#and I'm here screaming into the void because i can't rant to anyone else without sounding like a broken record

[theangrypomeranian]

me rn

[lordplavis]

A lot of Cishets (especially those not personally confronted with queer issues) just can't handle too much change. Gay men have been more or less part of the public perception til the 70s.

They have been a 'funny' steriotype for so long that they can be showed of publically without looking to dangerous to the established norm.

Lesbians especially butch lesbian have fallen to the sidelines because of sexism and the marketing industry for some reason not known to anyone but the straightest dudes on the planet thinking they can't sell stuff if the woman on their posters don't look like exadurated drawings from a victorian fashion Magazin.

And everything else especially everything fucking with gender in a way that isn't something really really established.

And I'm serious here most gender norm breaking (especially fashion) is stuff that has been done for 50+ years, is not persicuted officially (in some countries) for 30 years and has become more acceptable in the last 10 years.

Ontop of that Media is often trying to show that queer people 'aren't weird they are just like us!'

That's why I think some people feel like showing certain types of queer identity would make the 'good queer people' (those seemingly willing and able to assimilate into cishet society) appear weird and different and not worthy of acceptance.

But what if queer people are weird? What if queer people don't want to conform to the standart social norms that are accepted by the majority?

Those people need to fight the same difficult fight like the 'accepted' queers before them because 'accepting' queer people is often more tolerating them as long as they don't anoy people through existing in ways that makes people have to think

Thanks for reading my spontaneous rant-essay I have an an appointment I'm running late for now but that was worth it for screaming my un-asked-for opinion into the void for two people to read and forget in 15minutes

Lately I'm so pissed because typical media only show pride marches as parties of cis, gay men in leather or drag. I'm missing the presence of Flinta* and diversity. I really start to hate this stupid, unpolitical "gay" "culture" lately.

[midnight-streak22]

Fuck empathy, fuck empathy, fuck empathy!

Why the hell should I be dealing with the sadness, despair and the troubles of everyone else. Walk into a room and here my brother talk about his failing marriage, guess what I'm doing the rest of the night, crying to myself in bed because of what's going on with him. Mom getting angry at something irrelevant to me, and then tries talking to me? Well... guess who just redirected anger that wasn't even his and is sending it toward you? MEEEEE.

And now I'm getting yelled at for being loud, well fuck if I didn't have other peoples anger to deal with, now I have my own, and I'm fucking upset cause I was being screamed at.

Coming home complaining about their shitty job in retail, haha, yeah, that combined with my own shitty former retail job... yup mood destroyed for the rest of the night.

Everyone around me is depressed, in one way or another. So every time I try to beat my own... it comes back like "oh shit, they are hurting, well now you are too".

Been without a job for months, can't even drag myself out of bed to find one or literally do any self care. Feels like I have nobody there for me anymore, sleep schedule is ruined to hell.

Here it is 4:50 in the morning and I'm still here awake. Hoping I can rant my feelings away to the void of the internet. I'm just so done... so very done.

Don't have the foggiest about how to get help, and I don't have anyone in my family I feel comfortable talking too about it and nobody else that can help... anymore.

Been thinking about just giving in and giving up everything, nobody would really pay any mind to my absence anyway. Anything to solve this fucked up mental state of mine......

-Midnight

(Journal thing 10/14/21)