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Thinking so much about the idea I have for a Little Robots movie <3 (it's not even a full idea beyond Watership Down but no one dies)

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Don’t Let Me Down pt. 3

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Summary- Yoongi used to be your soulmate but as he changed you saw a new light in your life

Pairings- Yoongi x reader; Jimin x reader

Warnings- strong language, angst?, bad writhing

word count - 1632

“Park fucking Jimin!” Yoongi shouted as he got into the dorm. ‘Good morning’ would be nicer, but I would keep what I was given- even if it is my name with fuck in between it.

“Yeah?” I answered with unbodered monotone voice. I knew he came to argue with me about yesterday’s activitie but I didn’t want to seem weak in his eyes. I wanted to show him that I’m just as strong as him, even if I’m younger. I usually hate arguments, but one like this unfortunetly can’t be stoped. It seems werd I know- talking about what seem like a simple argument between friends as if it is a war. But for us it is in a way. We man are very competetive. In a way everything for us is a small war- from who comes 1st at the doorm after practise, who is taller or stronger to more serious thing like this.

“You motherfucker!” Yoongi barked as he came in to my room withow knoking.I mean I get it he is angry but like what if I was naked? I looked at him confused, playing innocent.

“Don’t pretend like you don’t know what I am talking about you idiot.”

“Wait...’’ I hummed and petted my chin as if i had a beard- like a cartoon charecter  “Ahh yeah! I get it!” A bit too close to make a dumb joke, but i knew if he got angrier he might start talking with fists. “Is it about me and your kitty going out? ”

“Don’t call her like this.”

“Why? Is it cuz is not a word from your vocabulary? ‘bitch’, ‘whore’? Sorry man I can’t call such hatefull words on a cute girl like her.” I looked up at him from my sitting on the bed position, he was towering over me, about the short yet long distance of 30 cm away. He was quite for a second. So was I. Just looking at him. A small smirk peaking on my lips. I could hear his blood boiling like a pot on a stove. He was going to explode any minute.

“Why the fuck did you go out with her?” his voice got lower. He was trying to hide is fiery emotions. But then again why was he so angry? I just went out to watch a movie with her!

“The question, Yoongi, should be ‘why did she went out with me’ and not you.”

“Because she is desprate for attension.” He answered simply. But how could he talk like this about her- his girlfriend for 5 years.

“She is not desprate. She just wants to be loved. And you give her none of that.” Tried to keep my voice calm.

“Only people who can’t love themselfs beg for others love”

“I’m sure she loves herself a lot. Yoongi, you know that. She doesn’t use people. People use her.”

“So now you are trying to say that I used her?!” The anger came back to him. His voice got louder. ”I didn’t use her! She used me!”

“Min, how the fuck did the girl who loved and loves you used you!? You are the one who used her to make yourself feel loved!” I took a breath to calm myself. My hands, curled in a fist, were shaking just like his.

“ I was so much better when i wasn’t dating her!”

“ Than break up with her you dumass!” I shouted at him.

“I won’t.” He answered calmly, but the anger and fire could be tased in his tone.“ Park, stop acting like a smartass, stop telling me what to do. I am the hyung here. Now will you stop begging for admiration from girls who are taken and will you stop talking with Y/N?”

“No.” I stoode up. “You don’t own her! You can’t stop her from seeng her friends Min.”

And this is were shit got down. He punched me. In the face. Hard.

“Ouch! Are you fucking mental!?” I screamed and looked at him. He was shaking just like me, from adrenaline and anger. Maybe prehaps sadness and regret were part of the reasoning too. Still I couldn’t just stay tere. This would make me seem like a weak pussy.

So I punched him too. Probablt not as hard as he has. After all, we are close friends, or we were.

We started swearing at each other and trying to hurt one another.

“What the fuck is happening?!” Jin shoutted.

Bouth of us stopped When the oldes came, shit was time to stop. Jungkook apeared behind Jin. “Hyungs, it is the early fucking morning! Saturday Morning may I add. Go argue about Y/N somewere else! We are trying to sleep for fuck sake!”

Jin grabbed Yoongi’s colar and dragged him out of my room withou much strugle. Min just looked angry and confused like a stuborn child who just lost a fight. Was I the winner. No. No one was the winer here.

“Jimin- hyung, you know how Yoongi has been resently. Why did you make him angry? You know how easily he fires up.”

“Jungkook, I did nothing wrong. I just went out with Y/N to watch the romace I was begging you to come and see with me last week.”

“He got so angry about such a thing?”

“I guess so.”

“C’mon here hyung. You have a bruse on your jaw. Let me take care of it for you.”

This motherfucker! Who the hell he things he is! He can’t just go out like that with MY girlfriend. At least she told me about it, but it was after they we thogether!

But then again some of the things he said weren’t far from the trught. She probably want to be loved. I wanted to be loved and she gave it to me. And i did nothing. She still loves me?

How?

After I have called her such things so many times? Why did I told her that? None of is true, I knew that. But did she knew it was a lie? Did she belive these awfull things?

When was the last time we went on a date? A week ago? No, we had to buy food for Holly. A month ago? A year?

Fuck...

I,I...I need to ask her out on a date.

But how?

Like I haven’t done this in forever...

Oh, and where!

Should I ask for help? Jin maybe? No. They don’t know her. But I know her. Wait, do I?

After googling for hour or 2: about restourants near by, gifts and such, my anger also got better. Now I am much calmer and “Amm Hi!”

“Ah! Hi Yoongi!”

Oh, she is so happy. I haven’t called her just to talk in agges...

“Are you free tommorow Sunday? I have no scedual so I thoght we can go out.”

“Sure!” She agreed with a happy tone “Were are we going?”

“On a date.” I gulped. “There is this restourant in Gangtam, it is new, and I thought we should chek it out. I saw reviews on the interned that is pretty good”

“Ok, I am in! Time?”

“7:30 pm. Hmm, how have you been today?” I tried to continue the conversation.

“Pretty good. I had a bit of a ‘spa’ day if you can call it like thay. I just toke a rest and tooke some care of myself and yeah. You?”

I argued with the guy you went to watch a movie with yesterday and punched him in the face so he has a big bruse now and probably hates me too and I don’t know if we can get back thogether not just as co-workers but as friends too so i guess i kinna ruined 8 years of  friendship and basicly my life because I am a gellous prick who questions everything too much

“Nice too.”

“Yoongi, we haven’t went out in a while, so I’m really happy.”

I am happy too. Happy that for the 1st time in while i will actually try to be your boyfriend.

“Yeah is cool.”

She laughed.

“Is getting late Yongs and I would have to have my beuty sleep so I look cute for you tommorow!” Yongs... My old nickname.

“Haha OK. Go to sleep!”

“Night night!”

“Night.”

White noice. The call ended. My heart beat is still unusually faster. It used to be like this when we started dating. ‘’Love it is’ Namjoon used to say. But what is love? My heart migh act like this because of nervous thought, ratter than love. Maybe in a better light happines might be the cause. I used to say that on our 1000th day I would propose to her and we would get married. Our 1000th day was over 500th days ago... Hell I even had choosen a ring. I told myself I was in love and then:

“Mom this is serios, OK? Should I have my honney moon at Geju or Vinece?”

“Yoongi, why would you marry her?”

“What do you mean? I love her!”

“She is just some middle class girl. You on the other hand, you are a celebrithy! You will get rich and richer.”

“Mother, just because I got my 1st win doesnt mean I would become famous celebrithy. Ofcourse I hope I do but that doesn’t matter. Love is love. I lover her and she loves me.”

“She loves you because of your money Yoongi”

“We stated dating when I was broke. Oh, and should I add why? Because of you! Why did you start caring so much about me right now?” And I got it. Because i was ‘getting rich and richer’.

And then I noticed. Everyone was actting nicer to me. And so I used it. Not in a good way...