#also my sister and i got our mom a new bluetooth speaker and she's testing it out by blasting a lovely variety of tunes through the house -

[chrismcshell]

i was offline for most of the day yesterday because i was spending christmas day w my family 👍

mom got me some great pyjamas

[thatcanadianfangirl]

Colours  -Part 2-

Jackson Whittemore X Jen

Requested: yes

Plot: Every single soul sees in color until they lose the hope of finding a soulmate. 

Word Count: 2,949

A/N: I'm still struggling. Sorry, but here the second part to colours. I know it took forever and I'm truly sorry. Also only most of this is edited, not all of it. If you are younger than 13 please don't read my works, mature content.

part 1

 It’s been a week of hiding out in my apartment and that day had become unspeakable. Avoiding life’s reality became my new routine, even if the voice deep down inside whispered ‘Snap the fuck out of it. That’s your damn soulmate.’ I never did,  It wasn't known as logical in my anxious working brain.

I replayed every step of that day in my head over and over again. The moments of my heart having a panic attack in my rib cage. The way Jackson’s now blue eyes sparkled, vibrantly, and the way I dashed off from him and away from my favourite café. I was scared, I was overwhelmed. If I’m being honest I thought I would never find him. As the horrid thought started to settled in ,he suddenly rolls up out of fucking nowhere.

I was startled, like a spooked horse from a gunshot. 

In my mind there was nothing else I could do, I believed I was destined to level down for less. I was wrong and it happened incredibly fast, one minute I was okay with only having a soulmate. The next, I was facing my true soulmate, In my mind everything was unfolding too fast.

The anxious and eager knock on my apartment door threw me out of my strangling mind. I settled the chip bag I was devouring just seconds ago, down beside me. Grabbed a hold of the remote, pausing the Disney picture on the screen. Searching for a clearer sound of who decided to disturb my depressed peace. 

Jen don't ignore me, I left you alone for a full seven days. You know rule number three. I bribed your co-worker to cover your ass, so I better get a thanks because it wasn't easy. Also I know your in there, I could The Little Mermaid playing before you paused it. I mean where else who you be, lets be real.” Monica yelled through the door, only coming out as a loud murmur. Though I could hear every word perfectly fine.

Rule number three:

If something emotional or personal happens to the other. Leave them alone for a whole seven days, then you can act like a psycho . 

Rule number Four..

I sighed loudly rolling my eyes to the back of my head, I yanked the comfortable blanket from around me. My seven days are up and I'm not too happy about it. I’m glad Rule number three wasn't made any longer, because I don't think I’d ever go back to reality if more days were added. 

once the Seven days are up it’s time to let reality flow again, no matter the conditions. Within those days on vacation from the real world my house has turned into a disgusting hibernation cave. 

Turning off the T.V I scooted my butt of the couch and towards the door to let my crazy bestfriend inside. I pushed the door in a little bit with my body before turning the dead bulk and swinging the door open. 

I had to admit she looked different, maybe it was because I’ve always saw her in a colourless state. Or that she actually did change within the days we haven't seen each other. Her hair now a dirty blonde, almost reaching a light sandy brown. Her eyes a dull grey with  small hints of blue specks. Monica’s skin was peachy with a tinge of a tan, flawless like the rest of her. 

“Whoa” The word was shared between us. like and echo through an abandoned house. I faintly smiled at her, I didn't know what that meant. “I never thought I’d see you again.” Monica spoke defiantly sensing my confusion. 

“I know the colourless me was almost like an alter ego, a depressed alter ego that hid me under multiple layers. That Jen is a distant memory now... God I missed your ass.” I spoke understanding where she was coming from. 

We’re both captured in silence before colliding into each other’s embrace. My arms wrapping around her neck as her’s circled around my waist. I breathed in relief, god I missed her more than I would of liked to admit. We stayed into each others arms, taking this moment all in. Without her. I couldn't see a life without her, She’s my sister.

“I missed you too.” She mumbled but I heard her clearly. I started to pull away while she continued to talk. “But I knew you needed the time and space to gather yourself again. And of course rule number three.” Monica said light heartily. 

“Yeah I did and I’m ready to return to my life, clean my apartment. Go back to work and when I’m ready, I’ll find him at the cafe down the road. And Jeremy is a sweet guy all you have to do is tell him that you already have a soulmate. He’d understand.” I smiled at her, happy to have her back.

“It’s okay you can tell him for me and while you're at it tell him I’m a lesbian too.” We laughed together at her comment. Jeremy was a dork and so damn clueless, but I couldn't ask for better co-worker. 

Monica obviously chose to stay over, helping me clean up the pig’s den I’ve been currently living in for the past week. I truly don't know how I survived in this filth, it was absolutely disturbing. After taking my beats pill from the bathroom, Monica played her music an we began our cleaning marathon.

We danced and goofed around, having fun and making the most out of it. With her anything can become fun, she was that kind of person. Though through the process I heard a lot of ‘Holy shit you’re so disgusting’ or ‘I think you’re brother came to visit early’ which got boring after the first ten times she said them. 

But what can I do, I love the girl. 

waking up to a clean and quite atmosphere felt refreshing for a recovering mind. I remembered just days ago, I woke up to a loud TV playing something from the Disney Channel.  I didn't usually fall asleep watching T.V, but when I do. I’m mostly likely not feeling the best and always something Disney. 

Disney is my comfort blanket bringing me back to my childhood-self. Guarding me from the adult world that happened to be my reality. 

I tapped on my Shawn Mendes playlist from my phone for it to be heard from my Bluetooth speaker. I loved the way Shawn’s voice soothed me to a calming state that felt so unbelievable. Gathering myself in the shower today felt different, maybe it was the first time in forever I felt like my old self again. 

The cold water cascades down on my body waking up every tired muscle and cell. feeling more refreshed than I’ve felt in a very long time. It was amazing. My hands slipped all over my body, once they reached my left shoulder blade they slowed. Feeling the soulmate mark embedded into my skin, rough and texturized. I could the shape at the tips of my fingers, it’s a simple leaf. 

what’s the meaning behind it, there has to be a reason why it’s that, right? My mother and father share a poppy on their wrists. They say they know what it means, but didn't want to tell me till I found my soulmate. Now they can, but I don't think I want to know. It’s their mean I didn't want to intrude. 

I had gotten out of the shower and began to get ready for the day ahead. somewhere deep down I could feel this day is going to change my life forever. 

Pulling my olive green bootie on I said goodbye to the cat and I was out the door. Hoping that they give me enough courage to enter the café that my soulmate was employed at

To relief stress from taking controlling of my body,  leading me back to the apartment. I lost myself to my workout playlist, finding the beat and slightly dancing to it. Surprisingly it felt amazing, my spirit felt free and happy.

It wasn't long before I found myself standing in front of the beautiful café. Removing my earbuds with a quick yank I stared at the café’s big words. ‘The Black Rose’ The place I adored and happened to hold my mate hostage. 

One thought crossed my mind, why haven't we made eye contact sooner? I mean I have been going to this coffee shop since I moved here. I think I've seen him a few times before, but no eye contact. It seemed weird, almost unnaturally strange. 

“Miss are you going to go in or stare at it like you're banned from it?” A smooth and gentle voice flooded my ears. My head snapped to the source, a little boy, no older than thirteen. “Um-.” My words got caught in my throat, I must of looked deranged just staring at the sign. 

The boy smiled at me sweetly before walking forward and opening the door. Still the smile stayed as he held the glass door open for me. There was no chance for me to deny him now, especially with those brown puppy dog eyes. Brown was a gorgeous eye colour, But blue seemed to be above it. 

I looked around quickly, not catching anyone who had saw my strange staring. I return his bright smile as I walked in , “Thank you, you're such a gentlemen.”  words spilled out before any thought. “Of course, my mom taught me to be.”

I was a little amazed at his manners, because I’ve bumped into teenagers around his age before. They didn't have anything close to what he had, rude, anxious little demons. This boy a pure angel with his adorable smile and politeness. 

“Than she was doing something right.” Was my last words to the young boy, my mind no longer distracted. My mood changing from happiness to determination, it was now or never. 

This is my soulmate, nobody else's.

This is my life, nobody else's 

I walked my strong path up to the barista having one thing on my mind. I need to talk to Jackson, not even worrying, if he was working or not. 

 Melting brown eyes stared into mine, “Is Jackson here?” I asked breathless, his name just rolled off my tongue like it was the most natural thing. Amusement showed on his face. his one eyebrow lifted, as if testing me like I wasn't worthy. 

“And who are you exactly?” He asked carefully, 

“His soulmate.” With those words the guy’s head was over his shoulder immediately. “Jackson!” He hollered loudly and waited. My heart pounded hard in my chest, this was it. I’m going to see my soulmate, actually see him. 

“Yeah?” His husky voice muffled behind a door. My mind slipped out of confidence, this was a terrible idea. What was I thinking, I obviously wasn't!

“There’s someone here for you.”  

Well it’s too late to back out now. remember, now or never. 

“I’ll be a few seconds.” 

You know never seems like the better option.

The barista’s head whipped back towards me, “Tell him I headed outside, thank you.” I spoke before walking towards the door. Outside I glanced down at a broken crack in the pavement, it felt strange, in a perfect world nothing was meant to be broken, maybe bent, but never broken. It reminded me that this world was far from perfect. 

“Listen,” Jackson’s voice wavered, I turned around startled by the way it had affected me. Seeing him forcing his vibrant eyes to the ground was confusing. He took a deep breath before continuing. “Last night was a complete and utter mistake. It was only a distraction, not an attachment. Honestly it didn't help like I thought it would, but it cant happen again. I have a soulmate...” He trailed off.

It took milliseconds to put two and two together, he slept with someone else to forget me. it didn't work, but my soulmate had sex with another women. I didn't want it to hurt, but god did it ever. Like a rope wrapped it’d self around my heart and pulled until it  cut into two. It was a bloody crime. 

My throat grew to a throb as my eyes stung as tears lined my eyes. Fuck it hurt. “I know because she is me.” I choked my words out before turned my way back home. My hand clutched towards my mouth trying to stop my sobs. 

“Shit.” Jackson mumbled under he’s breath. I heard his feet charging after me, I wanted on of those unnatural cracks to open up and take me under. It was too late, Jackson hooked his hand in mine. Tingles erupted and made their way through my body. Making my mood change rapidly. He yanked me back and towards him.

My free hand made it’s way under my eyes and wiped my warm tears away. My throat’s throb no longer in tact. “Wow you're breathtaking.” His tone dreamy as I raised my eyes to his blue ones. 

I’ve never seen anything more memorizing than the shade of blue in his eyes. His perfect and sharp features, his skin having no flaws. He was perfect and couldn't be more blessed. 

“She really meant nothing, It-” 

“Stop, Jackson, I know.” I said softly. 

“God your voice sounds as if you stole it from an angel.” he said in the same tone as before. It made a giggle erupt from my chest at the way he said it. “I think you just took my breath away.” He spoke seriously as his expression was blank. 

“Jackson I think we need to start again if you want your slip up to be left behind.” I slide my hand out of his as my rational thoughts came back to me. Regretting it because I was know missing how his physical contact made me feel.

“Okay, well at least I'm on break.” He said lifting up his wrist and checking the time. “I have thirty minutes, now walk a little ways down the sideway.”  He directed. I smiled with a confused expression I started walking backwards, “And why exactly I am I doing this?” I asked him still looking into his vibrant eyes, I don't think I could ever get tired of that color. 

“You wanted to start over, so we are. You’ll come walking back, distracted my your phone or that cute dog across the street..” I whipped my head to the other side of the street when he said ‘cute dog’ and there was in fact a beautiful dog. 

It was a white German Shepard, It was almost like I was colourless again. except the colour of it’s fur happened to be brighter. I had spotted it’s light honey coloured eyes once it glanced in my direction. One beautiful creature. 

“Jen” At the sound of my name rolling off his tongue I mentally purred. I loved the way he said it. I turned towards him pulling my lips inward as I got distracted before I was meant to. “Sorry.” I laughed out. 

He rolled his eyes but nevertheless his smile remained. “anyways. you’ll get distracted and ill bump into you. Its an easy plan should go easy.” He said and at that moment I realized he was being completely serious about this. I know it wont be that hard to fall in love with Jackson cause I already adored him. 

I did exactly as told and bumped into him, my shoulder pressed against him and the sensation of sparks had me gasping. I dropped my phone that I used for my distraction, Jackson held onto my waist and skillfully rescued my phone from hitting  the cement flooring. 

A sly smile made it’s way onto his lips as he said “My bad I didn't see you there.” I wanted to laugh because this was already planned out, but I kept my act on. “It’s fine I wasn't watching where I was going.” I responded back. “A beauty like you shouldn't have to.” He spoke out. I couldn't help but feel the blush creep up my neck. 

“The names Jackson and I think I just found my Soulmate.” I giggled slightly at the way he said it. He handed me my phone back after I watched him save him number into my phone. 

“Jen,” I smiled up at him as he pulled my body closer, “Well, Jen Let me take you out for a cup of coffee.” 

I frowned and loosened  his grip on me, his face fell just slightly. Just the reaction I was wanting. “I don't do coffee.” I spoke with a vaguely disgusted face. 

“What are you talking about? The day I met you. you had a coffee with two sugars and two cream. and you have the audacity to say you don't do coffee.” He spoke in some kind of rant. I rolled my lips in to stopping my laugh, But I knew I couldn't hold it in as I raised my hand to my mouth and laughed. 

“That wasn't funny.” He said through gritted teeth playfully. He captured me into his arms and squeezed my to his chest as I continued to laugh. It felt as if we’ve know each other our whole lives instead of a few moments.

Jackson still held me in his arms as our giggles began to diminish in the air. his hold on me loosened a bit and I enjoyed the moment we were in before he had to go back into work. 

“Yes I’ll have coffee with you.”

“You didn't have to say I already knew.” 

[5sos-kingsandqueens]

The Dealer~chapter5~Calum Hood

THE DEALER

CHAPTER 5

JAYDE P.O.V

8 weeks pregnant ending of August beginning of September

I was woken up by the sound of my phone ringing over and over and over around 6 am on a Saturday. I was going to kill whoever was calling me. When I got pregnant I found that I needed to sleep a lot longer than I usually do.

I lifted up the phone and saw Calum's name flash across the screen. He wouldn't be calling me right now if everything was okay.

"Calum." I groaned into the phone. "It's 6am."

"I've been robbed." He said into the phone and I paused slowly sitting up to not get dizzy.

"What?"

"All of the drugs, all of the money, our t.vs, gone."

"Are you serious?" I asked. "Did you call the police?"

"Oh yeah "Hey, copper I got my drug and drug money stolen. That would blow over well. I'm sure they would arrested me as soon as they got here." He commented and I rolled my eyes.

"Well what am I suppose to do if you won't call the cops?" I questioned.

"I don't know but I don't have any money for anything. I won't be able to buy a train ticket to get to you for your doctors appointment." He said and I sighed.

"I will pick you up later today and you can stay with me until Monday and after work and our appointment on Monday I will drive you home."

"Thank you." He commented. "I have a job interview at Ashton's work for a security job at 9."

"Okay, I'll pick you up after lunch. I'm going back to bed." I answered before hanging up and rolling over onto my stomach to try and get back to sleep.

****

I slept for a few more hours before finally getting up to shower and make myself some breakfast. Driving into the city to get Calum was going to be terrible and I knew I was going to be stuck in a ton of traffic.

On top of that, today I wasn't feeling good at all. I felt bloated, I felt like I was going to vomit at any minute and my boobs were hurting. I wasn't sure if all of those things were related to being pregnant but I was gonna blame it on the pregnancy.

I quickly showered and ate some toast before heading off to Calum's. I knew I was going to be a little early but maybe I could stop at the book store to pick up some baby books for me to read. Of course I knew what any first time mom knew about pregnancy. It took 9 months and then it hurts like hell when you give birth. It was everything else that I wasn't sure about.

I called Calum over the car speaker system.

"Hi, hot stuff." I rolled my eyes when he answered.

"Hey, are you home yet?" I asked. "I'm almost there."

"Yeah I'm home." He answered. "You can get me whenever."

"Well, do you wanna go to the book store with me?"

"Sure." He answered. "But only because you're carrying precious cargo and I don't want anyone to get close to you." I laughed a little pulling up to his building.

"I'm here." I commented before he hung up and he came out a few minutes later. "Hi."

"Hi, baby." He commented.

"How did the interview go?" I questioned as I pulled onto the street to head to the bookstore. I really needed Calum to get this job. I could easily afford to support this baby but it would be so much better if there were two of us who would be able to provide for this baby because that's what it deserved. It deserved two parents who would be able to both contribute to it's life.

I had no idea what the future held with Calum. Of course I wanted to raise this baby with him but I didn't want to be with him. We were two very very different people. I had parents who were laid back and allowed me and my sister to do anything we pleased. We never had a curfew, we could sleepover our friends house whenever we wanted, they let us take their cars whenever we wanted.

Calum's parents were strict. They were always on him about grades and other things and maybe that was just because he was never good at school. I knew that Calum's parents cared a lot about his education and Calum didn't really care.

My parents were strict when it came to relationships and I think that's why I have been sleeping with Calum for so long. In high school, they told me to never date him. They knew we were close friends and have been since we were little but they didn't want me to date him. They were always preaching about how he would just use me for sex and throw me away. Little did they know.

"Interview went good. They said they're going to give me a call." He smiled and I smiled.

"That's good. This is an awesome opportunity and if it doesn't work out, then come to my office." I smiled pulling into a spot, grabbing my purse and keys and getting out. He got out as I locked the car and ran around to stand on the sidewalk with me.

"What type of books do you need?" He questioned.

"I'm just getting a few baby books. I think I should read up on what is happening to my body." I smiled. "I'm also getting the name book." I know it was very very early on in my pregnancy but I was still thinking about baby names. What person doesn't? I don't know about other's but I've had some names picked out for years now even though I had no intention of getting pregnant.

"I like the name Calum." I shook my head as I walked to the store. Thankfully there was a Starbucks inside so I went and ordered something for me and Cal, paid for it, and then made him stand in line while I went to try and find the books I wanted. I was somewhat close to where I needed to be and when I found a pregnant women I asked her if she knew.

"Next aisle over." She smiled. "I love how you asked me and not someone who worked here." I laughed a little.

"I felt that you would be nicer to me about it." I smiled. "Thank you."

"You're welcome." She smiled back before I went to find the books and Calum met me there.

"Here you go." He handed me my drink with a kiss. I searched for the books that I thought I might need. I bought the books of names and What to Expect When You're Expecting but I wasn't sure if I would need anything else. "You should start with these. I'll also give you the book I have. That one is about what you'll need for baby, how much things usually cost, and labor and delivery." I nodded feeling a little overwhelmed by it all. I carried the books to check out and paid before getting back into the car.

As soon as we got into the car, my phone began ringing over the bluetooth speakers.

"Hi, Julia." I smiled as she huffed on the other end.

"I don't know what the hell is wrong with some people!" She shouted into the phone making me chuckle a little. "Joy Hood and mom hung out today and all of a sudden I get a call and mom is angry at me that I didn't tell her I was pregnant! Joy Hood told mom I was pregnant when I'm not!"

"Oh. That's weird." I commented looking over at Calum who was beat red despite his tan skin tone.

"And then that got me to thinking. How would Joy know if I was pregnant? Why would I ever tell Joy that I'm pregnant before my own mother. That's when it came to me. Joy was talking about you. Because you're sleeping with Calum Hood." I was silent as I drove having no idea what to say to her. "Oh my god, Jay. Please tell me you're not pregnant."

"I can't." I answered.

"Jayde! How did this happen?" She questioned.

"The old fashion way. And just so you know, you're on speaker and I'm with Calum."

"Calum! I'm going to kick your ass! How could you get my sister pregnant?!"

"You act like I did it on purpose." He rolled his eyes.

"Oh my god. I'm coming over for dinner." She answered before hanging up and I knew I should invite my parents too because eventually, I would be getting a call from them.

Julia came first and thank god because if my parents got here first, I think I would have passed out on the floor. I had the pregnancy test and the ultrasound picture ready to show her when she got here. I was so thankful that when she actually saw us she wasn't mad because if she was I think I would have passed out.

"I'm gonna be an aunt!" She shouted hugging me. "Holy crap. She held the test and the ultrasound picture. "How far along are you?"

"I'm 8 weeks. I wanted to wait a little longer to tell you, mom, and dad but apparently someone's mom can't keep their mouth shut." I glared at Calum who just shrugged as there was a knock on the door and he went to answer it.

"Oh, Calum, Honey, nice to see you." My mom said giving him a hug and a kiss on the cheek before letting him go and coming over to me and Julia. "Hi girls." She smiled hugging us both. Calum shook hands with my dad before we all went into the rather small dining room area I had and sat down to eat.

"So um..." I started but wasn't sure how to get this out. "I have some news." I commented.

"About what?" My mom questioned.

"About what Joy said to you today."

"About me becoming a grandmother." She said and I nodded. My father looked rather alarmed at the conversation.

"I was going to wait to tell you but Calum and I are expecting a baby in March." I commented laying out the ultrasound pictures.

"Oh. Oh wow." My mother answered picking up the pictures. "How far along are you?"

"Eight weeks." I answered softly. I was an adult, who had a home and a job, I graduated from college, I wasn't sure why I was so afraid to tell my parents that I was pregnant. Of course I always thought that my married sister would have a baby before me but that's beside the point.

"Oh my gosh, Honey! Congratulations! I'm gonna be a grandmother!" She smiled hugging me. "You're gonna have a beautiful child." She smiled as we all sat back down and I was awaiting my father to speak his mind.

"When's the wedding?" He asked.

"What? There's not going to be a wedding." I answered. You didn't need to be married to have a baby. He should know that. He got my mother pregnant before their wedding.

"You think I'm going to allow you to have a child out of wedlock?" He asked trying to be stern making me wonder if he was only saying this because that's what other fathers would say to their daughter who got "knocked up" as Emily put it.

"You act like you can control me. I'm an adult who made a mistake and now I'm taking responsibility for it. I'm not going to get married because you think that will make my life easier. It won't." I commented. I sure as hell wasn't going to allow him to start treating me like a child now that I was grown and moved out. I was my own person and I could make my own decisions. "I didn't want it to happen this way. No one does. But it happened and I want this baby and you can decide if you want to be apart of its life but I'm going to be and I don't care what you say." I was stern getting my point across that no matter what anyone says, I'm going to be able to do this.

Whether Calum was here to support us or not.