#ahh koga. you took so much damage at my hands. i'll love you forever. i'll always defend you from boring ass fans.

[malaierba]

i mentioned koga -> kinjou (yowapeda) in the tags but to be super duper duper honest. while I did have like, soft sweet lovesick songs that reminded me of them, the iconic ones are SUPER edgy?

Koga was mi stress toy, I was SO MUCH LESS KIND to him than I am to Toshiro, even though I deffinitely love him about as much.

Like. Here's some of the fucking songs I'd play on repeat when thinking about them lol:

505 by artic monkeys

Stop and wait a sec When you look at me like that, my darlin', what did you expect? I'd probably still adore you with your hands around my neck Or I did last time I checked Not shy of a spark The knife twists at the thought that I should fall short of the mark Frightened by the bite, though it's no harsher than the bark The middle of adventure, such a perfect place to start

Why? Mainly vibes I think, it's a. it's a sports manga set in highschool LOL but I just can't picture Koga NOT letting Kinjou get away with absolutely anything and everything. He gives him too much grace, he assumes the best intentions in everything he does.

And, admittedly, I do think Kinjou never is/was ill-intentioned towards Koga. They were just, teens.

Interesting how age changes your perception on dynamics. I was close to their age when I started reading YWPD so I always took their uh, not conflict, just, problem? very seriously. But now that I'm 10 years our of highschool I'm like. Babygirl (Koga)? You reaaaally didn't need to do all that over a highshcooler.

in that same vein of "i was young so i gave those two a dynamic too heavy to be realistic", here's another song, blood in the cut:

The boy I love's got another girl He might be fucking her right now I don't have an apartment Thought if I was smart, I'd make it far But I'm still at the start Guess I'm contagious, it'd be safest if you ran Fuck, that's what they all just end up doing in the end Take my car and paint it black Take my arm, break it in half Say something, do it soon It's too quiet in this room I need noise I need the buzz of a sub Need the crack of a whip Need some blood in the cut I need noise I need the buzz of a sub Need the crack of a whip Need some blood in the cut I need blood in the cut I need blood in the cut Met back up with the boy I love Cried on the streets of San Francisco I don't have an agenda All I do is pretend to be okay So my friends can't see my heart in the blender And lately, I've been killing all my time Reading through your messages, my favorite way to die Take my head and kick it in Break some bread for all my sins Say a word, do it soon It's too quiet in this room

This one was AU-specific to be fair. Koga, Kinjour and Arakita (with whom Kinjou would eventually be an item) went to the same college. Koga never stops pinning for Kinjou, although there's some canon-established unaddressed baggage between them, that both fuels his self-deprecation and keeps him from making a move.

Kinjou is aware of, to put it shortly and unkindly, how weird Koga is about how he regards their relationship/Kinjou/himself since that canon event, so although he remains polite he never gives him false hopes. But, he also never addresses anything directly with him. They were both very conflict avoidant with the particular event that changed their dynamic, which I loved so much lol oghh. the tension lol.

In any case, that song was meant to inspire Koga's mindset after he learns that Kinjou and Arakita get together. It's fucked dudes! Freshly 20 something or so, a health-nut with a supressed masochistic streak, he goes off the fucking rocker.

ANYWAY!

The other songs that to this day remind me of Kin<-Koga are the most disgusting lovesick songs sang by Mon Laferte. The latinx girlies will see them an understand, just how HOOOOOWWW serious it was for me when I said "it's a doomed love and Koga took nothing but damage from it towards the end".

These are just, the heavy artillery, serious business unrequited love songs for us.

Idk why picturing Koga listening to this ^^^ song and having a break down was like a drug to me. Why did I take it so seriously? lmfao

Mon Laferte was to me during college what Mitski is to me nowadays, in case it wasn't obvious lol.

Strawberry Blond by Mitski reminds me of T/oshiro -> F4lin x M4rciII3

I love everybody because I love you I don't need the city, and I don't need proof All I need, darling, is a life in your shape I picture it, soft and I ache Look at you, strawberry blond Reach out the car window tryna hold the wind You tell me you love her, I give you a grin Oh, all I ever wanted was a life in your shape So I follow the white lines, follow the white lines Keep my eyes on the road as I ache

It's a bit of a shame that this fandom is sooo abnormal and sooo boring about stablished unrequited love because I. I loooooooooveeeeee unrequited crushes are you kidding lol.

Especially when they're a 1st love type of deal, there's somethinb so bittersweet and melancholic and. just youthful? about them?