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bladeofthestars · 2 months ago

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my pastimes include imagining the most ridiculous but technically still conceivable outcomes for a scenario and shaking that fantasy in my jaws viciously and lusting after it and generally drifting in a haze thinking up slight variances of this outlandish idea for weeks until the event that could theoretically spawn the outcome comes and passes. and then i hyperfixate on the small details that i got right and how what actually happened could conceivably lead to this other outlandish outcome-

#and THAT'S why i write fanfic #all this energy needs to be channeled into something that wouldn't be offputting if people found out about it #also i might explode into a cloud of confetti to the sound of party horns if i don't vent some excess off #gotta say tho. the art of getting myself worked up with POSITIVE emotions about possible futures is one i thought lost to me #so i generally feed my brain when it wants to get excited about anything at all #i stay dreaming big #even though i logically know most/all of these things won't happen some corner of my brain clings to the what if #and provides an engine of hope and motivation #and when the thing doesn't come to pass i'm not typically devastated by it because well. i always knew it was a bit silly didn't i?

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