#WHY can't you bootstrap yr way into equanimity. scowling petulantly about it | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

aeide-thea · 1 year ago

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ugh… saw a pic of [redacted] and got flooded with a sudden strongly-bad feeling which i'm supposed to be too Evolved for in, like, at least three different ways, such that i think it's actually too humiliating to lay out here in detail even if working thru it out loud would probably help me :/

#unfortunately being able to identify all the ways in which a feeling is stupid and Problematic to boot #(parasociality / wanting to have my gender cake and eat it too / misogyny tbh)#does not in fact instantly defang it #fucked up how that works (or rather doesn't)!!#WHY can't you bootstrap yr way into equanimity. scowling petulantly about it #like if i don't even WANT to look like a Pretty Girl (anymore / really / it's complicated)#what tf business have i got being disappointed when it seems like that's what someone else i don't even know might be into #god. idiotic. petty. unacceptable. but unfortunately le cœur‚ &c!#anyway. thx 2 u all 4 audiencing my pained indecipherable mutterings‚ lmao

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