#and I love torturing characters so well sorry buddy but you're in my crosshairs

[midnightwind]

maybe I'm just an angst goblin (I am) but I do wish they had run with the idea of Lucanis being used by Zara as a hyper effective murder puppet

just... showing up to rescue this legendary assassin and having to drag him out bodily because he's a tool put in the wrong hands and he blames himself

Spite is all sharp edges and swiping claws, his only knowledge of the world how to kill and the awful, empty gut wrenching horror from Lucanis about it

"I'm a monster, all I know is death" not even being a vague idea, it's the truth of how he was used by Zara, no torture more exquisite than the bastardization of the job he was born to do

his fight for control with Spite more desperate, more dire because every time he lost control around people, he woke up to a pile of bodies and Zara's glee

being pushed aside when you show him kindness or affection because how could that be real? he doesn't deserve that, he lost the right to that

having to reconcile that Spite never had control either, they were both trapped by the strings, but Spite is a being who knows nothing else, and Lucanis has to try to teach him otherwise

two wounded animals trying to limp to a better tomorrow