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running-in-the-dark · 1 year ago

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I had another idea to fix my fucked up sleep schedule: maybe sleeping on the couch would work. on purpose, I mean. I nap there (accidentally) all the time.

it worked! I managed to fall asleep, and because there's huge windows there, the sun woke me up before noon. I got up and everything!

and then I spent all day in that same spot on the couch, watching YouTube and playing Timberborn. I woke up at 10.. and now it's 6 and I'm obviously still awake. my brain is so awake. I can't stop thinking. it's not even anything bad, I just have so much energy right now.

#I think I'm probably getting kinda manic #I mean I got like. 5 hours of sleep last night. I usually need twice that #also bid on several dolls on ebay (I'm not allowed on there anymore because this happens every fucking time. though at least this time I #stopped myself quickly. but damn I've been feeling so shitty and like. there's literally no point in me waking up tomorrow you know. so.#it's kinda good to know that I'll be getting a pretty doll soon. idk man. it fucking sucks but I CAN'T work on this right now and none of my #other coping mechanisms are working)#ugggh #personal #I'm listening to rain sounds and cat purring with my ear buds. so I don't hear any of the noise that's now starting. ugh I hate everything #(you can tell that the thoughts have now moved to being pretty bad actually)

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