#and I've admittedly never drawn breakdown before..

[entity56]

I've been thinking about it and there are a collection of signs I should have remembered while questioning my kintypes (specifically for my winged satyr kintype):

my lifelong, albeit background, emotional connection to Hellenic mythology and ancient Mesopotamian/Greek culture

constant craving for salt, to the point of just pouring salt into my hand and licking it. as a habit, throughout my life.

constantly craving grain foods (breads/multigrain crust, crackers, etc)

just straight up eating grass?? sometimes when i was younger id just go out into the backyard and eat handfuls of grass

toe walking (ik this is a common autism thing but ive always been kind of uncomfortable with having plantigrade legs, ive been walking around on my toes with my knees bent recently and ive never felt better about my bodily structure)

the actual breakdowns ive had as a kid about not having wings/being able to fly

gender fuckery

lifelong connection to nature and music

laziness.

the admittedly embarrassing habit i picked up as a kid of grunting, pawing the ground and headbutting people who pissed me off (I've weaned off of this as much as possible for obvious reasons but

literally never being able to look in the mirror and be satisfied with my facial structure, even as a little kid before being bullied

the actual memory of being fucking killed as a bystander during battle that I've just straight up Ignored until now

pica. (used to chew on my clothes and eat random pieces of plastic and jewelry, still have a habit of eating paper items today)

never ever being satisfied as a christian, always being drawn to hellenism (specifically aphrodite*)

*ik satyrs are notorious for following dionysus and although i have been considering incorporating him into my worship, i believe that during my time alive as a satyr i instead chose to honor aphrodite

[bartholomewillustrated]

oh my boys... oh my BOYS!!!! it's been so long ;;0;; I fin a l l y got around to reading the issues of Treads and Circuits I had sitting on my to-read pile for Ages and I got blindsided by The Kiss and it brought back a lot of feeeeeeelings for these two Big Bad Booooooys I love them so muuuuuch