#also 'harmingly' isnt a word apparently but ignore that please im not good at english <- its the only language I know

[killiancormac]

oc deep dive!! :) tagged by @ruvviks TYY this was very fun i love this guy

tagging my beloveds @claudiawolf @latenna @fialine <3

What common/uncommon fear do they have?

He has a number of ‘common’ fears, although a non insignificant amount of them are related to trauma. He has a very intense fear of losing his loved ones, which can be owed to losing 3 brothers by the time he was 25. It’s left him as someone quite easily worried for his loved ones health and safety. One of his other common fears is heights, but that’s also pretty reasonable, due to the fact he. well. he fell off a cliff! He wasn’t pushed on them beforehand, but that really made it a lot worse.

One of his slightly more uncommon fears is elevators. This is probably an offshoot of his fear of heights, but even elevators for two or three story buildings unnerve him. Considering he lives on the top floor of his apartment, this has caused him some trouble in the past. Getting stuck in an elevator – especially on a high floor – has been one of his recurring stress dreams for years.

Do they have any pet peeves?

People who don’t suspend even a little bit of belief for a movie – especially if it’s one he likes. Like, sure, it may not be entirely realistic, but it’s fun! <- he’s a bit of a hypocrite sometimes, because if a movie is depicting a situation he’s been in, he can’t help but take the piss out of it.

I wouldn’t say “rude people” is a pet peeve because it’s. not really LOL but people who constantly have an answer for everything / try to one up someone else at every opportunity. Nick did this in Panama when they first met, and it’s why the two of them hated each other for years. To be fair, Killian was also a prick to him, too.

What are three items you can find in their bedroom?

Passports, travel documents. Some things related to travel that might not be strictly legal, but given his job as an ‘antique collector’ (aka thief / treasure hunter / pickpocket etc), not entirely surprising.

Something one of his nieces or nephews made as a young child – I can see him having a ceramic dish that he puts little things in. It’s a good maybe 20 years old, garish and not very appealing to look at, but he’s fond of it.

A jacket belonging to his older brother, Michael. When he died, his belongings were split among the family. most of his things when to his wife and daughter, but Killian took a handful of things that he had an attachment to, or had nostalgic feelings towards. He keeps the jacket somewhere safe – it doesn’t smell like him, not anymore, but sometimes Killian thinks it does. He also took his and Michael’s old N64 – that’s in his and Nick’s house. is it still working? who knows

What do they notice first in a person?

First thing he really takes stock of is how they introduce themselves. He’s not one to judge based on appearances – he’s very used to people doing that to him, so he knows what it’s like.

He'll notice their mood, their attitude, their attitude towards him, how they regard him, things like that. are they friendly? hostile? having a bad day, but holding it together? or taking it out on him? are they looking down their nose at him? have they already made up misconceptions about him in their head? (this one’s not unreasonable – he’s had more people judge him based on his scars alone than he’s comfortable with.)

On a scale of 1 to 10, how high is their pain tolerance?

Pretty high, in a lot of senses. In one way, he’s very unkind to himself. He doesn’t like to dwell on being in pain, and he tends to be hard on himself – constantly thinking it’s not that bad, and he just needs to get over it. He also hates causing a fuss. He hates worrying people. He doesn’t let himself be taken care of – not without some bitching and moaning first, and insistences that he’s fine, really. he’s Irish 😔

When he doesn’t have something to distract himself with, he copes a lot worse with pain. He’s gotten injured in past jobs and then gone home and cleaned his entire apartment, just for something to take his mind off the pain.

Do they go into fight or flight mode when under pressure? (Or freeze or fawn?)

For most of his life, especially his early life, fight. This has gotten him into way more trouble than it’s worth. later in his life, he tends to freeze, and he hates it. Although, when he freezes, it’s usually in emotional contexts. Conversations he doesn’t want to have. Confrontations of things he’s been trying to ignore. In life or death situations, he knows to move. That’s saved his life more times than he can count.

What animal represents them best?

A dog. He’s incredibly, stubbornly loyal. He will do anything for the people he loves. He’s protective, sometimes self harmingly so, and to him, it doesn’t matter how much time passes – he will always be there for someone. If you give him love, he will give it back. At his core, all he wants is to be loved, and feel it. He does get this, thank fuck, but it’s still sickening.

Birds, also. He has a sparrow tattoo on his side – he got it when he was younger. To him, it was symbolism. Free as a bird. He thinks it’s silly now, though.

How would a stranger likely describe them?

Social. Friendly. Warm. He has many friends, multiple circles, and he finds them easy to make. He's a good conversationalist, all he needs is a topic, regardless of if he knows anything about it or not. He’s also a tremendous listener, and these combined with his sociable demeanor make him very approachable to a lot of people.

Do they have any hobbies?

He likes cooking. He’s very good at it, but when he’s not making breakfast, lunch or dinner, he also likes experimenting. Trying new recipes. Pushing himself and improving. He also likes making things from scratch, just to see what he comes up with.

He's a swimmer :) get him on holiday and he’ll spend a non insignificant amount of time in the pool !!! or in the ocean. He just loves the water.

He tries to keep reasonably fit. He's nowhere near Nathan Drake levels of climbing random walls and cliff faces, swinging from vines and ropes and all of that, he'll just find another way up or across, thank you. But he likes to exercise when he can. He's 45 this year, which makes him feel a bit sick, so he'd like to continue his streak of good health. I know he's a beast on a treadmill. Or one of those stair machine things. Man has got insane calves

He's a plant guy!!! His apartment, and later he and Nick's house, is covered in plants. Pots big and small, on counters and hanging from the ceiling alike. He's recently taken to growing food. Nick has heard many complaints about his strawberries being difficult.