#about my own shortcomings about what is and isn't love about God's grace and timing

[thebirdandhersong]

Maybe Lara Jean was right for processing her feelings through letter writing though

[abidingingodsgraceministries]

* WOMEN OF STRENGTH *

*~*WOMEN OF STRENGTH! *~*

• Ladies, My Dear Beloved Sisters In Christ, I Share This To Inspire, Uplift, Help, Encourage, Lift Up and To Bring Comfort, Peace, Etc.. For Anyone Who Is Currently In This "Season" [Read Below In It's Entirety], For Who Has Ever Been In This "Season", and For Whoever May Go Through This" Season". To Let Y'all Know That You're NOT Alone and That Someone Understands, Etc..

• This Was Me, Many Many Years Ago ....

• How Many More Of Y'all Can Relate To This, At One Point Or Another In Yall's Lives and Throughout Your Journey, Walk and Relationship With The Lord God Almighty??

[ >> STORY BEGINS BELOW! << ]

>> Okay so this is rather hard for me to admit, you’d think it would get easier the more I was open to people about it. So today is the first official day of me finally opening and reading and studying my Bible, I’m rather ashamed to admit that, but I’m using that to motivate me to keep going with Jesus, I’m not letting the enemy use his tactics against me for evil, I’m using his own tactics against him and owning it, yes I stopped reading my Bible I stopped praying, I stopped trusting in Jesus, but I NEVER stopped believing in Jesus.

I had a conversation with Jesus the other night.. the first time I started a conversation with Him in a while, and it came across my mind something that my mentor said about her walk with the Lord, she said something along the lines of she would ask where God was, when she was distant from Him, and something I used to remind myself of a while ago when I’d become distant, I would ask myself Where did I go?

So as I was talking to Jesus I never said it, but I was thinking it and before I could finish the thought.. He replied, Where did you go, you know I’ve been here waiting for you, I never left you, so where did you go?

At that point I started crying, not because I was angry, or embarrassed or even ashamed, but because He NEVER left me, I left Him.

I took Him off His rightful throne in my Heart and replaced Him with other things, like entertainment, people, things, fleshy and worldly things, people, activities, technologies, hobbies and desires .. BUT.. He never left me, He wasn't and isn’t mad at me, He wasn't and isn’t embarrassed to call me His creation, His daughter, His princess, His child .. and He wasn't and isn’t ashamed of me.

He wasn't and isn't embarrassed.. Nor ashamed.. to Call Me.. HIS!!

He waited for me.. He let me LEARN and find out that I CANNOT live my life without Him, I CANT live my life pushing Him away. He waited patiently for me to return to Him. He loved me through my adventures and journeys through the wilderness and through seasons away from Him, He STILL Loved me .. And ..

He STILL Loves me.

That’s WHY I started crying, because even though I had Idols in my Life, even though I had Turned away from Him and Strayed away and pushed Him away, He was patient and He was loving.

He has renewed me, and is working on and in me. He will Never leave me, forsake Nor abandon me, even if I walk away for a time.

So right now my Prayer for myself is that I won’t EVER walk away.. Nor stray away from Him EVER again; that each and every single day.. My King, my Lord, my Savior, my Father in Heaven.. will give me a renewed heart, and mind, a heart that’s on fire for Him and passionate to Serve Him and His Children.

[[ >> END OF STORY | KEEP READING ON and IN IT'S ENTIRETY, FOR THE WHOLE MESSAGE and POINT :) << ]]

• I Open Up To Y'all and Make Myself Vulnerable, Transparent, Exposed, Humbling Myself, Opening Up and Putting Myself Out There, Etc.. Sharing With Y'all, My Most Deepest, Darkest, Brightest, Ugliest, Hardest, Personal and Intimate.. Moments, Times, Secrets, Events, Failures, Victories, Struggles and Battles. Etc.. In and Throughout My Life .. Opening Up, Putting Myself Out There.. Inviting Y'all In and Sharing Myself [personally, intimately and vulnerably] With Y'all, In A Way That I've Avoided and Never Done Before In My Life.

• But GOD Y'all!

• CHRIST changes you and takes you out of your comfort zones, out of your personal space, out of your boundaries and limits and holdbacks, etc..

• The Lord God Almighty, took me wayyyyy outta mine and moved me to open up and share.

• SO, I SHARE MY OWN PERSONAL— trials, tribulations, mistakes, failures, battles, testimonies, shortcomings, lessons learned, obstacles, errors, struggles, fears and My Journey .. My Walk .. My Story .. My Life, Etc.. With All Y'all .. To Help Others Realize That Their NOT Alone, That I Understand and Can Relate and To Truly Help Them, To Support Them and Be A Shining Light, That I've Been There Done That, That It's OK and That It's All Gonna Be OK.

• That NO Matter What.. The Lord God Almighty Loves You and Wants To Forgive You, Help You and Have You Come Back To HIM <3

• So, Even Though This "Season" [Story] Was Many Years and Moons Ago (lol) For Me, The CORE MESSAGE Is STILL THE SAME TODAY and APPLICABLE .. As It Was ALL Those Many Years Ago, and That's the reason I’m posting this, because I’m hoping it will help someone else who has become lukewarm, and as a type of baptism of your will, to declare publicly that I am a sinner, a prodigal daughter, that I am a new creation in Christ Jesus (Yeshua Hamashiach), my King of kings and my Lord of lords, I am professing a new faith, a new heart.

• IF, You made it this far, God Bless Y'all! Jesus (Yeshua Hamashiach) Loves Y'all!

• Also one last thing, I was with my flock of 100 and I strayed away, He came looking for me leaving the rest of the 99 to bring me back to Him… and He will do the same for YOU!

Love Y'all All Always and God Bless Y'all,

<3 AIGGM

— Pastor Blackburn

Abiding In God's Grace©Ministries