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i will always love you | max verstappen social media au
pairing: max verstappen x fem bodyguard reader
what he wasnât supposed to fall in love with his bodyguard? this IS a rom com
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f1insider
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f1insider: red bull have confirmed that max verstappen will have a bodyguard for the rest of this season after increasingly aggressive fan activity towards drivers at races. what do you think about it?
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user3: i completely understand that itâs insane that itâs gotten to the point where he needs a bodyguard âŠ. but like JEALOUS
user4: i pray thereâs never any need for her to do her actual job
user5: f1 need to sort it out i agree
user4: i meant because i would be no better than a man im sorry god but i want to watch her fight someone đ«
user6: this shouldâve been done so long ago but iâm glad theyâve finally made the step
user7: what i find crazy is that people can afford a paddock pass and wanna fight the drivers ??? what a waste of money GIVE THEM TO ME
user8: iâm being completely serious when i say ⊠any punk ass influencer tries to film max in the bathroom i want this bodyguard to shoot them with a gun
user9: no i agree
user10: and when i do it on purpose so she can beat the shit out of me ??
user11: choke
user12: she look familiar to any of you?
user13: i thought i had seen her before but like i just canât quite recall
user14: swiftie here! she was taylorâs bodyguard for a couple years so you probably have seen her in paparazzi photos or something
user15: taylor swift and now max verstappen i need her agent
user16: the thought of that massive hunk of a man cowering behind her is killing me
user17: itâs killing you? itâs getting me excited this is so romance book coded
user18: you peopleâs obsession with putting people in ârelationshipâ is the worst thing to happen to the sport
user19: i agree! (they would be unbelievably cute)
user20: iâm glad to see weâre all being very serious about the state of the sport where a driver needs a bodyguard and not the fact that said bodyguard is visually appealing
user21: sky i will deal with your bias if you give us the visual on her
user20: jesus wept
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yourusername: new job, same friendship bracelets
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user22: WE FOUND YOU
user23: hi mother !!!!
user24: we miss you serving face with taylor :(
maxverstappen1: you were a bodyguard for TAYLOR SWIFT ???
yourusername: you didn't read my CV? you had the last say on me being hired?
maxverstappen1: i let GP read them and he's never steered me wrong before
yourusername: that seems irresponsible
maxverstappen1: ANYWAY my point was going to be ... can we still get eras tour tickets?
yourusername: i can see what i can do
maxverstappen1: what if you just called taylor up?
yourusername: do NOT reference the kardashians if you want tickets
maxverstappen1: noted :3
user25: i can't have anything in this life ??? what do you mean you've worked with taylor and max?
user26: she looks so hot with a gun i'm starting to think the NRA are on to something
yourusername: absolutely not get out of here with that shit
user27: oh she educated as well? will you accept my hand in marriage?
maxverstappen1: đ€š
landonorris: and if i said you could guard me all night
yourusername: it's kinda my job to guard max all night
landonorris: but you'd rather guard me đ
yourusername: i doubt you'd pay me as well as max
landonorris: i can pay you other ways đ
maxverstappen1: lando i will break your fingers one by one
user28: max is out here like SHE IS MY BODYGUARD
user29: him being possessive... idk where to look but both of them - mark me scared AND horny
user30: TOO REAL
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maxverstappen1: simply lovely to be back on the top step in brazil, @yourusername you're clearly my lucky charm
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user31: max does a generational drive and immediately gets on instagram to flirt with his bodyguard
user32: he's so real for that because look at y/n
user33: i once thought swifties were crazy for being so obsessed with her but now i am just as bad lol
yourusername: nuh uh that drive was all you big boy
maxverstappen1: heheheehehe
maxverstappen1: did i make a good first impression?
yourusername: a very good first impression ;)
maxverstappen1: are you proud of me?
yourusername: very proud maxy
maxverstappen1: :3 thank you <3
user34: what in praise kink did i just read?
user35: i know he's done it in a very public forum but just leave them to do whatever they gotta do
user36: i know this man saw her in a suit and with a gun and fell to his knees
yourusername: well... close enough!
landonorris: idc about all of that ^^ i'm still going to shoot my shot
yourusername: is me rejecting you luck or talent?
landonorris: HUH ?????
yourusername: i may just be a bodyguard but i still have working ears đ
user37: okay so she does serve more than just looks ...
user38: she's got a fan in me now
charles_leclerc: let me just sit back and observe
yourusername: you good?
charles_leclerc: i am sitting back and observing
yourusername: you are observing very loudly
charles_leclerc: i am just watching max embarrass himself, this is very healing for my younger self
maxverstappen1: RUDE
yourusername: he's not embarrassing himself if it's working?
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redbullracing: statement regarding today's incident.
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user42: sorry red bull but i want that video tattooed on my eye balls
user43: i am so unbelievably hot and bothered after seeing that video
user44: red bull i'm afraid you'll have to take that video out of my cold dead hands
landonorris: i didn't realise the paddock came with dinner and a show today
oscarpiastri: lando they tried to kill max...
landonorris: well he was never in any actual danger with y/n around
oscarpiastri: do you ever read the PR briefs?
landonorris: PR whats?
oscarpiastri: this is starting to make a whole lot of sense
user45: they'll try to cancel lando for this but like he's being real
user46: no because why was george russell and kimi antonelli literally in the back of the footage eating LITERAL POPCORN
user47: i've never wanted to be two people so bad
maxverstappen1: i lived bitch
yourusername: MAX????
maxverstappen1: because of you, i'm forever in debt to you <3
yourusername: just doing my job :)
maxverstappen1: so you didn't just do it because of your undying love for me :(
yourusername: i think that would be inappropriate
maxverstappen1: THAT'S NOT FAIR, THEY CAN'T TRY AND KILL ME AND YOU CAN'T SAY YOU HATE ME IN ONE DAY
yourusername: oh maxy, do you need a cup of tea
maxverstappen1: and a hug ????
yourusername: yes, even a hug
user48: oh to have max that pathetically down bad for you
maxverstappen1
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maxverstappen1: can you people stop thirsting over my girlfriend please - i may not be able to fight but she can
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user49: HE HAD ENOUGH
user50: i mean i too think thirst comments from my literal friends would throw me over the edge
user51: he was like winning in brazil is not enough i gotta watch my gf beat the fuck out of someone and then publicly claim her
yourusername: you're puffing out your chest in the paddock when all the girls on the internet are thirsting over you - if anyone should be jealous it's me
maxverstappen1: but you're so much better than anyone else i am horrendously in love with you
yourusername: HORRENDOUSLY
maxverstappen1: i have never felt anything like this? im scared???
yourusername: no need to be scared baby i'm in for the long ride
yourusername: and i can and WILL protect you
maxverstappen1: i need to report a hostage situation? it's me in my bedroom - i need to be saved
yourusername: you're so cheesy, you're lucky i love you
user52: i have another hostage situation - it's me in this comment section
user53: watching them be in love is like torture to me i'm so lonely
user54: they need a trigger warning i fear
maxverstappen1: @landonorris @pierregasly @olliebearman suck on that
landonorris: LEAVE ME ALONE
pierregasly: don't hate the player hate the game
olliebearman: why did you say fuck me for ????
maxverstappen1: i've seen those looks ollie don't lie to me
yourusername: babe i think he might just be scared of me
olliebearman: WOMEN IN POSITIONS OF POWER SCARE ME I'M SO SORRY Y/N
yourusername: no worries ollie! max is just possessive
maxverstappen1: ugh duh! you're the best thing that has ever happened to me, obviously i want to keep you to myself
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yourusername: and iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii will always love you! sorry it had to be done - whitney houston is a LEGEND
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user56: of course she knows that song, she's basically living that story
user57: OF COURSE SHE KNOWS THAT SONG IT'S ONE OF THE MOST FAMOUS SONGS EVER ???
yourusername: and you can bet your ass the red bull garage have been singing it non stop since i arrived
redbullracing: singing is our passion
maxverstappen1: they'd have to kill me to keep me from you DEADASS (pun intended)
yourusername: and that won't be happening because i'll be there to protect you
maxverstappen1: i'm not opposed to watching you deal with a problem in the paddock
landonorris:WHY WAS I MADE THE BAD PERSON WHEN I SAID I WANTED TO WATCH ???
maxverstappen1: because it was my life that an attempt was made on ?
landonorris: and?
maxverstappen1: AND?
landonorris: it would've made winning the championship much easier ?
yourusername: nuh uh i would jump into that red bull and win out of spite
maxverstappen1: it's true, i've been training her up
landonorris: you gonna let me have anything
maxverstappen1: nope :P
yourusername: nope :P
user58: oh they're so annoying đ
user59: true ride or die couples are so irritating
user60: i still wish i was them
danielricciardo: i get fired and you get a girlfriend ??? how is this fair
maxverstappen1: idk what you want me to say, i'd never give y/n up for anything
danielricciardo: not even a red bull maxiel reunion
maxverstappen1: sorry buddy, maxiel is dead
danielricciardo: EXCUSE ME?
yourusername: sorry daniel, there's a new sheriff in town - should've charmed max when you had a chance
maxverstappen1: try as he might, he'd never be you
yourusername: awwwww considering your massive teenage crush on him... i love you!
danielricciardo: so fuck me then?
fin.
note: TWO IN ONE WEEKEND WHAT?
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So, Things Are Terrible and You Want to DO SOMETHING
The election is over and, ah...did not go well. While a lot of folks are doing a post mortem of the campaigns and trying to understand what happened with the vote and fighting over who shoulders the blame, we've gotta turn an eye toward the future and figure out, okay fam, where the fuck do we go from here.
I don't have all the answers on this, and I'm not an authority by any means, I'm just a horror author with a blog. But I've been thinking a lot about it and I wanted to share my thought process with others who might want to DO SOMETHING but feel they're spinning their wheels.
Buckle in. This will be a long one.
Step One: Understand the actual risks and stakes.
I think it is very easy to start panicking now about the worst possible case scenario -- jackbooted military busting into the door to disappear everyone who ever said something mean about Trump or bought a banned book or something -- and let fear turn into inaction.
I'm not saying things can't get that bad, and I'm not saying that it won't be absolutely terrifying right out the gate for some particularly at-risk groups -- but the distance between "now" and "V for Vendetta" is long and filled with a lot of intermediary steps. There will be so many opportunities to prevent the worst case scenario.
I say this because, if your mental image of "Bad Things Happening" is The Purge, it will be easy to wake up on inauguration day, look outside to see that the world is not on fire, think, hey, maybe things will be okay after all, and then completely disengage. Alternatively, you might feel so frozen with terror at the possibility of persecution that you do nothing. This is why people are saying: don't obey in advance.
It is essential for those of us with more privilege to use it to take care of those who are more vulnerable.
So. Who is most vulnerable? What does that vulnerability actually mean? What are the most likely risks of Trump's presidency? Here's a Guardian article that I think does a good job of summarizing some of the main issues. Go read that, then come back here.
Step Two: Take steps to protect yourself
You've gotta put your oxygen mask on first, right? So before you start getting involved in other causes, figure out what risks YOU are at, immediately, and do as much as you can to secure yourself. Some potential action steps depending on your circumstance may include:
Renewing your passport (helpful for leaving the country, but also for gender/name change purposes)
Getting vaccines / boosters
Securing birth control
Ensuring your necessary papers (birth certificates etc.) are where you have access to them.
Drawing up legal paperwork for spouses/partners (always a good idea, a helpful safety measure in case you lose marriage rights)
Bolstering your data privacy and online security. Here's a step-by-step guide I found that could help with that.
The specific steps you need to take here depend on what risks you, personally, face. You'll want to do some more research into this for your particular scenario.
No matter who you are, though, it's probably a good idea to start saving money and being a little more conservative with your spending and/or pay down debts to free up some cash. You don't know what kind of emergency may befall you, and having spare money for an emergency is never a bad idea.
There is a possibility that the cost of many things you rely on might go up, if Trump goes through with his tariffs plan. You will want to plan for that.
Food costs may also rise due to tariffs (we import a lot of food from Mexico and Latin America for example) as well as a loss of immigrant labor. There is also a possibility that food safety standards could fall due to overturning regulations. Now would be a good time to look into local food resources like farm share/CSA, community farms, etc., and to stock up on a few key staples like rice and beans.
Okay. Now that YOU are reasonably safe...what can you do to protect your community?
Step Three: Get Involved
Here is your mission: You need to stay engaged enough to know what's going on, without burning yourself out or exhausting yourself, and to take actual decisive actions instead of wasting your energy arguing on the internet.
Got that? Okay. Good. Here are some action steps:
Support independent journalism. Subscribe to local papers, donate to and watch public broadcast programming. I signed up for news from ProPublica, for example, as well as the news-roundup service What The Fuck Just Happened Today. The goal is to stay informed without falling down an endless rabbit hole of upsetting information.
Share news and resources with others in your circle. This can be a good use of social media. It's what I am doing right now!
If it is safe for you to do so, challenge and educate your friends/family members/neighbors/coworkers. Only if it is safe for you to do so. Do not put yourself at risk doing this. And do not waste your time arguing with people who are unlikely to change. But if you have well-meaning people in your life who you think could be won over, look for opportunities to do this - the right way. I've had some success with this, I will probably write a guide about it in the future. In the meantime, here's a good article that can help.
Join local grassroots activism groups. You'll have to do some work to decide what groups to join and which causes you want to support, because you cannot do everything. But there are tons of organizations taking direct action in all kinds of causes. Search "grassroots [cause] activists in [where you live]" to start finding things. Once you get involved in one group, you might meet people who can introduce you to other groups and causes. Yes, this means you will have to go outside and meet people. I'm sorry.
Join direct action groups. Same concept as above. You'll have to search in your area but once you know people it'll be easier to find more opportunities. Some of these groups may overlap. You might find direct action opportunities by engaging politically and vice versa. GO OUTSIDE AND TALK TO PEOPLE WHO ARE DOING THINGS TO HELP.
Get involved in local politics. Here are some quick tips. A lot of things are affected at the city level - stuff like book bans and bathroom bills are often battled first at local libraries and schools, and you can be part of those conversations! Sheriffs are elected and can have a big influence on local policing. Local elections affect how tax dollars are spent, how homeless populations are treated, and lots more. Don't snooze on local elections. Get involved and stay involved.
Look up your representatives. Get in the habit of calling, emailing, and writing letters. Figure out what legislature is being passed and then call your reps and harangue them about it - both to support bills you approve of and shoot down ones you don't. Sign petitions. Join email campaigns. Here's one you can go sign right now from the ACLU. See? Not that scary.
I think a lot of people figure that getting involved in politics doesn't matter or that it's all small potatoes but...man. The president is not god, no matter what he thinks. The sitting administration is not the sole power in the universe. There is an entire machine of government we can lean upon and act upon.
Finally, some general safety notes:
Some forms of direct action are not legal. Take steps to be safe if you choose to partake. Follow the lead of more seasoned activists for what forms of communication to use and so forth.
If you're not willing or able to put yourself at legal risk to act, you can help others by donating to bail funds and legal defense funds.
We've already seen this in some areas, and it will only get uglier - some bad actors are feeling emboldened by the change in regime and will misbehave. It's a good idea to learn some self-defense skills, in whatever way is comfortable to you, and brush up on some tenets of victimology that can help you stay safe. I'll write more about that in the future.
All right. That's all for now. It's by no means comprehensive...but should hopefully help you get started taking the next step. Stay safe out there.
#uspol#politics#direct action#grassroots activism#get involved#election 2024#us politics#us elections
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Cherubim.
Gojo Satoru x F Reader x Geto Suguru.
Warnings: Implied trauma, Gojo and Geto are both weird + manipulative. Word count: 6k.
-Index-
March 18th, 2006.Â
2:26 p.m.
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Gojo Satoru has found himself embroiled in his greatest turmoil yet.Â
Assassination attempts? Thatâs nothing, heâs waved those off since he was a kid. Jujutsu politics? The higher-ups can yap until theyâre blue in the face; theyâre all bark, no bite. Curses? Similarly inconsequential. No matter how much power they hold, they're reduced to speckled splatters the instant they cross his path.Â
For most, experiencing one of these dilemmas would prove too overwhelming, much less all three. He isnât like most, though. Heâs strong. Incomprehensibly strong. He can weather any storm, shift the tides of any battle in his favor. Has this gone to his head? Absolutely. He can handle âtoo much.â Itâs ânot enoughâ thatâs proving to be an issue.Â
This is why heâs detailing his recent woes to an uninterested Ieri Shoko, who made the mistake of reading in the dormitoryâs common area.Â
The scene is as follows:
Satoruâs along the length of the couch, his long, lanky limbs dangling wherever they can. He lays his head against the armrest, snowy hair succumbing to gravity in an avalanche that frames his face. He uses his ability to keep his sunglasses from meeting the same fate. Behind the dark frames, his eyes narrow into a piercing stare. If the ceiling were sentient, it wouldâve fled by now. Such is the potency of his miserable mood.Â
Parallel to him sits Shoko, the fat of her cheek squished upward from resting on her fist for so long. Books, candy wrappers, and notes from last yearâs curriculum yet to be thrown away litter the tableâs surface. Suguruâs could put a calligraphist to shame, even if they were written in a Badtz-Maru pencil you won from a gachapon. Your notes stand out as well. Theyâre bright shades of your favorite colors, organized according to a system of your own devising. Occasionally, the handwriting shifts, taking on Suguru or Shokoâs likeness for trickier kanji. You doodle hearts of gratitude around the yomigana they include for good measure.Â
(You complained that his handwriting was âindecipherableâ when he tried doing the same. Out of spite, he gave you the cold shoulder⊠for three minutes. He withers and wilts without your attention).Â
He sighs and concludes his monologue.Â
âSo, that just about sums everything up. Well? Whatâs the prognosis, Doc?âÂ
âYouâre in desperate need of more friends,â Shoko replies. Satoru lets out an unsatisfied grunt. âAnd you miss [First].âÂ
Satoru perks up at your mention, finally giving that poor ceiling a much-needed reprieve. He shuffles around until heâs facing Shoko.Â
âBut she just headed out yesterday.âÂ
âI know.âÂ
âThatâd make me really weird and clingy, right?âÂ
âGlad youâre catching on.âÂ
While Satoru contemplates the previously unconsidered possibility of him being âreally weird and clingy,â Shoko reopens her manga. Sheâs of the mistaken belief that the issue has resolved itself. Unfortunately for her, the problem extends beyond Satoruâs insatiable hunger for you. The problem is Satoru himself. Until heâs running amuck elsewhere, thereâll be no solace.Â
She commends herself for her patience.Â
In typical Satoru fashion, he continues testing it.Â
âWhen was the last time you updated your passport?âÂ
âIâm not flying to her home country with you,â Shoko shuts down what he thought was a brilliant plan. âItâs just two weeks. Wait it out.âÂ
âWhat if we fly first class?âÂ
âGojo.âÂ
âYeah, yeah, itâs still too soon to meet her parents. Itâs gotta happen eventually though, right?âÂ
Shoko doesnât dignify this with a response.Â
Satoru sinks into the cushions. Could there be anything worse than boredom? He has no missions lined up, you and Suguru are visiting family, and the first-years havenât arrived yet. Pestering Utahime has lost its charm too. He could return home before the school year starts, but heâd rather have his fingers chopped off one by one than suffer that torture.Â
âHey, Shoko.âÂ
âMm.âÂ
âWhy arenât you back home? I thought you got along with your parents.âÂ
âTheyâre both busy. I wouldnât see them much.âÂ
Satoru doesnât press the matter.Â
It does intrigue him though â the relationship sorcerers have with their non-sorcerer families. Or, to be more specific, yours and Suguruâs familial dynamics intrigue him. Satoru canât (and doesnât bother trying) to care for the going-ons of anyone outside his small circle. This is more the hubris of a teenager who has been told heâs special his entire life than anything malicious. To Satoru, the worldâs population might as well be stuck at three.Â
Regardless, itâs an improvement.
Before meeting Suguru, those in his life consisted almost exclusively of suckups or stuckups. If he was unlucky, itâd be both, rolled into one terrible package. This was his reality. Jujutsu was his reality. He was the first to possess the Limitless and the Six Eyes in generations. The Gojo clan wouldnât waste such an extraordinary opportunity. He was their pride and joy, personality aside.Â
He was born to be the strongest.Â
He canât imagine any other life for himself.Â
Then thereâs you.Â
He could see you leading a normal life. You wouldnât be top of the class or a varsity athlete, but youâd be well-liked. Boys would nervously ask you out on dates and buy you roses with money they got from mowing lawns. Youâd be the first one your friends would call when they experienced heartache. Maybe youâd go to college or land an entry-level job. Some co-worker with a decent sense of humor would win you over. Then youâd get married, rent a property, have a few kidsâŠÂ
Satoruâs stomach twists. He grimaces, shifting his thoughts elsewhere. Namely, the question thatâs bothered him for a while.Â
Why did you become a jujutsu sorcerer?Â
It was intentional. You chose to leave behind your home, your family. You knew the risks. How the body can break and ache in ways previously unrecorded. And what do you get in return for this thankless crusade? Sleepless nights where you tremble like a leaf beside Shoko? A nimbleness at dressing wounds that could only have come from years of practice?Â
Youâre open about everything until you arenât. Fear, mortality, loss â when confronted by these unsightly truths, you retreat to someplace he canât follow.Â
Satoru canât make sense of it. Neither can Suguru. Shoko says they shouldnât press the matter. He wants to, though. He needs to know how you break. How else can he ensure that you never will?Â
He thinks back to that humid August day. The binding vow eviscerated your insides, shards from fractured bones dug into your organs. Until that point in his life, Satoru prided himself on his immunity to fear. The pathogen never lasted long in his system. After all, fear is born from a lack of control. From having something to lose. If he couldnât lose, what was there to be afraid of?Â
Itâs a question heâs been avoiding.Â
(âIf she dies,â he told Suguru, in a voice he barely recognized as his own, âThey die too.â)
His mouth feels dry, his tongue heavy. Heâll drink that tea youâre fond of later to satiate his thirst. He wonders if you share its taste.
âWhatâre you reading, anyway?â he asks, hoping to take his mind elsewhere.
âFruits Basket.âÂ
He laughs, incredulous.Â
âSeriously? Didnât take you for a shoujo type.âÂ
âI borrowed it from [First]. Weâre doing a book exchange over break.âÂ
A book exchange⊠three words Satoru never thought would pique his curiosity. However, anything about you demands his undying attention. Even if itâs shoujo manga. Girls who read that genre do it to project onto the heroine, right? So the love interest must have appealed to you. What tropes do you like? Do you want a shy, sensitive soul who blushes and stutters in your presence? A misunderstood bad boy whoâs only soft around you? The responsible student council president?Â
Oh, heâll have so much material to tease you with when you return. He canât wait.Â
âHow do I enter this exclusive book club?â Satoru demands.Â
âYou donât. I donât trust your taste,â Shoko replies, much to his chagrin. âYou can still read it, though. She has all of the volumes in her room.âÂ
⊠Your room?Â
He grins from ear to ear.
Should he respect your privacy? Probably. Is he going to? Of course not. He never has, thereâs no point in starting now.Â
This trip of yours might yet redeem itself.Â
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Along the outskirts of Jujutsu High, Geto Suguru spots an odd woman.Â
Sheâs wearing a baggy graphic tee, low-rise jeans, and gaudy bracelets on both arms. Her black hair is tossed up, thick strands sticking in every direction. Even from this distance, he can discern the silver glint of piercings that dot her ear like constellations. The stranger stands slouched, both her hands shoved into her pockets. For her to have gotten this far, she canât be a civilian. Those unfamiliar with jujutsu canât find this place.Â
He stays still for a spell â watching and waiting. From this distance, she shouldnât be able to sense his presence. Itâs one of the few areas he excels at over Satoru. Satoruâs cursed energy is bright, blindingly so, a thunderous clap that can be heard for miles. Suguru prefers to keep his muted. It coils around his limbs like a serpent, never straying far. This is why you had no difficulty picking out Satoruâs stupefying presence on your first day, whereas he had to make himself known to you.Â
Suguruâs lips quirk up.Â
He was fated to meet you.Â
âHey! Kiddo!â A deep, somewhat raspy voice exclaims. He blinks rapidly, temporarily thrown off. âThis ainât an art gallery. Whatâs with the staring?âÂ
She noticed him? How?Â
When the stranger starts slinking his way, he regains his composure.Â
âI apologize. It wasnât my intention to make you uncomfortable,â Suguruâs cadence flows smoother than a river.Â
âHah! âUncomfortable?â Thatâs a way of putting it,â she pokes the space beneath her emerald eyes twice. âEven now, I can feel ya picking me apart. Shitâs creepy.âÂ
His smile tightens. âIâll be more mindful of my conduct in the future, then.âÂ
She waves him off. Her golden bracelets clink together as she does so, the sound grating his ears.Â
âThatâs a lie if I ever heard one. And I should know. Schemers excel at picking out their brothers in arms,â she juts her head up, giving the impression that sheâs the one looking down on him, despite the slight height difference.Â
âAnyhow, by the looks of it, you must be Sugu-kun.âÂ
⊠Did she just call him Sugu-kun?Â
âWhat? Too soon* to be calling you that? Heh, hehâŠâÂ
Suguruâs smile tightens. âYou can refer to me however you like, so long as I can return the favor.âÂ
She guffaws.
âMaaan, Goldie sure was gracious in her description of you,â the woman gives him a lopsided grin. âNameâs Akane. There â is the playing field leveled now?âÂ
âIshimoto Akane?â
He doesnât miss the way she winces as her surname is spoken aloud, rather pointedly at that.Â
âAh. Sâpose I had that coming.âÂ
Suguru decides against prolonging her torment. Heâs in a generous mood, it isnât every day he has a chance to learn more about you. This is an opportunity heâll take full advantage of.Â
âAnd I presume 'Goldie' is [First]?âÂ
He makes a mental note to figure out the wordplay for your nickname later.Â
âFull marks.â
Suguru hums, a sound indicating that heâs drifting deep into thought.Â
You donât mention your mentor often. When you do, itâs normally in the form of endearing (if not mildly concerning) anecdotes.
âShe told me that natto is bits of caramel held together by melted marshmallows, like a Rice Krispy Treat. It⊠it was not like a Rice Krispy TreatâŠâÂ
â... For my twelfth birthday, she got me Pokemon Ruby. I remember crying because Roxeanneâs Nosepass took out my Torchic. My cursed energy spiked and the party had to end earlyâŠâÂ
â... Out of curiosity, I drank her stash of Georgia canned coffee. My heart rate was almost high enough to warrant a trip to the ERâŠâÂ
Getting anything else relating to her out of you was like trying to wring water from a rock. Suguru didnât miss the wistful melancholy underpinning your stories. You recalled them with a far-off expression as if mourning that those days of whimsy were over. Initially, he considered it a consequence of growing up. Childhood idols rarely remain highly esteemed as the years pass and maturity accrues.Â
His intuition argued that he should examine the issue closer.
(âI met her, yâknow,â Satoru mentioned whilst he spun in a rolling chair âcommandeeredâ from Yaga. âAkane. Our girlâs mentor. Former mentor? Whatever the case is.âÂ
Suguru sat his pencil aside, any investment in his studies gone.
âWhen?âÂ
âLast March.âÂ
Suguru sighed. âAnd you didnât bring this up earlier becauseâŠ?âÂ
Thereâs a twinkle in his companionâs sunglasses-covered eyes.
âMustâve slipped my mind,â Satoru shrugged.Â
Liar, Suguru thought, unamused by Satoruâs faux nonchalance. He mustâve had his reasons for neglecting to mention it for so long. Suguru figured your impending trip home had something to do with Satoruâs âmiraculouslyâ cured amnesia.Â
âWhat? Donât tell me you arenât curious.â
The provocation failed to irk him. Instead, Suguru refocused the conversation.âTell me your impression of her.â
Satoru stilled, threw his feet atop Suguruâs desk, and placed his hands on his neck. âAbout what youâd expect from a disgraced daughter of an influential clan. Bad-tempered, tattooed, pierced up⊠hah! Bet her old man would go into cardiac arrest if he saw her.âÂ
âSatoru,â he implored.Â
âFine, fine. So impatient,â The white-haired sorcerer complained. âI misread her. She got all mopey after she fessed up about Cursed Technique: Null. I wrote it off as envy. The student exceeding the master, or whatever.âÂ
Satoru remained silent for a moment. âPost Kaizu, though, I assume the feeling actually gnawing at her⊠âÂ
Kaizu.Â
Panicked phone calls. Satoruâs agitated exclamations. His horrified silence. Your breathing faded, theirs accelerated. You looked so small. So human. He scarcely believed the limp girl cradled in his arms just executed such a devastating maneuver. Your cursed energy had exceeded any output heâd felt from you before. It was too much, your body wasnât ready to endure a spike like that.Â
Suguru had never felt so distant from the title âstrongest.â
At some point later on, in a hospital waiting room, Suguru posed a question.Â
Satoru heard him yet offered no response.
âWho taught her how to do that?â
â... was guilt.â)
âYou didnât visit her.âÂ
Akane blinks.Â
âHah?âÂ
âYou didnât visit her,â Suguru repeats, his tone firmer. â[First]. Your student.âÂ
She exhales shakily. Suguru thinks she looks tired.Â
âIf you have something to say, just come out with it already.âÂ
He was prepared to wear her down for hours â this willing cooperation saves him time. Although, it doesnât make navigating the volatile minefield that lies ahead any easier. He knows how to rein Satoru in when heâs going too far. He can fluster you without giving too much of himself away. After rescuing someone from a curse, he knows the exact pitch, timbre, and tempo necessary to pierce through their abject horror. Heâs a virtuoso at playing people, a conductor hidden amidst the audience.Â
Deceit. Misdirection. Coercion.Â
His repertoire is expansive and ever-growing.Â
From what he can see â what he can feel â the prodigal daughter before him boasts a similar discography. She returns his unflinching eye contact as if issuing a challenge. Daring him to use dubious methods that might work on anyone else. This obstinate resolve reminds him of you. Once youâve determined your course, even he struggles to change the route.
He abandons all pretense.Â
âYou didnât want her here,â he theorizes. Akaneâs face reveals nothing. âYou knew something like that was bound to happen.âÂ
Sorcerers arenât only at war with curses. No, thereâs an inner battle that must be fought as well. The recognition that the next assignment could be your last. And if it is, you wonât be commemorated by the masses; to them, you donât exist. Your sacrifice will be known to a select few who mourn you, or a few who donât. Everything could go right. Everything could go wrong. Engaging in that high risk for such a low reward goes against oneâs self-preservation instincts.
How each sorcerer handles this fight is unique to them.Â
As for your strategy â you refuse to acknowledge this conflict exists.Â
Paradoxically enough, that functions as your self-preservation.Â
Akane smiles thinly. Sheâs almost his reflection, in that regard.
âFull marks.âÂ
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Suguru idly observes as Satoru paces back and forth, his troubled figure illuminated by a row of vending machines.Â
A nearby street lamp flickers. Itâs late, but the local convenience stores glow with artificial light, tempting customers to come inside. Some are weary salarymen grabbing ready-made meals, others are middle schoolers clinking their change together, praying they can afford a sugary treat. The latest group cheers, indicating their triumph.Â
The duo receives odd looks â thanks to their school uniforms, no doubt â not that they pay the judgment any mind. No one troubles them. Not even a wandering policeman, who, under normal circumstances, would scold minors out by themselves at night.Â
Suguru theorizes that Satoruâs ominous aura is what subconsciously repels them.Â
Earlier today, Suguru bid farewell to his parents and boarded a train for Tokyo. As nice as it was to spend time with his family, heâd been looking forward to reuniting with you and Satoru. He amassed quite the phone bill thanks to your frequent correspondence. Nonetheless, he carried the minor debt with pride; itâs a sign you often thought about him. He planned for Satoru to assume the debt by dangling the pictures you sent his way as ransom.Â
His encounter with Ishimoto Akane grounded his soaring mood. This was made worse when he entered the dormitory, only to find a tight-lipped Shoko and agitated Satoru.Â
Shoko remarked that unlike the two of them, sheâd be handling things with âtact,â and retired for the evening, not wanting to catch their âstupidity contagion.âÂ
Itâd been hours since then. That time stretch brought them closer to revealing the complete picture, but a few pieces remained missing or incomplete.Â
The frenetic sorcerer stills and rummages around in his pocket.
Suguru takes the opportunity to break the silence. âIââÂ
He cuts himself off as Satoru whips out a familiar-looking chapstick. The cutesy design befitting your aesthetic stands out like a sore thumb in Satoruâs large, calloused hands.Â
â... Where did you get that?âÂ
â[First]âs room,â is Satoruâs response, spoken nonchalantly whilst applying it to his lips. âWhy?âÂ
Suguru snorts. Sometimes Satoruâs ungodly strength blinds him to the fact that heâs still a teenage boy.Â
âWonât she notice itâs missing?âÂ
âI replaced it.âÂ
âAh.â
âShe has plenty more in the drawer beneath her vanity if you want one.âÂ
Suguru knows the exact spot Satoruâs referring to. They both helped you assemble it (Satoru got bored fifteen minutes in and fell asleep on your bed but still claims credit).Â
After noting this suggestion, he asks, âHave you calmed down?âÂ
Satoru barks out a âhah!â as if heâd just heard a hilarious joke. âMe? Shouldnât I be askinâ you that?âÂ
Suguru massages his temples, sensing the looming headache that awaits him. âSatoruâŠâÂ
âWe could follow her residuals, you know,â Satoru suggests. He tips his sunglasses down, revealing eyes that gleam with predatory intent. âWith the Six Eyes, itâd be a walk in the park.âÂ
âAnd then what?âÂ
âOh, you know, chat about the weather, latest political scandals, that sort of thing.âÂ
âYou canât strong-arm yourself through everything in life, Satoru,â Suguru chastises.Â
Satoru opens and closes his lips. He folds his arms, scrunches his eyebrows together, and rapidly taps his foot. The shift puts Suguru at ease. Satoru adopts this countenance on the rare occurrence heâs faced with a formidable threat. The serious, almost somber visage speaks to his ironclad resolve. Suguru may have told his companion that he canât strong-arm himself through everything, but thatâs a half-truth; the Gojo clanâs pride can do whatever he pleases.Â
Itâs consideration of the aftermath that Suguru wishes to instill in his companion. Tempering the arrogance of a God is no easy feat.Â
â... She isnât going anywhere,â Satoru declares, as if any other outcome was blasphemous.Â
âShe isnât,â Suguru agrees. Then, he lowers his voice, adding, âWe canât disregard what Ishimoto-san is getting at, though.âÂ
âSimple â all our girl needs is a good olâ fashioned intervention.âÂ
âAn âintervention,ââ Suguru deadpans. âDidnât you already try that?âÂ
Satoru smiles in a way Suguru can only describe as dopey, reminiscing on the night you got âmad at him for wanting you to be mad at him.â Thatâs how Suguru interpreted the detailed account Satoru gave the next morning, anyway.Â
(âI wish she wouldâve cried, just a little bit; it wouldâve made her look extra cute,â Satoru cooed, to which Suguru shot him an exasperated look. âOh, donât act so high and mighty. Youâd make her cry just so you could wipe her tears away.â)
Suguru shakes his head. âHereâs what I think â the self-sacrifice in and of itself isnât the problem. Well, the main problem. There has to be a reason, something personal⊠identifying that takes priority.âÂ
A gust rips through the narrow street, howling as it terrorizes store signs and doors with weak hinges. The two strongest sorcerers remain oblivious to the drift. What occupies their mind is greater than any force of nature, insignificant or otherwise. They have the means to challenge natural phenomena itself. And they would, should they deem it an obstacle to their goals. This single-minded determination is what elevates them beyond the rest.Â
âI guess the old man has a soft spot for us after all,â Satoru says, referring to Yaga, Suguru guesses.
Breathlessly, he chuckles. âMaybe.âÂ
Studying Satoru from his peripherals, he silently mulls over the far likelier realityâ Â
âthat Yaga understands Satoruâs potential for saving this world is matched only by his capacity to condemn it.Â
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From a young age, Ieri Shoko found irony everywhere she looked.
Itâs prevalent in the medical field she wishes to pursue. When stabbed, itâs better to leave the knife in than immediately pull it out. For an immune system to better defend itself from a virus, it must first be exposed to it in trace amounts. If an appendage becomes too infected, removing that piece of the body is better than keeping it whole. It was you who pointed out this theme extends into the world of jujutsu.Â
âYouâd think fighting to survive a curse instead of defeating it would be an okay alternative, right?â You had said. âBut really⊠that just means someone else gets to foot the bill. All âcause you cheaped out.âÂ
She regrets not asking you to elaborate. At the time, the observation felt so personal, so intimately interwoven with who you are, that she thought it best to leave it alone.Â
Watching you now, lounging on the swing beside her, sheâs determined not to repeat her previous mistake.Â
âTired?âÂ
âWell, yeah,â you laugh. It sounds off. âI wasnât meant for long flights. It takes everything out of me, yâknow?âÂ
Shoko unsuccessfully digs around her pocket for a lighter. The search ceases when she recalls its inopportune location â left behind in her dorm room in the rush to be the one who reaches you first. Not sure what else to do with her hands, she folds them onto her lap. Meanwhile, you pick at a stray thread on your jeans.Â
âI didnât mean from traveling,â she clarifies.Â
âHm?âÂ
âHow many curses did you exorcise back home?âÂ
Your fingers go still.
âI dunno⊠a few?â You shrug, stuffing your hands in your pockets. âIf I happen across them, Iâm not gonna just let them run amuck. Thatâd be irresponsible.âÂ
Your nonchalance comes across as forced. You may be keeping your words lighthearted, but she can tell youâve dialed up your senses, monitoring her closely. It reminds her of a cornered mouse. Itâs then that any lingering doubt over her choices leading up to this moment dispels. Resolve strengthened, she swears to make as much progress as she possible before those two catch on. She felt a bit bad lying about your flightâs time, but felt the situation justified the call.Â
âIt feels different when theyâre close to home, doesnât it?âÂ
Shokoâs eyes scan over the lively park before them. Thereâs a group of children playing with one another, some scouring the grass for bugs and others playing tag. Their guardians watch from a distance, chatting amongst themselves, likely discussing the upcoming poor weather or latest neighborhood scandals. Young couples walk hand in hand along the pathways, cheeks flushed from the joy of experiencing their first love.Â
âEncountering a curse is draining. Fighting them, even more so. But when theyâre on a street you walk every day, or a few blocks over from your house, you canât help but start thinking. âWhat if I hadnât come this way? Would it have hurt people I know? People I love and care about?ââ
Her eyes find yours. ââWhat if it killed them?ââ
You look like youâre going to be sick.Â
She ignores how your expression contorts her stomach and continues. âSorcerers are in the minority, itâs true. So⊠fighting to survive isnât selfish. Itâs strategic.â
In the distance, the rough silhouette of two individuals grows clearer. The spotlight she commandeered grows fainter with their every step. In what remains of the fading limelight, she considers you. The CC cream that conceals the worst of your exhaustion, how your pupils dilate from high caffeine intake, then your fingers. The keys that when steepled just so, open the future for others at the cost of permanently locking yours.Â
She reaches over and gently squeezes your hand.Â
âRemember â we wonât be much help to anyone if weâre six feet under. So letâs aim to stay above ground.âÂ
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The evening sun sinks into the horizon, demanding acknowledgment in its final moments by dousing all in a fiery hue.Â
Your uniform absorbs the brunt of this last stand. The dark fabric devours the waning sunlight, heating you from head to toe. It didnât fully occur to you that you were back when you walked through the torii gates lining the mountainous path. Nor when you unpacked in your dorm, stuffing your passport away until your next break, where itâll serve you faithfully again.Â
Instead, it was the simple act of putting your uniform on again that made home seem far, far away.Â
Youâd gotten used to your clothes smelling like your motherâs preferred detergent. Itâs a brand you couldnât find in Japan, sold exclusively in your home country. You wondered what meal your parents were having when you straightened out your collar. If your neighbor ever fixed that rumble their old sedan huffed out as you slipped into your tights. Whether your grandpa knew youâd landed safely when you brushed lint off your skirt.Â
The campus atmosphere is serene. Tengenâs barrier is a bulwark against curses, insulating you from any potential threats. Without this assurance, some part of you was always on the defensive, anticipating anything when you slept in your childhood bedroom. It siphoned away your vitality, just like Shoko pointed out.Â
You sniffle and kick a rock aside.Â
How does it always end up like this?
First Akane, now Shoko, you hug yourself. I just want to protect others. Whatâs so wrong with that? If I donât, then who will?
You pause abruptly.Â
When Akane began mentoring you, the world as you knew it changed. Suddenly, you were given knowledge no one else was privy to, for they lacked the tools to comprehend it. Youâd seen those âcreaturesâ, but it was Akane that explained their malevolent nature. What they could do, the pain they inflicted, how defenseless the population at large was against them.Â
The shadow that this monstrous threat cast could never be outshone by light. The best you could do was create safe pockets the size of pins in the darkness. That was the extent of your hope, the most bitter pill youâve ever swallowed.
The lingering specter of Shokoâs reassuring touch prickles along your hand.Â
Itâs easy to forget youâre not alone anymore after fighting by yourself for so long.Â
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Eventually, you happen upon a clearing near the schoolâs main grounds.Â
The steep inclines surround a sizable outdoor track. This area is known colloquially as the schoolâs training grounds. You prefer to train in a more secluded, wooded area, but not everyone shares your enthusiasm for subtlety. Namely, the two prodigies who have turned the field into a colosseum thatâd rival the battles of ancient Rome.Â
You take a seat on the grassy hill and watch what unfolds.Â
Your eyes can scarcely follow the blows Suguru and Satoru exchange. Their sparring sessions are unreal â blurring the very fabric of reality. Somehow, they manage all this without using cursed energy. The spectacle youâre witnessing is simply hand-to-hand combat. Itâs like watching a film with skipping frames. In a matter of seconds, they can travel a hundred meters and return to their original position. Your brain struggles to process the stimuli your senses are feeding it.Â
They were already strong when you met them. But now? The nomenclature doesnât exist to properly classify them.Â
And in the futureâŠÂ
Thereâs no telling what highs theyâll reach or the ceilings theyâll shatter.Â
Their light is the most dazzling youâve ever seen.
Within a few minutes, they conclude their training session. Satoru instantly beelines toward you, whereas Suguru cycles through stretches. Thereâs not even a single drop of sweat on Satoruâs body as he plops to your right. Heâs wearing his signature sunglasses, despite the night's looming shadow.Â
âShouldnât you be asleep or something?â Satoru asks. âItâs past your bedtime.â
You punch him lightly on the shoulder. He yelps out an exaggerated âouch!â rubbing the area to soothe the nonexistent wound.Â
Suguru approaches at a far more leisurely pace, sending a wave that you return in kind.Â
Satoru, not one to be forgotten, yells out, âBe careful, Suguru! Sheâs violent!âÂ
âOnly against those who deserve it,â Suguru replies.
Fondness blossoms inside your chest as you laugh. Youâd forgotten how simple life feels around them. Itâs as if when the three of you are together, youâre swallowed by a pocket dimension, isolated from everyone and everything. Permanently inhabiting this utopia is a temptation.Â
Satoru places his hands behind his head and lays onto the ground. âHere I am, potentially out of commission forever, without a single ounce of sympathy to show for it.âÂ
âWe could always settle in court,â you offer.Â
Suguru stands before you, hands on his hips. âOr he could finally figure out how to use reverse cursed technique.âÂ
At this, Satoru shoots back up, his sunglasses falling askew. âHah? Last I recall, you gave yourself a headache giving it a go. At least Iâm not that bad.âÂ
âHurdles are necessary to improve. Without any, how do you know youâre truly making progress?âÂ
Satoru gives him a grossed-out look. âAll this philosophizing is gonna turn your hair gray before you hit twenty.âÂ
âThatâs rich, coming from the guy whose hair is already white,â You point out. âWhatâs that say about you?âÂ
Suguru muffles his laughter behind his hand.Â
Satoruâs quick to overcome his incredulity. âIt says that Iâm going to spoil the next volume of Inuyasha. SesshomaruââÂ
You cover your ears and sprint off. âCanât hear you, canât hear you, canât hear youâŠ!âÂ
He chases after you, periodically shouting the names of the main characters right when you think heâs finished. You do your best to block out his voice, running like your life depends on it. Heâs hot on your heels, cackling at your expense. After a stretch of silence, you uncover your ears, hesitantly turning around to check if heâs finished his torture.Â
You meet Satoruâs gaze. His lips are parted, his eyebrows slightly raised. Your reflection in his dark lenses appears equally perplexed. He straightens his sunglasses and regards you with an unreadable expression.Â
â... Youâve gotten faster.âÂ
The comment is so quiet, youâre unsure if you heard him correctly.Â
âHm?âÂ
âNothing,â he dismisses, waving you off. âYou shoujo-loving types sure take this stuff seriously. Itâs almost cultish.âÂ
âI donât wanna hear that from the guy who references Digimon like itâs some sorta scripture!âÂ
âHonda Tohru is a lame heroine.âÂ
You audibly gasp. âWhâ you take that back!âÂ
And so itâs your turn to chase Satoru, who, for reasons unknown, is oddly knowledgeable regarding Fruits Basket.Â
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âCould you guys be honest with me about something?âÂ
âAll depends.âÂ
âOf course.âÂ
Satoru and Suguruâs responses come out simultaneously, the contents offering little reassurance. Youâre not sure what you expected. Nonetheless, you press past the gnawing discomfort, your conversation with Shoko a fresh memory.Â
âDid Akane stop by while I was gone?âÂ
You scrutinize their countenances for involuntary reactions that might betray their inner thoughts. You begin with Satoru, who was in the middle of cleaning his sunglasses when you posed the question. His eyes, which normally brim with mischief, have an eerie calmness about them; like sheets of ice that were once choppy waters. He smiles softly and slips his lenses back into place, undoubtedly aware of the intent behind your stare.Â
Then thereâs Suguru. He hums, as if finding your inquiry unexpected and not an inevitable point of contention. Heâs a more challenging puzzle to decipher than Satoru. With the latter, you can roughly gauge the greater picture, blurry and incomplete as it may be. Suguru, on the other hand, hasnât given you enough pieces to attempt a solution.Â
Satoru continues mulling over your question while Suguru responds, âIs that whatâs been worrying you lately?âÂ
So they picked up on it too, you think.Â
Frowning, you shift in your seat. Blades of grass tickle your thighs and you push your skirt down.Â
âEr⊠not that, specifically,â you admit. You feel like youâre surrounded by walls that know just how far to close in to give the impression you might be crushed. âI just⊠Iâve been thinking. About why Iâm hereâ what Iâll go on to do. And, wellâŠâÂ
Much to their surprise, you stand, squeeze your eyes shut, and bow ninety degrees.Â
âFor so long, Iâve carried this burden. The truth is, when I first learned about Null, I was relieved. Iâd always have something to rely on in the worst-case scenario. But at the same time⊠that meant not using it could also be a mistake. You have no idea how much that scared me.âÂ
You curl your hands up into fists. âI donât want to think that way anymore. I see it now â have for a while, actually â strength I couldnât even imagine before. So, I guess what Iâm trying to say is⊠Iâm in your care. If itâs alright, I want to rely on others, starting with you two.âÂ
Your heart pounds wildly in the silence that follows.Â
Maybe this is selfish too, you think. But I donât want to be alone anymore.Â
You hear Suguru speak your name. It isnât until he repeats it, his tone kind yet firm, that you straighten yourself and face him.Â
Satoru stands further back, scratching his neck. Much to your confusion, a red flush has risen to his cheeks, extending up to his ears. Suguru corrects your staring by taking your face in his hands and redirecting your attention to him. Warmth envelops you. Your faces are inches apart, but somehow, the distance feels nonexistent, like heâs peering into your mind unhindered.Â
âSurely, you can dream bigger than that,â Suguru chastises.
â... Eh?âÂ
âDo you think so little of us?â Satoru grumbles. It almost sounds like heâs pouting. Was he not listening to anything you just said? The sincerity behind your every word? Why are they both acting like you insulted them?Â
âEh?!âÂ
âIâm glad youâve come to this realization, but⊠you donât have to rely on anyone else. Just us,â Suguru takes a step back, though he keeps one hand cupping your cheek. You feel lightheaded. âAfter allâŠâÂ
â... Weâre the strongest.âÂ
notes:
*this pun actually works decently in english ?? but akane is making a reference to how suguru sounds phonetically similar to ăă, or sugu, which means 'soon.'
#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#satoru x reader#geto suguru x reader#geto x reader#suguru x reader#jujutsu kaisen#reader insert#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk x reader#golden girl#my stuff
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Your viewpoint is honestly so pathetically warped and concerningly harmful.
You can be outraged and still need spaces where for an hour a day you can just sit and recharge and forget the world is burning. Because fuck knows if I didn't have those spaces and those hours I'd have killed myself years ago. Everyone is outraged. Everyone is dying. The entire world is on fire. 24/7 anger and exposure for everyone will not change that. It just ruins individual people.
You're essentially stating that because one person is suffering absolutely nobody ever is allowed respite. And that's not an exaggeration; that's the point you're reiterating. "Its hard for me but its harder for X so I have to suffer equally or in solidarity."
You don't have to.
Be angry. That's fine. Join servers where discussions about cute animals are interrupted by graphic discussions about rape, murder and genocide. That's fine. That's up to you. That's your choice and your decision.
But you cannot expect other people to deliberately harm themselves in solidarity with others. Once again I am telling you to stop being entitled and stubborn and read through the multitude of comments and reblogs from people who have suffered mentally and physically because of constant 24/7 hypervigilance and over-exposure. People who began to self-harm or develop RSD or began to have panic attacks or developed depression.
"I am outraged at people who put their mental health over other people's survival."
Do you even hear yourself? You sound like a little Trump robot.
What the fuck do you expect people to do, 24/7, to help others when they are literally falling apart themselves? Do you just expect people to go and go until they kill themselves? Get checked into a psychiatric facility? What is your endgame in telling people that in a world that is always on fire they must stand in the flames?
While you're sitting on Tumblr posting about shoplifting and burning the patriarchy what are you actually doing in terms of activism that isn't just being loud and hateful on a social website?
Its incredibly ironic that you replied to this post with:
"Shoot me in the head if I want a little Tumblr time sometimes."
But you're being incredibly hypocritical about that very same thing. People just want a little time to actually fucking live instead of working to survive, coming home, and dredging themselves in endless death, gore and suffering until its time to sleep and wake up and repeat.
You're sitting there reblogging radical memes when you could be outside litter picking or helping the homeless. You reblog memes and sit there being a miserable, spiteful asshole when you could be sharing nothing but aid links and informational posts. You sit there sharing posts which have absolutely no relevance to politics at all when you could be sharing campaign and political posts.
See where I'm going with this?
Either put up or shut up at this point, honestly. If you're so firmly of the mindset where nobody is allowed a solid minute to actually care for themselves or enjoy their very finite life, take your own advice. Take your own medicine. Get off Tumblr and actually do something.
I am actually begging some people to just let some spaces exist untouched by real-world issues and horrors.
Like I've lost count of the amount of times peaceful game or fandom servers have been ruined by people stampeding in with political rants, bitching about world issues, demanding internal activism, demanding vent channels so they can whine about their shitty parents, ect.
Like. Respectfully. Not every single space has to be inclusive of and welcoming of outside topics. The real world sucks. We don't needed to be reminded of that absolutely everywhere.
#myfandomrealitea#sephiroth speaks#reply reblog#this fucking asshole#sometimes i forget people like this exist and then they Speak#tw: zero braincells present
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Fic Rec Friday
Hi friends đ I figured we could all use a little positivity so I thought I would do what I've been meaning to do for a while now - share some of my favorite bucktommy fics âš
I've had so much fun exploring this ship with y'all and hope that we don't lose this community - keep writing and keep supporting each other!
Please feel free to share your own favorites or tag anyone you think might appreciate this - trying to spread some positivity â€ïž
Sick with it by @ohjafeeljadefinitelyfeel (Mellow_Yellow on ao3) | E
I've read this fic maybe three times now and it is INCREDIBLE I might just need to read it again soon. They capture Buck and Tommy at a different time in their lives absolutely perfectly. SO GOOD.
You Can Always Find Me Where the Skies are Blue by @inawickedlittletown (emquin on ao3) | M
ONE OF MY FAVORITE SOULMATE AU'S!!!! OF ANY SHIP!!!! Do yourself a favor and go read it
It feels like I'm fallin' in love by actually_allie | E
Friends with benefits to lovers. Grey's Anatomy references. Absolute perfection.
Everytime I Try To Fly (I Fall) by @typicalopposite | M
ANGST. PAIN. DEVASTATION. But so so so beautiful and so worth it in the end.
King of the Lost Boys by @trialbywombaat (summerunderthesea on ao3) | M
The royalty/magic au this fandom desperately needed đ if you are in need of Knight!Buck and Prince!Tommy then do I have a fic for you đ
you may find yourself (in another part of the world) by indigostoheli | E
HISTORIC AU. BUCKTOMMY SAILING THE SEAS. THAT'S ALL YOU NEED TO KNOW. IT'S SO GOOD.
put your hands in mine by @saybiwithme (fatedbuck on ao3) | M
So soft and gentle đ everything I needed after last night.
Tagging some mutuals @monsterrae1 @hippolotamus @diazsdimples @bidisasterevankinard
@saybiwithme @rogerzsteven @prettyboybuckley @bekkachaos @eddiebabygirldiaz
@trialbywombaat @sirensandstories @loucifersbitch
#bucktommy#bucktommy fic rec#fandom positivity#911 on abc#911 abc#911 abc fic#fic rec#fic rec friday
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SVT when you can't sleep
Requested? No! (But they are still open!)
Genre: Comfort
A/N: This is entirely self-indulgent because I woke up at 3:45am and couldnât go back to sleep. For this reason, please forgive any typos or mistakes.
Seungcheol
Deeply disturbed when he finds that you are not next to him in bed. Gives it a few minutes, thinking you might have just gotten up to go to the bathroom or get some water, but when the time ticks by, he gets up to find you on the couch, watching TV. âBaby, what are you doing up?â Heâll ask concerned, glancing at the clock. When you say you woke up and couldnât go back to sleep, heâs plopping onto the couch with you, making you curl into him. You feel bad because he needs his sleep, but heâll brush you off, saying heâll stay up with you any night. You do eventually doze off in his warmth while reruns of some sitcom play on the TV and heâll carefully carry you back to bed.
Jeonghan
He feels you tossing and turning for what feels like hours. Heâs tired and maybe even a little bit irritable when he touches your back, asking why youâre still up. He immediately feels bad for his irritability when you say youâre sorry, but that you had a nightmare and couldnât go back to sleep. Heâs tugging you into his side, patting your head in a âthere, thereâ sort of motion, asking you to tell him all about it. It becomes clear that youâre not going back to sleep anytime soon, but thatâs okay, because heâll just lie there next to you and talk, no matter how drowsy he is.Â
Joshua
Seems to have a sixth sense about when you get out of bed. Youâve barely got your slippers on before heâs asking where youâre going. When you say you just canât sleep, he looks at the time, which is somewhere around 4am. He shrugs, getting out of bed as well, despite your insistence that he needs his sleep. He starts the coffee pot and gets a skillet out to make breakfast and youâre resigned to the fact that you both are now up for the day. He doesnât have any complaints, not even when you both are dozing on the couch by 2pm.Â
Jun
When he realizes that you never actually got to sleep and are just laying in bed scrolling at nearly 1am, Jun simply takes the phone out of your hands and puts it back on the charger. âPlay a game with me. Eye spy with my little eyeâŠâ You have to laugh because, well, itâs totally dark in the room now. But you play along because everything in your bedroom is familiar to you, even in the dark. Youâre kind of touched at how aware of the little things in your room he is, even if he doesnât live here (yet). Like he knows that you left a blue sweatshirt on the back of your vanity chair, or that there is little green detailing on your jewelry box. You doze off by about the tenth round and Jun keeps quiet after that.Â
Hoshi
He comes home late from practice and finds that youâre still awake, tossing and turning, and heâs concerned. When you say you just havenât been able to settle down, he thinks for a split second and says, âWell, I was about to shower. Come with me, maybe the warmth will help.â Thereâs absolutely nothing suggestive about the idea. He even washes your hair for you, letting you relax as he scratches your scalp for way longer than was probably necessary. Youâre out like a light as soon as your head hits the pillow. Now showering before bed, especially with him, is a regular occurrence to wind down.Â
Wonwoo
When he rolls over in the middle of the night to find that your beside lamp is still on and youâre still reading, he glances at the clock and then raises an eyebrow. âMust be a good book,â he mumbles. When you hum and tell him that itâs actually not, but you just canât sleep, heâs sitting up next to you, leaning against the headboard. âJust how bad could it be?â He doesnât acknowledge the âcanât sleepâ comment out loud, plucking the book from you and reading to you. He has to admit, the book does kind of suck, but heâs relieved to see that youâve dozed off to the sound of his voice within a couple chapters.Â
Woozi
He knows your sleeping habits and also notices some of the things that donât help it. But heâs hesitant to correct you, so he tries correcting these bad habits by correcting them in himself. Say youâre hanging out late with him while he works. The first thing heâll do is turn down the caffeine at a certain point, saying he wants to actually get some sleep tonight. The second thing is that heâll subtly rush to wrap things up quickly for the night so both of you can get home at a decent time. This technique wonât work every night because sometimes you donât follow his lead or itâll just be an exceptionally late night for him, but both of you tend to get better sleep when you keep a routine and cut the caffeine.Â
DK
Didnât you see this coming? The moment you say you canât sleep, heâs serenading you. Sometimes itâs sweet and soft with the intent of soothing you, and sometimes itâs goofy and animated with the intent on making you lighten up when youâre particularly frustrated by your bad sleeping habits. Sometimes you scold him to rest his voice, but he Will. Not. Be. Stopped. Heâll sing entire albums for you until youâre sleepy again, so donât test him.Â
Mingyu
Prepare to be cocooned the moment you say you canât sleep. Heâs so sweet and he also doesnât work out for no reason. Heâll literally wrap you in the blanket and hold you tight against his chest, talking sweetly about what might be bothering you. Even if nothing in particular is bothering you and you just canât sleep, thatâs fine too. Heâll stroke your hair and keep you warm until youâre ready to sleep.Â
Minghao
He absolutely thinks itâs stress. He notices the pattern - when you have a lot going on a work or in your family life, youâre extremely restless. Like Woozi, he might make it seem like itâs for him when he says he wants to try out a new bedtime routine. He likes meditating and decides to do it before bed, asking you to join. Then, when you both are done, he pushes you towards the bedroom, following you with two cups of tea. It doesnât work right away, but the longer he keeps up this little routine with you, the more he notices that your shoulders are more relaxed and you fall asleep faster.Â
Seungkwan
One night, youâre exceptionally restless and he asks whatâs wrong. You complain that the street lights coming through the windows and all the city noise have been bothering you lately. He lets you be for the night - if you want to toss and turn for a while, if you want to get up, if you want to cuddle, whatever is fine with him. But the next night before bed, he hands you two small boxes, one with a brand new sleep mask and one with small noise cancelling earbuds, encouraging you to try them out. These two things will constantly be replaced and upgraded as needed as long as they seem to help.
Vernon
Might be a little dead to the world when he sleeps, but if you happen to nudge him in the middle of the night saying that you canât sleep and you seem upset by it, heâs automatically offering to take a walk, no matter how groggy he is. Throws on some clothes and splashes his face with cold water in the bathroom so he can get with the program for you. Walks for hours if you need it - talking or in total silence, headphones or no headphones, holding hands or no physical contact at all. Absolutely does not matter to him. Heâll get back to sleep when you do.Â
Chan
Another one that makes it seem like itâs for him. Heâs noticed your sleeping habits and how run down you seem by it, but doesnât address it directly. Instead, he says he read an article that described how bad blue light was for sleep and he thinks he wants to try an electronic cleanse a couple hours before bed to see if it helps him. âAre you okay with that?â Heâll ask hopefully. Of course you agree, because itâs for him! Heâll resist the urge to giggle to himself when you pass out almost immediately when your head hits the pillow on the first night of this so-called electronic cleanse. He did not expect it his little plan to be successful so quickly.Â
#seventeen#svt#seventeen x reader#svt x reader#seventeen reactions#svt reactions#seventeen imagines#svt imagines#seungcheol#jeonghan#joshua#jun#hoshi#wonwoo#woozi#dk#mingyu#minghao#seungkwan#vernon#dino
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atta boy show
i wanted to share my experience meeting lewis and the gang. the night was an absolute dream. itâs lengthy so itâs under a read more.
first of all the show was phenomenal. the opener, me like bees, was fantastic and iâve been listening to them nonstop since last night. plus atta boyâs set was so good, of course. when they walked off at the end everyone started chanting for one more song so they came back to play another one (i will post the video later) and as they were getting ready to play lewis was snapping pics of eden and freddy with his film camera, very endearing lol.
so leading up to the show i decided i was going to make coasters for all of the band members. so i made one for each with their names on them, the date of the show, and my city's skyline. first i gave aubrey hers. she loved it. and she is darling! such a kind, sweet, beautiful girl! i told her how much i loved how she played and that she was beautiful, and she was just so touched.
then i gave dashel his. he got so animated about it and he asked me all the details about how i made it. he is truly so wonderful and kind, like his energy is just infectious and he's so lovely. and very attentive! a few people had fainting issues in the crowd and if they were close by he made sure to check on them, and offer help if needed. genuinely angelic human.
then of course miss eden! i didn't get to talk to her as long as i wanted to because they were packing up and i didn't wanna interrupt, but i gave her the coaster and she was so excited. plus i also put together a bag full of snacks and goodies for the gang to share on the road home and she loved it, she kept thanking me and ugh she's just so darling! like i mentioned above a few people fainted in the crowd and she stopped the show each time to make sure they were taken care of, and made sure to be encouraging and keep everyone calm.
i also wanna shout out luke shaefer, the lead singer of me like bees. he jumped right into action every time someone needed help. after their set a girl near me was having an asthma attack and he gave her water and had her sit down on the stage. and then he ran to the aid of someone who fainted. truly the most genuine, kind person. i got to talk to him for like 15 minutes straight after the show, and just vibe with him. he is AMAZING. and their music is so fucking good. their set was so loud my ears were still ringing, but so worth the ear pain lol. i will def be listening to them all the time now!
then of course freddy. i also didn't get to talk to him as much as i wanted because they were packing up but i stopped him to give him his coaster. he LIT UP and said "this is the sweetest gift i've ever been given." and then asked me if i was okay with a hug (of course i was). he was just so kind and gracious and energetic. god i love him. he is so cute to watch on stage too. he's got such a good aura about him.
and without further adieu, that brings me to our beloved lew magoo đ
i thought for sure i'd be nervous and awkward but i am proud to say i stared him down just as hard as he was staring me down lol. also i was really extra and went a bit overboard with my presents for him. i touched his arm and was like "so i have a lot of presents for you...i am so sorry" and he was like "oh let's go over here where there's more space!" and led me over to the stage. then i went on my spiel. i of course gave him his coaster. he loved it, and at first he was like "omg is this a cookie?" (i packaged them in little goodie bags) and i was like sir! that is a coaster, please do not eat it. and he just thought it was so cool and asked how i made it. and he was like âthis is the beginning of my coaster collection!â let me tell you, all the painstaking work i did on those coasters made that moment all worth it.
then, i got him a set of pens that look like drumsticks. he was so excited and was like "oh i've been looking for new pens! these are insanely cool!" but it didn't end there. the last thing i got him was a brand new mack hat. i told him i heard that his old one bit the dust (he was wearing it as we spoke, it just didn't have the patch) and that i went looking for a new one. and i presented it to him and his FACE. he was like đ± and no joke, he started tearing up. and then he immediately put it on. i asked him if i could take a picture of him wearing it so he happily posed for me, and then he insisted i take another picture of him pointing at the hat (i may share the pics on my blog. i may not. we shall see. they are so special to me. mooties will definitely get to see the pics, i promise) and he was just ecstatic. i think he gave me a hug? but i honestly do not remember lol, i blacked out at the end. i did get pics with him though, which he took himself. and he went "the mack is back!" đ
he is just as kind and gracious as everyone says he is. meeting him was unreal. i'm so glad i had the opportunity and i wouldn't trade it for the world. the show was such a surreal and beautiful experience. i met several new friends as well as a few tumblr girlies and we just all vibed and had such a great time. i hope atta boy tours again soon and that more people get a chance to interact with these incredible people. they deserve all the love and success and i hope they have a long and prosperous career together as a band, and that they're able to flourish in their own personal ventures as well.
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can you see the stars in your dreams (and do they have a lot to say about me) - Part 5
Or: a secret Admirer AU
PART 1 || PART 2 || PART 3 || PART 4
Eddieâs just dropped his response in the requested copy of Romeo and Juliet. Heâd looked furtively around the library, trying to see if anyone was paying him an abnormal level of attention.
No one even looks up.
Thereâs a mousy girl in the corner reading a comic book, some band girl muttering to herself as she frantically pulls books off the shelf, and Nancy Wheeler writing, fast enough that Eddieâs surprised the lead of her pencil doesnât snap clean off.
Could it be her?
Eddie squints at her, trying to look past her frizzy hair and prissy face to what must be hidden underneath. Before he finds any clarity, she looks up from the page in front of her, already scowling before she meets Eddieâs gaze.
Eddie startles, damn-near sprinting out of the library, his smokerâs lungs wheezing hard enough to damn-near expel themselves from his lungs.
No way in hell is it Wheelerâsheâs way too scary, and besides, no oneâs ever accused her of being an athlete. That band girl, maybe? She looked feisty enough to kick ass at organized sports-ball.
The secretâs burning a hole through his heart and he wants, no, needs, to tell someone.
Eddie feels deranged with it, almost manic as he rushes to find someone, anyone, he can talk to. Hell, right now heâd take Hagan if he didnât think the dude would punch him in the face.
Luckily, he smacks into Gareth before anything gets that dire. The kidâs obviously rushing through the parking lot to catch the bus before it leaves without him, stranding him at the school before the weekend can truly start.
âDudeââ he stutters out as Eddie latches onto both of his shoulders and begins shaking him about. âWhat the hellâs wrong with you?â
Gareth smacks him off, and Eddie stumbles back, almost buzzing with the frenetic energy built up from weeks of getting love letters in his locker and not being able to tell a soul. Eddie grabs onto him again and just keeps shaking, lest his soul quiver right out of his body. âI canât keep it in anymore, man,â Eddie says, and he can tell from the bug-eyed look on the other boyâs face that heâs not picking up what Eddieâs putting down. âIâve gotten four letters, Gare-Bear, four!â
He enunciates the last word with an even harder shake until Eddie can hear his teeth clack together. Gareth makes an unholy noise, like a cat submerged in bathwater, and damn-near claws Eddieâs face off in his attempts to get away. Eddie ends up standing in the parking lot, still holding the shoulders of Garethâs flannel up despite there no longer being a body in it.
âAnd each one is sweeter than the last!â Eddie cries, maliciously dropping the flannel into a puddle.
Gareth squawks, bending down to scoop his outerwear up from the ground and twist it until some of the water sops out of it and back to the pavement from whence it came. Heâs not looking at Eddie at all. God, he knew he should have picked Doug.
âSo, why are you telling me about it?â Gareth gripes.
Left unspoken, but patently obvious between them, is that Jeff, Eddieâs usual secret keeper, is entirely absent. Eddie twirls one of his own curls, bringing it up to shield the blush thatâs no doubt blooming on his face as he admits, âJeff would make fun of me.â
Besides, Jeffâs been weird all day, eyes darting away from Eddieâs like heâs got some sort of disease that might be catching.
He doesnât want to talk to Jeff right now.
Giving it up as a bad job, Gareth slings his sopping flannel over one shoulder with the beleaguered sigh of a single mother and finally meets Eddieâs eyes.
âDude,â he says, voice that of someone delivering a deadly blow. âIâm going to make fun of you.â
Eddie can feel himself pouting, does absolutely nothing to try to stop it as he mutters, âknew I shouldâve confided in Hagan,â too quietly for Gareth to hear.
âNow, where are these stupid letters?â
Eddie throws his hands up and takes two showily large steps back as he declares, âwell, Iâm not going to show you now!â
âOh, Jeff,â Gareth calls, all sing-songy and sly.
Eddie lunges forward to slam his palm over Garethâs mouth even though Jeff had disappeared from the school long ago. With his hands so close already, heâs hard-pressed to stop himself from wringing Garethâs scrawny neck.
Before he knows it, Eddie finds himself settled in his room, the letters strewn about Eddieâs unmade bed.
Gareth reads them all; he laughs at all the parts that are sweetest, and despite being born an only child, Eddie can feel himself developing one hell of a Cain instinct. Maybe Cain was actually a cool guy, and Abel drove him to it with his incessant wheedling.
Eddie wouldnât know; heâs never read the bible.
âDude, sheâs a jock?â Gareth asks, peering down at the letter with a level of glee Eddieâs never seen on the other boyâs face.
âYou kiss your mother with that mouth?â Eddie asks, taking sadistic enjoyment in the way Garethâs nose wrinkles with disgust. He ripsâgently!âthe letter out of Garethâs hands and gathers them all back together, intent to hide them from any more prying eyes.
âI was reading that!â
âGirls can do sports,â Eddie replies snootily, tucking the letters away beneath his pillow. âAnd besides, thereâs always cheerleaders.â
All that does is make Gareth start laughing again. âYou think you can bag a cheerleader?â
He raises his hand threateningly, one wrong word from smacking that look off his face, the way Eddieâs dad had always threatened. âDo you want to walk home?â Eddie demands.
Eddieâs doubtful it was the threat that got Gareth to stop laughingâthey both know theyâll spend the rest of the evening eating stale cereal and watching whateverâs on TV before falling asleep in Eddieâs small bedâbut the silence is still welcome.
It lasts a solid three seconds before Gareth asks, âyouâre not afraid itâs all a joke?â
Eddieâs going to kill him.
***
The dayâs been long despite Steve, Chrissy, and Jeff all skipping first period. Still, nothing could stop him from taking precious time out of his weekend to pick up any notes Eddie might have written.
Itâs becoming normal now, to skulk behind Chrissy through the library as she picks up notes. Whatâs that saying about the third time being a pattern? And there, tucked reverently into a copy of Romeo and JulietâChrissyâs idea, not hisâis an envelope with Secret Admirer written across it in bold, cursive font. Like Eddieâd gone out and gotten a quill and ink pot just for the occasion.
The inkâs so black, it still looks wet, but when Steve caresses the letters, they donât even smudge. They both stare down at it where itâs still clutched between Chrissyâs fingers. Chrissy, ever the good friend, waits for his next move.
âWant to come over?â he asks, tired of impersonal whispers in quiet libraries. He wants a girlâs night, the way he and Carol used to before sheâd started dating Tommy and everything had gotten so stilted. âI can paint your nails.â
Chrissy doesnât even hesitate. Sheâs beaming as she puts the envelope carefully into her book bag, grabs his arm, and drags him out of the room.
She doggedly follows his car all the way home to his big empty house, her headlights beaming light and warmth straight into his heart.
The porch lightâs on in front of his house, a beacon leading him home from his rapidly darkening driveway. He always leaves it on, something about its cheerful light making his dark house seem more welcoming, even more so now that heâs got a friend parking her car right behind his.
Heâs glad not to get run out of town, but more than that, heâs grateful that it was all just a mistake, that he doesnât need to let another friendship fizzle out into nothing.
âAre your parents home?â she asks as she bounces out of her car and up to his side.
âAlmost never,â Steve replies, not turning back to her, unwilling to see the expression on her face as he leads her to the front door and ushers her inside once itâs unlocked.Â
He slides his shoes off, and she copies his movements before following him up the stairs. They settle onto his bed, and heâs tempted to make a wise-crack about what boyfriends and girlfriends usually do in beds, but heâs a little afraid she might slap him, so all he says is, âdid you bring it?â
Chrissy rolls her eyes, âof course I brought it.â
Sheâs already made herself comfortable laying on her stomach, but she dutifully reaches toward the ground to rifle through her bag and pull the envelope thatâs been burning a hole in it free. Steve descends on it like a drowning man on land.
He lays on his stomach beside her, tempted to kick his feet and twirl his hair as he slots his finger into the envelope and opens it with the precision born from years of practice opening his parentsâ mail.
Itâs only as he pulls the tab open that he notices itâs not an envelope at all. Eddie had cleverly folded the note heâd written into the shape of an envelope, tucking the tab into it to keep it closed. He smooths the creases out and devours the words.
      Secret Admirer,
      I want to learn everything about youâ the color of your eyes, how your lips curve when you smile, how soft your hands are, the sound of your laughter. But more than that, I want to know what you love, along with all of your deepest wants and needs. Youâve piqued my curiosity with your scant answers. I canât help but want more.
      Unfortunately, thereâs not enough room on the page for the unrelenting number of questions flooding my mind. I know the point of being a secret admirer is that itâs a secret, but I hope that if you really do like me, you wonât stay secret for long.
      I came up with a game I think could be fun! Iâve filled mine out already, for you to keep. Recopy it onto a separate sheet and return it with your next note. That way I get to keep your answers and you can have mine. I also wrote little notes on the back for some of them. I couldnât help myself.
      Yours,
      Eddie
And there, tucked behind the envelope is a notecard, Eddieâs usual sloppy handwriting covering it with that same, black ink. But heâs circled his answers in red, and added little numbers next to some of them.
      ||Rock or Pop 1 || Board Games or Sports Games 2 || Early Bird or Night Owl || Reading Or TV || Big Spoon or Little Spoon 3 || Outer Space or The Ocean 4 || Art or History || Alcohol or Weed 5 || Cats or Dogs || Holding Hands or First Kiss 6 || Winter or Summer || Grease or Star Wars || Gold or Silver || Halloween or New Yearâs Eve || Vampires or Werewolves 7 || Drive-In or Movie Theater || Back Seat or Under the Bleachers 8 || Cuddling or Dancing || Slides or Swings 9 ||
Steve flips it over and finds more little numbers in red, each with a corresponding blurb.
      1. Pop is fun if youâre into that, but nothing beats a good guitar riff.
      2. I know youâre into sports, sweetheart, but come on, board games are the obvious winner.
      3. If you prefer being the big spoon, Iâm willing to compromise <3
      4. If you pick the ocean, then youâre braver than me! Thatâs a body of water you canât even see the bottom of! How are you cool with that?
      5. If you know me, and it really seems like you do, then my answer here is obvious.
      6. I bet youâve got really nice hands, sweetheart. Would love to feel them in mine someday.
      7. Werewolves are cool, too, but come on, vampires fit my aesthetic way better.
      8. Under the bleachers would probably be cool, too, but my vanâs a lot warmer (does that count as a backseat?)
      9. I was always that kid who would go down the slide and pretend there was a dragon chasing me, what about you?
Steve smiles down at the card and all the secrets it holds.
âAww, thatâs so cute!â Chrissy says.
Steve, for the first time, gets the inexplicable urge to hide Eddieâs words behind his hands. He doesnât because that would be insane, and also sheâs already seen it. So, all he says is, âhelp me respond?â
She does.
      Eddie â
      I donât love like you do, not so easily and with my whole heart. But I love my best friend, and I like a whole lot moreâhopefully thatâs enough.
      Iâm just as greedy for answers as you are. I want to write all your answers down on flash cards, study them like you might test me on them. If you do, Iâm determined to get an A+.
      I hope my own answers satisfy, even if they donât include my face, my smile, or my name. But my eyes? Theyâre brown, but nowhere near as pretty as yours. I could fall into your eyes and die happy.
      Yours, Always,
      Your Secret Admirer
      P.S. This time, put your reply in The Anatomy and Physiology textbook, right next to the diagram of the human heart.
Chrissy tears up at the bit about his best friend, but luckily doesnât comment, just keeps spinning his yarn into gold. She dutifully re-writes the answer card as well, letting Steve circle his own answers with her pretty pink pen as she peers over her shoulder.
âItâs kind of funny how many of your answers are opposites,â Chrissy says, once theyâre done.
Steve frowns, staring between both cards. Sheâs right; between all the questions, theyâve got three in common: they both chose holding hands over first kisses, drive-ins over movie theaters, and cuddling over dancing.
Itâs not much to build a relationship on.
âYeah, funny,â Steve replies, trying for chill but his voice comes out all wrong.
âSteve?â Chrissy asks, sounding hesitant herself now. âNone of that matters, you know that right?â
Steve doesnât respond; heâs too busy looking between each filled-out card, debating whether changing some of his answers might be for the best.
As if she can sense his thoughts, Chrissy snatches them both from his hands.
âHey!â
He goes to snatch them back, but sheâs pushed them behind her, glare fierce enough to give him pause. âNone of that matters,â she says, voice firm. âYou really think whether you like gold or silver better is a deal-breaker for a relationship?â
Sheâs right, thatâs not whatâs doomed this whole thing before itâs even startedâitâs Steve. Steve, whoâs a boy, and a jock, and not very bright.
Heâs always the problem.
âYou hear me, Steve?â Chrissy asks. Sheâs leaning toward him now, eyes blazing with a conviction he doesnât quite understand. âYouâre perfect just the way you are, okay?â
His throatâs all clogged up so he just nods, looking down at her hands where theyâre clutching tightly enough to his comforter that the beds of her nails turn pink, and her knuckles bleach white.
Sheâs got thin, pretty fingers, and jagged nails. These are the hands that can write letters Eddie will want to read; itâs got nothing to do with silver, or gold, or any of that shit.
Itâs Steve.
âDid you really want to paint my nails?â Chrissy asks, biting her lip and not meeting his eyes.
Steveâs up off the bed in an instant, ready for the distraction sheâs handed him. He rifles around in the bathroom and comes back with a crate of nail polish which he immediately shoves into her chest with enough gusto that she makes a little oof! noise.
âPick your poison,â Steve says, watching as her eyes grow wider with every new color she picks up.
âYou have so many,â she breathes, touching the small glass bottles almost reverently before picking up a pale pink color that suits her. âWhat about this one?â
She looks so unsure, like his opinion on her choice of nail polish is the most important thing in the world. Steveâs heart squeezes beneath his ribcage. ââcourse, Chris.â
He settles onto the bed, legs criss-crossed. He waits for Chrissy to match his pose before grabbing her hand. She curls her fingers into a fist, a breath shuddering out of her before she forces her hand back open.
Steve doesnât comment on the ragged state her nails are in. He just grabs a nail file from the crate and smooths them down as best he can. He buffs her nails out before finally grabbing her chosen color and gives the bottle a shake.
The first coat goes on quick, Chrissy watching each flick of the brush like itâs fascinating.
âYouâre really good at this,â she says, sounding shocked.
Steve presses her hands down on the bed to keep them still as the first coat dries. âThanks,â he replies, still not looking up at her. âI used to do Carolâs like every week.â
Thereâs a silence in the room now that feels one step to the left of stilted. He doesnât know what to do about it, so he picks up her hand and blows on the nails like that will speed anything up at all.
âCan I do yours next?â
At that, Steve finally looks up from Chrissyâs nails to meet her eyes. Sheâs biting her lip, cheeks tinged pink with embarrassment.
âDo you want to?â Steve asks.
No oneâs ever painted his nails before, not even Carol. But in the face of Chrissyâs earnest, nervous expression, he canât say no.
Thatâs how he finds himself at school on Monday with bright yellow nail polish painted on each of his fingers, the edges already chipped from where he couldnât stop himself from picking at it.
No one says a thing.
#koko's steddie secret admirer au#steddie#my fic#I did my best with the formatting of the letter on his one lol#tumblr is Not helping with it so :shrugs:
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i hear searching for fluff. i raise you cat animagus reader and the animal politics that come with being a cat. oh thatâs a glass of water youâve placed on the counter? what a perfect place for my paw to go. theyâre a total goodie two shoes but can never stop themselves from swatting at and generally terrorizing sirius, dog form or not. iâve seen so many videos of woodland animals like stags befriending cats or stealing their food and everyone just being like âwdym i didnât know they could do thatâ. reader starts slow blinking at people without realizing. i could go on for forever i would love to see shenanigans and hijinks
beautiful thoughts, i enjoyed all of them. i let them inspire me into a drabble situation of cat!reader terrorising sirius with reg (and rem) on her side. this is just pure chaos and silliness, thank you for the opportunity lovie<3
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Warnings: not proofread, fem!reader, no use of y/n but your cat form is called "whiskers", james and sirius pranked you mildly, you get revenge as a cat, you are only in cat form throughout this, sibling squabbles, super minor injuries (you put your claws in sirius), platonic physical affection, general chaos and fluff
Note: this is technically in the same universe as my other two (first, second) cat!animagus!reader fics with regulus, but can be read alone. it is more of a platonic!sirius x reader fic though, it focusses on the interactions between them + reg, rem and james
Sirius had been made aware by many a parent, professor and otherwise nosey adult, that actions had consequences. Which was all fine and dandy with him, the consequences were often the sole inspiration for his actions.Â
This, however. This, they did not warn him about.
âOw, ow, ow!â he hissed, trying to shake the feline creature off his shoulder.Â
Just a few seconds ago, she had been innocently peering down on his textbook, front paws resting on his shoulders as she stood on the top of the sofa he was reclining against. That didnât last long though, as her claws came out and dug in through the fine material of his shirt, seeking the pain and destruction this evil creature seemed to live off of.
Unaffected by his shaking, she elegantly climbed down his arm â claws still out and still using him as leverage â to plop onto the table before them with a soft prrt!
âRemus, your friend is hurting me,â Sirius sneered at his boyfriend who was sat in a grandfather chair beside him, flipping through a newspaper Sirius was quite certain was out of date.
The other boy hummed noncommittally. âDoes she have reason to?â he asked without looking up from the paper.
âNo!â Sirius exclaimed at the same time as Regulus said, âabsolutely.â
He shot his brother a glare on the other side of the sofa. He was reading through a novel in pristine condition, only looking up to glance fondly at the menace currently parading around the coffee table. Sirius was growing miffed that none of his hangout companions were sparing him any attention.
âI havenât done anything, and if I had the minx should be over it by now.â Sirius did his best to seem authoritative, but he had a tough crowd.
You hissed at him from where you were standing on the table. Regulus looked up at that with mirth swimming in his eyes despite his impassive facial expression.
âShe seems to disagree, Pads,â Remus said nonchalantly. âSheâs also been running around as Whiskers for the past few hours, which she only does when she is either really pleased and really upset.â
âAnd sheâs not pleased,â Regulus added unhelpfully.
Sirius muttered something under his breath that amounted to âI wouldnât be pleased either, if I had to be in a relationship with such a grumpâ to which he received a throw pillow to the face, another hiss and an admonishing âPadsâ.
"It was just a little prank," Sirius defended himself. "It's quite literally what we do." He didn't feel the need to go into the specifics; this was a dog he wanted to bury yesterday. Or, well, cat.
"To no one's enjoyment but your own, I'm sure," Regulus huffed. "If she's bothered by it, that's entirely her right."
Sirius looked to Remus for some backing up, and when he found none, he let out another groan, collapsing further into the sofa in his evident despair.
He would have happily stayed there, bitching and moaning as he pleased, had it not been for the suspicious sounds coming from the coffee table.
There, he found that you had not looked away from him and were sitting disturbingly close to the little homework station he had sat up earlier to then promptly ignore â an open textbook, half-written essay, quill and unscrewed inkpot. The look in your eyes was one you had picked up from Remus in your early days together, full of mischief and tomfoolery.Â
âDonât you even dareââ Sirius managed to get out as he sat up in his seat and pointed a chiding finger at you, but the damage was done.
With what almost sounded like cat laughter â something most unknowing students would brush off because why would a cat laugh but Sirius knew all too well must be your joy at his expense â you knocked over his inkpot. The pot was almost full and the ink fell right on top of his essay and textbook. He let out a half-screech as he moved forward to correct the damage, but you walked straight into the pool of ink, ensuring you were spreading it further around his essay and the feather of his quill.Â
Regulus let out an unrestrained bark of laughter as Sirius sank to the floor in front of you, blabbering anger, while Remus simply snorted as he shook his head, choosing not to get involved yet.
âYou furry bastard!â Sirius called out as he picked up his parchment, trying to shake some of the excess ink off, only worsening its condition. âYou absolute menace.â
Some of the ink he shook off got on your fur, adding to what was already coating your paws from dragging it around. You solved this in the only manner that made sense in cat-world â by launching yourself at Sirius, effectively doubling his screeches within the second.
âOi! Oi!â Sirius kept calling as you hopped onto his chest, burying your claws into him so he couldnât simply shake you off, ink smearing all over Siriusâ previously white shirt. The assault of a lifetime, if you asked him. âAzkaban! Azkaban for all of you!â he called when he saw Regulus doubling over with laughter on the opposite end of the sofa.
âPads! Whatâs going on, mate?â Jamesâ voice called as he came half-running over after spotting the commotion the second he entered the common room.Â
Sirius opened his mouth to reply, but upon James spotting the feline devil currently attempting to smear more of the ink across his being, he interrupted with a coo.Â
âOh, hi there little Whiskers!â James greeted, bending down to pick you up by the neck. In that James-Potter-way he simply peeled you off of Sirius and held you out before him, just far enough that the ink wouldnât get on him. âWhatâs got you in such a tizzy, huh?â he asked, poking at you with his free hand which earned him a petulant hiss.
âThe bloody puma destroyed my essay and leaped at me,â Sirius huffed as he clambered back up, ignoring how he sounded like a first year telling on a classmate to McGonagall.
âI believe she is seeking revenge from that little stunt you two pulled earlier,â Remus drawled from his seat, sharing a look with Regulus who rolled his eyes. They knew.
âWhich is fully within her right, I must add,â Regulus said, ever the devoted boyfriend. Bloody lucky you. âAnd sheâs not a puma, you wanker, youâre just scared of cats.â
âSlander! âM not!â Sirius defended himself, but James ignored him, turning his attention to the cat wriggling in his grip.
âDid we upset you, little kitten?â James asked so friendly you almost wouldnât catch the teasing in his tone. âSo sorry. Next time weâll hex your tie a different colour. Robe too, yeah?â
Upon receiving another hiss from you and a lunge of your paw, James outright giggled and petted the top of your head carefully, neutralising you if for but a moment.
âHow come sheâs forgiving you right away? I have had my property destroyed and was lightly maimed in her quest for revenge!â Sirius shook his head in disapproval, attempting to stare you down. It wasn't turning out to be fruitful.
âSirius, I have a question for you.â Regulus didnât continue until Sirius reluctantly met his gaze. âDid you know â and be honest with me now â that youâre a wizard?â
Before Sirius could give him a snarky response, Regulus had waved his wand casually over the ink pools on the table and stains on his clothes, cleaning both up effectively as if nothing had happened. Then he gave Sirius a smug smile that made him want to turn into Padfoot and lunge at him â which probably wasnât a good idea given there were other people in the room.
âImbĂ©cile grossier,â Sirius muttered under his breath as he kicked a leg out at Regulus, intended more for effect than harm.
He received a âconnard stupideâ in return as Regulus dodged any further assault by getting up and walking over to James, who was now fully petting the rabid killer, whispering something about âplease forgive me, it was just too funny not toâ. Traitor.Â
âHey there, amour,â Regulus said as he picked you up out of Jamesâ arms. âAre you regretting marrying into the family?â
You made a huffing sound, climbing out of his arms to settle along his shoulders, over his neck, were you could cuddle against him while still scowling at Sirius.
âYou and me both, sister,â Remus mumbled half-heartedly. Sirius gasped at him with every theatrical bone in his body, earning him an eye roll and â at last â for Remus to abandon the paper to give him a quick smooch.
âI didnât realise sister-in-laws were allowed to be as sibling-y as an actual sister,â James mused as he folded his arms to take in the scene before him.Â
âSheâs not,â Sirius argued, extracting another eye roll from Remus who patted his thigh placatingly. âCats are just evil.â
âYou could always confront her as Pads, you know, level the playing field,â James suggested.
âAbsolutely not.â Regulus turned around so his body was shielding the cat on his shoulders from the three boys. âNot that I doubt she would win against your clumsy self any day, but letâs not even go there.â
Sirius and James barked a laugh that was disturbingly similar while Remus shook his head. âDonât worry Reg, the less time I can spend around kittens, the better,â Sirius said briskly, feeling emboldened by Jamesâ presence.Â
You poked your head around Regulusâ neck at that, so that the two of you could share a look. Itâs always peculiar for Sirius to see how much understanding seems to pass between you two, especially when in different forms altogether. It's not something he expected for his baby brother and he feels his heart warm at the display â which he promptly pushes down to focus on the war currently playing out in Gryffindor.
As if you two reached an agreement through just that look, you butted your head against Regulusâ cheek while he nodded. Carefully, he manoeuvred you into his arms and plopped you down on the armrest of Remusâ chair, and disappeared from sight to a secluded corner of the common room.
âWhat in Merlinâs name just happened?â Sirius mused out loud, exchanging bemused glances with James who plopped down beside him.
âOh, Iâm sure it was nothing good.â Remus smiled through his words as he freed one of his hands to scratch under your chin, causing you to purr and brush your feline body closer to his arm. Sirius would be remiss if he didnât think the sight of pure love between you two wasnât adorable, but to hells if he would admit it before you two reached a truce.Â
Your purring was interrupted as you let out a soft prrt! for seemingly no apparent reason, and reached up to give Remusâ cheek a soft cat kiss â that made the boyâs face crinkle into a smile â before jumping down onto the floor. There, Sirius saw the reason for your joy and felt his heart drop in his chest.
âOh, hi, Shadow,â Remus greeted the black cat that made a beeline for you on the floor, brushing his body against yours with soft purrs. âCome to join in on your brotherâs torment?â
âAbsolutely notââ Sirius started, but before he could get up and out of his seat, both cats had jumped up onto his legs and made their way to his lap. âWhat are you guys doing? Get off?!â
James was giggling once more beside him and Sirius had half a mind to throw the cats at him and run away. Though, he was beginning to doubt whether he would be able to as he saw the determination in Regulusâ eyes.
âI believe theyâre making you eat your words, love.â The smile in Remusâ voice was so evident that had he not been as handsome as he was, Sirius would have smacked him.
His arms were frozen at his sides, hands hovering in the air, unsure of where to go as he watched the two cats settle down in his lap in horror. Your bodies were horizontal with his and flush against each otherâs, becoming liquid in the cuddle puddle you were currently creating.
Sirius tried hissing at you to no avail as Regulus only slapped him with his paw in response. He tried shifting slightly to push you off, but you buried your claws through the fabric of his trousers â Sirius would give Remus a run for his money as the scarred one of the group after you were finished with him. He tried looking to James and Remus for help, but neither boy were willing as they took far too much enjoyment in the show. Remus at least pretended not to as he âreadâ, but James was fully angled towards him to see the events unfold, shoulders shaking with mirth.Â
A sigh escaped Sirius as he accepted his fate. âI hate you lot,â he said decisively. âEach and every one of you.â
Regulus made a noise that sounded like it was in disagreement with his statement while Remus just hummed. James nodded his head as if to say âfairâ.
You, however, picked your head up from where it was resting over Regulusâ and just stared at Sirius. Usually he felt like he could read you quite well in feline form, which he assumed was due to some skills of Padfootâs transferring over, but right now you were impossible to understand. You held his gaze head on, almost as if you were studying him, but your breaths were coming so slowly you had to be calm, right? Though this forced proximity was clearly a form of punishment, you were growing comfortable. Was he forgiven?
His train of thought was interrupted as the staring competition you had for a few seconds was interrupted â by you blinking. Slowly. Keeping your gaze on him but fully closing your eyes intermittently.
A slow grin spread across Siriusâ face.
He didnât know a lot about cats and he principally disliked them. But he did know what that meant.
âYeah, yeah, princess,â he mumbled as his cheeks almost grew a bit red. âYou too.â
#regulus black#sirius black#remus lupin#james potter#regulus black x reader#regulus black x you#regulus black x y/n#regulus x reader#regulus x you#regulus x y/n#regulus black reader insert#regulus black self insert#regulus black x fem!reader#platonic!sirius black x reader#platonic!sirius x reader#platonic!remus lupin x reader#platonic!remus x reader#sibling!remus x reader#sibling!sirius x reader#marauders#marauders era#marauders era fic#marauders era reader insert#marauders era self insert#marauders x reader#marauders x you#marauders x y/n#the slytherin skittles#slytherin skittles#slytherin skittles x reader
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I'm just confused and i don't know who to tellđ Isn't there a deadline to return seunghan because his status is now out? because I think the longer it takes, the weirder it will look.... if his status is still on hiatus that's normal but if his status has been out wouldn't it be better if it was announced quickly? do you understand what I'm trying to say..... đ like if they return seunghan quickly, they can use the excuse that yesterday's decision was not right and so on but the longer it is delayed, wouldn't the general public see it as weird if the time span from him leaving until he was returned is too long? Maybe you can change my mindset
I'm not really gonna pull cards here but I will give you some references to other things I've said regarding this after I answer this for you using just that knowledge and some critical thinking I've done on the issue in my spare time.
Would it be better if his coming back were announced quickly?
As much as I want that- no. Absolutely not. The OT6 are on edge. They are harrassing everyone under the sun bc THEY KNOW he has a chance of returning.
What is SM's responsibility?
To manage their artists and make money. Manage includes protect, and if they announce that he is back and cannot protect him AGAIN- they will face an even bigger public backlash and the artist may face irreparable trauma and suffering.
Regardless of how much we would like things to be solved quickly- things are moving and being put in place to make it possible for Swunghan to be protected regardless of the backlash. If they make a choice willy nilly and announce it willy nilly with no preparation in place just like they did when they brought him back and just like they did when they took him out after 2 days- Seunghan WILL suffer.
So whenever yall are thinking that this is taking too long, that they are stalling, know that SM energetically is not stalling anymore. They are preparing and monitoring. The more we as OT7 ensure that there is a welcoming bregade in place for his arrival, the faster we can expect good news. But it will not be in the blink of an eye. There needs to be a firm grounded barrier to protect him legally and within the fandom. That. Takes. Time.
I have expressed that while his RETURN may be abrupt, they very well may not even announce it at all before he just shows up. They are simply planning. Please have faith.
Here are some readings and asks to reference:
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ALSO, if yall have not already- please go read my very first Riize reading. I cover a lot there, and I recently revisited it, and it's crazzzyyyyyy. I didn't remember half the stuff I said, but rereading it- it is lining up very clearly. Read here: đ§Ą
#astrology#kpop#tarot#riize is 7#riize is seven#smsupportsbullying#riize#seunghan#anton#eunseok#sungchan#shotaro#sohee#wonbin#bring back seunghan
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Prompt: Asleep //
A weight lands on Price's shoulder with a faint thud. He doesn't have to turn to look, but he does â it's Gaz, asleep, dozing off against him.
He considers what to do for a moment. The plane around them is loud, which speaks volumes to Gaz's exhaustion. Normally he would be kept awake by the noise alone. Bit of a light sleeper, his Sergeant, Price has found. Gaz's headset has shifted out of place as his face digs into Price's shoulder, and it looks uncomfortable enough that Price takes action.
He gently puts an arm around Gaz's middle and shifts him upright, so that he's not quite slumped over Price, just leaning against him. With his other hand he readjusts Gaz's headset, and now it's perhaps going to leave a little indent in Gaz's skin but it looks more comfortable. Gaz will be absolutely mortified when he wakes and Price is kind of looking forward to that. He can almost imagine it â the adorable dreamy blinking giving way to mortification, wide eyes and a flush on his skin. A smile tugs on his lips.
He looks up and finds Ghost's eyes on him. Price resists the urge to balk and blush, instead meeting his stare head on.
"Everything alright with Garrick?" Ghost asks.
"Just some beauty sleep."
"Looks cozy." Ghost's eyes flick between the two of them, taking in their proximity.
"Need to look after my best, don't I?" Price replies cheekily.
"That you do."
"Don't tell Soap."
Ghost simply takes out his phone and takes a picture. "No promises."
The rest of the trip back goes slowly. Ghost stares into nothingness, eyes vacant and flicking at Gaz's sleeping form every now and then without much curiosity. Price tries to keep tally of everything he has to do once they get back to base. He can already see the hundreds of unopened emails waiting for him. He wishes he had the liberties of a dead man to just not read them but not all of them can be Ghost.
Gaz has impeccable timing â 15 minutes before landing he suddenly jolts awake, nearly clipping Price in the chin with his headset.
"Easy there," Price squeezes his side.
It's like he imagined. Gaz blinks blearily for a moment, wiping the corner of his mouth unconsciously and then he freezes.
"Shit."
"Say again, Gaz?"
"I mean," Gaz clears his throat and sits upright. "Sorry, Boss. Seems like I... How long was I out?"
"Fell asleep the moment we were airborne," Price says, "we're nearing base now."
Gaz blinks at him. "That's two hours."
"Or so."
"I'm so sorry."
"You looked cozy. Didn't want to disturb you."
Gaz shifts in his hold a little. Price doesn't let go. "Thank you, then. Sir."
"Sleeping beauty has joined us," Ghost chuckles. "I have photographic evidence."
"Fuck." Gaz buries his head in his hands. "Soap will be so insufferable for this. He's gonna kill me."
"That he is," Price squeezes his side one last time and then wiggles his arm free. "Don't let him kill you too long, I need you tomorrow morning."
"Yes, sir," Gaz says miserably.
#pricegaz#gazprice#price x gaz#kyle gaz garrick#captain john price#cod#call of duty#narcissosbythepool#and now we're up to date on all platforms ayeee
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Out of topic but who the fuck is Jimmy and what he have done?? (I just know he's probably a horrible person and is hated by half of the fandom)
Genuinely horrible disgusting guy. Okay so explaining all of this essentially involves every Mouthwashing spoiler conceivable but essentially the plot of mouth washing is centered around Jimmy and his horrible, selfish decisions. And I'm going to need you to think critically about his character and read my whole post and not just highlight a couple of words and immediately disengage. The cast consists of a 5-person team of people making a cargo delivery (Curly the Captain, Anya the Nurse, Jimmy the Co-Pilot, Swansea the Mechanic, and Daisuke the Intern) through space on a trip that was supposed to last about a year and a half or so. Jimmy sexually assaulted Anya (foreshadowed first with Anya mentioning to Curly in a flashback saying something along the lines of "Did you know that the nurse's office is locked but the bedrooms aren't?") leaving her pregnant. This is the catalyst for every single event in the game through a bunch of chain reactions, but essentially, Anya ended up telling Curly, who said he'd do anything to protect her but ended up trying to just keep things "neutral" after talking to Jimmy, who said he'd "fix things" because he's mainly spiraling about what would happen to HIM once they landed, and started ranting to Curly about a story the news would make about nobody on the ship surviving the trip in some tragic accident. Curly doesn't think Jimmy's serious and he's generally trying to figure out a way to defuse the situation and he's willing to sweep a lot of what's going on under the rug for his friend. Jimmy ends up crashing the ship on purpose, resulting in the fire that permanently disfigured and disabled curly and left him unable to speak (Jimmy framed him for crashing the ship, and Curly, not being able to speak, not being able to convince anyone otherwise. But people don't hate Curly at all on the ship, since to them, he's a good captain. Jimmy's not too pleased about this whole situation at all but he keeps talking about how he's responsible for everything because he's the captain now (and he's being haunted by hallucinations of crying babies and horses) and he's deliberately avoiding everything that has to do with thinking critically about what he did to Anya and is instead focusing on what he did to Curly especially. The crew slowly starves and slowly goes insane, there's pretty much nothing to eat anymore but the cargo they have, mouthwash, something specific happens but I don't entirely remember what (I think it was Anya trying to OD on purpose to abort her pregnancy and ending up dying) but it resulted in Daisuke getting injured to the point of no recovery and getting PUT DOWN by Swansea, Jimmy shooting Swansea in the head, and one of the last scenes in the game involves Jimmy cutting off Curly's leg and feeding it to him. My description here is genuinely not doing the game justice, there's a lot more to it and a lot more nuances that I missed here ("I hope this hurts", the lack of autonomy with the painkillers, the surprise birthday party, Jimmy's obsession with Curly that's a bit more subtle, the fact that Anya's character is purposefully muted due to Jimmy's perspective of her in the game, there's so much more) but yeah holy moly this game is insane. (It's less of a game and more of an interactive movie) Jimmy is such an insanely interesting character, he's like a train wreck given human form. Absolutely understandable that people hate him. But by god it is sssssSSSSSSO repetitive to hear nothing BUT how much people hate him.
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers#jimmy mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#saisuke mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#punk speaks#asks
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Was going through my screenshots of the Sabzeruz festival again⊠and out of context, this line is still so on the nose and intentionally written to be absolutely misleading LOL Reality: Kaveh insisting that his relationship with Mehrak is more than just creator and machine/automaton Everyone and their mothers eavesdropping the dirty deets: You mean the Light of Kshahrewar and the Scribe are not just roommates?????
I do have to point out that while the EN subtitles were translated this way to be ambigious for hilarity/fanservice, Kaveh didn't actually use "we" here in the original CN lines. Instead, he said "æććź / wÇ hĂ© tÄ" which, translated literally, is "Me and it (Mehrak)". So, there was little doubt that Kaveh was talking about his relationship with someone/something else (Mehrak), not his relationship with Alhaitham. EDITED (10/11/2024) because I'd misheard, Kaveh didn't use "bokura (ćă)" at all ^^; Uchida speaks so fast as Kaveh sometimes and my listening JP comprehension is fail loool. My apologies for the mistake! In the JP dub, Kaveh uses "we / bokura (ćă)", which has the same ambiguity as in the EN subs. But what I personally enjoy about the JP dub is how much more casual Kaveh's tone is whenever he's speaking with Alhaitham privately (hence why he used bokura here instead of the polite/formal boku-tachi (ćăăĄ) that he uses in the presence of other people). I managed to find a video with the JP dialogue text and what Kaveh actually said was "ćăšăăźćăźéąäżăŻć·ăăăăźăăăȘă âŠ"
Which I believe reads similarly to CN and roughly means "My relationship with it/that person (Mehrak) isn't cold...". Please don't quote me on this though and do take with a grain of salt lol, because I'm not a translator and I'm not fluent enough in JP (I just understand very, very basic stuff). That said, my initial point still stands, in that Kaveh's tone when he speaks privately with Alhaitham is still pretty casual, at times a bit rougher (even if the words he use remains polite), compared to how much more formal and "proper" he is with other people. Same goes with Alhaitham's tone tooâthere's always more of a teasing lilt, a slight smugness to his voice when he speaks to Kaveh, and he doesn't sound as stoic or impassive as he usually does. Which is what I personally enjoy about JP dub. It's a small detail but I find the difference in tone a nice way to show their closeness, and how Kaveh doesn't feel the need to put up any fronts or moderate his tone as much when he's alone with Alhaitham. He can simply be himself and speak his mind freely because they already know each other inside out.
#genshin impact#kaveh#alhaitham#kavetham#chromatic ode of candies and roses#tldr keysmashing with feels#just cross-posting my musings from twatter to archive them here#don't mind my late night ramblings lol#q
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Illario is extremely sus.
THE CAMEOS!!!!! IN MINRATHOUS!!!!!
I always knew from the lore that the First Warden was a little bitch, but actually meeting him is a next level experience. What a fucking asshole.
Taash is such a fun character. They're so delightfully blunt, but also sweet in their own way. The gamer bros are so mad about Taash and those whiny little pieces of detritus can go fuck themselves.
Every now and again, there's a wild Matt Mercer, and I'm delighted. He Has The Range.
I'm genuinely enjoying the puzzles, which is a wild concept for a BioWare game. Finally, some good fucking level design.
They keep dropping deep lore bombshells that have put years of me going full Pepe Silvia over this world to shame, and I'm so excited about it.
Ghilan'nain is a straight up nasty bitch in every sense of the term, which I already kinda knew from Tevinter Nights, but fighting her makes me think Rook should invent bleach just to deal with her mess.
Emmrich's personal arc villain has energy somewhere between Yzma and Doc Ock, and I am very entertained.
Emmrich may not wear black, but he's the gothest motherfucker in this entire series and I couldn't be happier.
Everyone is so concerned about Lucanis' pantry living and it's very sweet but also hilarious.
I love watching Lucanis develop friendships with everyone else. That's right; open your heart, sad bird man.
Love how Taash is immediately Lucanis' #1 fan for assassin reasons and he's so confused by it.
Unlocking the pieces of Solas' backstory is so fun because you get worldview-altering lore drops and then the Veilguard has a family meeting every time to discuss the new info and read Solas for filth.
Absolutely worth reading any codex entries related to the Lighthouse or companions, because you get fun insight into the daily domestic living of the Veilguard in the Lighthouse on top of whatever lines you already get about it when they're talking to each other at home. They really are like a household.
I enjoyed the Descent DLC of Inquisition, so Harding's personal arc is an absolute joy.
All the gamer bros complaining that the game isn't dark, mature fantasy like the rest of the series are honestly probably just mad at the lack of Desire demons, because there is absolutely no shortage of dark shit in this game, y'all. I mean, for fuck's sake, the major factions in the story include 1) a struggling abolitionist resistance movement that routinely tangles with people engaging in horrifying ritual murder, 2) a guild of assassins who have way too much political power but have also been forced to become a resistance group because their country has no army, 3) the supposedly apolitical army of people who poison themselves to fight evil until they inevitably die horrible deaths, and 4) straight up necromancers. And that's just the factions! That's not even getting into the plot!
Neve and Lucanis continue to have stellar chemistry.
Bellara needs so many hugs and it frustrates me that I can't provide them.
Experienced a very funny glitch during Harding's second personal quest in Act 2 where something seemed off about my Rook and then I realized that her left boob was missing. Her left boob was Sir Not Appearing in This Film. Straight up had decided not to participate in this conversation. I lost my shit. I may share a screenshot of it at some point.
Taash admitting in an argument with Emmrich that they don't like him because they think necromancy is freaky allowed me the opportunity to be like "Do you think that about me? đ„ș" as a Mourn Watcher, which I'm so glad of, because a lot of the companions are uncomfortable with Emmrich's necromancy and I have been dying to get the chance to call them out for not considering how that would make Rook feel.
Emmrich made a move on my Rook last night and *fans self* hoo lord. Lucanis better show up with some extremely strong game very soon, otherwise he will have thoroughly lost to Thedas' very own Hammer Horror Man.
(Davrin fell out of the running pretty quick, since his personality ended up not fitting well as a romance for my Rook. Ironically, when they first announced the companions, I was almost certain I would end up being a Davrin girlie. Alas, he is not the type I'd thought he'd be. He also failed to show up in a waistcoat, unlike the other two, and we all know how weak I am for a good waistcoat.)
I love that Act 2 is just like The Gang Goes To Therapy. Sometimes this involves killing things. Or people. But not always!
Some fun DATV things I'm experiencing:
Playing as female Rook makes the first few quests until you get Lucanis very Girls Night, which I really started to notice after a friend pointed it out and she is so right.
Neve is bestie.
Lucanis' intro cinematic made me feel so attacked. That shit was so my brand lol.
Lucanis and Neve's banter is hilarious and if I don't romance Lucanis I may end up shipping him with Neve.
Did Bellara's first personal quest and almost cried. Hit me a little close to home.
Neve's hangout quest was delightful. I want to chat and snack and walk around with her all day.
Neve and Bellara's developing friendship is so fun. I want to see a scene where Lucanis gets involved in their cooking adventures.
Shopping and getting coffee with Lucanis was like Oh No He's Thoughtful And Charming And I'm Weak.
Chose Lucanis over Neve in that one decision that made me want to scream and now she's hardened and I'm so sorry bestie I was thinking of the defenseless people and I will never be okay again.
Varric playing mentor to Rook got me right where it hurts. He's there for when you need an adultier adult to tell you that you're doing okay and that he's proud if you. I cry forever.
Assan and Manfred are my SONS and I LOVE THEM and I make the most ridiculous noises when they are on screen. THEY ARE SUCH GOOD BOYS.
The quest to acquire Emmrich is fucking delightful if you're a nice Mourn Watcher and you bring Bellara along. Just three huge nerds enjoying each other's company while doing dangerous shit.
Davrin and Emmrich's banter is like two dad's comparing notes.
As a Watcher, Myrna kinda feels like my mentor-mom, which is funny.
More thoughts to come. Just wanted to scribble down a few things so far for the people to let y'all know I'm having a fucking blast.
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Jaiden: Cucurucho, you have a lot of power, right?
Cucurucho: ...I don't know. Maybe.
Roier: Ah... Yes, you know, don't act like a dumbass, you have it. You have it, man. Eh?
Jaiden: Is there a way for us to protect all the Eggs? Do you know? I don't want anything to happen to the Eggs that happened to Bobby.
Cucurucho: Ha ha ha
Roier: WHAT? [Smacks Cucurucho]
Jaiden: [Bops him] Headpats.
Cucurucho: Maybe.
Jaiden: [Continues to bop him] Headpats. C'mon, I can get it out of you! Headpats! Chin scratches! Belly rubs!
Roier: [Joins Jaiden in bopping Cucurucho, chuckling and laughs]
Jaiden: Yeah? He's comin' around!
[Jaiden and Roier both laugh]
#Jaiden Animations#Roier#Cucurucho#QSMP#Jaiden#Animations Family#There is. So much I could say about these three#and so much I could say about their relationship / interactions with Cucurucho and Osito Bimbo#Cards on the table... I really would have loved it if Cucurucho / Osito genuinely cared about Jaiden#I mean I know they DID care about her to some extent that much is clear#But they / the Federation were also ABSOLUTELY using her. I'm not arguing that they weren't#But how could anyone not be charmed by Jaiden? The boba the tea parties the head patsâ#The empathy and kindness and everything that made q!Jaiden who she wasâ#Cucurucho and Osito were tools of the Federation but I do want to believe they cared about Jaiden. Albeit in their own fricked up way#I dunno. I know this sounds like massive copium probably but I watched all of her and Roier's streams interacting with them#and I personally think that conflict and duality makes for a more interesting story#But that's just me and my own personal biases. I dunno how to properly put it into words but I am cradling them all close to my heart#I loved Cucurucho / Osito and I thought they were interesting and I'm SO SAD we'll never know what Jaiden did for them in the past#Anyways. For anyone who's read this far into my rantâ you know how Cucurucho saved the Eggs and Jaiden said she died in Purgatory?#I like imagining that she survived the bomb and wound up finding the Eggs in the aftermath#and she helped them survive until Cucurucho found them#I imagine that Jaiden was the reason they were able to escape from the Island / The Watcher / ElQuackity#She stayed behind to slow down their pursuers. And Cucurucho rescuing all the Eggs fulfilled his agreement with Jaidenâ#A promise to protect the Eggs#Like I said a lot of this is copium but that's what I like imagining#TLDR: Cucurucho / Osito did care about her in a weird way but that doesn't mean they weren't manipulating her#May 31 2023#Idk man I got a lot of emotions about q!Jaiden#Roier too but I feel like I've done way more analysis posts about him and Cucurucho. Jaiden needs time in the spotlight#Anyways there's my monthly tag rant
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Wait wait wait, I saw in your tags that's Time and Time Again is ending soon? But I've only just found it! (through the animation you did, it and your comic are so well done)
Ah, yeah.
So by "soon" I really mean "sooner than I think I would like" and it feels much sooner to me as the writer than I think it will to you all as the readers.
But, Time and Time Again is pretty much exactly 2/3 of the way through right now. Webtoon gave me the end date before I even finished my first season, and I've been trying to fit in all the things I wanted to get into the story before it ends...
It's why my hiatus has been taking so long, I'm trying to write to get as many moments and as much development as I possibly can, with really limited time! And... also admittedly to prolong how much longer it's sort of "around" in my life.
Because I know once it is over, I'll move on to the next comic! and 3 years just doesn't feel long enough to have Adam and Steve in my life haha
But, yeah. it's getting "close" in a way that it's starting to make me sad. like this time next year it'll probably be over.
It's okay of course, it's the nature of stories that they will end. I'm working really hard to make it satisfying despite Everything, and I'm really proud of everything I've done so far.
And my next comic will be even better for what I've learned here!
So, sorry to everyone, but I promise I'm gonna make it worth it.
#also my next comic I think I'm not going to do with webtoon#it is a massive massive risk#and I will seriously need people's like. actual monetary support to do it#which feels bad because I like making comics for free#ITS GONNA BE FREE TO READ#I just mean like having pressure on my audience to pay me to keep my comics going#but it's sorta just the unfortunate reality of things that like#I'm working for webtoon because they pay me#they don't do anything else for me really#if anything they sorta bring me down HAHAHAH#not. that's a whole other rant but. it's fine it's a work relationship. with a corporation.#BUT YEAH#I've really enjoyed getting to make a comic and put it out there for free and not need to beg people to support me to create it#that's been an absolute dream#but to continue that dream to deliver stories to people on THEIR terms#where the comic doesnt get ended too early#and I dont have to put my foot down to include trans characters#and all that shit#I think if it works. it will be worth it#but FUCK it is a huge risk HAHAHAHAHAHAH#pre-emptively asking you guys to be prepared for that future hahahahahahaha#asks#key-the-kitty
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