#am i just such a terminal deangirl i'm missing something?

[saving-people-haunting-things]

The thing is that Dean would've been well within his right to ditch Cas years ago but he never has, so Cas' entitlement to Dean's forgiveness and friendship is just ridiculous. Especially since every time Dean's mad at him it boils down to "you should've talked to me." If Cas just stopped keeping secrets and didn't disappear without notice and ignore Dean's calls they wouldn't have problems! Dean's anger comes partly from worry and partly from the fact that whenever Cas ventures off alone he creates a new mess they have to clean up. Mary dying at the end of s14 was just the breaking point, no wonder Dean blew up. And now in 15x08 and 15x09 Dean is being nice and trying to extend the olive branch, saying that he knows Cas is sorry, but Cas is just snipping at him and complaining about the fact that Dean didn't immediately forgive him. How am I supposed to feel even remotely sorry for Cas here?

[aliciaofchitaqua]

intro post

-aka tumblr user @crowmunculus

-fan from 2012-2014, quit in s9 (JUSTICE 4 KEVIN), dragged back in by canon destiel Nov 5 2020 and watched the last two episodes live unfortunately

-nb butch dyke heller with terminal dean-liker disease. deancoded deangirl sun, cascoded casgirl moon

-down to agincourt fixed everything in me that spn broke, please read it

-expect mostly reblogs for now with the occasional tag ramble, because despite thoroughly spoiling myself for everything it's still been a long time since I watched much of the series and I need to rewatch and catch up on everything I missed (like...half the series RIP) before I formulate more original Thoughts

-trying to make more dta posts though because I have Many Informed Thoughts about dta, I'm just allergic to letting people know I exist so bear with me as I slowly emerge from my snail shell of solitude

-I like all of the main characters and I'm just here to have fun. I am cutting canon into little pieces and making neat little collages out of it. if I reblog contradictory posts it's because I am rotating the story in my brain like a cheap snowglobe and appreciating how it looks differently tacky at different angles

-I love spn earnestly and unironically but it also really pisses me off a lot of the time. I contain multitudes

-my primary media special interest is No. 6, a series with a drastically smaller fandom where everyone (everyone!) ships the same canon pair. spn fandom intimidates the shit out of me and I'm shy and awkward but I would still like to make friends 🥺

-the original purpose of this blog was so I could re-find posts I like or otherwise want to find again. ignore that I never fucking tag anything consistently, I'm mostly on mobile and it's faster and I'm lazy. may eventually retroactively tag for at least some things because tumblr search sucks

-at any given point I have a backlog of a couple hundred reblog tabs open because I just live like this, so if I reblog something you posted like a year ago, or do a reblog spree about a clusterfuck from months earlier, that's why

-I'm an adult with a job and bills and I refuse to waste my one wild and precious life arguing about cw shows on the internet