#also i think that's like one of my fave Marta outfits

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undefined number of favourite #mafin scenes [the confrontation]

It’s the assertiveness that gets to me. Not that Fina is by any means a pushover up until this moment, but it becomes so crystal clear what kind of person she is in this scene. She is braver than any marine, dressing herself up in all of her emotions and doing a base jump into the void. But not in a rash or aggressive manner. She simply spits facts with a calm and a determination that sort of makes me fall in love with her as well and I’ve got celluloid (metaphorically speaking) between me and her so the fact the Marta doesn’t just crumble right then and there…Then again Marta sort of does, doesn’t she?! Those stiff shoulders and that porcelain mask - it’s tipped slightly askew by nothing much more than some well-spoken truths rocking it out of place. 

And Fina’s speech in general, the whole you can change what I wear, how I act; but no matter what restrictions you expose her to you can’t change her nature. The homosexuality is not something that can be washed out with a dress-code or rinsed off through propriety. The fact that she just spells it out like that, tells her boss that yes, no matter what you put me through I cannot and I will not change. Either you accept this or you make me leave. That fucking strength, she- Fina has a tendency to be a little impetus and prone to risktaking (especially in contrast to Marta’s character), but this didn’t even feel like that. It just felt like someone who took a deep breath and was done with what the world tried to force upon her, and especially done with the mould she perceived this woman was trying to force her into. That she didn’t raise her voice, that her body language remained controlled simply made it more effective, the point was driven home with much more force by simply not being expressed with any force at all, only quiet conviction.

Then there is Marta who is the exact opposite, from the moment she has Fina’s attention the nervousness makes her fiddle, eyes darting; and she clings to the counter like it was the only door left in the ocean while the Titanic bobbed to its grave next to her. Whereas Fina is calm, brave and determined, Marta is terrified, uncertain and ultimately a coward. She can’t even meet Fina’s eyes and even though she tries to muster her persona of power it fails and backfires. It simply pales in comparison next to Fina’s honesty and as the mask crumbles it shows the cracks beneath it, the divide between Marta the person and Marta de la Reina the title, the profession, the Platonic ideal.

The scene just hits. And if you walk away from it not having fallen a little bit in love with Fina or if you walk away from it not realising how much Marta has fallen for Fina -  well then there is no saving you, you are a lost cause.