#YOU KNOW I'M GONNA GETYA

[azz4me]

pfft- hahahahaha! Bc that was tots unexpected xD!

Thank you for the tips queenie, I got the sickness from my friend being sick though, not my doing 😶‍🌫 I'm on a diet

Pffft you're gonna have test in two weeks? I'm in the midst of my midterms!! UPAR SE NOW I'M SICK OOF but lucky for me my iq gets me through life flex

Ya no I don't find my spoilers from twt-

I'll keep where I found the image to myself,,, but you know what yes I shall post it so the world gets to see

Good luck for your exams too lol!!don't get homeless or else the kingdom would be abandoned!

FUCK YEAH KINKTOBER IS COMING, SPOOKY MONTH, MY BIRTHDAY MONTH IS COMING 💞

Need goo smuts as gifts.

Psssht you take care too queenie<3

Give me goo titty art when you get time though rahhh I'll bite you

~🍞

Hello toast!

Are you still sick? Being on a diet is good thing but make sure to follow a healthy one and you should spoil yourself with food sometimes aswell ;P

Not a test. Exam. Exam that will determine my grades. Ans grades that will determine my school fees. Higher the grade lower the school fees. Lucky for you to have Iq. I don't have neither iq nor luck. Last time i did my MCQs fully depending on my luck, I got 3 out of 11 correct :'D

I SAW IT KHWEBFIAUEHGUI HE LOOKS SO GOOD!!! I HAVE BEEN HAVING SEVERE HAIRLOSS DUE TO STRESS OF EXAM BUT THAT COULDN'T STOP ME FROM READING THE CHAPTER!!!! HE LOOKS SO GOOD!!HIUGBFQAVFQIGBFI!!!!

i will try my best not to get homeless or i hope so :D

OHHH!!?!!? YOUR BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP!? ON KINKTOBER!? HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TOAST!!!! :D!!!!!!!

ok so i dont have goo tits but i have something i drew in class beacuse the government

blushy goo

somewhat annoyed goo

BONUS: My friend added the swirly thingis and moustache, ...baka aswell.

[fakeloveaskblog]

Hey, hey hey hey! You listen to me now, you are not hard to love Remy! Also your boyfriend does not get to decide for you whether you want to or should do this exercise. These are your exercises, not his. They are inherently yours and no one gets to take them from you and no one gets to decide anything concerning them except you, ok? Nod with me? *firm nod* OK.

Listen to Dr. Picani and go through with the exercise I gave you when you're certain you're on your own. Make sure you're alone and someplace you feel safe. (Trust me, it'll make you feel better.) Go through the exercises Picani gives you this way too if you can. (Remember that he is the mental health professional here and thus he knows better than your boyfriend in this respect, ok?)

Do remember to give yourself more credit too, practice viewing yourself the way you would someone you value a lot. If there's no place where you can reliably make sure you'll remain alone, don't say it out loud, but do think nice things to yourself about yourself! (Now, go to the bathroom and lock the door if you'd feel safer doing so—and if you don't want to don't whisper it out loud, but think with purpose, think with me and I'll hear it: ‘I'm awesome!’ five times at the least.)

"Hey. Hey. Wake up. You're gonna oversleep again"

Remy's boyfriend held onto their shoulders, shaking them awake. All they felt was pain. They could already tell it was a bad day. They must have been tense all night from nightmares again.

Their eyesight was blurry as they looked up at him. Everything was far away. Even his kiss against their cheek and his quick goodbye. They heard the door to the apartement close before they managed to get a single word out.

"It's not like I don't have alone time girl" Remy said, turning to look at you "He's got work. I can't work. I'm alone most of the time. And like gurl I getya but like I feel safe with my boyfriend. He's super safe! There's no way he wouldn-"

They stopped midsentence. They took a few deep breathes while shutting their eyes tight. The pain was like a burning ache. Like they'd been beaten to the ground. Their hand fumbled around on the bedside table to take an ibuprofen. They could easily swallow the pill without water at this point. Still they felt guilty every time they took any sort of medicine.

"But like...I guess I'll like listen to you just cause’ you're nice" They rolled their eyes "I......I guess...I'm...awesome"

After the ibuprofen had started to set in they left the bed. They had to make up for being a bother somehow. So they got to work putting all of the laundry back into the closet where they belonged. They sat on the floor while doing it since the pain was still pressing in on them. 

"...I...I'm awesome" They mumbled once they were done.

The kitchen felt like it was an eternity away. Remy stood up on shaky legs and nearly collapsed from pain. The cane stood by the bed. They could take it. But it felt so silly to use it in their own home. Their boyfriend always told them could walk so they didn’t Really need it anyway.

Instead they struggled over to the kithcen. They were far too nauseous to eat so they instead dragged over a chair to the sink to be able to sit while doing the dishes.

"I'm...awesome" They repeated.

A notification from their phone rang out. They quickly took it. It could be their boyfriend worrying about the apartement somehow burning up while he was away...again.

Instead it was Remus. Remy smiled. They'd taken the same bus to and from therapy enough times to exhange numbers. He'd sent them a few memes about starbucks followed by a message about how the memes had reminded him of them.

they sent a few keysmashes and memes back. Talking to other peple aside from their boyfriend always made them feel much more like a functional human being....it made them feel like they actually existed.

"I'm awesome"

Remy sunk down into the couch and let out a sigh. They'd grabbed onto some halloween candy his boyfriend had lying around. It got to be their breakfast and lunch. Picani would tell them nurturing their body was enough to have done a good job.

“I’m awesome” They said for the fifth and final time. “There! I did it girl. You happy?” You didn’t respond.

Picani would have said they were allowed to rest, especially on bad days. So they laid down to take a nap. They felt guilty as they feel asleep.

They woke back up to their boyfriend shaking them awake again. He had hunched down in front of the couch so they were face to face. He smiled at them.

“You’ve just been taking it easy all day huh?”

Remy rubebd their eyes “I guess”

“I wish I could do that too. Just chill 24/7″

“Mhm”

He sat down next to them and dragged them closer to him. They cuddled up to him and smiled as he moved his arms around them. It was such a bad day just being touched hurt, it felt like needles were being pressed into their skin. But they didn’t want to say that. They wanted his touch even if it hurt. At least they were awesome enough for him to keep around.

[fakeloveaskblog]

Ooh, ghost cookies! *takes one, remembers manners, proceeds to be too awkward to actually ask for it and so silently puts it back* I'm glad you're okay. Now do talk to us about your crushes Remus, gush!

"Oh please. Take as many cookies as you'd like. You best believe that if you don't leave here feeling full and satisfied it will feel like you've slapped me in my beautiful face with my beautifully manicured sword!" Rowan exclaimed while Remus nodded along.

"I'll shove the sword down your throat if you don't shove those cookies down" He half joked.

Rowan poked at his paper "Are you gonna talk about your crushes or are you just gonna draw them like a shy little loser"

"Don't touch my paper! I'll gnaw your toes off in your sleep!"

She continued poking the paper while smiling at him. He bit the air while making gnawing noises in return.

He looked down at the paper where he'd doodled some sideway looks of his crushes' heads. A small smile played on his lips as his cheeks went just a bit red.

"I just think it's nice how whenever I blurt out some over the top murder idea or anything like that Janus always adds onto an even more extra idea. And I know Remy dislikes horror movies and gore and animal biology, they've told me that a lot, but they're still willing to watch nature documentaries and old school horror films with me- as long as I pay for their starbucks heh"

"Ah yes. The good old extortion technique. Very familiar with that" Rowan nodded along.

"Yeah! But they! They just! I! Sometimes when it's just me and Remy I'll look over to them and catch them like glancing at me! And they just! Sometimes during those moments they just! They will smile or just look at me and- and I just know they only smile like that at very very few special people and it just makes me feel so!!! Like a bunch of maggots will burst out of my bones! The look in their eyes is just!!! It makes me wanna uhm ehm maybe uh throw a live heart at them or something! I can't explain it!"

"I get you dukey!! It's the special soft gay eyes!!"

"Exactly!!!"

"I swear a butch will give me a one of those looks and I am already ready to buy a cat with her!"

"But you're allergic to cats!"

"E X A C T L Y!"

Remus scribbled around with the pen, really just drawing random shapes to stim while continuing "And uh Janus he uh my intrusive thoughts still get really bad like all the time especially when I have panic attacks and stuff like that but he's always so calm and ready to help. Even before I told them I'm prone to freak out like some braindead goose! They don't even think my reasons for freaking out are stupid! Ever! He just- he's just ready to help me! Willingly!!! Like he cares about me or something!!! Like some dumb slut!!!"

"Aww. I think he seems like a nice slut"

The scribbling went over into him full on just stabbing the paper with the pencil, leaving sharp dots of black on the paper "And they're both so pretty!! I'm uh I'm afraid of cuddling with them but I- I do daydream about it. Sometimes it feels like my eyes will melt out of my skull when I look at Jannie. Because y'know. It's a joke about how they're hot okay. They're all soft and perfect to cuddle as well! And warm!!!"

Rowan nodded along even harder now "I getya! It's the same with me and tiddies! Nothing beats tiddy pillows! Except maybe thigh pillows depending on how cozy the bed is"

"Yeah!!! Tit pillow! Oh if only my brain wasn't made up of a bunch neurotic little rats constantly having a crisis, I could be having the best sleep ever. And uh Remy just looks so perfect all the time. Even when I've seen them all messy right after waking up they still look so gorgeous and glimmering and uh perfect. No matter what they're wearing. They're just- they're just like that???? I guess??? Maybe the sold their soul to the devil who knows"

"They definitely did. I can sense it"

He let out a long sigh "Would be nice if they didn't have a boyfriend. But oh well Virgil seems to be a good boyfriend so I can't take Remy from him"

"You can murder him" Rowan suggested immediately.

"I can't!!! He's a good one!!! though i have made up 13 murder plans for him so far. But I'm not going through with them!!! Because he's good!!!"

"WHat else are you supposed to do with a boyfriend if not kill them???? Or husbands for that matter???"

"Not all of us are lesbians RoRo!!"

"Not yet!"

She laughed at her own joke. Remus grimaced a bit. Not at the joke. He was just thinking.

Remus looked over to her. His voice went a bit quieter "Do...Do you think they find me pretty?" He had that look in his eyes so she knew exactly what he was Really talking about "They're both gay"

"Come on dukey. You know how many pre-e trans women I've found pretty. Jan and Remy are good eggs I'm sure they find you- well they probably think you're a bit of a gremlin- but a pretty one! We have the same face after all so they must think you're quite gorgeous"

"...I hope so.." He bonked his forehead against the table "It's just so frustrating. They're both so different from Os. Obviously since they're all different people and not like a hivemind. But I still expect them to act just like him! All the time! Whatever we're doing! Not- not that he was bad or whatever you think!!! Just that...Ugh you know!!! I just wish my brain would like calm the fuck down"

"Isn't that what the meds are there to do?" She asked with a half smile, just to annoy him.

"My brain is still a pack of nervous rats RoRo!! I just wanna not be nervous around my crushes. Or I mean be nervous in the normal gross lovey dovey way! Not the rat way!!!" He pouted "I wanna be with them even if I get anxious....Be with them....." His eyes went huge "RORO IT'S HALLOWEEN TODAY! IT'S THE FUCKING HALLOWEEN PARTY! HOLY SHIT WHAT'S THE TIME??? WE GOTTA GET READY!"

"We're going? I thought maybe you didn't wanna go right after having a psychotic episode. There's gonna be a lot of drunk and high people there y'know"

Remus had gotten up from his seat and was looking around the room like a stressed out chipmunk who had forgotten where it had put all of it's food.

"It's halloween!!!" He exclaimed "I'm not gonna let some brain rats ruin the bestest time of the year okay! I achieve my maximal amount of power on halloween!! I can do this! I can function! I will not die! And Jan and Remy will be there so I gotta be there too!"

Rowan clasped her hands together and stood up "Okay then. Lucky for the party goers since if I wasn't there the whole party would have been much more ugly. Literally" She poked his shoulder "Though you have to promise you will tell me if you start feeling panicky. Even just a little. I am not letting you have a panic attack at the gay bar you freaking onka stompa"

He sighed "I promise" He was vibrating from excitement "Now get the costumes!!"

"Only if you help me on with my corset!"

"Only if you help me on with my binder!!"