#also there's the ones that also name the rest of 1d

[anon-sect]

Request Part 1D

Hi, I love your stories, and I was wondering if you could make a transformation story about socks and/or underwear based on these images here.

deviantart.com/sebleloot/art/Handsome-men-in-socks-1097214222

Tayon woke up the next morning, feeling refreshed and ready to start his day. He remembered the previous night at the club and how he came home with a special pair of socks and underwear. Two of the guys told him their names, but the third didn't. The last one he found rather rude, so it didn't matter if he knew his name or not. As for the other two, he had completely forgotten their names. Honestly, he didn't care if he remembered them. They were just socks to be worn on his feet anyway.

After bathing, he put on his socks and underwear. He stood in the mirror, admiring how he looked. He saw himself as incredibly handsome, but he looked even better in his new underwear and socks. They felt so good on his body. The socks had the right amount of thickness to support his feet which was a bonus. His underwear was tight around his waist, but yet comfortable enough for him to breath. He rubbed the crotch area of the underwear. He knew exactly where he had placed the guy's face at. For being so rude to him, the crotch area will all he gets to see for the rest of his life. That thought put a smile on his face.

Blake was mentally screaming for mercy being wrapped around the guy's foot. Whatever spell he put on him had worn off. Being a sock on a foot was not something he wanted to be. He couldn't move or speak. He was completely immobilized on Tayon's foot. Any motion would be caused by the motion of his owner's foot. He hated that fact. Being stood and walked on was extremely painful. He had never felt such pain before. It felt like huge boulder crushing him without killing him. It was a miserable existence.

Jason was constantly cursing the guy even though Tayon could not hear a single mental thought. He thought it was cruel of him to turn others into just objects for him to wear on his body. He heard about Blake and that he was s sock just like him. All the anger he had made him forget about the crushing pain he was under at the mercy of Tayon's foot. If he could somehow regain his humanity, he would so destroy this guy, he thought. But he was powerless as he was just being worn on foot without a care from the owner who was wearing him.

Alex didn't know how he should feel at the moment. He really should feel disgusted with the guy, but partly he wasn't. He rather found the guy's dick hot. Being so close to it was kind of enjoyable. He thought of a worse fate than being the guy's underwear and it was being stuck on his feet like his friends are. The guy really did look attractive to him, so being stuck as underwear for an attractive guy wasn't too bad so far.

Tayon finished getting ready for his day and went into work at the law firm. Majority of the day, he was usually sitting at his desk going over case information to be ready for court in about two weeks. He would sometimes think about his socks and underwear. All three were former human beings who now exists as his articles of clothing. He honestly wasn't out at the club to find guys to turn into objects, but they were just too tempting not to do it. Now, it really didn't matter their fate. He was liking his new socks and underwear.

Alex found himself enjoying his situation over the course of several hours while Tayon was at work. He finally knew the guy's name after hearing his coworkers and friends chatting with him. It felt somewhat degrading to hear him talk with others at work as though nothing strange was going on. Tayon was literally wearing another person as his underwear and was acting as though he was wearing normal underwear. But it also showed how much Tayon saw him as nothing but property he owned. Even the little bit of musk and odor didn't bother him. He simply absorbed all of it to keep him dry and smelling fresh. His initial anger against Tayon subsided and he found himself wanting to serve the guy who turned him into underwear without his consent.

Jason thought being socks couldn't get worse. He found himself to be so wrong. The dress shoes that Tayon wore to work smelled so horrible. The odor had completely saturated every surface on the inside of the shoe. The Insole smelled the worse. He could feel the indentions of the insole caused by constant wear on his feet. The toe wiggling was even more torture. It was like Tayon was constantly showing him who was the object and who was the owner. He could barely hear the conversations going on up above him. He wanted to call out for help to others to rescue him from Tayon's feet, but he lacks the ability to do so.

Blake wanted to get far away from the odor he was trapped in. The shoe was like being trapped in a smelly prison with no way out. The insole he was pressed up against smelled worse than the rest of the shoe. He mentally pleaded for some release from the odor. He couldn't even squirm to show his discomfort about being socks. He was forced to absorb all his foot sweat and odor off his foot. This new existence was a complete nightmare.

Tayon returned home later on that night from the office and took off his shoes. He sniffed just one of them and turned up his nose. "That smells bad. Good thing I wasn't trapped in that." He commented about his shoe and then smiled. The thought entered his mind that two former humans were trapped in there all day while he was just working and chilling with his coworkers. He pulled off his socks and smelled them. They reeked of his foot odor, but was amazed at how dry his feet were. "You two truly are the best socks I ever had." He spoke to them. He checked around his waist and discovered the same thing. His matching socks and underwear were just perfect. There was no way he could let them go now. He had to keep them as his property. In fact, he thought he should collect more matching socks and underwear. "I can always use more human transformed socks and underwear." he spoke to his socks.

Blake and Jason mentally cried for mercy, knowing they were powerless to change their fate. Alex was in bliss as he loved being around Tayon waist and up close to this cock. He actually enjoying his new life as Tayon's underwear.

[rememberingliampayne]

Dear Liam,

I don't even know where to start. Life feels as though it has stopped, and I am stuck in this endless void. I have shed more tears than the drops in the ocean. I wish you were here right now so you could see just how much love the world has for you. I'm so so so sorry you left thinking that the world was against you. I'm so sorry for the endless harassment that was bestowed upon you. I wish you were here so I could tell you that you were too precious for this sad, cold, bitter world. The people who sat behind their screens making you feel less than will have their day of reckoning, I promise. I also promise that for as long as I shall live, your music shall fill the rooms of my house. Pictures of you will dance around in my head free of charge. Videos of you and your bandmates will forever be saved on my phone. I promise to play "For You" as the song for my first dance, and if God blesses me with a son, his middle name will be Liam. Oh, if only you knew how happy it made me when you would smile, truly smile, and the corners of your eyes would crinkle up. Though I never met you I knew from your pictures that your smile could light up any room you were in. Liam, you were far too young, talented, beautiful, and rare and to be gone just like that. Never being able to attend a 1D concert is the one thing that I will have to regret for the rest of my life. You loved Niall, Harry, Zayn, and Louis; all you wanted to do was get your brothers back. Do not worry, darling; I will make it happen for you! Thank you for sending us the clouds and for letting us know that you are at peace. Thank you for loving us unconditionally and without expecting anything in return. Thank you for putting out music. Thank you for continuing to step out into the limelight even though you were hurting. All I want to do is give you a big hug and tell you that it's all going to be all right. Liam, darling, you're home. The legacy you are leaving behind for your son is a great one. He knows you loved him soo soo much! He is going to grow up and brag to all his friends and say this: his dad was 1/5 of 1D! I love you, and for as long as I shall live, I will never forget how you and how you saved me. I just wish that I could have saved you, too.

[srldesigns6277]

As the day has gone on, I keep thinking about my 1d concerts. 2015 was a hell of a year to see them live, especially in NY.

Just before my first concert, Liam had been receiving hate. Being called every name under the sun for things he apparently said. The Attitude article.

It was a fun energetic but slightly solemn concert due to the events around that day. Liam kept playing around and being silly. Bringing Louis, and Niall into chaos and fun. Even getting silly with Harry too. Even the Bears showed support for Liam that day, it was RBB dressed as Batman.

By my second concert it was the last one of the US tour, ever. Niall's Birthday, and Liam is amping up the birthday celebrations reading signs left and right all mentioning Niall's day. Louis and Niall also kept messing with him. I think Liam changed his clothes like 4 times that night. By the last time, the boys were all like "Where'd Liam go, again." Taking the piss out of him, but having fun. He was the first join in Niall's Act My Age stomps, even prompting Louis and Harry to join.

It's been a wonderful ride.

Rest in Peace Liam ❤️

[mychampagne-mybubbles]

Liam Payne Funeral • Amersham • 20.11.2024

Some say 🦇 this sign was used in the boys’ car to be identified by security, others say every car attending had this identification as a tribute.

I find it very sweet either way, maybe its part of their legacy from the 1D days, in times where my heart feels heavy for everything that we have witnessed since Liam passed this adds a bit of warmth.

I want to point the attention at the fact that paps and journalists present at Liam’s funeral are being the main source of very specific details, just to name a couple:

Batman as an identification

The intention of not capturing the boys together behind the arrival on stopover

Not taking not publishing pictures of Bear

This is for me the public closure, the exchange for privacy (who knows if, when and where), meeting the expectations, protecting anonymous and vulnerability with the light of the fame, etc. and as such it was outlined and agreed upon previously to avoid discomfort.

Also, by knowing how the resting spot of very public figures in the past (Lady Di, Freddie Mercury, etc) have never been disclosed (for many coherent & security reasons) I could totally understand that this is how his closest circle has decided to go with it.

I can only hope that, further from what we have seen in the media, this family had the chance to say their goodbyes in the best way they and Liam wished.

Finally, sharing a tiny thought about the boys’ role this day, they are in the end our closest attachment to the sentiment and therefore the ones we can feel (or imagine) like finding some sort of connection with in this situation… how being the front faces must have been so hard.

[fortunatelyseveredreamland]

What a week…

It’s so weird to be back here. I am sad I deleted my blog so many years ago and forgot what it was even called. I knew I’d come back eventually if something big were to happen. Never thought this exact thing would be the reason.

I was at work on Wednesday when I found out. My hands immediately shook and my heart sank. I couldn’t wait to leave to get home and be able to know more and mourn. As soon as I got in the car, I started crying.

It’d been such a long time since 1D took up this much space in my brain. It feels like a lifetime ago, sitting on tumblr from night to morning. Rewatching the video diaries and music videos millions of times. Making my friends and followers one shots and photoshopped texts. Plastering my entire room with posters from every magazine I could find. But somehow, it also feels like yesterday?

It felt weird to have my mind immediately transport back to being in my room and only caring about the boys. Sleepovers with my bestie revolving around their music.

I don’t think I have ever loved something as much as I love One Direction. The feeling of hanging out with you all and loving the boys so very much. I wish I could feel that way right now without the overwhelming amount of guilt.

I had to come back here with a brand new account and feel this community’s embrace again. The only people that will ever truly understand this feeling. And I’m so glad I did. While everyone is speaking how they feel, they are also sharing old posts, and funny ones. Ones that make all of the good memories come rushing back like a rough river. It’s like I never left. And in some way, I don’t think I ever truly did. I left my heart on this website and in One Direction and now I feel like there is a part of my soul that is never coming back. But maybe in due time, he can live in that void for the rest of time.

I have seen a lot of posts about inner child. But to be honest, I don’t think my inner child is crying. My full adult self is crying. The part of me that would spend all of my life savings on a ticket to an ot5 reunion. The little girl inside of me left long ago, but the adult 27 year old woman who has nothing to look forward to now feels like she’s actively dying inside. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. They were supposed to live until they were 90. It’s just unfair and too soon.

I’d like to say that I hope all of you are doing well. This is the first day since the news that I haven’t been a full puddle of tears, but I also keep waking up and hoping this is a nightmare. I took a shower and blasted take me home. I cried a little bit it was cathartic. It made me feel that all of those memories are worth so much to not only me but to the boys and their families.

I’d like to round this off with my letter to Liam.

Hey Leeyum,

I miss you like crazy already. Which pains me to say because I could’ve been a more active fan for you in the last few years. I knew what had been happening, but always felt like you were going to come out on the other side, stronger. I wish we all could’ve saved you.

Thank you for being you. Thank you for writing songs that helped me through my teenage and early adult years. They still do. Thank you for making us laugh. Thank you for making us proud. I know you wouldn’t want us to wallow in sadness for you. You’d want us to talk about the memories.

The boys love you so much and I hope you knew that. There was no One Direction without you. You were the glue that held it all together. You deserved more public love than you were ever given. I just hope you know how much the 1D family cares and loves you.

I’m so sorry this was the way your story ended. You deserved so much more than life gave you. I will love you until the end of time, sweet boy. <3

I love you all. Please take care of yourselves. I plan on sticking around a while. Hope to see more names that I recognize on my feed.

[foxes-that-run]

Where do Broken Hearts Go?

WDBHG and four overall has a 80s sound. WDBHG sounds like a Belinda Carlisle's Heaven is a Place on Earth, both are anthemic 80's songs. In this video is the Spotify visual, TV Special, Four Hangout and when Harry changed the lyric to "Will you ever F*** me again" in Sydney 8 February 2015. It refers to I Love You which Harry wrote under a pseudonym and included lyrics from Taylor's Red.

When was it written & who with

Harry wrote WDBHG with Ruth-Ann Cunningham, (who later wrote No Control and on Niall's solo album) Teresa Geiger (Little black dress), Ali Tamposi and Julian Bunetta. It’s likely it was written over a period of time (December 2013 - May 2014) with these collaborators rather than all in one day with all these people.

7 December 2013, London, seems to be the day shown in the Spotify visual, based on clothes.

12 March 12 to March 25 2014 Teresa Geiger, posted pics on him being in a studio in LA and Harry was in LA and has lunch a 21 minute drive from the LA studio it was recorded at (Dojo Studio). (it was also recorded at Wendyhouse London) This also close to when JALBOH and Stockholm were written.

On 8 May 2014 One Direction record Change your ticket in Fasano Hotel, Rio De Janeiro which is credited in the booklet. The TV Special shows Harry recording WDBHG there (2:25) but the hotel is not credited so that version is not the final vocals, or they used an earlier one.

It was announced 10 November 2014 and Niall says it is his favorite in the Four Hangout and Harry says thank you.

Lyrics

[Verse 1: Niall, All] Counted all my mistakes and there's only one Standin' out from the list of the things I've done All the rest of my crimes don't come close To the look on your face when I let you go

The theme of crimes (stealing, kidnapping)

So, I built you a house from a broken home Then I wrote you a song with the words you spoke Yeah, it took me some time, but I figured out How to fix up a heart that I let down

Home theme, Harry refers to home often. Here the is broken between him and the muse and the muses home. At this time Taylor parted with her publicist who cited her parents fighting as an issue.

The song with the words you is “I love you” performed by Alex and Sierra:

[Chorus: Zayn, All] Now, I'm searchin' every lonely place Every corner, callin' out your name Tryna find you, but I just don't know Where do broken hearts go? Where do broken hearts go?

Lonely is a theme of Harry’s work. Harry is searching everywhere for this person, drawing imagery of how far Harry was travelling, as if always in search of this person.

[Verse 2: Liam, Harry, All] Yeah, the taste of your lips on the tip of my tongue Is at the top of the list of the things I want

Harry was seen wearing the outfit in the Spotify visual on 7 December 2013, this first line (taste of your lips is top of the list) reminds me of Christmas, when what do you want from Christmas was a common 1D interview question.

Mind is runnin' in circles of you and me Anyone in-between is the enemy

Circles refers to the theme of round again, a cyclical relationship. The only other circular lyric of Harry’s is ‘same mistakes’ which also refers to mistakes. Here like in Same Mistakes Harry is singing to a muse with an on/off relationship that keeps coming back. And in A.M ‘swimming round in our glasses’. Taylor has also posted about cycles and the winding wheel.

Anyone in between is the enemy refers to people others coming between them.

Shadows come with the pain that you're runnin' from Love was something you never heard enough Yeah, it took me some time, but I figured out How to fix up a heart that I let down

'Shadows come from the pain you're running from, love is not something you’ve heard enough.' Brings to mind “who’s this shadow holding me” in Stockholm Syndrome. Here the shadows are haunting the muse, earlier Harry referred to a broken home and here they have not heard love again and he feels sad for having added to their feeling of wanting for love. Harry has figured out how to not let them down and needs to find them to fix it.

[Chorus: Zayn, All] Now, I'm searchin' every lonely place Every corner, callin' out your name Tryna find you, but I just don't know Where do broken hearts go? Are you sleeping baby by yourself Or are you giving it to someone else? Tryna find you, but I just don't know Where do broken hearts go? Where do broken hearts go?

Harry is not with the muse when the song was written, he’s wondering if they are with someone else.

[Bridge: Harry, All] Tell me now, tell me now Tell me where you go when you feel afraid (Where do broken hearts go?) Tell me now, tell me now Tell me, will you ever love me again, love me again?

In the bridge Harry asks where the muse goes when they are afraid, presumably of love. In Sydney on 8 February Harry changed the first “will you ever love me again” to “will you ever f*** me again?” On the same day Taylor watched Ariana perform JALBOH at the Grammy's, Harry and Taylor had broken up but she was not yet dating Calvin.

The bridge further confirms Harry is singing to someone he shared love with before and was not with.

[Outro: Louis, Harry, Zayn & All] Tell me where you're hidin' out Where do broken hearts go? Come on, baby, 'cause I need you now Where do broken hearts go? Tell me, 'cause I'm ten feet down Where do broken hearts go? Come on, baby, come and get me out x2 Come on, baby, 'cause I need you now Where do broken hearts go?x4

In the outro Harry writes that he needs to find the muse, asking them to tell him because he is “ten feet down” as in dead and buried. This is a theme of love that is alive at the cemetery referred to again in HYGTG, Two Ghosts, OOTW/LAWYMMD transition, down bad and loml.

Harry goes on to write “Get me out” of the grave, as in come back and bring him back to life. He has no life without this person. Earlier in the song Harry says he let the muse down, now he’s asking them to pull him up out of the grave he’s found himself in for breaking her heart. He’s asking for forgiveness

[chussyracing]

what's been happening in the world of motorsports lately?

a long overdue summary which is not including absolutely everything but at least some important stuff. there is a lot, so i'm putting it under the read more button :)

Jack Doohan confirmed to partner Gasly in Alpine for 2025

Ferrari will be bringing upgrades for Monza (and Fernando had something to say about their performance over the next two races……)

after the court decided that Haas owes Uralkali they were told to send unspecified amount of money as unpaid sponsorship bid to them but their trucks were literally held hostage in Zandvoort (after Uralkali got help from Dutch court), not allowed to leave with the rest of the teams until the transaction was finalized and the money ended up in Uralkali’s account, but that is sorted for now so they don’t expect to miss out on Monza

Liberty Media are selling a share in F1 to have enough funds to get Moto GP

if you weren’t already tired of it, there is another rumour of Logan losing his seat mid-season, this time either to Mick or Liam Lawson that James Vowles apparently spoke to after Logan crashed in FP3 and ultimately broke the upgrades he was fitted with for the weekend (Wolff confirmed that Kimi won’t be going to Williams for the rest of the season but didn’t rule out Mick as he “offered” him to James… he might get sold to 1d you guys), there is also possibility for Franco Colapinto to actually choose from their own junior academy

Helmut Marko said that Liam Lawson will have a seat in one of their teams in 2025, Horner said he might be on loan to another team at the same time (choose your fighter)

Lewis’ current race engineer Bono (Bonnington) will stay in Mercedes and even gets a promotion as Head of Race Engineering after Lewis’ departure, while Lewis will inherit Ricky (Adami) from Carlos in Ferrari

also Checo’s race engineer is leaving for paternity leave, so they prepared a switch up to make his current performance engineer Richard Wood (sorry but you mean to tell me there is a guy and his name is Dick Wood????? in a world where Prince Albert is real well? ok) temporarily his race engineer

Toto had a lil Freudian slip and said that they had a small chance to get Max which has now passed but they are happy about their Goerge-Kimi line up for 2025

Kimi will also have junior outing in fp1 in Lewis’ car in Monza

there are rumours about a potential F1 race in Rwanda as Domenicali had more meetings to ensure that over the summer break, it should be a permanent track and not a street circuit, so I take this as a big win (now if only we took existing track and upgraded them instead of making new ones)

Lando’s gap between p1 and p2 was the biggest winning margin all season not as big as his ego though, knowing he said “simply lovely” after crossing the checkered flag as a dig at Max lol (Sauber drivers were lapped twice I think, as much for the cars being close in performance we thoughts we could see this year)

Alex was disqualified from quali in Zandvoort because his floor was outside of compliance of the rules, so he had to start from the pitlane although he got to p8 on merit

Liberty Media are officially under investigation for rejecting Andretti’s bid to become 11th team by the US Department of Justice’s antitrust division

Charles is on the new edition of Beyond the Grid podcast which is now also available in video form (all I saw about it so far is that he wants to win with Ferrari only and he believes they can do it, he name dropped Elon Musk ew and he said Leo pees everywhere)

Zak Brown refused McLaren would be signing Adrian Newey

Nina Gademan was the wildcard for Zandvoort’s F1 Academy race and she SLAYED

Isotta Fraschini ends in WEC before the season is done so you won’t see the only private team on the grid for the last three races

despite (or maybe because) being Ferrari reserve driver, Robert Schwartzman got a chance to have a junior outing in fp1 for Stake in Zandvoort

FIA officially banned asymmetrical brakes in fear it could bring advantage (in turns) – it can be either a reaction to someone’s grey area shady business this year or reaction to teams questioning the new technical rules for 2026 onwards

Oscar got his rib broken because of wrong seat/seating position and it happened around Austria/Silverstone, but he is fully healed by now

Audi is looking at Mick and Liam Lawson as some potential candidates for the seat (but also Valtteri and now apparently Robert Schwartzman and Guanyu too – Valtteri because he posted an Audi car with number 77 on it, Robert because of his junior outing in fp1 and Guanyu because of possible sponsorship deals)

Helmut Marko yapped about Seb Vettel and that it is no secret besides Red Bull he was asking one or two other teams if they have a free seat for him

there was also the one Kyle guy from??? Nascar I think? thinking he is overall better driver than Max Verstappen which is honestly just a bit funny

gentle reminder that the drivers now have to be way more careful on the radio about swearing and talking about stewards and race control, because FIA will now be penalizing such behaviour as misconduct (Ben Sulayem also linked it all to online abuse which is a campaign he focused on with his presidency)

Mattia Binotto will have “full responsibility” in Audi because they are apparently happy about how much experience he has, especially in the technical department

Peter Bayer said that if it goes like that Yuki will be considered for 2025 Red Bull seat

Peter Windsor said that one driver is doing rally testing in secret and doing good results among uncertain F1 future and that he won’t tell who it is but it’s not Max (and then Val was asked about it because he could be the one with uncertain future and he denied it)

Ferrari will be switching to pull-rod front suspension for 2025

Oscar started his own app similarly to Logan

Porsche said after they failed to partner with Red Bull, they closed the F1 chapter and don’t wanna pursue another entry into the series

David Malukas is no longer jobless, he signed multiyear contract with AJ Foyt in Indycar

Zane Maloney tested with IndyCar in Indianapolis

BBS won’t be supplying wheel rims after 2026 to everyone so it will be one of the parts teams can get from any supplier they wish

Domenicali wants more changes to the weekend structure in the future – probably more sprints and less FPs or none at all (or points for them), maybe even reverse grid

(not sure if I already wrote this down in previous round up but) Nyck de Vries will go to Super Formula starting round 5

Fionn McLaughlin and Scott Linblom joined Red Bull junior academy

the complaint against Horner has been dismissed (are you kidding me)

Marta Garcia debuted in GT racing in Ligier European Series JS2 R and lost podium from the first race due to penalty only to win the second race

Zak Brown is apparently trying to take away team’s veto/voting rights for the new Concorde Agreement that is being finalized for future decisions

Adidas is apparently in talks with Audi to become their clothing partner

Juri Vips was meant to drive an indycar race but I didn’t put enough effort into this to find out if he really did teehee :)

(Bonus from my fave gossipers: They are set on Newey going to Ferrari, the talks about Aston bring up his value though, something his manager Eddie Jordan is well aware of. Also there are talks about the Ferrari upgrades for Monza and that they will be black – deleted everything else because they already posted the black merch and suits so they were right about this lol)

[elastylinson28]

It’s just starting to sink in that Liam is actually gone, and we will never see him again. One day, we will reach his age and be older than he ever was. And the most painful truth of all is that he’s now just a memory, and that is all he’ll ever be.

Yesterday morning, I woke up to friends messaging me, asking if it’s true. I didn’t know what “true” meant; I had no idea what was going on. I was so confused until one friend said, “It’s all over social media—Liam’s dead.” I immediately opened Twitter and saw the freshest tweets talking about the accident. I struggled to believe it. I thought maybe it was just a hoax, considering he’d just been in the spotlight a week ago, once again facing backlash. Then I went on Facebook and saw Good Morning America post about it, along with familiar names—names from years ago, names I hadn’t seen in a while, but still recognized from the days when I grew up loving One Direction.

I was shaken.

I didn’t know that a celebrity’s death could hit me this hard. Tears quickly followed, and I felt overwhelmed, like I might pass out. Just a few days before, I had been on Twitter defending Liam’s name over the pettiest reasons, with people pointing out the little things he did, claiming that the rest of the 1D guys always hated him.

I soon found out about the allegations against him, yet the little girl in me—the little girl who loved One Direction so deeply—just finds it hard to believe. Still, I gave the women my trust and decided that maybe it was time to accept that I don’t know these men personally. I chose to stay clear and quiet about all things Liam, as I couldn’t bring myself to even say anything, especially against him. It sounds wrong, but you can’t just simply erase all the years you spent loving and supporting someone that quickly. Instead, I chose to focus on the other lads and ignore all the controversies.

Days passed, and what was meant to be just another random day, the 17th, became a day that changed everything. I woke up to a completely different world—a world where Liam doesn’t exist. It’s a day I will never forget; a day that will stick with me for the rest of my life.

I spent the entire day on social media, sharing my grief with strangers who, like me, share a love for these guys, as well as people from my past who loved One Direction just as deeply. We all share this grief, all over the world, mourning for what has gone and what could’ve been. It did not have to end like this—a tragedy of this magnitude is so painful that it eats you alive.

It’s been years since I’ve come to terms with the fact that they are never coming back, and that’s okay. I accepted that, knowing that the little girl in me won’t and will never be able to. I believed that one day, when they were much older, they’d reunite for the last time—all five of them: Niall, Louis, Liam, Harry, and even Zayn. I knew it would be far, far off in the future, but I believed it would happen. But with his passing, all hope is gone. No matter what happens, One Direction just isn’t One Direction anymore, and that, I think, is the toughest pill I’ve ever had to swallow.

Liam’s gone.

Liam has always been the light of the band. Even as a young girl, I knew and recognized that he led them; he was called the “Daddy Direction” for a reason. Even after the band, he remained so supportive of them. As painful and hard as it is to admit, Liam didn’t get the recognition and success that the other four have. To see someone you adored get left behind and hated by the fans of the same people he called brothers hurt. And that is a fact that will always devastate me—how wronged he was by the public and the industry, and how that led him to inflict harm not just on himself but also on others. He needed help. He deserved help—a chance to get better. Looking back, I can’t help but wonder if things hadn’t gone wrong.

It’s so heartbreaking to think of the weight of all his struggles, the loneliness he must have felt, and the lost moments that can never be reclaimed. He died believing the world had turned its back on him, he was robbed of a second chance at life. He will never have the opportunity to witness his son grow up or create new memories with his family. Most tragically, he never got to experience the outpouring of love he is receiving now from the world and his brothers, a love that he deserved to feel when he was still alive.

Liam, you deserved so much more than the silence that now surrounds you. Rest now, knowing you will never be forgotten.

[solottrpgchronicles]

1d. First Day at the Lab - Outliers

Name: Ren

Day: 1

Funds: $ 100

Today is my first day working at Ar Leith Labs - I can't believe I finally landed a job!

To be honest, I didn't look too deeply into what they do at Ar Leith Labs - I basically sent my curriculum to every neuroscience research lab that was hiring. Now that I'm here, I can't even find a pamphlet explaining the research in detail.

Ok, I'll be professional and go introduce myself to my coworkers now; either them or the PI can tell me more about the job.

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There are only two other research assistants in my group: Leanne and Perry; neither of them seems to be the chatty type, at least not with me. I was looking forward to meeting my PI, but Leanne told me that she has never shown her face around here.

Right then we heard the PI speak; it felt as if she was standing right next to us. This lab must have a pretty technologically advanced speaker system!

The PI's voice welcomed me and introduced herself as C.N, just her initials; she invited me to get acquainted with the lab environment, and help my coworkers out with anything they might need.

I found it a little odd that she's not meeting us in person, but maybe there's an excellent reason for it. I don't want to pry, especially not on my first day.

Nobody was available to give me a tour - lots of work to do, which is fair - so I walked around the lab by myself, studying the equipment. I didn't recognize any of the machines, except for the obvious desktop computer in the corner. That one even looks a little old, in contrast with the rest of the devices.

Leanne noticed me looking at the computer and asked if I know how to code; heck yeah I do, I took a few classes and I'm pretty ok at it! So she asked me to write a bit of code to generate graph data for her latest research data. It's strange that they don't have software for that already, but I decided to avoid asking any questions.

I took this opportunity to look over the data, hoping it would clarify what kind of research we're supposed to do here, but I couldn't make heads or tails of it. Oh, well.

I couldn't recognize the OS the computer is running either, but it seemed loosely based on Unix. I was making good progress until I started testing my code; I got the error "Unable to find or open '/Brain/TemporalLobe/Hippocampus/MISTAKE.png'". I'm 100% sure I never referenced this file, and what a bizarre name!

I immediately thought this must be a prank - Leanne and Perry must have planned this as a funny welcome for me. I resolved to laugh and tell them it was a cool prank; that would show them I'm chill.

Unfortunately, they kept insisting they didn't know what I was talking about. They looked annoyed, so I assume they were being truthful. Alright, time to debug.

A quick search of the codebase and external libraries for the file path in the error message yielded no results. I tried looking just for "Mistake.png" and got nothing once again.

Interestingly enough, though, "Ren/Brain/" exists, except there's only a "temp" folder in there. Maybe I don't have the right access levels to see other folders? There doesn't seem to be a root user either.

I bothered Leanne and Perry to see whether they have access to the other folders - they don't, but they have their own users on this machine, with their own "/Brain/" folders. Also, my code wasn't available to them. They said the users were already set up for them when they joined, just like mine; IT support must be incredible around here.

In the end I decided to share the code with Leanne's user, in the off chance it would work for her. It did, just like I hoped, and Leanne got her graph.

I don't fully understand, but... great. Maybe I should talk to the IT support people, or take a few more coding classes.

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The rest of the day was spent on boring menial tasks.

I bet my coworkers think I'm more trouble than I'm helpful, but hey - they'll change their minds, soon enough. After all, I didn't graduate top of my class just to be ignored at my job.

Luckily, at least C.N. already sees potential in me: before I left for the day, she said tomorrow I'll be tabling at an event called "The Gathering"! My first table, and on day 2? I can't wait!

I forgot to ask for the address, but I bet I can find all the info I need online. I'm obviously being tested, and I will show initiative, dependability, and bring a ton of new participants for the study!

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This is a playthrough of a solo TTRPG called "Outliers", by Sam Leigh, @goblinmixtape.

You can check it out on itch.io: https://far-horizons-co-op.itch.io/outliers

[kkukiejams]

Since I started my hobby as a fangirl, there's this one fear that I always have. That one day I will awake up and see the news that one of the people I looked up to and always brought me happiness died/suicide/od-ed somewhere out there, inside a hotel room, alone and away from their loved ones. I mean, I grew up seeing news like this from Michael Jackson to Whitney Houston to various K-pop idols. But I never thought that I would really experience this nightmare.

On the early morning of Oct 16th, I woke up with a text notification from a close friend saying "Liam is gone," with no other context. My first thoughts are, "Gone? Wdym by gone?"; "Wait, which Liam?"; "Did she have a dog named Liam?"; "Liam? as in 1D's Liam?"; "Isn't it too early for a hoax, especially on this happy day?"; "Hobi is about to come home; wtf is this bullshit." And so I open my Twitter app and see what the fuck is happening.

*Liam Payne's picture in gray, 1993-2024*, "One Direction member Liam Payne (31), died after falling from his hotel room balcony in Argentina," and all the other fan-shocking tweets, news site tweets, tweets about what happened, tweets about how intoxicated he was, passing out in the hotel lobby before the hotel staff brought him to his hotel room, and that horrible, horrible tweet about how fucking tmz posted a picture of his body laying in the ground focusing on his tattoos barely an hour after he fell.

And all I can think is, shit, I can't do this today. It's already 8 in the morning; I need to move my ass because my work starts at 10am and I cannot afford to be late this month anymore. So I moved and got ready, but I can't even process anything like, Fuck, is this even real? He was just in Niall's concert a few days ago. Did the other boys know already? What time is it in the UK? Are they even awake? Are they even in the UK right now? Fuck, he's so far away from home. Why is he so far away from home? Did his mom already know? Did his baby already know? Wtf, I can't really just cry right now; it's still Thursday, and I can't file for sick leave just because of this; my next schedule will be fucked if I did.

And so, I go on with my day; I got in time for my work, still feeling like a blank slate, and still doesn't know how to react. Other people told me about what happened, asking me, What happened? They know I'm a fan, of course. I'm that big directioner fan girl in high school and college; everyone I met from 2012 till 2016 knows I love that group and how I love those boys. And all I can simply tell them is that he fell from his hotel room balcony, accidentally or by suicide; I'm not sure; he was drunk; he was high; I'm not really sure.

And the day went by, and I came home and went back to Twitter to get more information and updates. I know he was suicidal and had an alcohol problem. I think I saw an interview before that he said this thing himself and was trying to seek help. I really prayed that he would be able to seek help. He was depressed, that the days that he was one of the sources of my mental stability are the days he needs to depend on these vices to keep going so he can keep doing what he loves and to keep surviving.

It was also truly devastating to find out that this once bright, kind, and talented person I know was able to hurt and abuse so many people he was supposed to love and people who loved him. I will not excuse him for his wrongs, and I will not blame his victims for speaking out, but it was so tragic that none of them got a happy, peaceful ending. His life was not supposed to end like this; he should be able to heal, to make amends, and to live the rest of his life in content. But life is a bitch and has never been fair. And so I end my Thursday night still doesn't know how to react, still haven't had a cry. Am I even allowed to cry?

Then it's already Friday morning. He was already gone for a day. I woke up and still cannot believe that this is really happening. Then Louis, Zayn, Niall, and Harry released a joint statement regarding what happened to Liam. This is not how I imagine seeing Zayn's name on a 1D official post again. I always thought it would be the 5 of them, and it's about a reunion concert. I was still looking forward to that. I never saw all of them performing live together. I was able to attend one of their concerts, but Zayn was not present, and it's the last concert they have before they officially announced that he was quitting the band. I never thought that I would really never see them all five performing together.

So again I went with my day, still not crying, still have work to do. I also read Louis', Zayn's, and Harry's personal posts. I cannot imagine how they are feeling. They are losing their brother, their friend. Someone they truly know, someone who tried his best to support them when they're all too young to be exposed to how cruel the media can be and how disgusting the entertainment industry truly is. Niall's personal message came in a later time today, and I can understand why. He was the last one of them to see him, to spend time with him, to hug him. I really, really hope that all of the remaining four boys have the support they need in these trying times. I hope they are not alone.

Some people say they are grieving for the younger Liam and not this man he became. But I mourn for all of him, the Liam, whose dream is to perform and sing. the Liam who saw and experienced how amazing it was to reach these dreams, the Liam who found out and paid the price for reaching the said "dreams," and I will especially mourn for the Liam who could have find his way again and should have been able to heal.

So tonight, I will finally allow myself to grieve and cry for the lost that he is. To the brilliant, talented, and loved Liam James Payne. I hope you will finally find peace. I hope that your next life will be happier and more peaceful than this one. Rest in paradise, darling.

[watermelons-dont-grow-on-trees]

Impress the press

*cracks knuckles* *blasts 1D* *ill be UP ALL NIGHT writing this*

Disclaimer: any and all similarities to anything boyband connected are absolutely intentional, and highly entertaining

@ziptiesnfries I will forever be grateful to you for the idea, and will start every chapter telling you this, and I hope you like it <<<3

Oli's first public appearance poor baby

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CW: pet whump, dehumanisation, ‘it’ as a pronoun (only like once), past abuse mention, humiliation, public (TV) appearance

Oliver tried his best not to be too distraught by the boys’ general disregard for him. He had a home now and new owners, he repeated it in his head over and over like a mantra, but still couldn’t help but be a tad disappointed. His home was this tour bus now, that smelled like day old pizza, it was messy and suffocatingly crowded even though it was a lot more spacious than it looked from the outside. His new owners didn’t even care for him for the most part, and he couldn’t think of himself as Diana’s, which she made more than clear to him. Hell, all of them, but one seemed to be rather uncomfortable with his presence.

The one, who Diana passed his leash off to, sat him on the beat-up couch that seemed to serve as the communal space, taking up one side of the aisle. 

Oliver sat, visibly tense and timid, feeling like a deer in headlights. He had the cute-brown doe-eyes for it, at least that was what he was told and the irony wasn’t entirely lost on him. The boy with the leash followed, after tossing some magazines on the floor to make himself some space. He pulled Oliver closer to himself by the collar, not hurting the pet but definitely making him uncomfortable. He ran his knuckles over his cheeks, and fixing a strand of his hair that escaped the bun on his head, and he sighed adoringly.

“You’re really pretty” he stated, and then abruptly let go of him to look around the rest of the band, who stood there awkwardly, and rather reluctantly accepting the situation “Come on, I don’t believe that none of you find him at least a bit pretty” Oliver watched as the boy eyed two of the bandmates up in particular, who shrugged and mumbled something, he hoped in agreement. The third one, glared at him, then at Diana, who was not gracing them with her attention anymore, and then simply turned around and climbed into his bunk without a word. The pet’s stomach dropped with shame. His conditioning running as deep in his mind as it did, he had a thought form. He would do anything to please the third boy, whose name he didn’t even know yet, he had to because  he was nothing if he wasn’t wanted. 

They set off as soon as Diana dismissed them with a wave of her hand and joined the driver in the front of the vehicle.

“Do you have a name?” The first boy inquired, a curious pair of grey eyes searching Oliver’s own, so close to his face he could see the way his pupils moved with the change of the light as they rolled out of the parking garage. The absurdity of the situation didn’t escape him, as he introduced himself to the other, whose name probably the whole world knew. One of the other two bandmates, who still stood in the common area, groaned and pulled the other one back towards the bunks. 

“Oli! That’s such a lovely name!” he gushed. Oliver wanted to correct him that it’s actually Oliver, but he bit his tongue. His new owners can call him whatever they wanted, he reminded himself. His training from his old home was still deeply ingrained in his psyche, he had to fight it with all his might. He wasn’t Oliver anymore if they decided so “I’m James” he introduced himself as well “I play the drums” As he chatted away, mostly about himself and his role in the band, he managed to introduce the rest of the crew as well, which he was grateful for. The two joined at the hip were the singer and the guitarist, Eddie and Will respectively. Will also sang a lot, according to James his voice was a tenor and that complimented Eddie’s baritone, whatever that meant. The one, who Oliver felt outright disliked him was Khai. He played the bass, and wrote a lot of their lyrics, as much contribution Diana allowed them to have, he had the most contribution.

“It’s not like we write all of our songs” he explained “Actually, fuck that, we don’t write most of our music, but Khai usually has a word or two in the writing process. He’s great with words and rhymes.”

James spoke a lot, Oliver noticed he loved hearing his own voice. He offered to show him a few of their tracks, before they heard a disgruntled “Anything, but our songs” from Will’s bunk, to which James responded with a soft laugh and dismissed the idea. 

He had to face it rather quickly that he would never have a moment of relaxation in his life as they pulled up to a building, surrounded by a horde of people. He also learned that he has to be at heel no matter what, when Diana snaps her fingers otherwise she’d simply catch his leash and forcefully drag him after herself. 

As they exited the bus, the boys were immediately ushered away by a bunch of people dressed in black, talking into their headsets, looking each of them over, turning their faces to the side and touching their hair and clothes. They didn’t seem to pay much mind to it, in contrast with Oliver, who was terrified, getting suddenly lost in a sea of people. He felt suffocated, even before Diana yanked on his leash actually cutting off his airflow, but at least it snapped him out of the panic that started rising up in his chest. She dragged him over to a different area and pushed him to sit down on a wobbly looking chair, her perfectly manicured nails dug into his shoulder with an intensity that made him wonder if she painted them red, because she draws blood every time someone comes into contact with them.

“Stay” she instructed before she let go of him and turned around yelling “Make him presentable!” to the mob of people that immediately swarmed over to him like a hive of bees. He wished he could remember their faces, but there were so many people, wearing the same things, approaching him with different items, like makeup and accessories.

His hair was pulled from the bun he had hastily put it in earlier that day, they brushed and straightened it, he winced when one of them burnt his ear with a careless movement of the straightener, which only earned him a slap on the back of the head and even rougher treatment.

It didn’t hurt too bad, but the pain he felt just grew stronger by the second, threatening to spill from his eyes in the form of tears. He wanted to go home, or at least back to the shelter to be adopted into a different life. Ungrateful thoughts, and they made him even more miserable. There was someone staring at his face up close, who he couldn’t see properly over the cloud of tears.

“Someone bring the foundation over” they yelled, in his face, making him flinch even worse than before “I can’t have it crying on live TV” It was too late to will the tears away, as he started sobbing pitifully. He’s ruining their public appearance, the entire reason they got him is to improve just that. They snatched his hands and pushed it back into his lap to prevent him from wiping the makeup away.

“Hair’s done” “Fixed it, makeup’s done” “Get a jacket or something, we don’t have enough time to fix the clothes” 

They continued to yell things to each other, sometimes into the headsets. He was a gazelle in a circle of lions. At least this was what he imagined the gazelle to feel like on one of the shows he had watched with the kids at his first home. His lips quivered, threatening a new wave of cries to break through, but he bit down and took some breaths. He was afraid of what the lions would do, if he ruined his makeup again.

Diana appeared out of nowhere again, just as they pulled his arms through the sleeve of an expensive plaid shirt. They left the buttons undone, showing off his collar.

“Come on, it’s showtime” The crowd automatically opened for them, as she pulled him away. They walked through a labyrinth of corridors, before she opened an unlabelled door on the left and they entered an entertainment show set he recognised from one of those shows his owners liked to watch on lazy nights after dinner.

The band was already there, wearing an outrageous amount of makeup that made Oliver wonder what he ended up looking like. He hoped it’s something they do for the cameras. Will had a guitar hanging lazily across his torso held up by a colourful strap. Eddie’s hair was styled to show off the long natural curls he had, and Oliver suddenly felt very conscious about his hair having been straightened. James and Khai were in the middle of a conversation, when the latter noticed him and his face darkened. James looked around confused as he searched for the source of tension, before his eyes settled on Oliver and he lit up. He sauntered over to Diana and him with a cheerful grin, and attempted to take his collar out of her hand.

She snatched it away with a frustrated look “No” she shook her head “He sits with Eddie, you still haven’t lived the incident in China down, I don’t want to wind up in another scandal like that”

“Fine” James replied with a pout, like a child that had just been scolded. He ran a hand over Oliver’s arm almost apologetically and walked back to continue his conversation with Khai. 

“All you have to do now is keep quiet and smile nicely at the boys and the host” she finally turned to him, the words falling from her lips with the average speed of a race car “They won’t ask you anything, only the boys. Don’t make faces, don’t start crying and most importantly don’t squint your eyes from the lights, it looks stupid. Unlike you they have years of proper media training under their belts” As if that was his fault “so just agree with whatever they say, even if they make it up on the spot. Clear?”

“Yes, mi- Diana” he corrected himself quickly.

“Good. Eddie!” she called him over. 

“Yeah?” He ignored Oliver, as he walked up to them.

“Take him” She passed his leash over to the singer “You’re sitting on the right in the front. He sits next to you. James on your side and Khai behind you. Will sits as far away from you as possible” 

“But-”

“I don’t want to hear it” She dismissed them. Eddie looked at him hesitantly. 

“Are you okay?” he asked nervously, which finally brought a smile on the singer’s face. He felt a hive of butterflies being unleashed in his stomach fluttering as he looked into Eddie’s eyes for the first time up close. His eyes were piercing, green and still radiated warmth.

“Yeah” he led him with a soft pull towards the middle of the set where their seats were already set up. Two armchairs in front and two tall bar stools behind them “Are you okay?” Oliver looked at his back surprised. Was he okay? He felt it’s his duty to answer that he was, but he wasn’t supposed to lie.

“I’ve been better” he replied cautiously. Eddie sat down on the one of the chairs and he kneeled next to him obediently. At least that was something he knew how to do right.

“This isn’t going to take long. Not really our target audience, but a good place to introduce you and go about our day” he explained in a soft hushed tone, as the others took their assigned places as well. 

“Eddie, don’t forget to pet him” Diana instructed, having to yell over the noise of the crew who were running around making sure all of the equipment was set up right, checking the cameras and lights. Oliver felt the boy’s hand tentatively find its way into his hair at the nape of his neck, and he immediately melted into his touch, letting the world soften around the edges as he concentrated on the warmth of his owner.

“We’re live in 10” he heard someone yell.

“2…1… Action!”

It was hard to keep up with the witty back and forth between the hosts, who sat at a table,  warming up the audience with some quips and jokes, to introduce the band. The cameras panned over to their side of the stage. 

“So boys,” the man clasped his hands in front of him shooting a wide toothy grin to the camera, before looking at them “Tell me about this new project of yours”

“Well,” James started, mimicking the host’s commercial smile “his name is Oliver”

“Oh right, the pet!” he started, as if he forgot “I meant the new album” the man’s booming laughter sent shivers down his spine. The boys chuckled politely as a response “I’m just kidding around, boys, so this Oliver, I hear he is a rescue”

“We adopted him from a shelter, yes” James answered “The rescue cause is really close to our hearts. Especially since we heard his story, we knew we had to save him” Oliver glanced over at him confused, before quickly correcting his expression. Nothing James said was even close to the truth “We also decided to take action and donate a considerable amount to the charity supporting rescue shelters all around the country”

The memory of Johannah asking for a donation as Diana dragged him through the door flashed in front of his eyes. Like hell did they donate.

“Can you share his story with the world?” The other host, a woman, asked solemnly with both her hands over her heart.

“We would prefer to keep it private” Will chimed in, and Oliver sighed with relief, he wasn’t sure he could have handled anything being said about his first owners and home. He wondered if they were watching, and his heart shattered at the thought of the kids recognising him through the screen “It’s a sensitive subject, you know? Like, bringing up bad memories, for example, when I was a child, you know…” Will averted the topic with practised ease.

“And what’s next for you together? Will you let him play the triangle on a new track?” Another round of raucous laughter made its way out of the host’s chest. What an unpleasant man, he thought. But he was just as curious to know the answer. What comes next?

“Actually, we did bring you a new song, if you wanted to hear” Khai chimed in from the back.

“What a wonderful surprise! Let’s hear it”

"Ladies and Gentlemen, this is 2WayStreet, with and exclusive new single that they'll release in 2 weeks, but you will be the first to hear it!"

Oliver heard as Will struck the first few chords on the guitar, and carefully turned his head to the side to watch them perform. Eddie’s hand never left his hair, but he started rhythmically stroking the top of his head, as he joined the song. They harmonised perfectly with each other, seamlessly letting the notes melt into each other in a soft but catchy tune. 

The interview ended with a round of applause from the entire crew.

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[rememberingliampayne]

Dear Liam,

I've not been a fan of 1D of you for long, maybe 2 to 2 and half years . I've seen fans grieving .... 1D was their childhood....a 13-14 yr long relation ......You have been a part of my life since 10th grade ( 16 yrs) but it feels like forever . You became an integral part of my life.......your videos both as 1D and solo made me laugh during stress , your songs made me happy .....to be fair , I searched ur names once almost everyday to see what u were up to .....hoping to see u boys communicate on social media , hoping to wake up one day to the news that 1D is getting back together .........I know u were still friends...... You were getting a lot of criticism lately........I feel glad that i never criticized u ...not that I have social media , but even in my own mind. I understood that you were maybe having some personal problems we had no right to know or speculate about ...... we know little really about the personal issues u might have had .....always quick to judge , Oh Liam how bad that mightve made u feel .........to get constant hate , to be abandoned by ur label...... I wish you didnt do drugs , I wish u seeked help rather than that , but then I also wish that life had not made u resort to drugs , who am i to judge? Youre gone now.... forever . hope ure in peace now , hey Angel ...fly high ........See the love u had from fans ? The world is crying for u , as Shawn Mendes said.... i cried ugly for the first few days......I tear up now and then.....even those happy goofy one D videos make me sad......oh Liam ....i am still in shock... Justin Biebers's words helped .....Mom doesnt understand how I feel about this.. after all i didnt know u right? Not even for long? But I feel Like i lost a best friend ......My heart cries for that young 17 yr old Liam.......Love u and ID forever.......Rest easy ..no hate can touch u now and Love for u is eternal

[thewolvesof1998]

get to know your fic writer + WIP Snippet

Tagged by @jesuisici33 @hippolotamus @your-catfish-friend 

When did you post your first ever fanfic?

God, I definitely posted 1D fics on Wattpad back in the day, probably in 2013 but I started posting again only in June of this year. 

First character(s) you wrote for:

It was probably something 1D related either Larry or an OC/Harry Styles

Main character(s) you’re currently writing for:

Buck and Eddie of course. 

Character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan on writing about soon:

Hmmm I don’t have anything planned, I’m just following the hyperfixation but probably someone from the 911 world, maybe Ravi or May?

Fandom(s) you’re currently writing for:

9-1-1

Platonic pairing(s) you currently write for:

Buck and Chris- you can't really avoid Buck as Chris's other parent when writing Buddie. Bobby and Buck- another father-and-son relationship. Eddie and Sophia- the Diaz siblings. The entire firefam I suppose.

Romantic pairing(s) you currently write for:

Buck/Eddie

Your top 3 tags on AO3 (if you post your works on AO3):

Not Beta Read, One Shot and Pre-Relationship Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz 

Your current platform where you post your works:

AO3

Snippet of the wip you’re currently working on:

I haven't written in weeks but the inspiration hit tonight so here a bit from a new wip- something for Halloween:

Eddie could hear the creak of the tree outside as the wind tumbled through its branches, someone calling for their dog a few doors down and a motorcycle roaring down the street adjacent to his. He could also hear Buck’s heartbeat, its usual slow and steady thump, thump, thump. Normally he would hear Christopher's soft breaths and fluttering heartbeat from the room down the hall but the house is empty tonight.  He can still taste the tequila from the shots they’d decided were a good idea after finishing their usual six pack. The alcohol warming his stomach, making his limbs feel like they belonged to someone else. Without thinking about it, they place themselves on Buck’s broad chest, his skin a contrast to the dark blue button-up Buck decided to wear tonight. Eddie can feel the sharp intake of breath beneath them and his eyes drag themselves up to Buck’s face. His usually pale skin is flushed ever so slightly, confusion dragging his eyebrows together in a look that would be comical if Eddie wasn’t so damn in love with him.  “Eds?” Buck whispers, so quiet that if it weren’t for his enhanced hearing he wouldn’t have heard it. Eddie doesn’t respond, not verbally at least, he just steps in closer, placing his forehead on Buck’s shoulder, face tucked into his neck. Buck’s hands automatically come up to rest on his arms and Eddie thinks just for a moment that he’s going to push him away but instead, Buck’s fingers curl around his biceps, holding him tightly.  Eddie breathes in, taking in Buck’s scent, citrus, honeycomb and sunshine on snow, it’s just as intoxicating as the alcohol. He’s nuzzling into Buck’s neck chasing that scent before he can stop himself. Buck shudders but doesn’t pull away instead, he bares his neck and tries to relax despite the vulnerable position. Buck has to know he’s not going to hurt him, Eddie could never hurt him.  He opens his mouth and sucks in a breath, “Buck…” his name is as sweet as the taste of him on Eddie’s tongue. It so distracting that he forgets what he is going to say and instead, his hands slide up and one around Buck’s neck and into his hair, using the grip to tilt his head so Eddie has better access. Buck gasps, his fingers digging in painfully before relaxing again but Eddie barely registers it, drowning in Buck’s scent until it was just Buck and only him.  Eddie’s teeth and claws lengthen as the primal need takes control, he manages to loosen his grip enough to avoid piercing Buck, the need to protect is just as strong as the need to mark and claim. 

Tagging:

@wikiangela​ @wildlife4life ​ @eddiebabygirldiaz ​ @disasterbuckdiaz @spotsandsocks @try-set-me-on-fire @bekkachaos @buddierights @forthewolves @911-on-abc @shitouttabuck @911onabc @exhuastedpigeon @eddiediaztho @loserdiaz @ladydorian05 @watchyourbuck @king-buckley @chaoticgremlinwholikescheese @fortheloveofbuddie @sammy-souffle @steadfastsaturnsrings @mangacat201 @theotherbuckley @hoodie-buck @eowon @rainbow-nerdss @nmcggg @pirrusstuff

[folklouire]

hello my dear! i hope you’re doing well! ☺️

i’ve got kind of an odd request that i think needs a little backstory. so, i think i mentioned once that i never really listened to 1d when they were big in the early 2010s (i was too busy listening to what one of my high school friends called “melodramatic hipster music” lmaooo). of course i knew of them peripherally from hearing them in stores and other places and also just bc they were so popular, but i never really got into them i guess

anyway, today i was listening to some like early 2010s nostalgia pop (as you do) and there were a lot of 1d songs on there and i was seized with the thought that maybe i should become more familiar with their discography and i was like “boy do i know the person to ask about this!!”

so now i am here bothering you in your inbox to ask where you think one might want to start if they were interested in getting into 1d. i know a handful of their really popular songs, but like what are the really really good ones? what are the deep cuts? what are your personal favorites?

also tho i know you’re probably really busy so literally no worries if you don’t have time for this!! i just wanted to ask you since i know you’re a fan, but truly no pressure at all!

um yeah anyway that’s it for now!! ily thank you sm ily bye!! 💕💕

HIIIIIIIIIIII my friend helloooooo 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞

first of all, soooooo sorry for taking so long to answer this, i keep forgetting lol i have to set reminders like ⏰⏰⏰⏰⏰ ANSWER YOUR ASKS DUMBASS!!!!⏰⏰⏰⏰⏰

SECOND, i'm always happy to see your name in my notes and inbox <3 and ESPECIALLY now that you've reached out to me about 1d aaaaaaaaghhhh 😭 i was so happy when i got this ask kdfrfhbdrh so excited !!

ok SO, if you're asking me, i'd say their entire discography as their ''good ones'' or my favourites hrbfhbd sorry i can't really decide because i genuinely think all their songs are good. i like their early very bubblegum pop, i like their more rock-ish approach, the ballads, the kinda indie sound, i like everything they've done.

SO, would you be okay if i made you a playlist with a few of their songs that are like my TOP top favs and let's say some underrated ones that the gp might not now about like some songs that are not very popular and then if you want you can explore the rest of their discography on your own and decide what you like and what you don't? what do you say? 💜

I LOVE YOU TOOOOOOOO, you're the sweetest!! 💝💝💝💝 i hope we're about to witness the birth of a directioner soon😂

[sleepyhead-poll]

ROUND 1D, MATCH 1 OUT OF 16!

Propaganda Under the Cut:

Totoro:

He's a catlike creature and is often portrayed sleeping and lazing around. Of course he does become active when needed but I think his natural state is taking a nap

Snorlax:

he be snorin'. he be lax.

big sleeby... <3 he just like me fr fr

i mean it's snorlax cmon

Always sleeping. Always blocking the way of everyone. Will not move for anyone, must sleep.

This pokémon is the embodiment of sleeping (or hibernation more precisely). In the games, they block you path by sleeping in the middle of the road and you have to wake them up with a flute. In battles, they often use the attack "rest".

eepy. snoozle. his name is “snore lax” i dont think you get much more restful than that

Snorlax propaganda! - the og sleeper seen in gen 1. has longevity and we respect that - literally called the sleeping pokemon in the pokedex - blocks your path by sleeping in no less than three generations and three remakes, requiring you to wake it up - also does this in pokemon ranger - based on game freak employee kōji nishino, which is a subtweet if i've ever seen one - has a practically 100% usage in gen 1 and 2 ou competitive, and always runs rest - one of the few pokemon to learn rest, snore, and sleep talk by level up, no tms, breeding, or tutors required - the mascot of pokemon sleep, and your goal is to feed it so it can get a good night's sleep with you. literally can't get more sleepy than that. - an event snorlax can be caught in pokemon go where he wears a little sleeping cap awwww baby - also has an adorable sleepwear skin in pokemon unite - is able to have the ability deep sleep in pokemon conquest, allowing it to recover hp if it falls asleep - gigantamax snorlax is described as "the size of a mountain—and moves about as much as one as well" - you can get tons of officially licensed pjs with snorlax on them, perfectly fitting its sleepiness - you can also get these delightfully cute bookends where snorlax is sleeping? - also snorlax appears in the music video for celestial by ed sheeran. not necessarily sleepy but i think it's funny like how many other contenders are in ed sheeran lore - i like it

[foxes-that-run]

2011 Haylor Timeline

Timeline Tag

We don’t know the whole story

Although Harry and Taylor have never said when they met or started dating, often assumed to have met At the March 2012 Kids Choice Awards, because it was the first time we saw them together. 2 weeks after the awards Justin Bieber said a superstar liked Harry, but didn't name Taylor or say they met at the awards. I have a post about the Kids Choice awards/IKYWT Secret message and Harry's Jacket here.

A source close to Taylor later said to Vanity Fair he had chased her for a year, before the started dating, which was also before he kissed Emily Ostily on the 21 April 2012 and Taylor posted about infidelities to Instagram on 23 April 2012 (which doesn't make sense if they met 24 days earlier).

That would indicate they had met by March 2011. Which is likely as they were in the same city and locations throughout 2011. In 2014 Taylor told Rolling Stone:

"People think they know the whole narrative of my life, I think maybe that line is there to remind people that there are really big things they don’t know about."

As Taylor said to Time Magazine in 2023 and Harry said to Howard Stern in 2019 it's not in their interests for a new relationship to be public before they are solid.  In Harry's words 'it's never benefited me' for a relationship to be public. In 2011 people were sent death threats for having dinner with him. It's no wonder they were hidden for most of that time.  Special thanks to @cntfightmydemonsthyknowhowtoswim for help with this. You are the best.

2010

31 January - Fearless won AOY & CA Grammy

27 March - Harry styles auditions for xfactor

23 July - One direction formed on X factor.

23 October - Taylor first seen with Jake at snl taping, sung monologue song

25 October - Speak Now released.

12 December - X factor semi final, 1D third, Syco signed One Direction for £2 million, each boy was only paid an initial £8,000. Maybe signed on the 13th.

13 December - Jake not at Taylor’s birthday, in January announce broke up in December. It was 7 weeks.

2011

4 January - Taylor seen in LA on the 5th January then not again for a month.

25-30 January 1D fly to Los Angeles. The Sun reported they were in US meeting writers and producers to start recording. It's likely they first met here.

5 February - Taylor seen for first time in a month, in LA, wearing the Key necklace in LA. It later appeared in the I knew you were trouble music video (4:45) and was sold as merchandise, there was a key for Fearless too, but it stopped after this.

19 February - 9 April; X-Factor live tour. TS tour break 20 & 21, 20th was X Factor O2 show.

1 March - Harry left Manchester hotel and arrived Sheffield

3 March - Harry pokemon white/black

7, 9 March - Harry Liverpool

10, 11, 12, 13 March - Harry in Manchester

17 - 30 March - Speak Now in Europe. Taylor wrote ATW

15 March - one direction Birmingham show, fans see boys leaving on the 16th then have 4 day weekend where he is not seen.

16 March - Taylor's Lover Journal talks about Paris, seeing castles, 4th grade and career anxiety over the Mean video. She talks about visiting having visited Neuschwanstein Castle that later appears in Bejewelled MV.

16 - 19 march Taylor seen in Paris

17 March - Taylor plays speak now in Paris at Zénith de Paris, in park bordered by Canal Saint-Denis, (technically) outside Saint-Denis.  Holy ground's secret message is “when you came to the show in SD” later the film clips for Begin Again, EHC, Falling and LOT tour images all reference canals in Paris. Taylor plays Soul Sister / Fearless mash-up for the first time that show. Soul Sister was Harry's first X-Factor Audition song. She plays the mash-up on/off for the rest of the tour and on the DVD.

21 March - Taylor in London Recording Studio wearing a rose dress key from IKYWT video. Taylor wore a Rose ring and Rose Dress the day before too.

22 March - Taylor shopping at Portobello Market and photographed at Alice in Wonderland themed store (Wonderland)

23 March - a Wednesday, Taylor wore white dress (Begin again cover) in London, Harry also in London before Nottingham show. Vanity Fair article later says they'd known each other for a year by March 2012. Harry return to hotel after performing at O2

30 and 31 March - One Direction Tour Break, Speak Now at O2

4 April - 1D iTV Studios (filming a year in making)

6, 8, 9 April - Harry Cardiff

30 April - 1D Recording Studio

2 May - 1D outside hotel London

10 May - 1D recording studio Kent

23 May - 1D left Britney Spears Concert LA Staples Centre

27 May - November 22 - Speak now in US, arm lyrics start.

2 June - 1D LA recording studio

3 June - 1D meet fans London

11 June - “In Detroit, Swift seemed somewhat melancholy. Once in a while, I had the feeling that she was on the verge of bursting into tears. She said that she had recently decided that life is “about achieving contentment… . You’re not always going to be ridiculously happy.” She had written about ten songs so far for her next album. Asked to characterize them, she said, “They’re sad? If I’m being honest.” The most recent one, she said, “is about moving on.” (x)

6-12 June - 1D in Sweden, likely record What makes you Beautiful.

13-20 June - 1D has a break, Harry unseen, not active on social and reappears in LA on the 20th. Taylor also free 13 - 16 other than the 15th:

15 June - Taylor arm lyrics "“A moment, a love, a dream, a laugh, a kiss, a cry, our rights, our wrongs.” – The Temper Trap, Sweet Disposition. Xcel Energy Center in St. Paul, Minnesota. Exactly one year later Harry got the lyrics from this song tattoo'ed.

17 June - Lover Journal Taylor wrote in her journal on way to Nashville “Something so unexpected and amazing happened recently... I’ve become blissfully happy with my life. Like, actually grateful for every second of the day. I've notice this onset for a while, but it's really hit me in the last week and especially since I wrote those 2 new songs. I'm happy I get to meet so many people on the road who make me feel like my music really matters to them.” One song may be State of Grace.

20-27 June - 1D in LA. Speak now break 23 & 24 June.

20 June Harry reappeared in LA at Britney concert

21 June - Harry at Staples centre LA

26 June - Harry Heathrow

27 June - Taylor in Teen Vogue with photos like Babe video

2 - 10 July - Speak Now dates rescheduled due to Bronchitis. Taylor in LA and does magazine shoots.

8-15 July - 1D in LA. What makes you beautiful shot at Sycamore Cove Beach in  Malibu 14-15. 15 July - arrived back at Heathrow

27 July - 1D iTV London (shot A year in the making where H cried)

16 August - 1D Key 103 Manchester

24 August - Arm Lyrics “But my heart cried out for you, California.” – Joni Mitchell, California. Staples Center in Los Angeles, California.

31 August - Harry wearing paper plane necklace in heat photo shoot (1:55)

6 September - One Direction at GQ Men of the Year Awards 2011 - London. It gets mentioned in a few interviews after.

7 September - Taylor plays Tacoma -arm lyrics: “You are the ever-living ghost of what once was.” – Band of Horses, No One’s Gonna Love You. In her Lover Journal she went to Nashville rather than LA and writes Red on the plane.

10 September - WMYB on Red or Black, Harry is anxious in his solo and his hand shake. Arm lyrics “There was always something that meant more to you than me” - Jessica Andrews, “There’s More To Me Than You”

11 September - What makes you beautiful debut #1. 21st - Up all night. 1D helicopter to Manchester, shown in A Year in the Making

13 September - 1D Real Radio Manchester

14 September - asked who was most confident with girls LT says "Definitely without a question say Harry, like Harry, no matter how long is known her, or who she is he will go up to her, like if it's a celebrity, like at the GQ Awards, [Niall adds "Like Pixie Lott] he will go up and sing their song and dance. It's like 100% Harold Styles." Harry then changes the conversation to silly names, Louis brings up GQ again and Harry mouths "Stop going' on about it" (9:50).

16 September - 1D Harper Collins London

18 September - Harry at G.A.Y. perform WMYB

21 September - Harry at GQ end of FW party

18 - 30 September - 1D in New York, filmed Gotta be You in Lake Placid NY 29 and SUNY 29 September. Speak now break 18, 21 - 23 September, shows other days. The film clip included scenes on a train, the SBT message is "when you were on the train", she wrote it sometime on a bus. Speak Now dates in Colorado, Utah and Georgia. However, 28 September is possibly an anniversary and in the Four hang out (31-33) Harry said gotta be you was his favourite 1D song of all, which Niall clapped and said “well done Taylor your boyfriends back”. Harry met Emily Ostilly.

30 September - 1D at Heathrow

4 October - At Bring 1D to me Munich, when asked about ‘Celebrity Dreamgirls’ Louis says "Celebrity dreamgirls um,  yeah like there's a lot of people I suppose that we think is HOT, like... Harry?" the look Zayn, Niall and Liam's expressions, and Louis this is not flirting, he is 'ribbing' Harry for making out with a famous person and sharing his secrets. Harry says his crush is Emma Watson, who the interviewer says has a crush on him,  H blushes and, not willing to let it go, Louis points out a love bite. Arm Lyrics “It’s easy saying nothing when there’s nothing to say” - KT Tunstall, “Fade Like A Shadow”

5 October - Taylor tweets “Leaving Little Rock, headed to New Orleans. Writing a song on a moving bus” in the album video (8:20) Taylor said she wrote sad beautiful tragic on a bus.

17 October - Harry goes to Ed Sheeran concert with Louis at Eleanor's university then not seen till rehearsals 2 weeks later.

19 October - Harry did a 10 min phone interview alone with Grimmy and said he was passing through Birmingham. There are voices in the background at the end.

20 October - Taylor played San Diego. Harry was not seen. He posted "Finally set the correct time on my Microwave..I feel like a new man." on Twitter.

24 October- Harry is coughing in an interview and looks and sounds unwell. At 16:20 the interviewer asks about their break, Harry purses his lips for age thinking then says he is tried when he comes back to work because he spends his break rushing around to see everyone. Zayn looks to Louis who gives a loud “Hmmm” which is a tell of his for knowing more than is said.

30 October - Taylor writes in lover journal she (also) has a chest infection!

31 October - Taylor adopted Meredith!

2 November - One Direction Tour rehearsals Harry back in London for month

9 November - Harry Shepperton Studios

13 November - Harry Fontain Studios, Xfactor also

15, 17 November - Harry London. filmed One Thing Hyde park 17th

17 November - Louis quoted in media  "Harry's found 'The One' now." and doesn't name Caroline. Harry and Caroline never say more than friends, Eleanor seen with Louis often. Harry in London

18 November - Up all night released. In listening party says “more than this” is his favorite, it’s a deep one. Harry in London,  has dinner with Caroline Flack. On 27 November on chatty man Harry clarifies there were other people there and again says just friends. Articles and Caroline tweets about death threats for having dinner with Harry. (Like WTF would anyone date him publicly?).

19 November - Harry Dublin

22 November - Harry Alan Carr. Taylor posts photo of London shop for preppie rugby menswear (!) and posts a photo to instagram with "Superior Style and Quality Fit" 👀 written on the window. This is a latergram, she had a show in Madison Square Garden. On October 3 Harry had said Rugby shirts look better on girls.

24 November Sugarscope asks if they have an eye on anyone in the US and mention Taylor Swift, all 5 are actually quiet for the first time, Liam’s face changes to serious (0:34), Harry and Zayn look at Louis, maybe because of Oct 4. Niall offers Demi Lovato and all the boys start saying Hollywood in a silly voice. The same interviewer asks about romantic Christmas plans, Louis looks at Harry again, Harry answers truthfully “Christmas at home with family” seems the interviewer and band know what’s not being said, they ask Harry twice

6 December - H Caroline's house

8 December - Caroline and Harry photo, see Caroline post from another blog

10 December - Harry london nightclub,

13 December - Taylor's birthday party inside her Nashville apartment. posted a photo in a recording studio, so assumed that Begin again was recorded on on her birthday. Taylor not seen again that year other than Snow on the Beach Photos. Harry seen in London on the 13th. One direction in tour rehearsals till tour begins 18 December in England (12 & 13)

15 December - Harry posted that he went skinny dipping, as in no shorts to avoid doubt. Taylor still MIA. Paper Rings vibes.

16 December - it snowed in Liverpool, including the "Snow on the beach" 50 minutes from Harry's house in Holmes Chapel.

I8 December - 1 July - Up all night tour, Europe till us in February

22 December - in 1D you tube the band chose a fan question “from Taylor, if you were a girl who would you date” and Zayn laughs and says Harry.

24 December - One Direction Holiday till 3 January. Taylor MIA.

28 December - Taylor posts three photos from a beach one with her face on the beach "Childhood beach memories revisited" and one with snow on the beach behind her "Nothing quite like a freezing cold, wintery beach." some have assumed this was in New Jersey, but the shadows look like an afternoon on an western coast and there was no snow in NJ, nor Taylor seen near there. It had snowed at the beach in Liverpool which is west.

29 December - Taylor posted a seashell with Safe and Sound Lyrics written (it had just been released) with the caption "Saying goodbye to the shore, writing on a seashell."

30 December - Harry got his drivers licence, on 28 June 2012 on Bert show (11 mins) said “the first thing I did was my …….. someone brought the car to me and I dropped them off at the pub” Harry was in Manchester. Louis posted he was in Paris Disneyland with Eleanor. Apart from the winter/snow on the beach photos Taylor hadn't been seen for a week, she then posted a goodbye and Harry's first drive was to drop someone secret somewhere. 👀 

31 December - Harry goes back to London flat for new years party, in same interview Harry said they spent Christmas at home

3 January - Caroline Break up announcement. Harry later tweets, he 'didn't dump' her, he never said they were more than friends. Caroline also said "95% of what was reported was false". 

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