#also yo I'm always free to talk whenever except when I'm sleeping or in a bad mood which I will probably apologise for

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Milestone~¡¡

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OKAY YO I WAS TOO BUSY DICKING AROUND TO BE GRATEFUL SO I'MMA BE IT NOW

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Doods, guys, bros, boyes - lmao I just address y'all by these and I'm so thankful that now I have more bros to love~~¡¡ //and we're all mutuals uwu bc y'all are just the greatest humans ty for existing :3333 (but if I haven't followed you back pls let me know so I can love you uwu)//

+ ik I don't interact with most of y'all and some of you are just too popular for me to be mutuals with like why do you follow me hakshhahhhh but I genuinely love y'all so much I'm just 💞💕💓💖💞💕💝💕 :'3

Anyway I'd like to thank all of you more; I rlly rlly rlly want to do something special for you guys but I'm just jakshaj so unoriginal so I don't know how I can pay you guys back :((

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But I'd like to "end this off" (oh no it only gets longer ^^;;;;) by saying that you're all so wonderful and talented and just such great people.

I appreciate y'all who are/may be (from what i can see):

Daring

Joking

Savage

Compassionate

Empathetic

Inspiring

Serious

Prideful

Kind

Loyal

Cute

Intimidating

Boastful

Vague

Bold

Dependant

Lazy

Shy

Imaginative

Determined

Neat

Short-tempered

Impulsive

Those of you who may be suffering

With a medical condition/disease/illness or with your mental health

Those of you who may be struggling with yourself

About who you are, what you feel or lack thereof

Those of you who don't fully trust,

Who don't like being touched by people except very specific friends or family,

Those of you who have faced traumatic experiences,

Who have chronic nightmares or insomnia,

Who are touch-starved, love-starved,

Abused or abandoned

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Just know that I love you, whether I know you or not

I love you so much and you matter not only to me but to those around you even if you don't see it

You belong here, you have a purpose even if it isn't clear to you right now at this particular moment

Even if you don't find this purpose until the end of your life, even if you regret the past just know that you need that regret, because in some crazy way that regret will help you grow as a person.

And i know that this may seem debatable coming from someone so young, someone with such little experience with the world but I can tell you that this is what I believe. I believe that we will overcome our fears, our hardships and our worries. That we will make it out alive.

And I believe in you.

I apologise that this is so long but my message is heartfelt, and I realise that this is just a blog that in the future may only briefly cross someone's mind before being forgotten. But that doesn't matter to me.

What matters to me, is that while I have my time on this website, that what I do will hopefully help others. Because I really do want to help.

+ Although I know 100 may not seem like a huge number to some people, but when you're on the bottom of the scale, 100 seems like a dream, something unreachable. And I am happy to say I've reached that dream.

Again, thank you all from the bottom of my heart

You're all beautiful and amazing~~💚💚💚💚💚💚

[milf-harrington]

hullo it'sa me-

i am hopeful that today i have enough mental stability to write and therefore reply to you answer to my last ask! which i am happy about!

first I find so incredibly amazing that you're actively trying to learn more about maori culture and such, it must feel pretty good to discover small things and understand more and more your heritage. i am a bit of a language/cultures nerd and tbh i've always wanted to learn more about maori culture as a whole, but well I will never be able to learn about stuff like that as thoroughly as i would want, bc you know, linguistics don't really pay well and I need to support my family aNYways i'm realising that i'm making this about me and that's not what i wanted. i also hope this doesn't come off as weird or rude, if it does, feel free to call me out!

tbh same for the introvert thing but that's pretty obvious seeing as i'm asking stuff on ANON -_-

ohhh it's really super sweet how you talk about being an uncle and your sister! one can really see how much you love being one :)

And i guess there's just something so homely to an old library :)

(you're so artistically developed -can you say that? I can't write anymore yeeee- but really i am amazed)

now i'm kinda curious as to what the purple texta anecdote is 👀

I'm slowly realising that this won't be interesting if i just react to everything you mentioned.

i will just say : for the concert thingy, it really depends on what concert you're attending tbh, so like a chopin recital will obviously not have a bunch of lights -but i know you didn't mean that kind of concert- and sometimes the lights are too much, sometimes it's just right and just adds to the feel :)

i really felt that "didn't feel like a teen/person part" i guess i'm still kinda going through it?(like i don't feel like i exist rn it's weird) but froyo my beloved

i did really like how you answered that question, because well for one I wouldn't know how to answer that, and you made a really cool extended "about" out of it!

i know it might be really annoying to just get my "haha i do that " reactions, and tbh I would maybe be bored if someone replied to things i said about myself just with "yea this one time i-" kinda stuff, so again feel free to tell me to tone it down whenever :)

(also for the astrology thing i've always tried to get into it but everyone says different things about the signs and their meanings so i got overwhelmed and now i can't actually tell you why you would think libra is good 😀 )

(but AnYwAys i accept your proposition let's get married 😊 🌹)

also my heart jumped a bit at seeing the tags wow i've been "my-beloved" -ed

no but really i am sending a lot of love, i also saw that you didn't want to go back inside so i hope everything's as good as possible for you, it sucks, i am sending you lots of love💖💖💖

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hi!

that's awesome! im glad you're doing okay today (:

languages and cultures are really interesting, and if i had a better attention span i'd probably be a lot more motivated to learn. even with maori things, i only spend a few days hardcore learning and then i start getting distracted and the next thing i know it's been several months since i even said a word of te reo. and don't feel bad! i think i say it a lot, but i really love hearing about other peoples lives and stuff so yeah don't feel bad about talking about your interests!!

the purple texta anecdote really isn't that interesting which is why i didn't really explain it in my response but it's basically: my mum put me down to sleep and then everyone was outside, but then when mum came in to check on me she discovered that i'd somehow gotten my hands on a purple texta and there was a baby-height line drawn all the way across the walls, the door, the toilet, and it was filled with scribbles bc i'd tried to colour it in lmao. my step dad had to replace the toilet and sand back the door (:

oooh yeah i get that! i suppose when i think concert, i think big ones like green day and my chem? but i'd probably really vibe with small gig-type concerts, like local shows or something (one of my favourite bands played at a bookstore once)

ah i get that! i hope you're able to feel better soon, feeling not-real fucking sucks :/

i have a forbidden romance w fro-yo 😔 i get major headaches from eating yogurt (except greek yogurt??) so my friends wont let me eat fro-yo anymore- but they will let me eat their toppings, which is awesome bc they always get good ones

no i do the same thing sometimes, so it's okay! it always feels more like a sharing of experiences than a "this is about me now" type of thing, at least to me anyway

(a few people in my life really like astrology, and my aunty, the same one from NZ, is an actual astrologist lmao so i've developed a bit of a deeper love for it bc it's like another little thing that connects me to her!)

(!! married at 18, amazing 🌹)

yeah things were okay last night, i'd just gone to sit outside so i could talk to my mate on the phone and then just,, didn't want to go inside bc there was a nice atmosphere. (i mean i was also avoiding the uncomfortable energy that had built up after my parents argued, but it was mostly for the atmosphere of outside)