#a sad day for people of color

[norwegianrailwaystories]

I dunno if u guys follow the US election but Trump won! Yay! Im so proud!

Silently judging you. Judging you HARD.

[aethersea]

devastating to go into the tag for an obscure vampire movie I've been quietly obsessed with for years to find mostly gifsets of minor characters (played by big-name actors) and review blogs saying they didn't like it :(

@ everyone who made a post saying "I liked it :)" I am blowing you a kiss. everyone who made a lovely gifset or photoset of the cinematography I am tipping my hat. that one poster that said "bro did y'all just miss the Entire Message about class and race or???" I am shaking your hand with enthusiasm there was SUCH a message about class and race

anyway everybody should watch Night Teeth and revel in glitzy flashy modern vampires in LA with me

[autisticgayplushie]

sleepy jumbo mochi version of daisy the transgender puppy!!

[eroticlizardfiction]

I need to stop using the Hipdot x MCR palettes for everything because it's so embarrassing when people ask what I'm wearing and I have to say danger days 😔

[cuntwrap--supreme]

Someone's tiny child drew a Something and they put it in their box saying the kid drew it for me. Which is cute, I guess. My mom did stuff like this when I was a small child who was obsessed with the arrival of mail. It's in the route's case to be immortalized forever.

Now to figure out how to read the drawing so I can find what I assume is treasure beyond my wildest imagination.

[iamnotawomanimagod]

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[pleasedontcareaboutme]

i think i finally realized why ive been feeling so damn depressed lately again

sorry for writing this here. im really hurting actually. im not good. i feel a bit helpless too. idk who to talk to bc i dont want to burden anyons and i donf feel like anything could console me right now

Like. fuck me man. thanks for saving me but. why the hell are you not here. i dont want to do this without you. i hate only being able to remember you. i was supposed to grow old with you, not without you.

And. honestly. even with all this bullshit i say here, all the endless times i spend trying to write down my feelings, abt you, about all the pain ive felt my life, it doesnt get better. not at all. and no words, no poetry takes it away and i truly feel like nobody will ever truly understand how suffocated i felt all my life.

and i want to change thanks to you but. i dont know. nothing's satisfying enough.

no matter what, i truly only feel great when im in that daydream like world you created.

and these past days ive been thinking a lot that. i really wouldnt mind dying right now. not at all. because at least i know what happiness feels like. and i want to stay in that state. probably, even in this life your music will bring me happiness, but i want to be trapped in it.

im tired of being so unseen, and even when im seen, im hurting. but i dont know whats hurting. i think im just really tired thats all.

and. ye. i feel brave tbh. i still havent posted my video to instagram, bc im not brave for that. i dont know. and i feel like a hypocrite bc everything is true that i wrote there but at the same time these are my thoughts currently

in a long while i looked up suicide methods again. i feel so hopeful, but im not really sure if really for the future. jm sorry this is probably alarming. i will probably not kill myself but. idk. im not sure actually. i dknt know what to say. i wasnt cut out for this wordly shit.i feel unlovable but even if im loved, i donf want to be. i dont want anything. just let me stsy in this quiet place snd just. disappear. i wouldnt want my family to hurt if i die but i wont know about it anyways. idk man. i feel strongly i could die calmly this time and thats nice. bc 6 years ago i was terrified, and hurt. but now im content and kind of ready idk man. its not a terrible feeling, its a "this is it, it was nice while it lasted" ig.

there are no clouds in my head actually. i truly dont feel like im thinking irrationally, i feel like this would just be like. the end goal i was looking for. to feel true love once. it was nice.

no goodbye yet bc idk how id kms even if i do. But ill tell u guys if i found something.

[heresiae]

our esteemed president is convinced that in medieval times people didn't bathe regularly. he uses this excuses during reenactments, to stay dirty, convince us to sleep in the same clothes that we sweat all day and use them the next day too and shut down any request of finding accommodation for us to shower after we close up camp.

I know, shameful for the president and founder of a medieval reenactment company.

unfortunately for him, we're no as uneducated as we used to be when we first joined, so we know better now (medieval times were the times when personal hygiene came back in vogue after the fall of the Roman Empire and the first wave of "our bodies sinful and taking care of them is reproachable" - courtesy of the first Church). as for many things, we have to thanks the Arabs for this, but it's another long parenthesis.

truth is, especially in the period we're reenacting, everyone loved a good daily scrub after work and a full bath every few days. and soap existed (thanks the Arabs, again).

now, to the fun part. till now we always camped in mountain valleys without water bodies nearby, but we might have the chance to start doing them regurarly in a valley where I usually go in Summer to bathe in the river (I honestly prefer rivers to seas and lakes).

which it means that I'm already plotting to force people into the river to bathe themselves after we close up camp. with soap (do you know that Marsille's soap is very very old? and we live next to France and we always had a close tie with them - still had it till we kicked out our useless royal after WWII).

so, no more excuses. our president will have the chance to prove how much of a macho he is by bathing in the frigging river. I will dare him.

[love-songs-for-emma]

i was on zillow today, fantasizing about being able to live somewhere, when i came across the listing for my childhood home. it wasn't active/being sold, but it was on there with some pics of the interior. and my GOD. THEY MADE HER UGLY. THEY TOOK HER RUSTIC PUSSY OUT. WHAT THE FUCK

[myhyperfixationisback]

oh-oh god. I 🤢 I can’t do thi-

[satisfaxtion]

if you kill yourself now you won't ever see the sunrise again, and you won't ever be able to walk on the beach or through the forest, and you won't ever be able to spend hours staying up at night laughing with your friends, and you won't see the leaves change color and fall in autumn, and you won't jump into a pile of them, and you won't drink hot cocoa or tea in the middle of winter when it's freezing cold, and you won't see the flowers bloom again next spring

[seariii]

Alr, time to actually start the day, get up, first task is finishing the art thing, since you don't seem to want to think too much right now

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Seven Covers in Seven Days: WALKING PRACTICE by Dolki Min.

tagged by @asexualbookbird

Every day post the cover of a book you love and tag someone to do the same!

tagging: @batmansymbol (no pressure if you’re not interested!)

[astro-b-o-y-d]

‘It has actual gay and trans people in it’ Trying not to bite. Failing.

[tardis--dreams]

I met a friend today and we went into a store where she noticed this espresso maker. She said she liked it because it reminded her of halloween. I don't know what she means by that but I, for one, think it would be great for a pediatric ward

[mayclair]

last day of school today :(