to my hyperfixation musical sjfjggk
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im gonna say this now cause i might get young followers due to my Roblox Posting but i CANNOT stress this enough that my blog is 16-18+ because while i wont post nsft outright i Will post suggestive stuff Thank You 💛
#SORRY. just had to let u all know what u sign up for with my gay ass#while i cant stop any of you from following me i might have to start blocking someday :(#im gonna put it in my bio too cause this post is gonna get buried when i post new stuff#pn.txt#edit: actually i did post nsft that one time but thats a one time thing ok ? the rest stays on the server
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genuinely really mad at myself for being such a doormat. like i need to get back to therapy but also im being told constantly that its just what i NEED to do its just what FAMILY does its just for a little longer just until the divorce is settled just until she gets this out out her system just until hes 15 then he can be home alone. like i cant say NO because who else will help her she needs help! she appreciates it she just doesnt say it. she says other things instead because shes just stressed out. shes just busy shes just having fun.
#and im not gonna say anything. i cant rock the boat i just have to steady it.#i dont have my own wants or needs. im just here to help like always! i just help its what i do! someday itll be appreciated#OK IM FINE IM SERIOUSLY FINE.
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Oh, I don't wanna grow up Wish I'd never grown up It could still be simple
#the last of us#sarah miller#joel miller#im sorry jess formal apology coming with tears#ok it was gonna alternate between sarah & ellie in THIS video but i need the 'i just realized everything i have is someday gonna be gone'#for game ellie with joel's jacket and im not mixing sarah & ellie PLUS game ellie thats too much work#so ellie gets her own video#plus this kinda matches the vibe of the episode and how it's all sarah and all sarah and them BOOM joel#videos#mine
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truly incredible gig tn atmosphere was stunning and also I was stood almost just behind maybe The most handsome butch I have ever seen in my life im not even exaggerating and they were also there alone (VERY rare at this show) and we made eye contact like twice bc they turned around a couple times and as I was leaving I realised they were suddenly right next to me and then I lost them in thr crowd!!!!! and im kicking myself so fucking hard bc I so badly wanted to catch them just to tell them I've never seen someone so gorgeous in my entire life im stone cold sober btw just completely losing my mind. And there were prolly a couple thousand ppl it was so so busy coming out of the venue and ive already walked half the way home theres no chance I'll find them now but I still keep scanning people that pass me in case it's them. tearing my hair out coughing up blood I'll never forget u come back to me i need to shoot my shot pls.....
#dont know why im feeling so bonkers abt this i almost never feel this intensely abt anyone on sight i didnt even have anything to say#to them ummmmm im not even the kinda guy to ever want to hit on a total stranger openly but oh my god. maybe they didnt even notice me.#and it wouldve been weird to say that to them so its probably for the best but. puts my head in my hands. no one comment i WILL cry#THIUS IS SO EMBARRASSINGGGGGG. but it was such a specific gig its so hard to find ppl my age who like this kinda music#like the crowd was mostly 50+ so they probably did notice me even if it was just on account of thr fact we were some of the v few#ppl in our twenties there..... AUUUGGHHHH and im also hot + butch and was dressed very butchly tn. so. and we DID make eye contact#lord im delirious. okay im normal. no im not falls to my knees. well maybe ill run into them again someday. 🥹🥹🥹#i hope theyre thinking abt me too. ok its sooooo late and im home now and so tired im gonna get changed and go to BED#GOODNIGHT. SORRY FOR BEING CRAZY#.diaries
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the hot topic at the dinner table tonight: grandparents are mad i don't wanna take my driver's license
#like why are you mad im saving you guys 15k#“but someday youre gonna get children and then you wont have a drivers license!” ok well maybe when i want kids#ill think to myself maybe i should get my drivers license#and then do it then when ill need it#im 17 i dont like cars i dont like driving im not getting a car anytime soon so why have a drivers license when i wont be driving#if you wanna make me happy get me an electric cargo bike when i move out
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yeah ok so I caved. Lit up another bowl, opened a new folder on my Obsidian vault, and I'm gonna rewatch the minecraft diaries and I'm going to take detailed notes on everything plot related I can, separated episode by episode, make observations, and then create a little personal wikipedia of my interpretations of the characters as they appear on the show.
I just did episode one to do what is essentially a "am I capable of watching this" test (I feared since it was 2016 youtube that I was into in the year 2016, a historically terrible year for me, that I would have some HEAVILY BIASED ideas on the quality of this show, and that if I rewatched I would ruin it for myself) and I honestly didn't have too hard of a time with the youtube of it all. Cringe is and has been dead, and I'm looking at this like a fun little excercise in studying how this piece of media tells the story it tells.
Speaking of, I find it so interesting how the machinima of Zenix and Garroth kicks us off and we then have Aphmau speaking as like... a comentary youtuber. The machinima sets up a plot that isn't even hinted more at in the episode, too, but I can see the first 10 or whatever episodes having all been recorded in 1 batch all at once and then cut up. I don't recall how characterized Aphmau gets in this whole thing.
And also I find Aphmau doing the voices for Garroth and Zenix so unironically fun and endears me to the series. Idk why but it made me smile!
I'll probably liveblog more of this experience bc I'm incapable of keeping my mouth shut.
#mcd#minecraft diaries#jeremiahs mcd notes#yeah sure#thats a tag now#ill keep track of it#fuck it#lmfao cringe is dead and i need something to do this summer other than fucking work#and also im like kinda studying this in an academic way so im just gonna ride this one out boys#If this becomes a video essay I make someday I called it now ok#I have always deeply desired to be a video essayist in theory but never felt like there was anything i cared enough about#or felt like id be unique enough in studying to discuss#like i love the works of hbomberguy who makes video essays on pretty specific topics#making new original observations#and i felt like i wouldnt be able to do that for anything “worth” covering#but this was a huge social phenomenon that i was part of that i loved#and now we're all grown up#those kids that watched along#and now some of us really like to study the impacts and implications of art created in social/public spaces#like youtube series#listen dude I am obsessed with the dsmp as a social phenomenon#not particularly the content involved as much bc i just don't really like the style of creators#but the way it came about and evolved was so very interesting to me as somebody who likes to analyze the contexts#social historical political etc#of any given media i consume or that gets popular#here i am also interested in the content bc of my childhood love for it#and my inherent nostalgia#but i also am fascinated in the way the youtube space effected the growth of this series#its a whole thing guys#and i would love to document this set of factors that fascinate me in a really long fucking vieo
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take me out toniiiiight
#deltarune#my art#noelle deltarune#susie deltarune#ralsei#deltarune au#triscript#flashing#death mention#ask to tag#i keep making videos with songs i dont even like. damn#i hate the smiths soooo much#the nightcore version is just really funny ok.#btw the two silly creachers are the werewire replacements in triscript i will explain someday#everything that's cringe is cringe on purpose. ok bye#im gonna make the header tomorrow i dont have time lol#epic slideshows 300
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every UK mantis breeder has idolomantis diabolica nymphs rn and it's making me laugh I've hardly seen them for sale since I first decided to look into mantises and now bam. everyone bred theirs at the same time 💀
#axel grinds on#mantisposting#im NOT in the market for an idolomantis bruh#someday i will theyre so fucking cool but they're so hard to RAISE#im still a little baby mantiskeeper ok#i feel comfy going onto some more advanced species now#gimme an orchid or a gongylus gongylodes anyday#(i keep coming back to the gongly boys...google em theyre so shaped)#but i am NOT gonna jump into an idolomantis 😭
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im watching the sonic free riders cutscenes for the first time because idk im bored and im probably never gonna play this game properly and umm . some of the dialogue and characterization in here . It sure is something alright !
#why is amy geting mad at sonic for beating her in a race instead of just letting her win because shes a girl . whatsgoing on#some of the stuff in here is funny though. like knuckles hating on jet#and sonic being like Wow that was a fun race ^_^ cant wait to race you again someday !!!#and jet being like WELL im gonna beat your ass next time just you wait SONIC THE HEDGEHOG and sonic being like Ok 👍#also vector only being here for the money because of course he is#i think this was also the first game that used the current voice cast (its not exactly the same a few recasts have happened since then)#and it shows#not that i think all of them are bad its just clear that this was an earlier performance and they didnt quite have the voices down yet
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DAY TENth I don't have any fursona so here's Tak Brie, my first ever oc/sona I still love her a lot :3
I know I know I missed day 9 BUT I am still in progress of doing it, alongside day 11 I swear they'll both be real
#i need to actually hurry with these im gonna have like ten drawings to do in one day#anyway she's now become her own character and has a cool story#<- im planning on posting about her and kat someday btw#ok art time#cringetober 2023#furry#furry art#tak brie
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