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lunasilvis · 11 months ago

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The masculine urge to be strong, consistent and vigorous (physically, mentally, emotionally) and provide (financially, basic needs, shelter, love) as an adult, who grew up in a wrecked and abusive home which then slashed gnarly tears in my spirit (and the life-long desire to have these gaps softened by real love)

#I'd been thinking about this #I mean... I'm succeeding in those areas. I put in a life's worth of work to outgrow my upbringing - tho in a tactic + considered manner #aka I didn't move out the flippin' house as soon as I could - since flat broke I couldn't had built the career I'm building right now i.e.#It hasn't been all daisies choosing to stay home but it has gotten me far and has made me resilient and strong 👐🤠#And now as I enter my 30s I feel I've been together enough for some years that I crave a love who lets me care like a boy lmao -#To eventually build a life with somebody that feels warm and secure and good. while my spirit can learn to heal/rest in their embrace #personal #When I say care like a dude it's not taking someone's independence away. like. just lemme fix your house defects or get u to eat fancy stuf

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