#also i knoooooow my bike needs servicing but i've fallen out of touch with my friend who was also my bike mechanic so :( | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

b-blushes · 1 year ago

Text

i am feeling very apprehensive about it due to feeling Not Well (chronic illness style) BUT tomorrow i'm gonna pump up the tyres on my bike and do 5 very gentle non-out-of-breath-making minutes on my turbo trainer inside.... that is not even 2 songs' length i can totally do that and there is no need to be so so scared! If i can do it, then huge yippee and i can work on trying to hit a once a week routine, in which i can gradually increase the duration and intensity over time, and if i CANNOT. well then i know that i am not doing good which is also useful info to have and to tell my dr when i go soon (: I CAN DO IT!!!

#i used to do 5x 30 minute turbo training sessions per week and 2x 20 minute tai chi sessions for week at my peak as physical therapy #(i worked up to that under supervision from my drs over... a couple of years perhaps? from 1 minute every few days.#like FULLY cannot tolerate exercise without vertigo. to that) and THEN. my heart got messed up and i simply could not even do regular stuff #let alone exercise let alone cardio!!! rip.#also i knoooooow my bike needs servicing but i've fallen out of touch with my friend who was also my bike mechanic so :(#god what was the point here.#uh okay. so! i know how to do graded exercise pacing i am very practiced at it! i just want to be able to do it :P and it's scary to restar #because i did just feel so so ill to begin with and then stop after feeling less ill for a while because i felt so much worse! so to go bac #intimidating! but i can do scary stuff. 💪 including the scariness of accepting that perhaps i'm not capable of doing it. but i can try

16 notes · View notes