#also if you dmed me and i haven't replied I'm not ghosting!!!!

[babydxhl]

finding this interview w mary's voice actress is beating the sunday scaries back rn

[writinghannibal]

☽ - you don’t seem interested in me/my character

MEME | | WHY WE DON'T RP

Aw, that's kind of sad. So, there might be a few reasons that it seems this way.

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1. I am forgetful as all hell. If you messaged me or liked something for a starter and haven't heard back from me, I might have replied in my head. I have a neurological disorder that impacts my memory and causes me to have seizures so -- sometimes the brain fog is strong with this one. If I don't write something down in some way, I'll probably forget. That's also one of the reasons I started using the RPThreadTracker again. Because I was getting past the number of threads my poor smooth brain could retain.

I forget that I have been DMed. Poke me again if three days have passed and you haven't heard from me.

2. I go through activity spurts and lows. See above for the reason. I'm really active right now because I'm stressed and need some kind of low impact relief from that stress. RP provides that for me. I may also wane in activity here if I'm playing more heavily on Discord in my server or some of the one on one RP.

As a part of this, I'm also a professor. I'm currently teaching three classes and going insane. Radio silence means I have a lot going on.

3. I have a lot of trouble reading the aesthetic formatting that many of the RPC use.

❝ if your posts look like this ---- I PROBABLY can't read it easily . ❞

If I do, it is going to be after I take your post into a Google Doc and unshrink your dinks so that I can read it. While that aesthetic might look good on your blog, on the dash it creates something that makes my eyes jump around and makes it difficult to get through. I'm a very fast reader, but I usually read at half the speed when I have to contend with formatting. It is the spacing, the size, and the lack of capitalization that makes it really inaccessible. If you're a roleplayer that writes like this, and I haven't responded to you -- I may have given up on reading it. I may have your post in my drafts waiting for me to get around to reformatting it so that I can read it.

I will typically ask, in the tags, for you to not format your posts this way if we're going to play. I feel bad about it, but... I also don't have the time to reformat posts so I can just read it.

Also, if I go to your blog and I can't read it or navigate it, I'm probably not going to interact.

Accessibility is a huge thing for me. I like to save myself headaches. :<

4. I am human. And I struggle to say no. I recently had an experience where I told someone I wasn't interested in RPing with them and they got really hostile and argumentative with me about it to the point that I had to block them. These kinds of interactions leave an impression with me, and make my already existing struggle to say no harder.

Sometimes, I may not want to write with someone because I struggle to read their writing because of formatting or because their style isn't something that I get along with. I will usually say something along the lines of "I don't think our writing is very compatible" if this is the case.

Sometimes, I may genuinely not be interested in the character. While I am an avid follower of true crime, I don't typically have a lot of interest in writing with serial killer characters from other movies or shows. There are a few exceptions to this, and I'll usually give things a shot to see if it works out. I also don't really do AUs because I'm interested in the character I am writing in the circumstances that I am writing in. Alternate timelines are different than AUs for me. An AU might be something like...vampires.

Again, there are exceptions to this. I will fuck around with ghosts and spirits. I found an OC that is writing some really interesting science fiction/eldritch stuff that I'm really enjoying.

Above all... I prioritize interactions with people who communicate with me. I'm not a "do not DM" roleplayer. Talk too me, and I'm more likely to not only remember that I owe you posts, but work around the things that get under my skin -- like the aesthetic formatting.

Mutuals can reach out to me on Discord: cry baby cannibal#8975