#also im on mobile rn i promise i'll put a read more in laterbc this got longer than i thought it would

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I feel like ppl watched ep 11 of dff and rly jumped on the 'Phee clearly didnt care abt Non and totally gave up on getting revenge' train. which like. i get in a way. But i've been thinking abt Phee and New and their motivations for revenge bc, ultimately, neither of them are really getting revenge FOR Non - both of them are seeking revenge for selfish reasons, however their circumstances and the direct effects of the group's actions change how they feel about exacting their plan, I think.

Phee is largely seeking clarity and wants to clear his own conscience. Obviously he's (rightfully) vengeful towards the group bc they hurt Non so deeply, but to me it felt like throughout the series Phee has really come to realize that there is not a single "innocent" in the house (except perhaps White). Also, in spite of himself he rly did catch feelings for Jin, and may even feel some level of genuine affection for at least some of the other group members. So yeah, he falters in their revenge plan and I rly think he's just questioning Everything by the end of ep 11. Like who is he rly doing all this for? What role did he play in Non's death? What will revenge get him really? and then obviously we kinda see him decide that killing the whole group isn't going to help him so he turns the gun on New, but he still hesitates.

Meanwhile, i've seen and heard so many people rly like praising New for being ig decisive, vengeful, there's been a lot of praise for his absolutely ruthless approach to revenge. but i feel like everyone's kinda overlooking that he's also seeking revenge for purely selfish reasons?? like he basically said "fuck what Non might've wanted, i want you all dead bc you ruined MY life." it all came back to how the group's actions towards Non had a negative impact on New's life, like he goes on abt how he could've been in London, his parents could've been alive, it's just wholly selfish. Like obviously he cares about Non and what happened to him or else he would've just fucked back off to London - but the revenge he wants really has very little to do with Non. New seems to care more that his own life was fucked over than that Non's was lost. So, he wants to find out what happened and take out the people that forced him to come back to Thailand and deal with his family. He is I think a much more black and white character compared to Phee. New is on the you all fucked up? cool time to be punished, whereas Phee seems to be more empathetic to the gray zone surrounding every character (except maybe Por - i still haven't found a redeeming quality for him oop). This is likely bc Phee was directly involved w/ the events leading to Non's disappearance whereas New only came back to the aftermath, after his life abroad had been interrupted.