#and I dont really connect with destiel but that might be cause sam is obviously my favorite

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Thoughts before I go into rewatching s3 of Supernatural:

I maintain my original thought that Supernatural was generally at it's best conceptually in s1 and s2. The whole demon/angel arcs are a bit much even though Im sure I'll generally like the seasons going forward.

What I remember, from watching this show as a kid, I was generally annoying with Ruby's whole character? And I don't think I'm going to much like her this time around either. I remembered her introduction in the first episode of s3, that's a core memory, lmao. So is that one guy dying by bleach consumption (I have not looked at those the same way since I watched this ep as a kid)

In general, Ruby's existence is probably gonna annoy me. I kinda just loath manipulative and sleazy characters, not all of them, but some really just rub me the wrong way and I'm getting that vibe from my memory of her. Kinda like Shaw from Chuck (the tv series), fucking hated that guy even when he was supposedly on the good side.

I wonder how this season will go into "oh no is sammy gonna turn evil???" Will Sam actually have actions that back up this line of questioning? Or is it more gaslighting an innocent traumatized man? Like, is Sam's "evilness" really just going to be what everyone thinks he should be or is it just Sam getting rightfully angry sometimes?

I wonder if this will be the case of hypocrisy? When Dean gets angry and murderous, he's allowed to be so, because he's Dean and angels watch over him? But Sam has to be a saint, and if he shows even a little bit of anger, then something is wrong with him? Despite Dean constantly laying on the fact that he wont be alive to be with Sam for very long (and let me tell you that fucks you up), so Sam is trying to be more like Dean because being like Dean is the right way from his perspective.

Mind you, I like that Dean actually sees the opposite of what everyone else sees in Sam. Sam is his guide and moral compass. If Sam wasn't there, Dean would be lost, possibly murdering innocent people (by accident no doubt and then maybe not so much). So far, character wise everything makes sense (yes, can you tell I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop? lmao).

I honestly love both the brothers, they're dysfunctional as hell, so far mostly coming from Dean's end, but the codependency is totally a two way street. This is exactly why I loved the show as a kid, and why learning about the other seasons makes me nervous... but Ill get there when I get there.