#and I'm ngl it's scary. I don't want to be 100% dependent on borderline abusers for my entire life but I literally don't know how to do- | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

mosspapi · 4 months ago

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My mother really likes the rug I'm making for my apartment and said she's genuinely considering commissioning some from me. And like. I seriously deeply appreciate the thought and the fact that she likes it so much that she not only wants one of her own but will pay me for it too, but I don't think she realizes that actually doesn't do anything. "My" bank account is still owned by, managed, and accessed by her and my father. She can put money in or take money out whenever she wants. She sees all of the transactions that go thru it. If she pays me for it she's just moving her own money from one of her accounts to another one of her accounts but this time I know it exists. It's not MY money even if she pays "me".

#tw abuse in tags #idk man I've argued with them abt this like 179447 times and it never goes anywhere #for some reason she thinks the problem is that I don't pay my own credit card bills and not the fact that-#-I literally have NO financial independence and zero financial literacy #like I can't fully explain how entirely dependent I am on them financially. I'm a uni student who's too disabled to work. the only way I-#-can earn money is thru my ko-fi. which is linked to 'my' bank acc. which my parents own and control.#I don't know how to do anything with a bank or money or bills etc. I had to Google how to use an ATM just a few months ago. I'm in my 20s.#I have a lot of cognitive issues and even tho I'm Technically not intellectually disabled I cannot process or understand most 'basic' thing #including anything involving money. and they refuse to teach me even the bare minimum.#and I'm ngl it's scary. I don't want to be 100% dependent on borderline abusers for my entire life but I literally don't know how to do-#-anything else. and it freaks me out #idk man it's just. it's a lot #armchair speaks #tw implied abuse

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