#also arcane OST kicks so hard for me

[iceclew]

I am the monster you created You ripped out all my parts

And worst of all, for me to live, I gotta kill the part of me that saw that I needed you more

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Wow, definitely not what I expected from myself today, but since I started practicing backgrounds, I've been drawing more artsy/painterly and well... then - as often happens - a certain soundtrack hit me and I couldn't stop.

Had no Mr. No. 9-art here anyway on my blog. He's a very fascinating villian character to me. I'm always wondering what he's doing next, what he might be feeling. IF he is feeling and what he is thinking. Kudos, Matsumoto, tha's a good villain here (even if one might want to argue the late game overpowering, which I agree to, but that's more of a typical genre trait to me)

music-wise - going back and forth these songs from Arcane: What could have been - Sting, Ray Chen Goodbye - Ramsey Guns for Hire - Woodkid

[penncilkid]

OKAY WE'RE DONE AND I HAVE CHOICE WORDS FOR YOU SIR, AS SAID IN MY COMMENT ON THE VIDEO ITSELF /LH

*clears throat* Before we get to my silly liveblog notes, would like to say to anyone who reads this: Raelia is legitimately so fucking talented and this OST is fucking incredible and if you haven't listened to it yet, you absolutely should /gen

Also, my (current) final consensus: Kindling and Cory are my fav tracks

[Messy Liveblog Notes Under The Cut]

Kal: Ayyyy don't go tempting me towards Kal even more with this track, I already love him, relax (/lh /pos) // I am realizing perhaps this was a mistake (Translation: I'm dancing and vibing to the music a bit too much already /pos)

Isolation: Oh this one is scratching my brain IMMEDIATELY // I feel like I'm in a video game. Like one of those open world exploration types but specifically walking around at night, lit by the moon or something // Okay currently, that's my fav

Graveyard: I REMEMBER THIS ONE OMGS /POS // Moment of appreciation for that very first audio on the channel (which was also the first audio I listened to). Had no idea what I was getting into, and I mean that as the highest compliment, I assure you /pos // Oh this is such a bop when I'm not imagining Kal and Bestie running for their lives /pos // OH I TAKE IT BACK, THIS ONE'S BEATING ISOLATION AT THE MOMENT

Sentimentality: *lays on the ground sobbing /pos* The fucking talent you possess, Raelia, omfgs

Noah: *kicks my feet* Hiiiii Noah (I'm aware this is a song, let me have this /j) // I zoned out hard to that one but in the best way possible. Like the way you zone out to lofi music

Escalation: "PK, you can't just say you really like all the songs with strings—" I can and will, actually, thank you very much /lh // OH THE SWITCH UP? /POS // I'M TRYING TO REMEMBER WHEN THIS SONG POPS UP IN VOLUME I AND IF IT'S WHERE I THINK IT WAS, UGH /POS // That was ass-shaking music to me and me alone /pos

Kindling: OKAY BASED ON THIS TITLE ALONE, I KNOW I'M CORRECT IN MY PREVIOUS HYPOTHESIS IN REGARDS TO WHEN ESCALATION TOOK PLACE // I don't know if I'm having a good time because it's a bop or if I should be taking a step back because it feels so sinister /pos // FUCKING HELL, I REALLY LIKE THIS ONE TOO. IT MIGHT BE THE CURRENT FAV AS OF RIGHT NOW // See, that one scratched my brain and made me wanna shake ass, it's gotta be at the top of the list right now

Core: Oh this one is such a good come down from the last track /pos // I am being lulled by this one and I'm not fighting it in the slightest /pos // See, now I'm gonna do what I did with Beastars except apply it to Volume I. Which is get extremely familiar with the OST tracks and then relisten to the audios and be like "HEY, THAT'S [INSERT TRACK TITLE]"

The Fraying: Oh this one feels fucking majestic (I dunno if that's the word I'm looking for so basically, makes me feel similar things that I did when listening to the Arcane score for Piltover scenes)

Cory: HIS TRACK FEELS SO SWEET, I HATE IT HERE /POS // I'm in my feelings over this one, let my man rest, he is so very tired /lh // Oh this is gonna be at the top of my list, it's got me deep in my feelings // THIS SWITCH UP??? OMFGS /POS // THIS ONE FEELS LIKE A PERSONAL ATTACK ON MY HEART IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE // RAELIA, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MYSELF RIGHT NOW? HOW CAN I LIVE LAUGH LOVE IN THESE CONDITIONS? /POS

Distant: Imma be honest, I'm still recovering from Cory's, but this was also amazing to listen to

Have I mentioned how much I loved the OST yet? I feel like I haven't somehow /rhet

I am officially sitting down to give @the-raelia-archives's Volume I OST a listen! If I didn't already have some things to work on today, I'd use it as an excuse to revisit my Noah and/or Kal designs. But alas, I'll save that for another day.

Gonna attempt to take down some general reactions/note which tracks are my personal favs, but I know I'm gonna love this already