#also the fact that i've had my mock blog for like 2 weeks and the tags still don't work... upsetting :/

[janaematthews]

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[inqilabi]

I did read your documents, and it clearly says the US would not support Syrian opposition and do not plan on prolonging the civil war.

and right it's a straw man, it's not like you wrote just 2 posts below "Assad is a dictator for killing US-backed ISIS." Like this ironic tone and the complete erasure of the first victims by very very far of Assad, Syrian people, is exactly what I've been reading from so many western leftists. Same people who have been mocking and dismissing our revolution by saying it was all an US-backed psyop. I'm not making this up, I have read it times and times again. I might have reacted because of the "Russian media" thing, because yes it's a touchy subject for me, but I did look further into your blog and it was clear the way you talk about Syria. Like when you said "I am looking in all the leaders they've blamed for something, I am reading and listening what Assad himself actually has said." I usually really like your blog which is why this makes me so sad, to see I can't trust western leftists on the subject, even the ones i usually listen too

I see your point. But here is my perspective on my political development. In around 2015/2016, I chewed somebody's ear out for what I saw as indefensible defence of Assad who I was sure killed his own people via chemical gas attacks. But as I've been reading more about geopolitics the last 2 years, many of these things I believed have been thrown into question entirely. I don't know if I will arrive finally at the conclusions like these other leftists you are talking about. I use to berate these leftists myself as I thought that they were defending the indefensible. But as I read more, my positions are shifting. If you've followed me before 2020, you'd definitely have noticed this.

When I say go read the words of these leaders they've blamed, I don't see anything wrong with researching the dominant held belief and the narratives? Especially since we know that US exploits any fault lines within a country/ethnicity etc or even makes up stories entirely (Nayirah testimony, Gulf of Tonkin) as a pretext for imperialism under 'human rights intervention'? And especially since I had to literally dedicate 2 years of straight reading to finally arrive at some of these positions I have now.

Here is what I have learned so far that is contrary to the common position on Syria. There was no strong evidence of the chemical attacks & one of the initial US personnel retracted the statement[1], wikileaks finding from two whisleblowers on the OPCW reports on Douma attack revealed buried evidence where it pointed to Syrian gov/Assad not being responsible [2/3] The RAND doc actually does explore backing various Syrian factions just to prolong the war in Syria so long as it served as a proxy war against Russia. It simply states that it is against US PR interests and costs, but does have benefits for extending Russia (and imo also Iran & Lebanon). But then we do know that US in fact, did back various anti-assad forces in secret programs, some of these were revealed in 2016 [2][3][4/5,6]. I think the original opposition against Assad were real legitimate protests, over land reform, housing prices, inflation etc. But within a couple of weeks, NED/CIA mobilized funds and trained 'moderate rebels' to control this opposition for US interests. This is what I would consider soft-power scenarios. I mean there are some US documents suggesting US was creating sectarian faction lines to exploit in order to overthrow. US Gen Wesley Clark talked about how US had plans for 7 countries in 5 years back in 2001: Iraq, Syria, Lebanon, Libya, Somalia, Sudan, And Iran. I just think US could not do it in 5 years and Syria and Libya became Obama's wars.

Also want to mention this declassified but heavily redacted document where US was okay to have Syria so divided and split with civil war that if it turned into a salafist state, it would have been a perfectly good outcome [6]. Prior to this, in Dec 2006, US had plans to overthrow Assad and they go over all the fault-lines that could be exploited or created. You can read the summary [7] or the wikileak cable itself [8].

I have my criticisms of Assad, and I do not know the entire history of Syria especially since decolonial movements which are important to understand in order to fully understand a country today [i have some further readings planned on that: 8, 9, 10). But the reason why I do not criticize these leaders on my blog is because one can simply go outside my blog and google Assad or talk to any random westerner and you will find that perspective. Instead I focus on reports and readings that challenge the dominant western narratives.

[lightcomingthroughthedarkness]

Okay so. I'm so heartbroken about b/cho. Like, i knew it was happening, but it completely broke me and i hate that. I've cried at least 5 times because of this. Because I'm not sure i recognize Bell anymore but also bc of what JR said about them. The fact that he tries to defend that "real relationship" when he's been mocking and manipulating bellarkers for years to make us watch, barely recognizing bellarke as a more than co-leaders, keeping them abiguous... It pisses me off so damn much. (1/2)

(2/2) Which is why, and I know it’s unpopular among the fandom to think like that, i’m not sure i will keep watching the 100 if Bellarke isn’t explicitely romantic in a way or another by the end of the season. I’m just so tired of being disapointed.

Nonny, you made me really sad with this ask because I can really feel your heartbreak. I get it. believe me. I get it so hard. It has broken me too, several times during my 5 stages of grief these past few weeks. Also, don’t bother with what fandom thinks or not. They are just random people on the internet. You are allowed to feel whatever you feel.

Now, listen. I am the most cynical person in this fandom. You’ll find me in the positivity group for a few hours every 5 months but then I need to get my head back in check and I end up rejecting it all. So it get it. You want to protect your heart.

6 years. My life looked completely different 6 years ago. I was a completely different person. My relationships today are not the same. In order for you to make peace with this new Bellamy, make peace with the fact that he has lived 6 years that we do not get to see. To talk about 6 years is not the same as to live life for 6 years. You don’t have to like B/E or believe it’s right for Bellamy. God and God’s parents know I don’t. I reject the entire scene. I reject the dialogue. I refuse to even play with the notion that I could like this. I do not. I tolerate it for one single reason. Because I can’t do ANYTHING about it. The season is already filmed and done. I will critize it. I will call out what I do not like. I will roll my eyes. And I will turn to my fandom friends THAT FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO. That’s how I deal with this. No matter how much I loath it.

What also helped me deal with this, as something I have no control over, is realizing that Bellamy Blake is a far better person then I’ll ever be. Again, I do not like it but it is the writing choice Jason has made. Either I watch (and bitch on my blog) or I stop watching all together because it doesn’t bring me joy. Bellamy Blake brings me so much joy that I cannot leave him to these heathens. But loving him also means accepting the parts of him you don’t agree with. Like that stupid big heart of his finding strength to forgive E when all I would have done is thrown her into the sun. I struggle with this every day. Some days I do better. Other days, I want to set the show on fire. In order to handle this whole thing, find a way to AT LEAST tolerate that Bellamy has forgiven her because he spent 6 years with her. You don’t have to like it, just rationalize it in your head enough to be able to keep watching the show.

Jason has done mistakes. He’s written shitty things. I don’t always agree with him. He’s been an ass on social media. But… we love Bellarke in large part because of him. Because of the writing and built up they have had for the past 4 seasons.

I don’t know if Bellarke is going to be canon by the end of the season. I do believe something will shift. But I’m also not the person to come to if you want to talk endgame. What I can tell you is that under no shape or form is B/E a threat to Bellarke. Under no shape or form will Clarke and Bellamy not find their way back to each other. They will. They will. They will. You are not delusional. You are right. You are seeing what you are seeing. Bellarke. I cannot promise you an endgame or a happy ending but I can promise you that Bellamy Blake and Clarke Griffin will find their way back to each other. Have patience. We’ll get there together.