#after he gets his own pov prob haha

[rinisbowen]

I can admit, I've definitely been pretty harsh on Ricky in defense of Gina (mainly b/c she's my favorite character and I hated seeing her in pain in S2😭) but I agree with you that no one should be calling him toxic, regardless of what you ship. He is still a teenage boy who is learning how to go about life.😙 I've deff seen a lot of hate towards Ricky while S2 was airing, claiming he was toxic to Nini and the relationship was toxic for both. I've also seen some claim he's toxic towards Gina. I don't agree w/ labeling him as "toxic," he's just a bit misguided. It was (slightly) infuriating post-2.07/2.08 seeing most of the fandom call Ricky out on his "toxicity" t/w Nini yet no one pointed out how she wasn't being very truthful to him thruout S2.🙄 All that to say, I'm so glad to see Ricky more laid back and happy in the promo shoots for S3 that was just released. I'm genuinely hoping this is a truly happier season for him.☺️ What do you think S3 holds for Ricky?

hi oh gosh thanks for the ask- i feel like this is probs SUCH a late response but i always tend to forget about stuff in my inbox after a bit haha.

honestly, i sorta think people just need to be gentler to each other in general on the internet haha. and i appreciate that you like- recognize your own feelings / behavior, that's more than a lot of people do :)

that whole storyline about gina liking ricky and ricky being with / being in love with nini and that crushing gina to watch- being entirely from gina's pov makes it easier for viewers to just hate him for his somewhat careless actions, but the end of the day that's unnecessary. i answered an anon ages ago where i said something along similar lines. like you can feel really bad for the way it all made gina feel without saying he's toxic towards gina, or insulting him generally speaking.

ricky and nini's season 2 relationship is complicated and it gets relentlessly oversimplified by the fandom, and the way the show presents the whole situation it makes it all the worse for ricky, particulalry when compounded with the fact people are very clearly supposed to be feeling sorry for gina. like whether they think he's toxic to gina, nini, or both, i've seen a good bit of that sort of narrative tossed around, and it's very over the top to say the least. i'll say i somewhat understand why viewers are quick to blame everything that went wrong on ricky (with this breakup and somewhat in general lbr, it's a narrative framing thing)... the way 2.08 handled the breakup for example, while incredibly emotional and lovely for the most part, leaves a lot of viewers feeling quite satisfied bc they can just blame everything on ricky- because he's the only person ever made to apologize... i can get into the nuances of that another time though this is already long haha. honesty was indeed a problem for her this season when it came to him, but lbr both characters were scared and i have a good bit more to say about the fight and stuff maybe another time. i'm very prone to want to defend ricky first and foremost given how viewers can treat him so yeahhh.

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ricky does seem laid back / happy in the two promo photos we've seen... but i'll be honest, i don't think that necessarily means he's going to be having a good time this season. i mean the season 2 promo shoots didn't mean much for the season and such- the only truly "in character" thing about them were the necklaces haha. rip the 'freaky callback boy' and 'freaky math girl' necklaces. you will be sorely missed but also not missed bc monitoring all the promotional imagery for signs of the chains of necklaces to monitor the potential status of their relationship was just a LOT.

i hope he does have a good summer i just- this show does not have a good track record of letting ricky be happy. (throwback to that happy ricky bowen scenepack from season 1 being only like 51 seconds). tbh the fact of lily only being a guest star means that chances are, they're not going to use that storyline to its full potential, which doesn't bode well for ricky necessarily but also does at the same time? idk. it just depends on how they do handle him this season. regardless of lily's absence, i still think ricky's probably going to be the character getting left out in the cold. otherwise- and this is just entirely speculation based on even less than my prior theory about ricky... it could maybe be ej? i doubt it will be ej given this could be the beginning of the end for him and they'll want to keep him on a mostly upward trajectory. but if ej is a counselor, and can't audition, etc. maybe he feels a bit distanced from the wildcats group and such... idk. that's a whole different conversation though haha. if anyone's curious about what i think that could look like feel free to lmk. i don't think it will happen. but i guess you never know, it just came to me while i was rambling on this post.

what do i think the season holds for ricky? i don't know. potentially some distance from his friends, perhaps in part due to his distant relationship to theatre, the fact it was nini's thing first- the fact he's done both musicals for her- the fact he's probably at her same theatre camp- where she got with ej no less- without her... these were her friends before his... i'll be somewhat disappointed if they don't use the nini thing at all with him this season. their characters were so strongly tethered previously, that they need to prove he can be truly over her if they're wanting to put him in a lasting relationship. (bc even if they don't try to do it now i'm sure they'll want to down the line) and right now he's not there. he's trying with lily as of the season finale, but given she's only a guest star (which i think is a wasted opportunity) i don't think they're going to use that arc to help him move forward the way they could've. to get there i think he needs to either do theatre for himself or decide that like for nini- maybe theatre's not his one big passion either. either the former can occur / start to occur at camp, or they can start on a trajectory towards the latter.

basically- i don't know what to expect? i have a few ideas... but i think the two week timeline stifles (not necessarily rules out but seriously dampens) a lot of my previous theories / thought processes bc not very much character development can happen for any of these kids in two weeks. like i know sometimes we have quick OH moments of realization but usually change takes time. ricky's especially going to need time because y'know... change is hard for him in particular. it's why him letting go of nini for real is going to have to be a work in progress this season in a consistent storytelling perspective (from where i'm sitting).

that said- if camp is happening at the VERY end of summer... maybe i'll rethink some of these ideas. camp being at the start, the middle, or the end of summer makes a big difference to me in terms of certain potential plotlines and ideas. i don't really know.

[metalbvcky]

FIC 👏 ASK 👏 GAME 👏Title: Pet - 4, 5, 9 .... Title: Rose Blue - 7, 11, 6 .... Title: Lube - 13, 15, 9, 3

MY #1 CHEERLEADER WOOO!!! I can always count on you loool, I did pull you into this 'verse after all :3 And Since this is about the Bloom series, I'm gonna stick to that VS everything else I've written.

A Toy to Share, Restrained by Coriander (Steve/Bucky/Loki)

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

There's so many to choose from but I'll go with this:

“At the end of the day, it’s always me who gets to keep you,” Steve murmurs against Bucky’s skin, lowering his voice as he slowly trails his lips over to the shell of Bucky’s ear. “No one else because you’re mine.”

Posessive!Steeeeeebe!!!

5: What part was hardest to write?

The end, it's always the end, or more specifically, the last line. Some endings are like bam, it's done! Others are like ehhh needs some expanding. Dialogue endings are my fav, but a paragraph or two of descriptions is nice too :3 That one def needed it lolol.

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?

Oohh, you know there was! It could've been all Steve's POV, their scene could've been longer, and there could've been more impact play :P but! there will always be more fics~~ Rose Blue (Steve/Bucky)

7: Where did the title come from?

Who would've thought that a Stone Sour song- Rose Red Violent Blue- would decide the future of the fic titles for the series? It has nothing to do with RB at all, but I just love that song/band :3 Pfft Steve/Bucky's wedding band has blue roses on them BECAUSE of that song. I just love it.

11: What do you like best about this fic?

Just, Bucky's loneliness and missing Steve and how it's resolved near the end. Steve just knows his husband/sub so well ;__; The dinner scene was my favorite chapter initially, but now I think I love the playroom scene the most. ROPE. Oh man, I need to write some more rope scenes. Bucky is TOTALLY a rope bunny.

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

RB is Animal Crossing, everything else is Doom (excluding year 0 and 1 prob)-- no but seriously XD. RB is so romanticly kinky, like the oneshots are pure filth, and RB does have some steamy scenes in it, but they don't compare to say, gogoboots lol. It's also the only multichapter so far! I've learned that I don't like 50+ fics anymore so hopefully when I do write the wedding/house buying fics, which will be multichapter, they won't be tooooo long.

*grumbles something 3k smut oneshot grumbles*

Cattails In the Rogers-Barnes Household (Steve/Bucky/Loki)

13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?

*taps head with an imaginary pencil* Skyrim atmosphere? MK8 soundtrack? Coffee shop atmosphere with jazz/piano? It couldn't been anything lol I switch things up a lot. Currently, I'm on a bookstore atmosphere kick, but you know why :)

15: What did you learn from writing this fic?

Steve and Bucky have more lube in their house than you think. LOLOL AGAIN, SERIOUSLY. Lubefic was the starting point, more like kindling to the bonfire, of the OT3 section of the series. Loki's character was given more progression and they went from being a side character who worked at Thor's brewery to the main character who owns the club, and becomes romantically involved with Steve/Bucky after a few hookups. POLY POLY POLY!!!

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?

YEAH! IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A STEVE/BUCKY CRACKFIC LIKE "HAHA OUR HOUSEGUESTS FOUND THE PLACES WHERE WE KEEP OUR LUBE" BUT IT TURNED INTO NICHE OT3 RAREPAIR PRE-POLY FIC FT. LOKI. IT ALL STARTED BECAUSE STEVE GRABBED SOME LUBE OUT OF THE KITCHEN DRAWER DURING THE MUGFIC

3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

As opposed to the rest of the shed, the toolbox is cluttered with knick-knacks, even junkier for Tony’s standards. Where the bucket of paintbrushes should be is not there, and instead, a tall bottle with a flip cap sits in its place. The brand label is unfamiliar to him, however, the liquid is a yellowish-gold color. Oil, duh. It wouldn’t hurt to give Dum-E a good oiling, and he’s been needing it for a while now.

TONY NOOOOOO!! And I'm STILL not over you naming Dum-E Da Ultimate Mowing Experience.

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Basically, I love the Bloom!Verse so dang much that I couldn't EVER trade it for anything. Sometimes I think that I need to be writing something outside of the series, bad brain, but this is fanfic, I do what I want! I might not have the biggest audience, but it makes me incredibly happy! I sit down to write and it's like, wow, I don't hate it! Plus, I learned that I do enjoy writing smut. The emotions, the power exchange dynamics, Loki's dirty talk~~~

You, Kaitlyn, being on this journey is the best thing of all <3

Also, meme:

[jackrrabbit]

ask answering/updates

first of all, thank you 💘 second of all...

ok ok ok don’t get too excited, but I finally got the juice to start working on the next part of Fanatic 🖤 most of you guys will be like ‘who cares’ but i know some of you have been waiting for this for a while! it’s been what, 2 months?? hope I’m not jinxing myself by saying this *knocks on wood* also not to hype myself too much but it’s kinda bomb 😳 maybe this is just my sick bias but I’ve really been wanting to write about...aftermath iykwim haha. reader all scared & shy & trying to avoid him but yk he’s not going to leave her alone :P

I also figured out the ending to it will come back!! it wouldn’t be shiggy if it didn’t get dangerous 😈 also gonna be nice to write some eyes-rolling-back-in-the-head fuckery so our favorite handsy creep can finally get his dick wet with his beloved little nursey <3

here are some other vague ideas, some based on requests, some not. as always no promises!!

BNHA—pillage & plunder with fantasy AU warlord Bakugo (and his gang of ruffians?? hmm...)

BNHA—Overhaul makes you work off your daddy’s gambling debts the extra hard way uwu...also I have SO many ideas for Overhaul 😷 after I finish iwcb my next multi-part fic will probably be with him

BNHA—various things with reader as an aspiring villain set in the same universe as Caught in the Act: reader getting quarantined with shiggy & dabi...dabi getting mad at you after you keep fucking up...incel shiggy jacking it to his adorable protégée without her knowledge (a galaxy brain request from a very good buddy!!!!)

BNHA—ABO with alpha Hawks and omega reader in an elevator...and uh-oh, it’s stuck! and you’re going into heat! oh no, whatever will you do??

Haikyuu—you get stuck in a hole in a wall, good thing your dutiful boyfriend Kuroo is there to help you out ;)

Haikyuu—gangbang with Tsukki, Bokuto, Akaashi, and Kuroo...a challenge bc I’ve never written a gangbang before!! will have to do some research 🧐

Haikyuu—your bf Atsumu does mean things when he’s jealous, like putting his hands up your skirt in public

KNY—Kokushibou decides to keep a shrine maiden as his cute little human pet 💜 actually already wrote pt. 1 but I’ll wait to post til I’m done with Fanatic

AxK—just some no good very bad yandere content with Dr. Midori...neglect play stuff...sensory deprivation stuff...icky icky

Gintama—something with Kamui. does this count as monsterfucking? very very rough...idk what exactly? some form of dastardly acts

thanks for the concern friends 💕💕 I’ve been preoccupied by things happening irl for the past few weeks, trying to educate myself, going to protests, etc.

also in case anyone else is confused, my stance is and always has been that Black lives matter and all cops are bastards. I’m not sure my porn blog is the right place to talk about this at length but if you’re a bootlicker, please smash that unfollow button and don’t let the door hit you on the way out. if you don’t already have a decently functioning moral compass you should not get anywhere near my writing...fr

learn more and get involved

omg thank you & yes yes a million times yes!!! hope you don’t mind commitment issues and student loan debt 💝👯‍♀️

the line between not hawksfucker and hawksfucker is very thin and very blurry, beware.....lol and thank you!!

the video you recommended...like damn!!! that’s exactly the vibe I feel like fratty Hawks x reader from be a little bad would be like if they had a happy ending eventually (start at 1:39)!!!!! “I didn’t make you do this” “I’m not accusing you of anything” it’s that exact dynamic. imo Hawks might be a little less willing to make things official and reader would prob have a hard time being straightforward enough to ask tho...hmmm

I did get several requests for a part 2! I’m thinking it over atm. I will say tho that most of my reqs have very slow turnaround so if I write it, it might be a while

ooh I love getting recommendations! here’s what I like:

fanfic: I read stuff like what I write (smut, kink, yandere, villains). at some point I’m going to make a long post of fic recs of my own! I also read fluff and character x character ship fic so interests are pretty broad

TV: humor, crime shows like Bones, Criminal Minds, Psych, that kind of thing. nothing too dark or complicated, nothing that requires too much investment. same goes for anime

movies: pretty much everything! lately I’m really into Howl’s Moving Castle and Once Upon a Time in Hollywood

books: literary fiction. can I say I’m into dark academia if the only dark academia I’ve read is The Secret History? favorite books I’ve read semi-recently are TSH, All the Light We Cannot See, The Poisonwood Bible, and Discipline & Punish. currently reading Foucault’s History of Sexuality

music: idk man...all kinds of stuff. I listen based on vibe more than genre. all my spotify playlists are named things like “sunday” and “the power” and “[sparkle emoji]”. my artists on repeat are Hozier, The Weeknd, Kendrick, M.I.A., The Neighborhood (F I’m a basic bitch) but I’ll try anything once

jfc these two asks have given me so much hope 🥰😭💗 you know what? sooner or later I’m going to post Kamui x reader smut and it’s going to get 3 notes from the three of us liking it and that’s okay because I’ve thirsted over this man too long and too hard to go my entire life without reading over-indulgent reader-insert porn of him. yes the villain kink jumped out but DAMN!!! the man has ‘h*rny scumbag who lets his instincts rule him’ baked into both his DNA and his psyche, and I’m so here for it 😌

if you don’t know who Kamui is, do me a favor and watch gintama. yes there are like 400 episodes but it’s worth it. I will convert more bitches to the gintama thirst train if it costs me my life. Kamui was made to star in disrespectful breeding kink smut and this is a hill I will die on.

??? sure, if you can point me toward part 2 ????? lmao

I’m guessing you meant to ask for a pt 2 instead of pt 3? in which case, thanks for asking!! but tbh...for some reason I have a really hard time imagining what a pt 2 would look like, maybe because I wrote it 100% from Overhaul’s POV so it’s hard for me to define the reader’s feelings. I’m not saying it’ll never happen but 🤷‍♀️

HOWEVER if it’s Overhaul content in general you’re craving, you’re in luck!!! he’s a favorite of mine. legit he ticks so many of my boxes—villain kink? check. medical/scientist kink? check. yakuza kink? honey I’m weak. I’ll definitely be writing more for him in the future!

oh no! I checked it on my computer & on mobile and all of the links are working for me? are the links still broken for you guys?

anyway, here are the rules, here’s the short version of the request rules, and here is part 1 and part 2 of it will come back.

thank you to everyone who has sent kind words, everyone who replies to my writing, and everyone who posts thirst in the tags!!! I read that shit!!!! and it makes me fucking cry, I love you all

one more thing: several people have requested continuations to Sleepless, Sidekick, and Fanatic. on one hand, I’m so flattered that you guys want more!!! on the other hand, I actually already answered asks about pt. 2′s for those particular fics. before you request a continuation of anything, it’s probably a good idea to look up the name of the fic as a tag on my blog so you can check and see if anyone else had the same question 💖💖💖

[decadentboat]

That replies post again

Lets start with a qt Kirara bc almost nobody liked how she died lol.

I had to log in here in the laptop. Since it’s not mine I don’t feel comfortable... So far I’ve been posting and replying via phone which is an eternal hassle.

Again, thank you from the bottom of my boat heart for your kind messages!!(boat heart emoji bc I can post them here lol)

.....I’m sorry I didn’t realize I had missed so many of them!

@mdlouie No prob!! I think it’s totally OK to start with student grade supplies. I mean, buying artist grade right out of the bat it’s not wise in my own opinion since it doesn’t guarantee their particular propieties will be benefitial to you(Like there are watercolor brands that are super easy to re-wet and very vibrant, but they tend to be kinda lifting so layering may be difficult, other brands are the opposite) There is always a learning curve with art supplies, whatever the grade they are. To me, learning using both of material grades is not a waste of time, new adquired knowledge will never be a waste of time!

Now, what I didn’t come to agree at first but now I have to admit it was a big improvement is to use cotton watercolor paper. In special for characters with dark skin like Chouchou. I struggled so so much with having a flat wash on the skin, and I blamed the watercolors(The pigments, because earth color pigments tend to create granulation) But for example this:

The wash on her face came out really nicely! I think you can have both papers(I def have more of the student grade/not proper watercolor paper than the artist grade/cotton haha)And practice on both.IMO watercolor is a lot about water control but also a lot of learning where to place your brushstrokes. Practicing your brushstrokes in cheaper paper is good bc you don’t have that fear of ruining expensive paper with your practices. Water control is better to be practiced in the expensive one. Uhm I hope I’m making sense!

@letherebewisdom Aw! Thank you!! I defenitely don’t want to stop yet!

@kiagumo Perdón por la gran demora en responderte!! No, no! Muchas gracias a ti por dibujarlos!! Sé que dibujo mas de lo necesario y probablemente alguien piensa que eso me basta pero no...NO! Yo también quiero ver fanart, quiero ver dibujitos lindos de mis OTP!!! Que alegria que uno de tus ships favoritos sea Mitsucho, porque tu arte realmente es muy lindo!!

Por cierto no necesitas pedirme permiso para dibujar algo que te interese de mis dibujos! Si deseas puedo dibujarte un diseño de Metal y Shinki playeros jajaja. Muchas gracias, de verdad fue un dibujo muy precioso!! *bote llorón*!!

@alinakz-97 Well, your guesses could be right. I’m def curious lol!

@mdlouie Yay for them indeed!!

@miss-akimichi It’s Chouchou! I added to much red there haha. Perhaps the sameface syndrome is strong in me. But when I draw Karui I try to make her eyes sharper and her skin darker than Chouchou.

@sugarriene I think I read Choji being scared of lizzards somewhere! Maybe Chouchou is scared of snakes? I still think it was a little weird but 100% sure that’s...all in my head lol.

Now, what I meant with medic...Or perhaps should I have said doctor? Like Sakura or Tsunade being perpetual doctors... In special Sakura that has it as her daily job. I can’t see Inojin like that(Maybe a little with Mitsuki because of the team 7 karma... I’m still unsure of this. The biggest mystery of Boruto is who is going to get the frog and the slug... Since it looks like everyone is getting snakes XD) I wish the Yamanaka flower shop being a cover for the sensing division was brought up sooner in the manga because it’s damn cool(Someone correct me, or was it added after the Pain attack?) The future I see for Inojin is being that handsome guy that runs the flower shop and he is seen painting ocasionally, but it turns out he has this secret agent thing going on.

BTW anybody remembers the Nara being skilled in medicine/pharmaceutics? Why are they never the medics of their teams? In the prev gen it was understandable since Ino’s ability was more in the support side, but the current gen, they are very able to haddle by themselves(Considering both Shikadai and Inojin inherited other techniques like wind release and the beast scroll)

Welp, I didn’t want to write this tldr haha. I may be wrong with this reasoning, I just hope I’m not straying out too much of the facts.

@hotmonkeelove Let’s hope they show more Anko interacting with the kids. I keep thinking there must be a reason why Chouchou and Anko were afiliated aside from “lol chubbies“ I want SP to deliver but they have dissapointed me so many times...

@ascrolluponthemoon  I think it would be cool! And honestly I think snakes match their personalities better. Katsuyu for Mitsuki? Their colors match and they are both very polite but it feels wrong xD? Same with Sarada and HOT BLOODED ACTION Gamabunta(Or is it going to be Gamakichi?) Dunno, feels weird, but it is one of the things I’m looking forward to see.

@nite-baron Thank you so much for your hard work!! I’m looking forward to it.

@miss-akimichi  Yes!! Defenitely. But you have to babysit the sites and its annoying. If I find cute Mitsuki and Chouchou merchandise, I will let you guys know. Just in case it might interest you alll and you want to get it before it’s sold out lol.

@miss-akimichi No prob! Thanks to you for posting such cute headcanon! I...uh.. I was drawing a comic but I’m unsure of posting it. They came to be a little touchy with each other since they are married adults and stuff(Defenitely it’s not nsfw! But I can see some people be bothered with it haha) Perhaps I will post it under a read more... or simply ask you guys if you want me to post it.

@mdlouie Thank you!! You are very kind! We are def better! At the very least we recovered our voices XD Since it’s a virus, you have to wait for it to pass. But yes, we are better now.

@flyflywingedbear -_- Yeah me too! Its painfully obvious the Mitsuki arc is just an extender for the anime not to catch the manga. Who is popular? Mitsuki? Well, let’s drag the story with this LONG arc that promises to focus on his background but it turns out we will not touch it haha. The max offender was both the OP and the ED XD We got a bunch of cute inoshikacho moments and development tho, I can forgive those parts. But for a “Mitsuki arc” it lacked of the Mitsuki POV. How many episodes had to pass for him to say he felt like he was not reaching his friends? I felt cheated and offended. As expected of a series named Boruto, son of Naruto.

Thank you so much for the cutest messages in the lastest comic! I told you this was going to be very cute XD The only reason why I felt to doing more than the Valentine one(Which is more romantic, also they are a tad older, like 13 to 14)

[hopevalley]

I have re-written the wedding ep. Basically it happens right after Jack proposes in S4 - Elizabeth goes into the chapel (there's a simple dress, the friends she loves, all those gorgeous candles,Pastor Frank coz they haven't gotten rid of him yet so he's around legitimately) and the deed is done! They eloped!!! And it's romantic and sweet and fitting coz that sort of thing prob happened alot back then. Jack had to go to do his job and who knows when he will be back! PART 1

I like your idea/version of things. It works really well because, like you said, it gives Elizabeth a serious (but not overdramatic) plot for the remains of S4 and S5 weren’t so gloom ‘n doom. I’ve been gunning for an elopement (or at least fast wedding where they just grab Frank and a couple friends and it’s over) for someone in this show for a while. Elizabeth and Jack would have been a nice choice for that, especially if they’d done it right then and there halfway through s4, maybe right after he proposed. After all, she knows he can’t promise to return to her when it’s (more or less) war, so it could even be her idea to go right to Frank and have it done. Invite Abigail, Bill, Rosemary, and Lee, and that’s it. Nothing special. That way, Elizabeth would have to explain it to the rest of the town, to her sisters, to her parents… It’d be even better if she drew some comfort from being married; that could be part of one of her diary-writing scenes, too, where she just says that being able to call Jack her husband helps make him being away feel a little less awful, because she gets to be his wife. Maybe she worries in there about how it might have gone if she’d waited; what if she waited and he never came back?

It’d be good. Two thumbs up for your solid thought process!!

Especially because it would have let S5 actually be good. He could have gone away for training early, could have had some of his POV for an episode maybe (or part of one, like a scene where he interacts with some of the younger guys in the mess hall and then retires to his room to read a letter he received from Elizabeth)! I think the fans would have felt more rewarded that way for sure. I saw @whencallstheheart got a couple messages about how the fans didn’t get to say goodbye, and I think a scene like that would have helped with the closure. Hallmark doesn’t like showing us dying characters, but we could have at least seen the danger coming and Jack rushing after those young guys, some of them the same ones we saw laughing with him in the mess hall, maybe teasing him about the letter from Elizabeth, asking if there’s anything saucy in it.

As far as the depot goes, it’s just for freight delivery, so no, we’ll probably never see it. They’d actually have to show us more of the town and maybe a train–if not, tracks. In an area that could be Hope Valley. I have a feeling it’ll never happen. They still obviously rely on the stage for most things, and deliveries made by the stage. I get the feeling the train stops for Lee’s orders mostly, and to fill up on water.

Also, the wedding wouldn’t have been as bad if it wasn’t so overdramatic. GASP Bill’s not there. GASP fiRE. GASP the kids almost dIED! GASP the chURCH aLMOSt burNED.

I hate that plotline so much I could spit fire. It was terrible, a waste of screen time, and insulting to the fans. I don’t know if the writers chose it on their own, or if they were forced to work the drama in there, but it was completely unnecessary. Jesse and Clara could have had a couple of scenes to take up time, Henry could have gotten a scene, Tom and Jack could have had a longer scene together, Julie and Tom could have had something more sustained maybe… Hell, Bill’s scene could have actually been better; you know, with him NOT making it back in time with the rings and feeling bad about it, OR his stunt backfiring on him a little and getting him hurt so that he can’t attend the wedding anyway (even though he does bring the rings back). This list is literally endless. There were so many options to make the wedding dramatic, but in a better way. Bill taking a job for Jack so he wouldn’t have to put off the wedding was wholesome and GOOD. But it also should have had some kind of consequence, so that it felt more meaningful. (And I think I’ve said this before, but imagine the angst after Jack dies, where Bill missed the wedding of the guy he thought of like a second son haha.)

I wish they’d hire me as a writer, too. ;P But not really, ‘cause I don’t think I’d get along with the other writers and I’d just get outnumbered and then I’d have to help write stuff I was embarrassed to admit I was a part of. D: Oops, did I type that out publicly? :P

[evanescentdawn]

(July 2nd)

today’s writing:

—wips: ss//genin ⭐️, ss//genin 2, touken//massages, touken//cancelled

—I tried to….immediately start on the genin wip, right after posting spring love, since I didn’t need to sleep right the instant. but like…. I kept getting distracted. and wondering if I should just work on other wips, and ended up going to sleep without Actually doing anything. or I think, I at least did a little bit? anyways, the trouble begins AFTER this. I procrastinated so much after I woke up which was what I was worried abt lmao. but managed to focus on it..and ahaha… IT WAS SO HARD !!! TO WRITE !!! for. I literally couldn’t. I don’t know how to get into geninsauce’s mind. he’s so freaking hard, specially in regards to sakura too, weeps. —urgh, genin!sasuke is soooo hard to write. especially in the early years, in regards to sakura. it’s why I wanted to write this in the first place. and weeps, there isn’t really…fics during this time to help me. so double sad. I really wanted to write&finish this, but okay. let’s just do another wip… more later on… sasuke’s pov because I Need it. I actually like writing his pov more, despite, haha, how easy it is to write sakura’s…. but. it’s really hard to THINK of idea for geninera urgh. lmao that wip didn’t work out. nvm. I have no clue on what direction to go with this, also btw. and then, god. it was such SO hard to write. I don’t even know but I think I forgot how to write fjkfkff it felt sooo stifff. I kept screaming along the way. I didn’t even THINK I’d finish this, but I really wanted to and whenever I thought of abandoning today I HATED YHAT so I persevered and somehow, somehow I fcking managed. it felt really nice when I Got into it and really managed to make some progress. I’m fcking amazing. but then….?! I don’t know WHAT IT IS but it wanted to continue??? and I briefly entertained that idea — linking this and the other genin era idea I had — but I quickly abandoned that, THANKFULLY. because I liked the idea genin era idea the way it was, but this did give some idea on how to go abt it so that was cool since I was stuck <3 and y’know this god took so much effort & struggle to write I was HELL NAH gonna continue it despite the temptation. but god… it was so difficult thinking of way to continue-end it. so much going back forth BUT EVENTUALLY REACHED AN ENDING AND SO HAPPY !!! I MADE IT !!! it’s really incredible because I didn’t think I’d make it….! I’m so so awesome <3 like??? there was even a random trouble with tenses in the end that I Don’t get, my brain suddenly wanting to witch to past tense??? and having to get past that block. but I MADE IT 🙌🙌 and so damn proud. deserve many stars for this ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

—back on that short wip I tried to do as substitute for that first genin one…. I was gonna do smth with him saving sk or smth but the whole “body moving on own” not Them, y’know. it’s classic naruto&sasuke <3 and idk this fic just Wasn’t writing, so I moved back to the genin

—also lmao, sakura’s pov apparently really wanted to make an appearance and I Felt in my heart and so I couldn’t not do it. I don’t mind it. I LOVE IT, even. I feel like it’s gonna go soooo much smoothly. I at least started on it !! because I know if I don’t know, I’ll just Won’t ever becsude I lost the motivation/forgot what I was gonna go with it and then it’ll be years before I finish it, lmao. I didn’t really want to work on this tho, right that instant tho. also like. the wip is so Terrible. needs MUCH needed editing, lmao. but geninsk holds ALL MY HEART. god I don’t know what it is, but fckinb love her so much. she’s probs my fave sk.

—had time left of day and haku made me want to write touken so decided to work on touken stuff…! I was gonna try and write for this LOVELY idea she had, but lmao, it just wasn’t working. sadly 😔

—so I decided to work on that insane cancelled wip. I still can’t believe it exists. I wrote a bit!!! the time was going, lmao, since I got v distracted (because of haku…) but I wrote stuff !! which is cool. since I know what the au is about, there’s some moving to be done. also need to actually Think abt this fic’s plot. Since I don’t know abt it except angst + crack….my heart wants the angst…. wait, I really want to make this non-au, too. which means a lot needs to be shifted like stuff that doesn’t make sense but THE HEART WANTS IT WANTS <3

[thevioletjones]

Ok. OKAY... Lol: - Talking body - Pockets left bleeding -You happy now? -Unraveled -Deep-sea -We were in love -Ephemeral Artery -In your house -Asleep in the fire

CHALLENGE/ASK: Send me a made-up fic title and I’ll tell you what I would write to go with it.

Talking Body: It’d be set in like early S3, before Mickey ever kissed Ian, and it’d be about how they don’t tell each other how they feel with their words, but they can with their bodies. And Ian, of course, keeps testing Mickey’s limits. It’d probly be in his POV, and how he spends all this time daydreaming about the different, new little ways Mickey’s body betrays more than he means to, and how he tries to use his to tell him right back. A;ch;jl weh;vhgusdkjhavjv;kd;lnv

Pockets Left Bleeding: This one is a Mickey POV about how he’s making more money than ever with his stable job doing some kind of blue collar manual labor type work that pays decently, but he’s spending it more than ever, because he’s always giving Ian everything he wants. He really needs to stop, but it’s like impossible, not because Ian is a demanding, needy boyfriend who has no job of his own or anything, just because that’s how Mickey is. 

You Happy Now?: Well, this is obviously a 4x11 gap-filler. Duh. Ian reacting to what just happened at the bar. He spends the night at Mickey’s, obvs.

Unraveled: Urgh, I guess that would probly be if I ever did a sad-fuck Ian in a depressive low fic, and I’d probs have Mickey being v v supportive bf toward the end, but mostly just introspection.

Deep-Sea: Lol. I have no fucking clue. Professional divers AU? Treasure hunt AU? Whale-riding AU? XD Gallavich as cartoon fish in a kids movie AU? (please god no)

We Were In Love: Fuck, this would be the fic I could never write about how Ian sees Mickey from afar like decades after they last saw each other and he’s all happy and shit with someone else, and then someone asks Ian who that is that he’s staring at intently, and he’s like, “That’s Mickey. We were in love.” I am actually about to cry right now. FUCK THIS!!!!!! NEVERRRRRR!!!!!!!! Why did you do this to me? *Deep-ass breath* *Shake that the fuck off right now!*

Ephemeral Artery: Lol. I looked this up. Neon Indian song? One of those bands whose song titles I’ve never paid attention to, so… anyway, it’s cute wordplay, even though it sort of doesn’t make sense at all. XD … It would have to be a vampire AU. I guess I’d make Mickey the vamp and Ian the luscious human whose thighs he can’t get enough of, but you know, Ian is human so he’s transient, so he eventually grows old and Mickey leaves. I don’t know if he waits until he’s dead or what, cuz vampires can be vain as fuck, even if they are romantic, so maybe he won’t want wrinkley skin and aging blood? Lmao. Why am I thinking so deeply into this?

In Your House: It’s about Mickey living in the Gallagher’s madhouse and how he copes with having everyone aware of his relationship with Ian for the first time. S5 I guess? Meh, I have so little interest in writing canon Gallaghers at this point. Lmao. Backdrifting is the only fic that I care to have them in at all, and they won’t be as shitty as they’ve become in recent seasons, they’ll be a more logical version.

Asleep in the Fire: Mickey POV about manic!Ian and how he’s dealing with all the shit that goes down in S5. Ugh, so many of these I would never wanna actually write. Haha. I feel like they’ve all been written before anyway, so meh, don’t wanna retread on those times, really. AUs, AUs, AUs!!!

Thank you, @ivegotitbad. I knew you’d be the one to play this game with me.

[whitewolfofwinterfell]

I reread the post about your favorite characters/ relationships and I realized that we pretty much have the same favorite characters and relationships 😄 always nice to meet someone who shares the same opinions and thoughts as yourself. I also read your post about Ope and Jax’s friendship and you had some very good thoughts and you explained their relationship very well. Thank you!

I’m glad you sent another ask, because I made a post in my drafts answering all of your asks so I could post them all in one response, but then like an idiot I deleted all of your asks forgetting I needed to answer one of them with the post I’d made from my drafts haha.

So just to let you know, in this response, I’ll answer all of the asks you’ve sent, so this is gonna be a long one.

Yeah, I remember that we had a lot in common from before and I was surprised because I have some weird preferences when it comes to ships and favourite characters etc. so it’s great to speak with someone that shares similar views.

And I’m glad I gave you some insight into Jax and Opie’s relationship. I always think it’s interesting to hear someone speak about a character/relationship you don’t like or understand to see what others see in them.

This response is to when you asked me to expand on Gemma and Jax’s relationship and my comment on them being the biggest love story on the show in a way (sorry the question got deleted so I couldn’t copy and paste it).

When it comes to Gemma and Jax’s relationship, it’s probably one of the only main relationships that was introduced in the pilot and remained a central aspect of the show until the finale.

I think because a lot of the time Gemma was manipulating Jax and trying to control him, people probably dislike their relationship or perceive it as toxic, which it was, but it was still a very loving relationship. There’s an endless list of things I can drag Gemma for, but how much she loved her son isn’t one of them. I don’t necessarily think she was a good mother given everything she did to him, but I do think she loved him with all her heart and soul. She was just so messed up that she didn’t know how to be a decent mother. Jax was different in that respect and he always seemed to understand that his sons shouldn’t be growing up in the outlaw life, he wanted better for them and in the end he died with that being his final wish. He just wanted them to get out of Charming and escape the life he led but for Gemma it’s like all she wanted for Jax was for him to be president of SAMCRO and a big bad tough guy that goes around killing and being the most powerful man of them all. I’m not saying Jax didn’t want that too, because we all know he did, he spoke about the fact that all he wanted since he was a kid was to have a Harley and a khut. But it never sat right with me that Gemma was always pushing him deeper into the club and wanting him to be more criminal, more cold.  

I think a big part of why Gemma and Jax were so close had a lot to do with JT and Thomas. Gemma lost her young son and that’s a pain that no one but a parent who has also suffered that can understand. It’s natural that she would cling to Jax and keep him closer and I really think that’s why she sought to control his life so much - she was terrified of losing him. And for Jax, losing JT meant that he grew closer with Gemma as his only remaining parent. When a family of four goes down to a family of two, it’s to be expected that the remaining two are going to appreciate each other in a new way and bond in an even deeper way.

They had a very complex bond whereby Jax really looked to Gemma to be his constant support. Again, I think it’s taken forgranted that Jax probably wouldn’t have made it through all his hardships without Gemma. He seemed to draw a strength from her and particularly when it came to doing the harder things, Gemma was the one that pushed him. That’s not necessarily a good thing, because often she would have been pushing him to murder or hurt someone, but from Jax’s POV he had to do those things and Gemma made sure he did.

In a way Gemma loved Jax too much and that’s what got her killed. When she killed Tara in the sickest and most twisted way, it was an act of love. She believed Tara had betrayed them, betrayed Jax and she just lost it. If that had been any other person besides Tara and she hadn’t of betrayed Jax, I honestly don’t believe Gemma would’ve gone to the extremes she did. But because Tara was Jax’s wife, she couldn’t let that betrayal go and she went full-blown mama bear mode. I don’t think she was thinking of the consequences of her actions, she was only thinking, “You hurt my son and I will make sure you never get to do that again.” Of course, it doesn’t justify what she did at all and it’s the one thing I will never forgive Gemma for of all the awful things she did, but the point remains that she did commit that murder because of the twisted and intense love she had for Jax.

For Jax, I think his love for Gemma was pretty similar to the love most of us have for our mother’s. He knew of her flaws but he accepted and loved her because she was his mom. He probably relied on her more than most adult men would be expected to, but I put that down to Gemma wanting to do that rather than Jax needing it - although I do think he needed it too. I mentioned it before, but that whole conversation with Nero about Gemma in the finale breaks my heart everytime and it’s so easy to sympathise with Jax even having never been in a position like that. Here’s his mother, the one woman he’s supposed to trust no matter what, the one who is supposed to protect him and do best by him and she’s murdered his wife in cold blood and now he has to kill her. And whilst he loathes her for what she’s done, he cannot help but still love her because she’s his mother and the thought of killing her breaks him. It’s made clear that after killing her Jax wouldn’t be able to go on living and I think that’s very telling of how much he loved Gemma.

“ she stayed with him as long as he was president and had his power, but the second it started to wane, she abandoned him because he was no longer of any use to her. Again, I think she genuinely loved him, but her relationship with Clay was a lot to do with the power he had and how she could control him to get the best use out of that. She seemed to be obsessed with tough and powerful men” Agreed. But what about Gemma/Nero? Nero is sort of everything Clay isn’t and different than JT too I assume

I think that Gemma and Nero was a relationship that happened because Nero was everything Clay wasn’t. After the drama and heartbreak she went through with Clay, she didn’t want that again and I think she knew she would never get to that point with Nero.

At the beginning of the series Gemma wouldn’t have looked at a man like Nero twice, but after what she went through she needed a man like him that was more relaxed, kind and gentle. I think the love she had with Nero was much more nurturing and she needed that, particularly since she was in her 50′s. What woman at that age wants to be caught in a turbulent and unstable relationship? It’s too tiring and no one that’s middle aged is going to want that. But I do think that Gemma didn’t love Nero as much as she loved Clay. That could just be down to the amount of time she knew Clay in comparison to Nero, but I think it’s that typical cliche of bad boy vs good boy. Clay was the bad boy, he was dangerous and violent, strong and passionate and he challenged Gemma and kept her on her toes, which is what she loved. Gemma wouldn’t have wanted to be with someone like Nero in the beginning, she would’ve needed more excitement than that. But I think when someone has had that kind of relationship and it’s gone bad, it drives the person to seek a partner that’s at the opposite end of the spectrum - someone that they trust to remain level-headed, who will care for them and just love them in a simple way. That’s what Nero was for Gemma and I think that’s why she fell for him so quickly.

Since we never saw JT on-screen or his relationship with Gemma, it’s hard to imagine what he was like as a husband and the nature of their relationship. But Gemma did say that JT was the love of her life and part of me believes that. The thing is with Gemma, just because she had an affair with Clay and plotted with him to kill JT, it doesn’t mean she stopped loving JT. Look at what she did with Clay, she betrayed him and set him up to be killed when she still loved him. For Gemma love wasn’t the most important thing, power was. If JT was weak and Clay was strong, she would’ve gravitated to Clay regardless of how much she loved JT in her heart. I actually think from things we heard about JT he was probably a balance between Nero and Clay. He seemed very sensitive and passionate like Jax, but that he also had a temper and violent streak. It’s hard for me to separate JT and Jax in my mind in terms of their personality, because their characterisation is so similar. Gemma even says to Jax, “I loved your dad. More than than I’ve loved any man. Great lay. Smart. Big heart. And very complicated. Sound familiar?”

As I said, it’s hard to gauge exactly how Gemma felt about JT since we never really saw them as a couple, but I think she definitley loved him very deeply and that of the three main relationships we knew her to have - JT, Clay and Nero - JT was probably the balance between Clay and Nero. But what I said in the first ask about her obsession with power is something you see in all of her relationships. Though we can say that Nero was the least violent and softest of the three men she loved, he still had a certain authority and strength. He had his own business, he knew how to handle himself and I think Gemma recognised that he had a different kind of strength that was inward. Just because he didn’t go around beating up every single person that ever crossed him, didn’t mean he wasn’t strong and powerful. In fact, it probably means he was more so in comparison to Clay who was so insecure and afraid of losing his power that he used violence to try and keep hold of it.

“in season 5 he attacked Wendy and injected her with drugs, something that was actually one of the most disgusting things he could’ve done in my eyes.” I agree! I honestly Jax for doing that or I hated that he did it. I also don’t really get the hatred he has for her when she comes back in season4, (I mean I understand that he’d have some hard feelings towards her for almost killing Abel) But when she went off to rehab in season 1, they were on pretty good terms with each other

Ditto. I love Jax, but I honestly couldn’t believe that he did that. I’m not trying to place the blame at Tara’s door, because Jax made the choice to do that himself but I think he definitely did it because of Tara. Tara was the one that had raised Abel, she was the woman Jax loved and she reacted so negatively to Wendy’s return. And I think his fierce protectiveness over her and his family meant he saw Wendy as a threat to that and reacted in the way he usually would to anyone else that was a threat to him. He didn’t seem to really take the time to think about what he was doing or how important Wendy was as Abel’s mother. And the way he treated her in the later seasons was a million miles away from how he behaved in season 5. In season 1 he loved and respected her and he wasn’t even really angry with her about what happened with Abel because he understood she was an addict that needed help and he actually placed the blame on himself because he felt he should’ve been there for her, which is true. In season 7 he reverted back to that and he seemed to have such a deep respect and love for her as his ex-wife, friend, family and mother of his child. I just don’t understand why he went to those extremes in season 5. Wendy did get a little ruthless in season 5 in her pursuit of Abel, but she’s a mother that just wanted to be involved in her child’s life. She actually went to Tara first out of consideration to talk to her about it and in reality, why should Wendy have to do that? Yes, Tara had been raising Abel, but Wendy was still his mother and Abel was her baby. She had every right to want to be in his life and I don’t think she was unreasonable at all. But like I said in the ask before, I don’t understand why Jax took to injecting her, when he could’ve just worked something out. Wendy would’ve been happy just to be able to have visitation rights, to be able to pop round the house and see him a few times a week and maybe take him out to the park or something. But it was just easier for Jax to get her out of the picture and that’s why he did it.

“As vice president it was easy for him to criticise and question Clay’s decisions, because he wasn’t the one in charge with everyone looking to him to keep things together. But when he was president he soon realised that actually most of the decisions Clay made were necessary and that sometimes you have to do the worst things imaginable to keep control.” Do you think Jax ended up as bad as Clay? Or even worse than Clay?

Hm, this is a hard question to answer. I think he 100% ended up as bad a Clay, but I don’t know whether he was worse. I feel like if I sat and tallied up every single bad thing they both did, Jax would probably have a longer list. However, my instinct is to say Jax wasn’t worse than Clay because I always saw his humanity no matter how dark her got, whereas with Clay most of the time I saw not even a shred of compassion in him. I also think the fact that Jax identified he’d changed for the worst and got in too deep in some ways makes him better than Clay. Clay kept on manipulating and fighting for his power until the end, but Jax didn’t. He could see how evil he’d become and he knew that he was toxic for his sons and everyone he loved, so he took himself out of the equation.

So I suppose I can argue Jax wasn’t as bad as Clay, even in the later seasons, but deep down I know that isn’t true. It would be impossible for me to recall every single bad thing Jax did off the top of my head, but I know he did a hell of a lot things. But more than that, he just became more like Clay in the way he handled conflict and threats. As I said, in season 1 he felt guilt and remorse for killing Kohn, yet in season 6 he killed Venus’ mother without hesitation. Clay was always like that - he acted immediately. If he saw that someone was a prick or a threat to the club, he would kill them without even blinking, but Jax wasn’t naturally like that. He always tried to find other solutions and sought for a way that didn’t have to resort to killing. The example with Wendy is again a very good one in this instance. He would’ve never have reacted to Wendy pursuing Abel by injecting her in the early seasons, that’s something Clay would’ve done. Clay is the man that beat on his wife, something Jax would have never have done, something he believed was unthinkable, yet he attacked Wendy and Ima in the later seasons.

I definitley think Jax became a lot like Clay in his presidency. He wanted to be president so badly because he wanted to implement change, but personally, I saw his leadership as being very similar to Clay’s. I think the only difference was that Jax had more established friendships with the others in the club which meant they respected and cared for him more, whereas Clay was their president and they knew it.

We both love Jax dearly, but what’s your take on Charlie Hunnam as an actor? From an objective point of view? Also have you seen him in something else than SONS? And since we talked about characters and how you were pretty neutral about the other characters, which actors do you think had the “best vs weakest” present on screen? I.e. I don’t think Theo Rossi (who played Juice) is a bad actor, but I think Juice was pretty flat as a character, he wasn’t really relevant until season 7 either…

When it comes to Charlie, I actually haven’t seen him in anything other than SOA, so I feel like I can’t really comment too much on his acting. I mean, it’s amazing on SOA, but often I’ve seen actors take on big roles in a TV series and thought they were fantastically talented, but then watched them in something else and realised they had no versatility. So even though Charlie was great as Jax, there’s a possibility that since that was his biggest and longest role he came to learn how to play that character perfectly, but isn’t necessarily good at playing different characters. But if I’m basing this just on his acting on SOA, I think he’s fantastic. Part of the reason I love Jax is because he feels like a real person and a lot of that is because of Charlie’s acting. The facial expressions he uses, the way he walks and talks, is all unique to Jax and if you’ve ever watched Charlie in interviews you realise just how much he worked on those small details to really make Jax a completely individual character with his own personality and mannerisms. 

There were quite a mix of actors in terms of ability. None stand out as being bad, I think generally the show had a very strong cast. When I think about actors that just owned it whenever they were on-screen and who held my attention I’d say, Charlie (obviously), Ron, Katey, Maggie and Walton come to mind. So for me, those are the best even if I don’t necessarily love the characters they played (e.g. I didn’t like Tara but appreciate that Maggie is very talented). But all of those actors were given great material to work with so that is probably a factor in how good their performances were. 

With the weaker actors, it’s hard to know whether it is weak acting or whether the characters are just poorly written, which is something you pointed out with Theo and Juice. Theo is definitely the one that comes to mind when I think of weak performances. I just didn’t notice him at all and even in season 7 when he had the whole plot with covering up Tara’s murder, I didn’t find him captivating as an actor or character. The SOA fandom on here isn’t huge, but from what I see Juice is a very popular and well loved character and personally, I just don’t see where that comes from because I found it impossible to connect with him. I also had the same issue with Mark (Bobby). But I wouldn’t say it’s bad acting, Bobby is a character that just wasn’t really given much to work with. He was always just there in the background, he occasionally gave one of the boys a pep talk but that was it. Tommy (Chibs) and Kit (Tig) had better stuff to work with as they had some emotional scenes which showcased they had an ability to show some more depth. But again, neither of them particularly captured me as actors. Chibs was a nice, funny guy but I never felt a particular connection to him and as you know from reading my most and least fave characters, I don’t like Tig at all. Even Ryan (Opie), doesn’t stand out to me as being a fantastic actor even though Opie had quite a lot of storylines over the season. I don’t think he really brought much depth to Opie, but through the writing there was definitely the opportunity for Ryan to deepen Opie’s character. So perhaps when it comes to Ryan it was weak acting.