#amd now i'm crying at work because i feel so awful and irresponsible about it

[queeriboh]

this is going to sound so stupid, but does anyone have any suggestions whatsoever about how to come up with about $300-400 in a month? I'm. open to anything except taking an actual second job. like does anyone know anything about making/promoting an onlyfans or something? I can't. just keep begging and begging and begging for donations. I want to open commissions again, and I should be able to in about a week, but I know my art doesn't sell well enough to make any real impact. I know it's my fault that I'm in so much debt and can't even afford to just break even on bills/groceries. it's all my fault and I can admit that. but I cam also admot that I'm literally so fucking tired and desperate. I have to go further and further into debt just to be able to drink a cup of coffee every morning. I haven't been eating anything but my sandwiches at work, and either spaghetti or plain chicken breasts, potatoes, and cheap mixed veggies at home, and now I'm at the point I have to reduce that to half a chicken breast. I haven't had a functional windshield wiper in a year. I'm tired and I don't feel like anything will ever ever ever ever get better. I don't want to keep begging for handouts. but I don't really know what to do at all either.