#an incomplete list because I'm pretty sure I forgot a few

[brown-little-robin]

Regarding your clown OCs: I have zero background in this, but what can you tell us about Thing, Sebastian, and Starshine?

hohoho OKAY SO >:D

I made an explanation post about the world here in case this is confusing, but basically this is a world where when a human clown dies, their clown persona takes on life as a full new person. Clowns are not human, but they're people; they have no memories when they appear, but they know whatever languages their human parent knew, so they know general definitions of most relevant concepts.

ok ok ok THING TIME >:D Thing is my baby darling precious little creature. I'm not playing favorites but Thing is definitely one of my favorites, you know? It does take some background explanation to understand, though, so buckle up:

There are lots of types of clowns in this world. Circus clowns. Party clowns. Medical clowns. Tramp clowns. Mimes. Harlequins. The list goes on. But there's also a type of clown that's a whole other thing, and that's Scare Clowns. Being a scary clown is like being a werewolf but for clowns; any type of clown can become a scary clown if they're bitten by a scary clown. (Ouch!) I haven't got all the details hammered out yet, but becoming a Scare Clown is traumatic and awful and completely ruins your chances of getting a decent job.

Thus, Thing. Thing is called Thing because it forgot its own name. It's been a scary clown for a long time. Its clothes are ratty, its hair is matted, and it eats raccoons. (and other things, but the raccoons thing becomes an in-joke, I think.) It's homeless, of course. It gets rescued and befriended by Rudy, a lovely optimistic birthday clown, and slowly grows more like a person and less like a feral cat. I love Thing <333

(eventually Rudy figures out Thing's gender, I think, but uh. clowns don't have reproductive systems, and Thing referred to itself as an "it" for a while, so Rudy didn't know. and I haven't decided yet.)

Sebastian and Starshine!!

Sebastian is a Pierrot, one of those black-and-white romantic clowns you see sighing wistfully over things with those big black poofs on their front. Do you know what I'm talking about?? oh well, this is going to be long anyway, I'll just give you a picture:

Sebastian had an unusual situation when his parent died. His family, the mother and brother of his parent, kept him with them and tried to get him to assume the identity of his human parent (Jean Sebastian). They thought he would eventually develop Jean's memories. They Were Wrong. But they sure caused Sebastian a lot of grief trying to make him be Jean.

Starshine!! Starshine's parent died as a teenager; she was putting the final touches on the persona and makeup, so Starshine is what's known as "half-baked"—a clown who came from some form of incomplete persona. It's annoying to her—there's a star on her cheek sometimes, but not other times, seemingly randomly. Starshine works in a restaurant (she's a chef) and has a super cheap apartment. That's pretty much economically par for the course for a young clown. The family of Starshine's parent helped her out for the first few weeks, but she wanted to make it on her own and their grief was making her life really awkward?? Anyway, she's currently trying to decide if she can afford a hamster <333 I love her so much <333

[anxious-acushla]

Books I Read in 2019:

***Favorites will be marked with an asterisk. If you’re looking for a book recommendation, let me know what you like to read and I’ll try to steer you in the right direction. 2019 was such a good year for literature! 

Self-Help/Feel Good/Business

Moment of Lift - Melinda Gates

*Traction - Gino Wickman

*The Deepest Well - Nadine Burke Harris

Girl Stop Apologizing - Rachel Hollis

Present Over Perfect - Shauna Niequist

Non-Fiction (Memoirs, etc.)

Educated - Tara Westover 

Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck - Mark Manson

***Say Nothing: A True Story of Murder and Memory in Northern Ireland - Patrick Radden Keefe

*Stay Sexy and Don’t Get Murdered - Karen Kilgariff & Georgia Hardstark

Chase Darkness With Me - Billy Jensen

Becoming - Michelle Obama

Mindhunter: Inside the FBI’s Elite Serial Crime Unit - John E. Douglas

Kick - Paula Byrne

The Other Wes Moore - Wes Moore

Know My Name - Chanel Miller

*Conversations with RBG - Jeff Rosen

*Women Who Run with the Wolves - Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes 

Shrill - Lindy West

*An Unquiet Mind - Kay Jemison

Only Plane in the Sky - Garrett Graff

Fiction

Tattooist of Auschwitz - Heather Morris

Cilka’s Journey - Heather Morris

Ninth House - Leigh Bardugo

The Guest Book - Leigh Black

*How Not To Die Alone - Richard Roper

The Girls - Emma Cline

*The Topeka School - Ben Lerner

City of Girls - Elizabeth Gilbert

*Red White and Royal Blue - Casey mcquiston 

The Only Woman In The Room - Heather Terrell

Turtles All The Way Down - John Green

Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine - Gail Honeyman

Crime/Thriller (Fiction)

*Disappearing Earth - Julia Phillips

The Wives - Tarryn Fisher

The Guardians - John Grisham

*I Am Watching You - Teresa Driscoll 

The Dancing Girls - MM Chouinard

When We Believed in Mermaids - Barbara O’Neal

Girl Last Seen - Nina Laurin

Political (Non-Fiction)

Blowout - Rachel Maddow

A Warning - Anonymous

Fear: Trump in the White House - Bob Woodward

All The Single Ladies - Rebecca Traister

Poetry

*Fierce Fairytales - Nikita Gill

[steamberrystudio]

25/04/2021 Devlog

Hey everyone!

Here is the bi-weekly update for Gilded Shadows. It's coming pretty late in the day because...frankly I just forgot about it. LoL

Summary:

Finished editing Magnus' Route

Finished scripting Magnus' Route

Finished scripting Jack's Route

Edited up to Chapter 8 of Lance's route

Received all the BGs from the last batch

Worked on some sprite additions/variations

The Ramble:

Okay so the last two weeks have been pretty busy!

I finished line editing and scripting Jack's route.

I also finished editing and scripting Magnus' route as well. About 84% of the base game is scripted. I have about 580,000 words in the game now.

I am currently working on editing Lance's route and have gotten up to Chapter 8. After this I will do a final edit for typos and script his route. And after that, it'll be focusing on art and asset coding. Currently the editing is about 90% complete. So...so close to being officially done with writing and editing the base game.

I will probably complete and code assets on a per route basis to break up the monotony a bit. But I'm not totally sure which route I'll start with. I usually work in alphabetical order but Ari's route showcases a lot of side characters. LoL So I may do him later. It's kind of nice to work from least to most in terms of asset needs because usually by the time you get to the "most" end of the spectrum, you've already completed a lot of the needed assets and don't have as many to create.

Speaking of assets, I have worked on some of the main character sprite variations lately. All the main sprites have a lot of different outfit/hairstyle changes but a lot of them are still incomplete so I'm trying to work on them here and there to give everyone their full selection of variations.

I'm also making some minor tweaks to various things just to liven them up a little. There are sooo many outfits to do. Training outfits, body armor, casual outfits…

Morgan has a different casual outfit for nearly every route and needs several additional hairstyles. But I'm trying to get many of these done now so the main cast is set and I only have to worry about side characters.

I can't remember if I mentioned it last time or not but I'm also starting to brainstorm and plan the KS love interests....so yeah!

Sneak Peeks and Previews:

Here's the main cast in a different type of uniform.

And here is Caleb in his training clothes

Upcoming Week:

So in the next two weeks I expect to:

Finish editing and scripting Lance's Route

Start asset coding……*SOMEONE.* I don't know who yet

This will also start me on the path to finishing up the remaining sprites - but there are quite a few side characters so it'll still take a while. (But side characters from here on out only get half-body sprites so that makes it easier)

CGs are still lower on the to-do list since I typically reserve those for after sprites are completed and coded. But I'll continue to sketch out concepts and things like that for CGs. No particular schedule for those, though.

So yeah, that's all for now. Once I get the writing done, I may bring back the progress chart. I temporarily retired it because when I'm focusing on writing that thing just does not move. LoL

But once I move to other things it'll actually be changing between updates.

Anyway I'll see you guys in a couple of weeks!

[creambunnie]

Are you free ?

imagine having a crush on the new part-timer!Seoho.

you worked at a small book cafe in town called ONEUS. it was a chill and cosy place. if there weren't any customers, you would make some hot chocolate for yourself and read an interesting book.

today was different, you were promoted as a senior part-timer as a new one started working today. his name was Seoho. you recognised him as one of the book cafe's regulars.

it was fun having a new colleague. you didn't really like initiating conversations with others but Seoho's adorable aura made you want to approach him.

"how's work so far?". you asked him softly as Seoho placed a cleaned cup on the rack.

he smiled widely as his eyes turned into tiny crescents and giggled. "it's great! i didn't know working at a book cafe would be this fun! it's very calm and refreshing!".

you restrained yourself from squealing at his cuteness and just gave a forced smile as you nodded your head. "that's good to know. if you have any troubles, just inform me alright?". Seoho nodded cutely and carried on with his job.

you had to admit it , after a few weeks of working with Seoho, you began having a slight crush on him. Seoho was hardworking and would always try his best to entertain the customers or help you and the other workers out. sometimes , you would unconsciously stare at him in admiration instead of reading a book on your free time.

you snapped out of your zone as a soft voice interrupted. "hmm,you really love reading books by Takatsuki Sen huh?".

in reflex, you closed the book and looked up to the owner of the voice.

"ye--yeah, they're very interesting. how about you? do you like reading books?". you asked shyly.

Seoho hummed as he rested his head on his palm.

" i like comics more, honestly. before started working , i used to always hang at the comics corner here. and i still do sometimes when i finished my job.". he replied and scratched the corner of his forehead.

you noticed that he would always do the gesture when he felt embarrassed or awkward. which you thought was cute.

"ahh, i see. well, why don't you recommend some comics to me? i might like and dive into them sometime..". you didn't know why you kept talking to him when your heart was obviously beating twice as fast as usual.

Seoho smiled cutely and bit his lips as he thought of some interesting comics to recommend.

"if you like fantasies and actions , Tokyo Ghoul is pretty good, one of my favs actually. if you prefer romance, Last Game would give you all the feels. Kakao 79 is great too but it is still incomplete. if you lik--ahh sorry , i am babbling too much aren't i?". Seoho listed down some comics but stopped halfway as he scratched his forehead again.

you chuckled and shook your head at him. you didn't want him to stop talking because he was too cute obviously.

"no no , i am open to all of your recommendations really, since i'm kind of new to comics.". you tried to comfort him.

you swore you've never seen his eyes sparkled so brightly after he heard your words.

"really? people always shut me off when i talk about comics. i thought you would be annoyed too if i babble too much.". he explained and pouted sadly.

you unnoticingly mirrored his expression as you patted his head. "aww , it's okay. i love listening to your interests!". Seoho blinked and looked at you with an unreadable expression. your eyes widened as you realisrd what you just blurted out.

" i me--mean, you can ta--talk about your interests wi--with me. i uuhm i have some work so talk to you later!". you quickly kept your book and rushed anywhere away from Seoho before you could embarrass yourself further.

-

it's been a few days since the incident and things were back to normal. Seoho would sometimes blabber about a new comic he just finished. most of the time you wouldn't remember a single thing about his storytelling because you were too busy admiring Seoho and his cute expressions when he talks. you especially love it when he scrunches his nose .

one day Seoho suddenly came to you with a worried expression. you turned to him with concern as he tapped your shoulder lightly.

"are you free later after 3pm?". Seoho asked.

your heart skipped a beat. is it finally happening? a miracle? is he finally asking you out?

"yes.. i me--mean no! i actually have plans with my parents later...". you stuttered and almost forgot your afternoon schedule.

Seoho's shoulders dropped as he pouted. "ahh, i thought i wanted to ask you for a favour to cover my shift later. it's okay if you can't . i'll just cancel my plans.".

you blinked at his words. confused. *he.. he was not asking me out?* . you thought and cried on the inside.

"i--i'm really sorry.". you apologised softly . Seoho waved his hands cutely and shook his head. "no no , i shouldn't have made plans during my shifts. please don't worry.". you felt better as he comforted.

a few weeks later,Seoho approached you with a similar expression. before he could say anything, you bowed to him apologetically and held your hands together. "i'm really sorry Seoho,i can't cover for you today because i have plans with my friend.".

Seoho stopped halfway in his tracks and quickly pulled you up from your bowing position.

"oh no no . please don't be sorry. please. ". you pouted and looked at him sadly. his next moves surprised you. Seoho only chuckled and ruffled your hair playfully. you bet your face was beet red as you felt it warmed up at his light touch.

"i said it's okay, didn't i? don't worry too much, okay?". you only managed to nod, afraid you would blurt out stupid nonsense in your current condition. Seoho gave a last smile before going back to his work station.

a few days after, Seoho walked up to you again with a worried face. no it was more of a nervous one. you didn't know but all you knew was that you tried to keep your schedule free so you could help him out.

"ah Seoho! i am free today so you don't have to worry about cancelling your plans again because i can cover for you! i know you told me not to worry but i can't help it an---". your words were cut off when Seoho called out your name.

he stepped closer and held your shoulders to keep you still and stop you from rattling on and on.

your eyes widened at the sudden contact. Seoho must've been surprised at his actions too as he stared at you with wide eyes. the two of you stayed in that position for a few seconds before you stepped back away from him gently. his arms fell on his sides as he stepped closer and covered the small distance again.

"listen. i've been trying to ask you this since the past weeks but i kept on failing. would you, go on a date with me?". Seoho shyly asked but still kept an eye contact with you.

you gulped at his question. you bit the insides of your cheeks to see if you were dreaming.

*is he really. holup. HOLUP. MY HEART IS NOT READY* you screamed in your head as you cleared your throat.

"it's really fine if you don't want to. i totally und--".

"sure. i would love to.".

"re--really??".

you smiled and chuckled at his reaction. "yes Seoho, i would love to go on a date with you.".

Seoho's cute tiny crescent eyes were formed as he lifted his lips into a wide smile.

"that is great! how about tonight ? after i finish my shift. i will text you the details and we can meet up?". Seoho suggested.

you nodded and gave a thumbs up. "that is absolutely great.".

Seoho was about to walk away but you stopped him quickly.

"wait, you've been trying to ask me since the past weeks? what do you mean?".

Seoho cleared his throat awkwardly as he tried to find the words to explain to you.

"uhm remember when i asked if you were free after 3pm? yeah, that was my first attempt. but you had plans with your parents . and so i didn't want to embarrass myself and told you about covering my shift.. the 2nd time i tried , you cut me off by saying that you had plans again. and today is finally the day i had the courage to ask you directly. no more a coward.".

you listened to his long explanation and felt your face warming up again. you can't believe you've been rejecting him and embarrassing yourself all these while.

"ah. i am really sorry . really. ahhhhh i am so stupid. ". you whined as you knocked your head with your fist .

Seoho giggled and quickly held your wrist before you could knock your head again.

"no it's okay. you are not stupid , don't say that. i'm just glad you didn't turn me down this time.".

you gave him a shy smile as he let go of your wrist only to interwine your fingers together.

" and thank you for trying to keep your schedule free to cover for me, that is very sweet of you." he added.

the two of you smiled at each other for a few seconds before he pulled his hand away gently and ruffled your hair lovingly.

"i should go back to work then.". he said. his body hesitating to separate from you as he walked away slowly, as if you were going to fade if you were out of his sight. you nodded your head and waited till Seoho went to the back.

you swore you heard him squeal. you chuckled and after a few moments of processing that everything wasn't a dream, you went back to work too. though it was a bit difficult to focus.

apparently Seoho had been crushing on you way before he worked at ONEUS.

when he started as a part-timer, you did recognise him as a regular.

Seoho became a regular because of you. he was attracted to you the first time he came to the book cafe. although you didn't really do anything special,your every move was flattering to him.

he had been admiring you from afar. he wanted to get to know you but being the shy boy he is, he didn't. so when he saw that the book cafe needed more staffs , Seoho thought it would be a great opportunity to befriend you and at the same time save up some pocket money.

Seoho was excited for your first date and had it all planned out neatly. Seoho really hoped the date goes well and that there will be a next date. Seoho hoped the precious friendship will turn into a loving relationship.

all these while you thought you liked him first. but in actual fact, the cute shy boy liked you first.

.

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a/n : yes. i am a fool for oneus now. esp Seoho TT hope you guys love it! andddd dont forget to check out ONEUS and ONEWE ♡♡

[skybound2]

An update on me

*waves* Hello out there tumblr. Last we spoke I briefly mentioned some annoying MS related troubles that are part of the reason I haven't been around as much lately, and said that there would be more on that later. Well it's later, and I feel like whining, so here's an update.

I've spent the last few weeks dealing with some pretty annoying dysthesia in my hands (and parasthesia in other parts of my body like my torso, face, and feet/legs) thanks to the current MS flare both my doctor and I think I'm having (I finally went and got my MRIs this week, so once those are reviewed we will know more). Here's an incomplete list of the things I currently HATE TO TOUCH thanks to the dysthesia:

My hair

Papertowels

Anything but the absolute SOFEST of soft towels

Anything with "easy gripping/anti-slip" ridges on it, such as: pens, my work cellphone case, my steering wheel...

Jeans

Wood handles (like on my kitchen baking utensils)

My PS4 controller

My laptop keyboard

Beyond THAT I just don't like to hold/touch things for very long atm. And FORGOT about scratching an itch!

Basically, the feeling in my hands is a cross between a constant sensation of "pins and needles"/"being asleep" and a constant sensation of a recently burned area of skin that is starting to heal, where the skin is just tight and sensitive and prickly and in need of being submerged in cold water. (Which DOES feel nice actually! Unlike lukewarm or hot water, which is about as pleasant as a hot tub on the sun.)

So... Yeah. Fun!

Despite all of that, I DID manage to get some baking done this morning. (I wasn't sure how I'd feel about touching dough, and I can confidently say that it's not the worst!) But because I wasn't feeling Experimental, all I made was some scones. So here's a pic of my Lemon Rosemary scones, and my Orange Chocolate Walnut scones. Both of which are yum 😊😊

ALSO, I'm on day 40 of daily German Practice on Duolingo!! And I gotta say, for a person such as myself? That leaderboard incentive is an EXCELLENT way to keep me practicing regularly! So, thanks Duolingo!