#and I'm SICK of being told directly by people/being implied by my mum that

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Mixed feelings today. I sewed my squares together! Yay!!! It looks a bit crappy in parts, and I'm definitely not going to get it done for Sunday. Which, is making me a little sad, I really really wanted it done for her birthday party on Sunday.

I had food with my parents tonight which was nice! But also, my mum said that once I'm done with this blanket I should lay off the crochet for a bit, because I basically I need to look after the house more. Apparently she can tell that it's not as good as it usually is. Ngl, that's made me really sad this evening. I know that there's stuff in the living room/on the table, and there's spiders in the downstairs bathroom. I know it. But crochet is my time for myself and I've been feeling guilty for doing so much of it lately, and just when I'm starting to feel okay about it, I'm reminded that actually it's not okay for me to spend that much time on myself. :( I know she means well, but it just makes me feel like a failure again. My house is a mess and I need to rein in my joy.

Also sad because I went to show her the progress I'm making on my other blanket and I found that there's a hole/some damage in one of the central squares. I really don't know how to fix it, or if it can be fixed.

I can't think about that too much or I really will cry about it. 😆😆😅

But anyway, one strawberry blanket almost done!