#Which. god. I don't even really care at the end of the day irt anxiety I care about the power it puts under me in my own life | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

abyssalpriest · 5 months ago

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Honestly Shaivism studies are absolutely on pause, religiously now all I give a shit about is Leviathanism lmfao

I know a lot of my active focus rn is... let's see. reworking internal strings and working w Lev in the uhhh deep unspoken connection between our energies, he's calculating things irt to it, it's basically being incubated in both our bodies With both our energies and both our opinions on programming. It's honestly basically like he's the womb and I'm the programming more so lmfao but that's a complicated symbol to decode

Either way, its incubating, it doesn't have a body or solid appearance or real anchor yet because it's still A Bun In The Oven but man. Man. I sure am putting my subconscious workings and thoughts into it probably actually a feedback loop and why it's so important to my energy rn to the point I want it on my, it literally Is on my (unconscious/subconscious) mind

#Part of me is anxious in thought of being a part of a religion where my partner at the time is elevated because. cult.#but in practice I am only anxious about how he elevates me. He's big on equal exchange and mirroring here and I'm like ahhh #don't look at me thanks. But also I'm not going to (and you're not asking me to) get on my knees and worship through elevating you #above me for any reason other than Workings..... But also.... Ahhhh creating a religion and being it's first (head priest) even if I allow #no one else to join is a little much lmfao #ramblings //#I say that but. It's an initiatory thing already and Lev's in charge of initiations so it's up to him if it spreads or not #Which. god. I don't even really care at the end of the day irt anxiety I care about the power it puts under me in my own life #Leviathanism //

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