#again it's so cool to hear you enjoyed my posts 💞 thank you!

[butwhatifidothis]

Man I miss when you were posting more on here. I get that it's gonna be way less fun and way more stressful with Mr no boundaries panopticon hanging around but I do miss your fandom writing. Not even just 3h, I remember you made a few really great posts about bleach, and I don't even know bleach that much. I've always enjoyed the doylist approach of analysing story structure and narrative more. But also stuff like the fandom's refusal to allow Claude to be biracial. I get why you're not posting as much, the shitstorm would be massively annoying, but I enjoyed reading it.

Omg thank you so much 😭😭😭 I'm so glad that you liked my stuff so much!! Happy to give that enjoyment!

I do wanna clear up something real quick though! I've just been drawn to other stuff rn, like trying to polish up a TLOU DnD setting idea (and with that learning how to DM) and playing Hades 2 and being HYPE AS FUCK for Bleach Cour 3 and trying to get back into drawing (HARD!!!) and BANGING MY HEAD THROUGH THE WALL TRYING TO GET THAT DAMN GW REWRITE DONE THROUGH WRITER'S BLOCK and yadda yadda. It's not so much that it's become less fun or more stressful to talk about fandom stuff and more that my brain's been being pulled in this and that direction lately lmao so no worries there!!

[oceantornadoo]

hii! can you do what it would be like asking price to put pads on the shopping list?? and then when price goes shopping he has to call you to ask for what size ?? 😭😭 btw i love love your work, hope u had a good day💞.

im pretty sure you're referring to this post but i decided to make this price x reader so :) enjoy!

bsf marriage pact!price x reader, he's slightly creepy but he's sweet (this is actually a bit dubcon but its in good spirit)

you had had a shit day. actually, make that a shit week. emotional the whole time, feeling lonely, depressed, and with the weirdest cravings. right when you were about to call your best friend and rant about how terrible you felt, you had went to the bathroom and- oh.

that explains a lot.

and now here you were, sitting on the toilet for the past ten minutes, contemplating. you were completely out of all period products and your flow was so heavy there was no way you were making it to the store free bleeding or with toilet paper as a makeshift pad. of course, that's when john decided to call you (let's be real, who doesn't take their phone to the bathroom. don't judge.)

"evenin', duckie."

"ugh john, i told you not to call me that. its so annoying."

john grunted a chuckle into the phone, swiping a hand over his beard. "you love it." silence. he could practically hear your eye roll. "dinner tonight?" he was pacing his apartment, uncharacteristic for a man like him. calm, cool, collected. never when it came to you.

"can't, sorry. maybe in a few days." he grunted. "could order a takeaway?" you sighed in his ear, the sound a melody he craved to hear over and over again. on lazy saturdays and in-between small fights over laundry. baby steps, though.

"its just not in the cards tonight, john, i'm sorry." you were never like this, withholding information. even when you cancelled on him, it was with a long-winded explanation with the names of about seven people he didn't know and plans you didn't want to go to. "'s wrong, duck? got a hot date or somethin'?" he mentally crossed his fingers, not allowing a physical expression. he wasn't that whipped. not yet.

"no, im just sick. and tired." his muscles relaxed. he started putting on his boots and grabbed a fleece, something gaz insisted was not too tryhard for someone like him. "i'll run to the store and grab ya medicine, hm? what'dya need?" you sighed again, rubbing your fingers to your forehead. he obviously was not giving this up and you did really need pads...

"ill text you a list when you get there. thanks john."

"anythin' for you, duckie."

list: pads, advil, that one chocolate candy you know i like, something for dinner

shit. price had been with a woman or two, but had never had to buy her pads. of course, he'd never let it get to that stage, not when he had you to take care of. but now here he was, staring at playtex and always and what the fuck was a diva cup? he'd better call you.

"all ok, john?"

"ya didn't give me a color on your pads, duck." you giggled. of course he paid attention to the green versus orange pads.

"its pretty heavy so some of the overnight and extra daytime ones would work." silence.

"...there's numbers." your cheeks warmed. you couldn't believe you were talking about this with john of all people.

"god, john. this feels so embarrassing. so weird to talk about with you."

"why? gotta know this for the rest of my life, duckie." shit. he was referring to that night a couple weeks ago, when you confessed to him you thought you'd never find love. when he said he'd marry you in a heartbeat, just say the word. when you compromised by telling him if you were still single in two years, you'd go to the courthouse then and there. when you didn't see him turn and write the date in phone, just as a reminder.

"5, john. there should be a moon symbol or something. and then 3. should be green, i think?" he grunted an affirmation, putting the respective pads in his cart. he turned around, having said goodbye and ended the call, and was subsequently greeted by three women, staring. paused in their product selection, staring openmouthed at how nonchalant he was about buying pads.

30 minutes later he was at your place, groceries and takeaway in hand as he used his spare key to let himself in. "duck?" all quiet. he stalked through your place and noticed the light on in the bathroom. one, two, three quick knocks. "john?" "'s me. can i come in?" "no i- need you to get me something." he waited patiently. "can you go to my dresser and grab a pair of underwear. something ugly, lots of coverage." who was he to say no to a free invite to your underwear drawer?

john dropped the pads outside your bathroom door and headed to your bedroom. finding your dresser, he had to give himself a second. calm down, old man. they're all clean.

that didn't stop him from sniffing a few, reveling at the scent of your laundry detergent. he almost groaned at the scent, imagining you in them. even in the "unsexy" pairs, your curves clothed in cotton and elastic, wrapped up in a lovely package. all his.

john selected a pair with "lots of coverage", whatever that meant, and headed to your bathroom. he opened the door with ease, setting your pads down on the counter. you shrieked.

"john! im half naked, you need to knock." obviously, the sight of your bare thighs and the top of your mound peaking out was most welcome, but he was more concerned about getting you off the toilet and putting food in your belly. "jus' me, duckie. come on, show me how to do it." he gestured at the pads. he couldn't be serious.

you slowly unboxed them, taking care to cover your naked body as much as possible. even while moving slowly, your shirt still shifted and he caught glimpses of your pretty pussy. an image for another day, when you weren't in pain. he focused on your fingers, deftly putting the pad on your underwear with years of practice. he memorized how you placed the pad, ensuring it stuck to your underwear before tearing the paper off the wings and tucking them on the other side. you looked up at him and he nodded, mission complete. "thank you, by the way." he kissed your forehead, so quick you could have missed it in a blink.

"turn around, i have to put it on." he sat back on his haunches, staring. "go'on. 've gotta learn somehow." you were too tired to care, ready to devour your dinner. you missed his hungry gaze as you revealed your cunt to him, wanting even though it was covered in blood. you missed his fingers twitching as you slowly pulled on your underwear, fabric caressing your skin like he yearned to. you got up, flushed, and washed your hands, missing how he tucked his fingers in belt loops and leaned back into the wall, a move he'd done many times in his tac vest.

"thank you, john. truly." he gave you a grin under the muttonchops, all satisfied. task finished, mission accomplished. you had asked him to do this, a husbandly duty. after you dried your hands, you made a move for the door, but he stopped you with a hand to the jaw. he brushed his beard against you, feeling the shiver in your bones. his mouth hovered near your ear, accent coming out low and sultry. "anythin' for my future wife, duckie."

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ngl this got a bit weird but i like it??? had to struggle to not lean into my simon riley weirdness tendencies as im still learning john as a character.

[theflyingfeeling]

Ending the year with Blind Channel + a bunch of some lovely people, aka not-a-concert-report from the Helsinki ice hall show (29.12.) and Tampere Pakkahuone (30.12.)

(let me know if any of you want your (@)mention removed from this post 🖤)

Not a concert report because y'all know pretty much what happened; this is just my own diary entry about the events 😌

So, Thursday was a bit of a struggle for me personally: there were some surprise changes regarding my train trip to Helsinki that gave me a good ol' spook the first thing I woke up, plus I had a killer headache for most of the day...

...and on top of that I fell! 🙈 We were already inside the venue and on our way to take our spots on the floor. Naturally there were all sorts of electric chords going across the floor, but thankfully they were covered so that people walking normally and minding their step wouldn't stumble all over them 🙏👍👌

Needless to say I wasn't one of them, however 🙃 I wasn't running, I was just walking quite fast, and I totally wasn't watching where I was going, and so I tripped and ended up on the floor and had super minor injuries on my hand and knee (thanks @matelas for the pink bandaid 💗)

My fall wasn't quite as dramatic as Porko's though, gosh what a show-off, can't even fall on his pretty little ass without pyros blowing off 🙄🔥

We weren't super close to the stage, but close enough to see what was happening with our bare eyes, and definitely closer than I dared to imagine in advance! 🤩

The surprise Robin was one of the highlights of the gig, that was truly something straight ouf of fanfiction 😆 I mean, imagine being such good friends with your ex that you ask them to be a special guest in your special show with your new bf's band :')

And the money shooting in the air was a m a z i n g 😂💞💸 sadly I didn't catch one, but @thisisntaparty was terribly kind and gave me one afterwards as a keepsake 🥰 I've put it on the Place of High Honour™ (the fridge door)

(let's not talk about how the setlist was a teeeeeeeeeny tiny disappointment (to me personally at least; I was totally excpecting to hear SLB and many other songs they KNOW are fan favourites 😔), and I feel like the show itself wasn't as special I was expecting it to be 🤔 I mean, of course having Robin fucking Packalén there took us all by surprise etc. but somehow I expected more, especially because the setlist was exactly the same the next day in Tampere (and maybe the cruise show setlist was similar as well?). For example, Dark Side being the ONLY encore song wasn't how I had imagined them to end their biggest headline gig to date)

But, speaking of Tampere, HOLY FUCKING SHIT 😭😭😭😭😭 It was incredible, and not least because we were on 3rd row with a direct view to Olli 😵 @matelas and I competely lost it when he first appeared in front of us, in all his sinful beauty ✨

I had never been this close to Olli's side before, so it was amazing to see his happy face during the songs 😭 You can really see from his whole presence how much he enjoys playing shows, I wanted to ruffle his hair too like Niko did during Glory For The Greedy 🥺

And Aleksi was really enjoying himself as well, it was cool to see him up close too when he came to stand on Olli's platform a few times 🥰 I feel like our eyes met very briefly near the end 💖

Niko did the eeeeeeeeyo thingie, as he always does, and we did the longest eeeeeeeeeeeyo known to mankind back at him, in fact I think you can still hear it echoing inside Pakkahuone! 😌

In both shows (and also in general) my favourite songs to hear live are Don't Fix Me, We Are No Saints, and Balboa; I had so much fun boundcing and partying to those songs 💃 I had made a conscious decision to not film too many videos during either gig, because I truly wanted to take it all in and enjoy the shows to the fullest, but at the same time I wish I had taken just a few more, because watching the videos and sort of getting to re-live the whole thing all over again is so much fun 🖤

Great fun was also had at the very informal, extremely small-scale, and otherwise perfectly wonderful BC tumblr gathering we had after the ice hall show in a bar downton Helsinki, and in the Gathering 2.0 after the Tampere show!! 🥰 You guyyyyyyssssss, both hangouts were filled with laughter and kindness and soft feelings and I was so happy 🥺😭💕

(I DIDN'T CRY, but if I did, it was because @himmelno44 made me!! 😭)

Thanks to BC and their superb energy and songs I probably would have had a great time even if I had gone to the shows all alone, but I gotta tell ya, spending time with such lovely people made it so much better and I had the most fun I've had in a long time 🥺

Special thank yous go to my queuing buddies @ladysorbus and @matelas without whom I would've frozen my ass off and died of boredom while waiting for showtime both days (I'll have you know Envy and I acted so incredibly mature the entire time and totally did not annoy the heck out of @ladysorbus and each other 🥰💞)

Thank you to my BC tumblr meet organizer buddy @sinking-into-mist (the meet was succesful and no one passed out due to anxiety, look at us!! 🎉) and my darling dearest sweetest most loveliest @himmelno44 I miss you so terribly much already and I'm counting the days until we see again, no matter how many there'll be 😭

Thank you to @thisisntaparty (keeping the door open for Stockholm shall we 👀) @mil-peri @madeofbrokenstuff @gingervivilou and @into-the-hell for hanging out, it was so nice meeting you and I'm up for getting together with any of you sweet people any time! <3

And thank you to everyone else I met a little more briefly (but not too briefly to get a hug 🥰), it was great to see you all, mwah mwah mwah 💋

And now the emotional part:

This year's been a bit rough for me personally for various reasons, as there has been a couple of changes that I'm still trying to get used to (+ the always-present feelings of loneliness and inadequacy), but Blind Channel has been this one consistent element in my life this year, something I have been able to escape to when things in my personal life have started hurting too much. Their music and all the content on the side (from the guys themselves as well as fan-made) are one thing, but equally important to me are all the amazing people I have met (in person and online!) and the incredible memories we have made together that have given me endless joy throughout the year 🥺 There have been many, many days when I have felt so incredibly sad and lonely and desperate and the thought of being happy has seemed downright impossible, but during the last two days I have laughed so much and felt such joy that I don't really know how to put it into words 😭 I just want to thank everyone who was part of it, and of course I hope to one day be able to meet Blind Channel in person again too and thank them, for giving me so much more than just the music 🖤

To anyone reading this, thinking I'm crying my eyes out all alone in my apartment, having to continue living my sad, boring life not knowing when I'll see Blind Channel and some of the lovely peeps mentioned above again: I am crying my eyes out, but I want you to know I'm also crying happy tears because of how grateful I am for all these memories, and also that I'm happy to sleep in my own bed tonight and to be eating cauliflower soup and having some fun snacks while watching hockey later, so life's not all bad I guess, even if I have a small wound on my right hand and a bruise the size of Niko's balls on my left knee :')

(last night I was actually so happy that I had forgotten all about the falling as well as the hassle with the train 🥰)

[paleangels13]

Happy Ystävänpäivä (= Valentine's Day in Finnish, where they are not only celebrating lovers but friendships as well).😊

I enjoy your concert content on my dash and the cool makeup looks you put on💄. As someone who has no idea how to use makeup, that is very impressive. Thanks to you LOTL is very high on my list of bands I need to check out. And I will definitely vote for them in the NF🤘. Also I want to wish you for your exam next week all the luck in the world!🍀🤞💪 You will pass it and if not, ist auch kein Kopf ab! Everything is going to be fine in the end. If it's not fine it's not the end.~ Oscar Wilde😘

Hellooo?!? 😭😭🤲🏻💞

Happy Ystävänpäivä to you too then!

I saw this earlier and spent about 10min jsut reading it over again and staring at my phone like 🥺💞for me??💞🥺

Also: Middyyy 🥰

Anyway, I need to let you know that this made me very very happy! It's really sweet 🥺💖 also it's nice to hear that someone seems to enjoy the stuff I mostly post atm even if it's far away from my bc posts I used to do 👉🏻👈🏻

You should definitely check out lotl! They are amazing and their live shows are literally my favorite concerts I've ever been to (and I've been to quite a few) 😍 if you do, feel free to lmk what you think of them ^-^

Thank you! I can use all the luck I can get * sigh * und naja, Kopf ist nicht ab aber mein Studium vorbei :')

Big hug and cookies for you for being so sweet! 💖

Also would you mind if I'd send you a message? I realized we've never really talked outside of posts and I think that should change 😌🤝

[1d1195]

hi it’s me again!!! i’m so happy to hear you’ve been feeling more upbeat and i LOVED the song (thank you for acknowledging how gorgeous he looks in that cover photo cause if you hadn’t, i would’ve lol) the second verse feels like a warm evening with your friends and it just gives me really good vibes ahhhhh😭💞💞💞

i’ve been wondering for a while, are you a hozier fan? i feel like you would be and a lot of his songs are sooo good to picture stories with. because im SOOOOOO excited for the new songs hes releasing that were scrapped from his latest album, i keep hearing ‘too sweet’ everywhere and i neeeed the whole thing DESPERATELY !!!! (also if you aren’t i would love to share my favorites by him if you wanna listen to some!)

i read toothpaste and oh. my. god.😭😭😭😭😭 HES SO SWEETTTT I CANT

“call me harry, love.” BYEEE ID MELT INTO A PUDLE ON THE FLOOR.

I ALMOST FORGOT TO TELL YOU I SAW THE POST FOR DING AND IM SO PSYCHED!!!! just by the little synopsis on the masterlist, i can already tell this is gonna be one of my faves ever!!

i was just making a new playlist that’s more upbeat than my usual ones when i saw your post and i thought it was funny! maybe the weather is getting to us both lol.

as always, thank you for chatting and thank you for the song rec !!!!

~🎶

He’s so cute 😍 I gotta be careful I looked him up and he’s 5 years younger than me 😭

I’m not anti-Hozier at all! I’ve listened to a few of his songs. I’m def a fan of Work Song—the sound bite on TikTok that’s “when my time comes, around…” is perhaps one of the most beautiful lyrics in a song I’ve ever heard. Jackie and Wilson is my favorite by him though. Please send me your other favorites! I could use a new deep dive into an artist! Poor Noah Kahan has been getting a workout from me for the last few months 🤣

I’m glad you liked Toothpaste! I think it’ll be cute to add more in short bits. I hope I can handle short bits though. 🙃 as you can see I just start writing and then I can’t stop.

I think Ding will be one of my favorites too 💕

It’s cooling down in my neck of the woods again. I prefer cold weather but I’ve been enjoying longer daylight hours.

I’m so happy to hear from you and talk to you 💕💕

Xoxo

[g4rous]

🎉 NEW GAME: Introduce your mutuals to everyone and what do you think of them? 🎉

OH AA hi ok let's do this sjsfdhksfg

@sakurazoe need I say more?? You know it all, Ilysm and you mean the world to me 💓💗💓 hella amazing and kind precious bb you deserve all the love and I mean it

@himbo-in-limbo a super chill and nice person, I always look forward to seeing your stunning art on my feed!! 💕 Especially Garou art like bro my heart,,, I loved talking to you that one time and I'd love to again, you're awesome 💓 Thx for all the kind words and for always supporting my works btw, it means so much :') 💞

@miraclecherryblossomsblog another super cool and supportive sweetheart agh thanks for cheering me on from the very start 🥺💗 Bro your art always puts a smile on my face (and on others' I'm sure) and I really appreciate you, keep on being yourself <33 Make sure to be taking care btw!

@hiro-gari dude thanks for all the sweet words you say about my writing and art, that stuff makes my day :') 💞💓 You're always so friendly and nice (not only to me but others as well) and I want you to know it's really sweet and appreciated, you're awesome 💗

@kijobabyships we didn't talk much but I just need to say that I think you're a great person, don't let anyone tell you otherwise ❤️ Your art and fics are beautiful and I think it's really neat when someone is free to express themselves in their works, keep going! <3

@todoroki-waifu a super kind person, was there for me from the start and I really appreciate it 😭💕 You often make sure to check in how I'm doing and your support means a lot!! Hope you're doing well💗

@leviathan-is-a-pretty-name tysm for always reblogging my works! You're a really cool and nice person and I'm happy to be mutuals with you and see your stuff pop up 💞 also your fics are super dope <3

@garous-nipple tysm for always reblogging my works and supporting me too bro 😭💗 Your art is *chefs kiss* sjsjjs I always get hyped when I see new Garou art from you :,) 💕 Keep going, you're doing great!!

@artynerd23 I adore seeing your posts and idk what else to say except you're such a fun person to talk to and to top it off you're so kind and supportive 🤧💕💕💕 Thanks a lot for all the nice things you say about my works, I hope you're doing good!

@hypothesaurus we haven't talked much but I love seeing your stuff in my feed! Ty for always supporting me, you're an awesome mutual and you deserve all the hugs in the world 💓💗💓

@redalive0 as with everyone else here I'm really happy to have you as a mutual, thanks for all the kindness :') 💗💗 Hope you're doing good and taking care!

@rose-riot-johnson I'm repeating myself again with this but I really appreciate your constant support!! 💞 I'm always happy to hear you enjoy my blog and you're really kind :) 💗

@keep-thelights0ff we may not have talked a lot but seeing you comment on my works and reblog them means a lot fr 💕💗 I love seeing you pop up in my feed and I think you're really cool 🤧💕

@mr-bang-bang a super friendly and pleasant person, I could never tire of saying thank you for all your support from the start! 💗

@fubukiswifenoimnotjoking you're awesome. I came across so much awesome opm stuff bc of your reblogs, I love seeing you in my feed 💕 And you're hella friendly and supportive, tysm for that!!

[lmfao-thats-weird]

Thank you so much for 13 followers on here!

OC in the middle belongs to @devilcat210

Special thanks to @devilcat210/ @genkininja21 !💞💕💗💖💓She reached out to me a few months ago when I was working on random stuff with my old OCs. I was working on a fantasy AU at the time, and at the time I was only posting on Insta, but then I thought, “Hey, why don’t I also post on Tumblr? I can even post exclusive content on Tumblr.”

So I was posting random content with my old OCs for awhile, and eventually I saw a particular blog spam liking my posts on Tumblr. I didn’t really think much of it at the time, spam likes happen all the time. Then a few days later I received a message from @genkininja21 saying how much they enjoy my blog and how they love my characters and find them cool. We ended up texting back and forth after that, although we sometimes couldn’t respond right away because we live in different time zones.

OC on the right(with the star headband) belongs to @devilcat210

A little back story on myself: I LOVE storytelling. I’ve always loved it. Years ago, I found one of the OG versions of Gacha, it was called “Gacha Studio”. I used Gacha Studio to create stories for myself because I didn’t know any other way to considering I was completely unmotivated to draw/practice drawing. I would write out my story on WATTPAD and then recreate it in Gacha Studio. I eventually just slowly stopped doing that after two months or so. Then a few years later, a series of events happened that lead to me finding Gacha Life and then Gacha Club, but that’s a story for another time.

I’ve forgotten how much a love storytelling, and I think I was subconsciously falling back into that shortly after I found Gacha Club. Even so, I couldn’t find the motivation to actually put in the effort to create anything. When @genkininja21 messaged me about loving my characters and stories, it honestly completely changed everything for me.

After I got that message, I started trying with my storytelling. I tried to use what I already had with my old OCs in Gacha Club to create a story with them. It got to the point where I completely remade those old OCs and started over with them in a series called unWanted. But it seemed like no matter what I did, I just couldn’t seem to get it write. My storytelling/writing for unWanted was falling flat, and I eventually figured out why. The characters/OCs I made for unWanted were never made for storytelling, I just made them shortly after I found Gacha Club. They were more or less just comedic characters.

Once I realized that, I quickly wrapped up unWanted with a season finale and then left the internet for a month and a half. I needed to figure many things out with myself. The entire time I was gone, I was thinking of ways I could make unWanted work somehow, and I eventually did think of a way to make season 2, although I wasn’t completely in love with it all that much.

When I came back to the internet, I was immediately greeted by @genkininja21 , they were happy to hear from me again and I was happy that they were glad I came back. I hinted to my followers that unWanted would be coming back with a season 2 eventually, because unWanted was in production at the time.

But...something happened along the way. As I was waiting for responses from voice actors, I started messing around on Gacha Club and began creating a new OC just for fun. But before I knew it, I created another OC. I pondered on them for awhile, I loved their designs but there was no way I could fit them into unWanted.

Then it struck me, “Why not just make a new series about these characters?” I already had a few ideas in mind of what I want to happen, and I already had my two main characters made, so...why not?

That’s how Down With You came to be.

OC on the left(wearing headphones) belongs to @devilcat210

And I want everyone reading this to know that known of this would’ve been possible if it weren’t for @genkininja21 💕💓💞 That they when they messaged me about loving my characters and stories...it completely changed everything for me. I suddenly felt motivated to do what I love, to create what I love. All because I had one person message me about loving my work.

And the entire time, when I was making unWanted and started working on Down With You, I was obviously making it for myself, but at the same time I was also thinking, ‘Would @genkininja21 like this?’ Because it makes me ridiculously happy when every time I post something new with my characters or story, I get a text from @genkininja21 about what they liked about it and how they can’t wait to see what I post next.

So, thank you so so so so much, @devilcat210 / @genkininja21 💗💕💖💞Your support has always meant so much to me, and it helped me out a lot.

💖Y’all better go follow them! @genkininja21 is their main blog, and @devilcat210 is where they post their Gacha and OC content!💖

OC on the right(purple OC) belongs to @devilcat210

[obirains-archive]

Hello my dear Aubrey! Congrats on 300 🥳🎊 I would like to submit a Luke request with the prompt “That sounds a lot like ‘goodbye.’” If you can add some spiciness that’d be great but if angst is all there is I’ll gladly take it! Thank you 😙

Aileen!!! Thank you so much and thank you for the prompt! I had way too much fun writing this lmao. Hope you enjoy! Also ily 💞

The Lost and the Waiting (Luke Skywalker x Reader)

Word Count: 1.5k

Genre: spangst (spicy angst)

Warnings and tags: allusions to sexy times but nothing ur grandma would faint over. some language. set post-RotJ. Luke has some Jedi Business tm so go back to ur drinks. gender neutral reader (if not please let me know)

A/N: this is my first request and my first spangst and my first time writing for Luke; pls be gentle lmfao. but as always i love and appreciate any feedback! - aubrey 💕

Tags: @cherieboba, @aty-cgca7, @royalhandmaidens, @kaminobiwan, @thespareoom, @acnini, @wille-zarr, @acciokenobi, @goldenkenobi, @lloveyouinsecret, @blue-space-porgs, @catsnkooks

The bed is cold when you wake up. Cold, dark, early—it’s impossible to tell how long you’ve been asleep. All you know is the empty space beside you. You feel around blindly, looking for him. But your hands land on nothing but cooled sheets. They’ve been cool for a long time.

“Fuck.” Your voice is hoarse and your limbs stiff with sleep, not to mention the way your thighs tremble whenever you move them. But you climb out of the tangled sheets anyway, shivering when your bare feet touch the floor. You tug on the first tunic you find—his, by the feel of it—from the pile of discarded clothes and tiptoe out of your bedroom.

Luke’s standing at the window, watching the stars as they drift by. He’s still, but not tense. Perhaps that should comfort you—his serenity, his ambivalence. But it doesn’t. It’s pure whiplash to see him so distant, in spirit if not in body, when just a few hours ago you’d clung to him and he to you, losing yourselves in your moans, your cries, your declarations whispered to the dark. Even now as you lean against the icy metal you can hear them as if he’s right in your ear. Just as you can feel the bruises painting your collar as if he’s still leaving them, and the ache in your legs as if he’s still pressed against you.

But that was then, and this is now. You sigh and turn around. Back to the empty bed.

“Don’t go.”

You squeeze your eyes shut. When you face him again, you can’t help but wonder if you’d imagined it; he hasn’t moved a muscle.

“I didn’t mean to interrupt.”

“You didn’t.”

He turns just enough for you to see half of his face, shadowed against the starry sky, and extends a hand. You hesitate. There’s a look in his eyes, a note in his voice that sucks the air from your lungs and chills you to the bone. But you approach him anyway; the warmth of his skin on yours is too tempting to pass up. He clasps your hand in both of his and traces the lines of your palm, the curve of your nails, the little scars on your fingers. His gaze is focused and his touch feather-light as he presses figure eights into your wrist. You can’t tell if it’s more for your sake or his.

“How long have you been up?”

He keeps looking at your hand as if he hadn’t heard you, but you can feel the pressure increase by the smallest degree. “Couple hours, maybe.”

A couple hours? Had he slept at all? 

“Is everything okay?” you ask more tentatively.

Finally he looks you in the eye and smiles. Somewhere in that smile, buried deep, is the farm boy from Tatooine, the nobody you fell in love with. But before you now is a man, a someone, a warrior imbued with strength you’d never know from the tenderness with which he holds you.

A moment later his smile fades. He looks back to your hand, nodding. “I can’t stay here.”

“But—but the war’s over.” 

“It is. But not for me.”

You hate how fast the lump swells in your throat. You hate how fast tears spring to your eyes. But most of all, you hate how he still looks at you like he looks at the galaxy. Not like your nobody, gazing wide-eyed into the night sky, dreaming of when he’d get off that wasteland of a planet, but like a hero who’s travelled and tested it, who knows its wonders and horrors alike in their terrible glory, and loves it all the more.

How can he look at you like that when every word’s a mallet to your heart?

“Why not?” Your voice shakes; you hate that, too. It’s all you can do to keep your tears at bay. “We could have a life. Or... we could make one. You could—you could stay. With me. We—we could be happy.”

He brings a hand to your face, fingers ghosting over your temple and cheekbone. You shudder; his mechanical hand is always a few degrees cooler than the rest of his skin and the gesture is lighter than the breeze across your face. But you can’t help but lean into his touch.

“I know. And I—” his voice breaks as he shakes his head. “I want to be happy with you. But—”

“But what?” You squeeze his hand, too tightly. He sighs. 

“I’m a Jedi, like my father before me.”

“Luke, your father’s—”

“Gone, I know.” His voice is even, soft. A part of you wants him to glare at you, to raise his voice, to give you a reason to be angry. This gentle understanding is somehow so much harder to swallow. “So is Ben, and so is Yoda. They trusted me; I can’t let them down. I can’t stop until the work is done.”

“Jedi work?” He nods. You set your jaw, desperate to pull yourself together. “Then let me come with you.”

Luke shakes his head and smiles sadly. “You know I can’t.”

You close your eyes, letting your tears finally fall. They catch on his hand; he wipes them away with his thumb and rubs them into your skin. You’re too tired and numb to stop him, though part of you wants to wriggle out of his grasp, stomp back to your bedroom, and lock the door. You’ve waited years for this. You left your home for this. You destroyed the Empire for this, for a chance at a life filled with warmth and light and laughter, for a life with him. Yes, you’ve waited all these years for him.

Why are you running away from me? you cry out in your mind. I don’t understand.

His hand wraps around the crown of your head, pulling you into him. At your side, his fingers interlock with yours and squeeze tightly. All at once you’re surrounded with warmth like he’s holding your very heart in his hands. You muffle a sob into his robes; it’s too much.

“I’m not running,” he murmurs into your hair. “This isn’t goodbye.”

“It sure sounds a lot like goodbye.”

“It’s not. It’s not; I promise.” He presses a kiss to the top of your head as he runs his hand up and down the dip of your spine, tracing what feels like lettering through the thin tunic. “I’ll come back.”

You swallow down another cry. “You better, asshole.”

He chuckles and drops his head to your neck. His hot breath fans across the sensitive skin as he kisses along the marks he’d left there. You shiver. “So cold...” he whispers.

You bury your face into his chest, lulled half to sleep under the gentle weight of his hands. “’M always cold without you.”

For just a moment his hands stutter, before resuming their exploration with more urgency. He hums and sucks another bruise into your shoulder, and you begin to forget your anger and heartbreak. The intimacy overwhelms you: as much as you relish the carnal, white-hot wildfire of his bare skin against yours as you take your pleasure together, there’s something about cradling each other in the cold quiet ship, the gentle blossom of warmth, that you crave. It’s like a little heartbeat—blooming and breathing and yours. Yours to hold, yours to cherish. Yours to cling to, alone in the dark.

“Let’s go back to bed,” you mumble. “Just for tonight.”

He doesn’t answer. He only soothes the newest mark with his tongue and kisses back up your neck until he reaches your lips. He kisses you sweetly, slowly. Softly. Reverently. You sigh at the taste of him, winding a hand into his hair, pulling it just enough to make him shudder. He grips your waist like an anchor. 

“Back to bed,” he agrees against your lips. You’re both breathless.

Your feet still freeze on the floor as you pad back to bed, but you don’t notice—not with Luke’s body still pressed against you, and his fingers still entwined with yours. You don’t even break apart to clamber onto the mattress. It’s awkward and graceless, inching across the bed like this, but it pulls a childish giggle from the two of you that makes your heart sing. And as Luke curls into your side with his head in the crook of your neck and his arms around your waist, you can’t help but smile in the dark. Yes, that’s him. Still him. You card your fingers through his hair, nails lightly scraping across his scalp.

“Have to leave soon,” he mumbles against your chest.

“Hmm.”

“’L be back.” He yawns. “Promise.”

You squeeze the arm draped over your middle. “I’ll be waiting. Promise.”

He sighs and relaxes under your hands; you can feel his smile against your skin. Eventually his fingers still at your sides, and yours in his hair. Somewhere in your sleep-ridden mind you catch glimpses of the life you’ve sought so desperately. It must be parsecs away, halfway across the galaxy, but you can see the glimmer of light and hear the peels of laughter as vividly as you feel the warmth around you. And, somewhere even deeper, you know the warmth will never leave.

Even if the bed is cold when you wake up.

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Like you said before, we are besties (4 lyfe) 💗 and what are besties for if not to help you when you're not feeling your best? I'll always manage to squeeze in a 5 minute hug session for you 😘 I'm gonna be on the lookout for any eat reblog from now so I can run to the rescue 💞

From what I've seen, you are FAR from being wrong. Also, we both know you know who I truly am. This game is more for fun than anything else ❤

Krystal & Suzy are definitely both my ults. Have been for a while now <3 Honestly, I could talk to you about them for hours. It's like when someone says their name, this particular part of my brain gets triggered and I can't help but overshare about them. However, I'm feeling a little tired rn so I'll let it slide for now. If you ever want to know a little more about them, please let me know and I'll gladly prepare a 150 slide presentation about them 💞 So sad they both decided to quit music (well, more like only krystal but suzy only drops new music once every 45 years 💔 but if that's what makes them happy then I'm happy too) because their voices are beautiful :(

Once again, you are absolutely correct! I do post a lot of red velvet, especially yeri & joy (bias line) 💓 I mean their music is fantastic and the girls are all beautiful. Now that you've told me, I think nct and shinee are the only boygroups I really like. Wait! I kinda fell into the txt hole last year. I won't say I'm a fan, more of a casual listener. I do enjoy some of their music. Apart from those, I don't listen to a lot of boygroups. Although, I did listen to be mine because you held me at gunpoint 🔫 literally! When I listened to it on spotify, I realized I already listened to kb's be free and enjoyed the song a lot! The only thing I know about both songs is they're sung by members of ooo but I don't know anything about the group so if you want to recommend some songs, I would love to listen to them. On a side note, will each member of the group release a solo song until the new album? Or is it some kind of side project?

To answer the ziont question, I associate you with the song 💖 the instrumental kinda fits the vibe of what I feel whenever I come here to talk to you 💟

Now that I've added a few details to your answers, here's the second round of questions! Are you excited?

Question #4: What is my mother language? I think you guessed it already but I figured I'll ask.

Question #5: What is my favorite rv song? (I have a few so you have a wide range of answers)

Question #6: What is my favorite color? (I know it's unfair but I choose to give you hard questions as well so this game can be fun :D)

Alright folks! That's all we have for today. I hope you enjoyed today's show. Stay tuned for another one next week :)

PLEASEEE you’re so sweet thank you i love you :( and i’m just glad i wasn’t wrong and i have been spared the embarrassment! but you’re right i really enjoy these fun little messages so you we can just keep it a secret for a bit longer <3

i know a little bit about suzy! i have seen a few of her dramas and there’s a few miss a songs that i like but i’m sure there’s a lot more you could tell me about her! same with kyrstal i never was a huge fan of f(x) so i don’t know her that well so i’d love to hear whatever you want to tell me about her too! 💕 i’m sorry they both don’t really make music anymore but i hope they’re still doing lots of other cool things so that you still get to see them and support them!

saying red velvet was probably cheating since we have already talked about them quite a bit but i needed to make sure i had at least one thing right! ah the txt hole… i’m familiar! i honestly never intended on being a fan of enhypen or txt but after hearing a couple of their songs i really started to like them (though enha’s lastest stuff hasn’t been my favourite if i’m honest) but txt have some really great songs and they’re a really fun group too! 

YOU LISTENED TO BE MINE BECAUSE OF ME??? i am honoured! honestly i’m pretty new to ooo as well i became a fan of them through vianey (@haramie) so if you want to know more about them she is ur girl! and sorry if this is way too many but if i could recommend some ooo songs i would say savanna, dora maar, sage, designer and angel! their latest album was really good too i would recommend pretty much every song on there (yes even skinz she’s controversial and not for everyone but i love her) and yes!! every member is gonna release a solo and then hopefully they will release a new group album! they’re such a sweet group and make really good music so i’m glad they seem to be gaining a bit more popularity these days! <3

AWWW no thats so cute :(( okay i love that actually! i wouldn’t have expected the song for some reason like i feel like it’s fun and upbeat i wouldn’t expect people to associate that with me but the fact u did and your reasoning is so sweet i love it 🥺💗

ooo i’m pretty sure it’s french? i could be wrong but i’m fairly confident on this one! i think you have mentioned it before or maybe i guessed it i’m not sure but yeah i think it’s french final answer 

oh nooo red velvets discography is hugeee there’s so many songs that could be your favourites! i remember when we were talking about the new album you really liked bamboleo but just saying that is probably cheating so based on that i think some similar songs you might like would be cool hot sweet love, something kinda crazy, ladies night, so good or body talk! hopefully naming that many isn’t cheating and at least one of those is a favourite of yours <3

i could be way off here but i want to say it’s blue? i noticed you have had blue themes pretty often so that’s why i’m guessing blue but i’m not totally sure! but if it is then that’s something else we have in common so i hope i’m right! 🥰

these questions were a little bit tougher i hope they dont get much harder because i need to win!! but thank you i had lots of fun playing this round! see u on the next episode hehe take care bestie!!! 💞💓