#also not a callout for anyone bc I know some artists are genuinely like this. it's just not how everyone works and that's fine!!

[rosieofcorona]

(art ramble, pls feel free to scroll past)

i've seen a few opinions circulating about how being a "true" artist means you enjoy every stage of the process, and while i'm sure some people do feel that way i just don't think it's true for everyone? art is difficult. learning how to draw or paint or sculpt or write requires, like any other skill, immense work and practice and dedication.

i think it's disingenuous to say that true artists love every stage and every second of making art. it's a journey. there's a learning curve. it's frustrating. sometimes you do hours of tinkering just to realize what you've done isn't working. sometimes you start over and over and over. sometimes you throw it out altogether, and you do not love it, and that's okay.

just my opinion, but i think what makes a true artist is really the commitment to learning, and to the improvement of your craft even when it's a challenge. should you be miserable all the time? no. but loving every moment is not a prerequisite either. it's the persistence that makes it a passion.

[climbdraws]

there's a callout post going around saying you've scammed people out of their commissions, and that you've caused a wc designer to leave tumblr bc you made a post saying something about if a design is removed so far from canon and the character isn't recognizable it's a bad design or w/e, which caused "your" fans to attack said designer even tho you didn't name anyone and they were (unfortunately) already getting angry anons about their designs long before that post ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

welp glad to know people are so bored during quarantine to bring up old drama from 2018 so imma just address this again 

1. Commissioners who felt “scammed” because of long wait times (which I have 100% taken accountability for as my fault for biting off more than I can chew and getting overwhelmed) have all received refunds. 

Any commissioners who may have been missed and not received a refund, PLEASE CONTACT ME DIRECTLY so I can issue one. More than once I have had people delete their accounts or change their usernames/profile pics without giving me contact info and that makes it incredibly hard to follow up unless they reach out to me first - so please do! If the wait time is too long, people can ask for a refund at any time and I will be happy to do so. 

2. I made a post TWO YEARS AGO absentmindedly while on break at work stating an opinion - that character designs that are so far completely removed from canon that they are unrecognizable  = bad character design. And guess what? I still stand by that! Who cares? People acting as though I'm trying to force people to draw a certain way or abide by certain rules are crazy and literally twisting my words for the sake of drama. Literally was just an opinion that people blew up over because people are thirsty for attention and drama.  

3. I never mentioned a single person by name or directly @ them. It was a growing trend that a lot of artists were (are?) participating in and I simply posted my personal thoughts on it. 

Anyone who has followed me knows how much I personally enjoy realistic designs and more realism-based interpretations of Warriors (I literally used to make non-stop genetically accurate AU posts). I never once have said “Stop having fun!!” or “No one is allowed to make weird/funky/sparklecat designs!!”. They’re just not my cup of tea. Wanna draw Firestar as blue or Nightstar as white? Cool - just make an AU! Or better yet - make your own OCs! 

“But Climb people are just having fun with their art why do you care what they do??”

I LITERALLY DON’T!! I genuinely could not give two-fucks if you wanna make a bunch of sparkle-cat/neon colored/weird/funky ass designs on your own blog. Tumblr literally made a mountain out of a molehill over an opinion on fictional cat designs. My opinion has literally no value and shouldn’t affect how or whether someone continues to create content (or whether they choose to use a certain platform). If I had been criticizing fan art for any other fandom or even professional art put out by studios - my opinion would still be the same regarding recognizable character design. (Also people blowing this up as if I'm some verified™ artist that has like 1million subs or something?) 

Any ““fans”” who felt the need to bully and send hate-mail over a Tumblr post are pathetic and most are too cowardly to even come off anonymous to face up to their own words. If I was petty enough to want people to send hate over it, I would have just @ them directly originally 🤷‍♀️

tldr; people trying to start drama again over this after two years are just attention-seekers trying to get #clout for fake internet points. if you’re bored enough to want to start drama up again from 2 years ago of me posting criticism about fictional cat designs and apparently “bullying a minor off a website” (which cough cough they’re 1 (one) year younger than me) - you should probably find something better to do with your time!

The cool thing about the internet is that if you see an opinion or post you don’t vibe with you can just unfollow/block and not have to see it anymore! Ain’t that neat? 🤔

[oh-no-whoopsie]

reasons I love kip!! (aka @ghostsingold) 

(making this post bc they deserve all the love and my meds have kicked in so im able to be productive today. thanks long-acting adderall!!) 

kip I love you for so many reasons and as I fill out college applications im gonna list them out <3 no special occasion its just! you make me happy and I wanted to share that with you and since I have a teeny blog no one will see this but you <3 

1.) this response to a post I made on my old blog. it was one of my first positive interactions on Tumblr and this tiny piece of writing made that entire week easier. it was a tiny start to a friendship and it was also a stranger caring for me, which at that time I didn’t think was possible. 

2.) every single time that they have been a part of the Brown Eye Stan Club and hyped up brown eyes,,,,dude I can’t you’ve been such a big part of the journey to accept my brown eyes. it means so much to me that you just? say it!! you’re proud of the fact you love brown eyes! hell yeah dude! thank you!

3a.) for sending me songs that remind you of me??? to have someone think of me?? MY HEART?? I- I can’t express how much it means to me I just,, hnnhhh you even made me a fucking playlist (which I listen to CONSTANTLY) (here is the playlist ) just. dude. I love you 

4.) one of those songs is Glitter & Gloss by Skott and 

          a) this song makes me feel like a fucking badass 

          b) made me feel so appreciated and loved because it was the first time someone had said “this song reminds me of you!” 

          c). when I was stalking your blog trying to find my old posts I found this post about that song and?? sunbeams through Spanish moss? trees? pretty?? is this how you see me?? im in love????? also this ask I sent you where you describe your love for the sun <3 the implication that I am even a little bit like the sun to you makes me wanna cry happiness 

5.) Your taste in music is SUPERB. IMPECCABLE. A DELIGHT. 

6.) Someday I will have the strength to do naniwrimo with you and that will be a glorious month (and next September we should be able to be writing buddies!!!!! because now I have meds for attention span so I can write again >:) ) 

7.) A long time ago (old blog) I asked for people to give me nicknames because I never got cute nicknames and because I could only ever insult myself. for the longest time I forgot what you said but I remembered!!!! it was birdie!!

          a). even though now most people call me doe cuz of bumblebee, you were the first person to reply to that post and just because milk suggested fawn/doe and it stuck doesn’t mean I love birdie any less 

          b.) it means a lot that you suggested it in the first place and while I was finding links for this post I came across this ask where you call me birdie :> p.s. you still mean a lot to me and I hope you’re okay <3 

8.) every single time you sent me a picture of a frog :),, also that one post about taking fake shots of water still sends me but I can’t find it to link it,, and also everything you listed on this post including the fact that it is inspired by my post

9.) when you agreed to talk to people for me when I was panicking thinking they were going to die but had to go to sleep. that means so much that you would take that role on and dude I am so so sorry I ever asked that of you. 

10). you made me find magic in the sunlight and not just the moonlight, you helped me find that balance and accept that piece of me and it sounds stupid but its really important ok also im just gonna say it: your voice is perfection it is comfort it is warm and all things good in this world. ive only heard you speak like twice but I could listen to you for the rest of my life

11.) sometimes you send me posts that r like “thinking of you!!” and THEY MAKE MY DAY omfg 

12.) when you drew me!!! 

          a.) bc holy shit you are an amazing artist if you let me I want to post that drawing of me on my blog

          b.) I was supposed to draw you in return I am sorry I did not,, I still plan on doing it tho 

          c.) we drew ourselves as fairies and that was pretty fun 

          d.) you made me see beauty in myself I- 

13.) for never once encouraging my ed or bad habits. you were ready to call me tf out and I appreciate that so much dude? you were never subtley pro you also seem ready to stab anyone who opposes you. hell you post callouts against pr0-ana shit and m**nspo and f*tspo and photoshop and all of it. I admire you so much 

14.) for letting me ramble on about hermes and offerings and spirituality! 

15.) for lighting a candle for Catherine and talking with me that night

(I have the entire conversation copied into a google doc on my phone because it needed to be saved. the things you said are beautiful. it is so touching and breathtaking and if I could hug you I would and  I promise not to forget if you won’t forget. )

16.) holy shit dude P O E T R Y, both for being so good at it and for reading mine. 

17.) helping validate my arospec questioning and enby questioning,,, it was actually through your blog that I realized oh shit! I might be aro!! and having someone to talk about gender issues and arospec stuff is SO AMAZING and I love you <3 and thank you for talking with me and for helping me and for validating me 

18) validating my anger!! or at least helping to do so! you point out when things are unfair! you genuinely want my life to improve! you helped me realize some of my friends are shitty! you helped me accept things! 

19.) I love your vibes. I can’t say this enough but somehow you are just so wonderful to me,,, you are amazing I can’t describe it. you are ethereal and terrific and your features could be anywhere from beautiful to cryptic to solid to handsome but I promise you that there is something unique about you. a bit of mystery and magic left over from the days when fairytales were real. you have all the power of the sun and light and fire in both the life giving and the destructive aspects. you are so perfect and wonderful thank you 

20.) because you told me “you do not deserve to be traumatized” and in all honesty that slapped me into reality. if i still had my old Tumblr I probably would’ve screenshotted it so I could get the exact quote but I do not know how to make you understand How Much That Helped me 

all in all,,,, I must end the list here because I need to go be productive. alas.there is more I didn’t even BEGIN to mention,,, but kip, you are my rae of sunshine. someday we are going to go be cryptic authors in Scotland who disappear into the woods, perhaps to hunt with the faeries, perhaps no, who knows. we will become part of the local lore,, independent and happy and spooky. 

I love you so much!  also sorry I went through your archive to find all this,,,, to be fair I already did it once to find my posts <3 

I would never say that just one person “saved me”. thats too big of a responsibility to share. but kip, you helped save me, in ways I can’t explain, from myself and from death and from an abyss of numbness. you saved me from a thousand tiny deaths and gave me a thousand new pieces of life and I would not be the person I am today without you. I love and appreciate you so much and you bring me sunlight and joy and peace and connection. you are a true friend to me. thank you for being here. you deserve the world and so much more. 

[lumensuperbis]

tagged by @morethanonepage by way of ‘mutuals feel free to do this’, but that totally counts and is also what i’m going to say bc i hate making people feel pressured to do these.so, mutuals or anyone i talk to on discord have at it!

name/nickname: devann

gender: female

star sign: virgo

height: 5′5″

time: 3:22 pm

birthday: [redacted]

favorite bands: catch me still stuck on h.i.m. and mcr like it's 2005

favorite solo artists: gonna go with two entirely different moods and say hozier and ashnikko, or at least that's who i've been listening to most lately

song stuck in my head: callout post for liam o'brien bc i looked at his vax playlists and i've been listening to what's up danger on repeat for like 3 days

last movie: uhhhh ...i think i watched let's scare jessica to death last month when i was pretending that the random horror generator podcast was actually gonna get me to watch movies again. other than that possibly when i rewatched the crow in october?

last show: last actual show i watched was probably when i rewatched the crow stairway to heaven show from the 90s back in october [i’m sensing a pattern here]. if you count critical role as a show though i've been on and off that since mid november and am in fact watching it now

when did i make this blog: may 2012, guess who was embarrassingly into the avengers

what i post: still a lot of tma art even though i've hated this whole season, some critical role stuff now, and always just a bunch of random art i like. non-fandom art is the interest that will never die.

last thing i googled: [company my dad worked for] retirement savings plan login

other blogs: i still theoretically run the joneliasweek2020 blog even though i don't think i've reblogged anything there in over a month, and i have textsfromtrc which was a raven cycle texts from last night thing from 6 years ago [which hilariously still sometimes gets notes]

do i get asks: nope. the only time i really got asks was when i was trc fandom, and also when i had a few random posts blow up so people decided they needed to send me anon hate. part of me is kind of sad about not getting asks but also i get stressed out when i rarely see i do have one bc my brain has associated tumblr ask with ‘someone is about to yell at you’

why i chose my url: it is *theoretically* prideful light in latin but i haven't taken latin in mmmm 13 years? so i don't know if it's actually right or not, it was the option that sounded prettiest though when i was trying to work it out with help from google translate so i went with it. the url i wanted last time i changed it was luciferlux but i can't have it so i went with this instead.

following: 59

followers: 2,302

average hours of sleep: probably 8ish

lucky number: [shrugs]

Instruments: i used to play the piano and i played the saxophone for like a year

what am i wearing rn: my lucifer comics shirt and leggings

dream trip: traveling is incredibly stressful to me so whenever i think of something i automatically think of a reason why it would be Bad Actually, but i would like to go to Japan. and also back to Italy.

favorite food: pizzaaaaa

nationality: american

favorite song: i genuinely don't know how people can pick a favorite song. i'll just say either hozier's arsonist's lullaby or mumford & sons' broken crown bc those are the songs that would be on the playlist for literally every one of my favorite characters so they get a lot of play

last book read: the third animorphs book. yes i am reading animorphs for the first time in the year 2021

top three fictional universes: i think all my favorite universes are just like ...our world but with magic, but definitely the cal leandros series and the october daye series. also the wayward children series, which is kind of a cop-out answer bc that encompases literally all fantasy worlds but [shrug] what can i say, seanan mcguire knows how to make a world

favorite color: probably green and purple. and black, if you count that as a color

[foxcassius]

okay y’all, opinions on love by chance vs uwma, scroll past if u dont give a fuck

uwma is the 4th thai drama i’ve ever seen, love by chance was the first, and these are the only two that really really stick out to me. the other two, 2moons and sotus, were good and i liked them, but this post isn’t abt them bc today i’m talking about my, current, favorites. editing to say that i should mention for anyone reading who’s unaware that lbc and uwma are also made by the same studio and share a director, so comparing them makes more sense than comparing shows made by different studios and people.

uwma embodies my favorite trope, and no it is not necessarily the soulmate trope. while soulmates does, as a trope, usually embody the aspects of my favorite trope, my all-time favorite bl, sekaiichi hatsukoi, wouldnt fall under soulmates, and sekaiichi is where my favorite trope comes from, it was the first thing i ever watched that has this trope. my favorite trope is people who once knew or dated each other reconnecting years and years later, sometimes in a different life counts if they have memories from the past life, and ultimately everything works out the second time around. idk why it’s my favorite trope, i just know i went hard to some sekaiichi in 2012, and ever since anything that reminds me of sekaiichi even a little gets a big fucking thumbs up.

because uwma has this, it has obviously stuck out to me. i also really enjoy the main couple—even more, to be honest, than i enjoyed ae and pete in lbc. i also absolutely ADORE the soundtrack, the instrumental background music is very very good, though i don’t think any theme song will ever trump the lbc theme for me bc that shit just. goes too hard. i also feel like the acting in uwma is very very good. dare i say? better than lbc. which honestly may just come with more experience from the director and studio, but seeing as the actors are not the same, it’s hard to tell what the cause is. but the crying scenes in uwma are almost bearable, whereas seeing a person cry in lbc always made me like. idk, uncomfortable?? which might have been the point idk but if it was purposeful then that was a bold move. there has also been so much improvement when it comes to the camera shots. lbc wasnt bad, but the shots weren’t really artistic or daring imo. uwma has so so so many shots that are just LOVELY to me. particularly, the first one that comes to mind is the shot of sin on the phone with dean when dean is asking him to look for info on korn and intouch. the purples? the oranges? the perfect balance of shadow? and jesus fucking CHRIST don’t even get me STARTED on the chasxter design for sin, so absolutely fucking *chef’s kiss* where’s the spinoff about sin and sorn i need it fr does it already exist i know nothing about thai dramas.

okay well since i started now i have to go off about the character designs and casting choices. idk the names of these actors well bc i’m not following any of them on social media (yet) but the actor they cast for pharm is fucking phenomenal. he pulls of those awkward smiles and cringes so much better and more convincingly than i’ve seen other actors do with his character type. i love that he like genuinely seems like he could be a college freshman (but don’t even talk to me about how dean looks 30) lots of shows, like 2moons, seem to be “what college freshmen think their life is like while they’re in the middle of it” and others, like lbc and uwma, are like “what college freshmen actually look and act like, you weirdos.” of course, i would, can, and will die for sammy melanie coates, she’s officially my favorite actress in the thai drama world and i didnt even know she was in uwma but when it started up and it was eyes on manaow i almost died!!!!!!!! i love her she’s an amazing actress. and it was super fun to catch glimpses of actors i do know from lbc in secondary and tertiary roles in uwma, tho i’m sad that mean gets typecast as “other guy” so much bc i genuinely love him. and finally, the character design for sin can just strike me down where i fuckin stand, talk about callout post for me in the middle of this thai drama i’m just. i love it.

this is a side note, but i also like that pharm is on the less waifish side. bl is terrible about the set DYNAMIC of big seme willowy uke, even lbc had me like :/ with saint playing pete and playing him In Such A Way like idk i know that plenty of gay people ARE effeminate and all but i do very much enjoy castings, specifically in bl dramas which have such a track record, that break that stereotype.

i don’t think it’s over yet, which i didn’t know when i started it, but the most recent episode was posted like 2 days ago so i hold hope for another episode or two. if not that, it clearly needs another season. seeing as how it is definitely not over, i can’t judge for sure what my overall impression of the series as a whole will be. however, as it stands, i don’t think uwma makes me doki as hard as lbc, and this is 10000% bc of tin and can.

what can i say bro? tincan is one of my favorite couples from anything ever. there is something so fucking good and entertaining about their dynamic, and the way the characters grow and their emotions develop is so so good to me, and the scene where can turns tin down For Real at the end of season 1 absolutely blows me away every time, i cry irl bro!! there is something ABOUT tin and can, something about the actors, something about the way theyre played that i can’t get over. when i think about lbc and i Die, it’s not dying over ae and pete, even though i like them very much. it’s dying over tin and can. i literally can’t think of how to put my opinions on this into words, they just genuinely affected me. they’re a gem in the dumpster fire that is bl.

so anyway, long story short i think uwma is overall? a better series. but lbc owns my ass specifically bc of tincan.