#WHAT THEY CULDVE HAD

[milo-igidk]

have i mentioned lately that i fucking hate the council

[mctoebeansesbed]

blood-c rant !!!!!!!spoilers!!!!!!!!

tw! mention of s/a

last night i binged blood c and it wus kinda whatever which is sad bc i LUV saya and the whole vibe

the pacing was pretty bad, i feel like 12 episode series shuld use every episode to their advantage, especially with a kinda complicated story like blood c. i thought the ending wus weird, i culdnt tell what they were going for. it tried to be a vampire thing but a psychological horror idk. i didnt luv the ending, i feel like they culdve built up to it more, maybe saya couldve been more aware of how things didnt make sense, like why didnt she question anything about the elder bairns or where they came from

there are a few other things (that i cant think of rn lol)

lol theres a lot of things I complained about but there were a few things i really liked, the fight scenes and gore were super awesome and were the main reason I kept watching, i also thought saya wus cute, a little too dumb but i still liked her, i luv how her attitude changed when she fights and badass she is!! also the intro was a BANGER

blood c reminded me a lot of elfen lied, they both share similar vibes and the same things I like and dislike, the pacing and ending in both was weird, but they both had some pretty bloody fights... at least blood c wasnt full of incest, pedo stuff, and fanservice... except for that last scene where saya learns the truth and the teacher started groping her???? that wus weird >:( i hate to see stories with such cool ideas be wasted on not great writing

i'll prolly watch the movie bcus i wanna see how the story ends since the series ends on a cliff hanger

anyways that wus my opinion ! lemme know what you guys thought :))

[destinyc1020]

Yep i wish he expanded on why it was tense cuz i remember someone saying that JE kept his distance/was very quiet on set so it culdv just been just that? I can def see tom being protective and despite how much of a "sweetheart" the person says JE is i dnt see it 😅 n i wuld think he wuldv been with Kaia (or mayb olviia?) by then so then so its lik go to yr gf if yr mad that yr ex is with her love lmao

Welp i guess we might find out in 2 more yrs or never wat he meant lmao

Yea, I just wish he had elaborated a bit on that. I prefer it when people describe what actually took place (i.e. "he looked upset and sulked in a corner"), vs. just giving us their own interpretation of what took place (i.e. "there was tension"). Ykwim?

[grassintheclouds]

2025.3.5

had anxiety attack thru yesterday night untill i went to bank todays lunch

its such a shit show.. i cant even...its such a long story... the previous province governt guy too doesnt even know what he doing

last august, i was proved by country that my disable level is 2. i used to be lower level 3. and when a person is level 2 or higher they get additional money on welfare amount. they didnt acknowledge me that time and i also had no idea and now that im moving to new province they realised "shit we dint give her correct amount"

he did tell me that 2 weeks ago they gnna give me the additional i didnt recieve by total in august. then they sent me a post mail which they wrote what money ill be recieving in my bank today. they had sent it on february 19th but because of my movings and going back n forth my fams i was able to recieve it on march 1st. it doesnt rly matter when i had read it tho. not like i culdve prepared anthing about it

and in that post mail it said ill be receiving the last welfare from previous province. today. which is the corrected amount of march welfare, HOWEVER TOGETHER WITH THE FUCKING MISSING ADDITION WHICH WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GIVEN IN AUGUST. but instead its TODAY. now recieving today is a BIG FUCKING problem

because on friday this week, new province governt made an appointment for me go to them to reregister for welfare. but to register, a person shuldnt have more than 500bucks. AND I RECEIVED 3000BUCKS TODAY. not only they didnt give me the additional high level disabled amount at the right time, which id had used it much freely, but they are giving it now so i cant register new welfare until i used up whole amount!!! THIS FUCKING INDECENCY!!!!

I HAD ANXIETY ATTACK WHOLE NIGHT YESTERDAY TILL THIS MORNING UNTILL i could finally come up with the idea, i can spend away 2500bucks in a day, for very needed reasons.

i just

didnt want to delay the new register anymore its already been giving me so much anxiety for not clearly understanding how much money i actually have

so theres this estate company helped me out put me in this house. but they had been demanding to take the first 2 month rent(in mycase its feb n march) by phsycial hand over, like they were gnna visit to government with me when governt give me the first welfare. unfortunately my case ended up into unusual case since i received the closest welfare (to my rents) through bank because thats what government decided. normally first welfare is given by hand and all. my "first welfare" to the estates wasnt the welfare i shuldve recieved from the new province. thats hopefully gnna be in april if the appointment on friday goes without problem 🙄 (man isnt it the same in everywhere governt or private, easy to go in but so much fucking mind blowing dramas to get out)

i did inform them that i want to pay the 1080bucks rent s thru bank. for the deposit i should be paying 100bucks for 10months instead i want to pay all 1000 right away

they didnt reply whole day🤮

meanwhile i couldnt help my anxiety attack. eventho i did what i culd my heart rate was going faster and breathing became much difficult. i had to do something about my healh so after lunch i went and sent the money. and like 400bucks i wasnt gnna pay the previous house last two rents but now that i got this indecent incident i paid it off too. thats better for my anxiety anyway. the groupsharing dont deserve it but at the same time i dont like to feel like i owe them money

then i spent 200bucks on the way back in the groceries and detergent and train fee deposit.

this was wholly too complicated for me... it was a roller coaster... its so hard to figure these shit out alone with this broken head

i wanna get a rest but no i dont have that one item with me which the new governt wants so i need to go back to fams tomorrow😭😭😭😭 at least i will take back the rest of iso panels too and dont have to spend this weekend there🤮🤮🤮🤮

holy fuck when this chaos ends...

i recorded the sex sound and called police but they didnt care and said: tell that to landlord. its so weird that thebpolice when i told them they are having loud sex, they frozed and appaled. and when it was their turn to say out loud the word sex, they couldnt, and they didnt , so they went around that word to describe it. its just fucking sex wtf. they are the police they couldve used mating or courting and not even those. hah

[zendyval]

I think the main issue I have with Sydney is she seems to always victimize herself. -She complained about financial issues bt was in a million dollar house and just purchased a more expensive one. Its clear she was living beyong her means

- She had a MAGA party n this is about her 2nd or 3rd time being asked or commenting about it n her answers differ each time with a different excuse. When she culdv just said, from the beginning, "Those are not my personal views" bt i guess she dnt actually feel that way.

Her and her team seem to really live bt "and publicity is good publicity". A lot of the Euphoria cast culd really use some media training bt Sydney especially.

I fully admit I don't read every Sydney interview and I applaud people striking while the iron is hot so to speak. That is what people should be doing and she's a good actress getting tons of opportunities so good for her...but yeah, I still don't get the whole MAGA party thing. Don't get me wrong in that I'm sure people wouldn't have believed her online if she had said upfront that wasn't my family blah blah. But as you said, she could have done literally anything just to say I don't align with those views, but she didn't. I even thought her excuse here was weird. Why would some liberals from out of town come to the party and wear MAGA stuff as a joke (well, white liberals so I kind of answered my own question) but nobody with a brain is going to wear MAGA stuff as a joke. Or wear police shirts or whatever they wore.

Also this is totally petty, but I also side eye anyone who claims they don't watch the because they READ. I love to read and I love my tv but it always feels a bit pretentious.

[bowieexaminprogress]

Britt was potentially a mostly decent person, since she had a close f'ship w Jana and r'ships w both Sander and Jens up until all 3 of them betrayed her? Like, ik Britt has a mean streak (Moyo and Kato understand having such shortcomings), but it's possible that most of her unattractive qualities grew as a side effect of being betrayed, tho her attitude 2wards Yasmina is a prob further fueled by having terrible friends. I think Amber, Kato and Aaron culdve been just as bad if they were a group

I mean we can sit here and head canon many things about what and how Britt is as a person. Unfortunately, we never got an objective view of her or seen her side of the story, so it is difficult to get a good view of her character.

She was in a relationship with Jens but was that a good relationship? She was friends with Jana but was that a good friendship deep down before the betrayal? We will never know because she was always seen through the eyes of others.

Now if we are gonna discuss the Britt, Jana, Jens situation as we have it in canon, we can understand where that reaction towards Jana came from. She got hurt by her friend and boyfriend and got betrayed and that lead to the mean girl behaviour towards Jana. But she was also mean to Amber who didn’t really hurt her in any way. Does being hurt by someone justify spreading hate to every single person around you, though?

Regarding Sander, again if we take only what we saw in canon, we hear from his mouth that she was snappy towards him before Robbe came into his life. Now is Sander a reliable narrator? Could it be that she was starting being snappy and dismissive towards him because Sander started being an asshole towards her first? Or did he become an asshole because of the way she was treating him? We will never know the whole truth. One thing is for sure they both chose to stay in a toxic relationship. Sander with Britt, even though he was seeing how she was treating him and Britt with Sander, even though he was a guy who cheated on her and clearly had stated that he is in love with someone else. Their insecurities and fears made them make those decisions. So they are equally responsible for the mess that relationship was and the fact that they let the other treat them that way.

Now regarding Yasmina. Interestingly Britt and Yasmina never actually had an bad event happen between them that would justify that kind of reaction. We saw that Yasmina didn’t really say anything to Britt about Ibiza she was just standing there and she is suddenly labelled as judgemental and being mocked. I think it is Britt projecting her own insecurities and ignorance on Yasmina again. But that is the case for any bully, any mean person you meet. No one who is really confident and secure and happy in their life has the need to belittle, be mean, bully others. Those kind of behaviours say more about the bully than the person getting bullied. But again does that suddenly make those behaviours ok?

Regarding Aaron, Kato and Amber I agree. They are people that if they would have found a group that would not call them out on their bs they would probably say shit like that.

But it is very difficult to give a good character analysis on Britt, Amber, Kato, Aaron exactly because Wtfock has contradicted itself so much in canon. Amber was that ignorant, dismissive,clueless girl in season 1,2,3 towards Yasmina then suddenly she is the protector of justice. Aaron was just a clueless, ignorant boy that was trying to educate himself when he realised that he was ignorant and suddenly he is ignorant as fuck but also dismissive. His attitude during the 2nd apology towards Yasmina revealed a person who is arrogant and doesn’t really give a fuck about learning. A 180 from the person we met in season 3. Kato. I mean she is the epitome of a racist, spoiled, brat but suddenly this season she is all laughs and butterflies. And Britt well her character has become a sacrificial lamb for wtfock. They needed a villain and because of lazy writing they just dumbed on her all the villain plots of 3 out of 5 of their seasons.

[rawrmeansilyindinosawr]

THE L GOT YASSIFIED N GHANDI IS AT 14TH ST UNION SQUARE!!!!!!?!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the L stawped being a cunt on the weekendz w it’s fuckin delays n got individual seats that don’t clap back when u sit down ! Altho i am a “clap back “ advocate (Let ur cheekz Speak if they must ) i do wonder why

why is it always so awkward to hit on someone on public transit ?

we sit across each other staring each other down n i wish u were clumsy enough.

to leave a bag or your phone or wallet on the seat so i could say something to you but nothing is scripted here on this island of a city. there are only real moments. and this includes the pain in the people watching cuz sometimes we just end up watching them live their lives so much so in admiration we watch them leave.

I wrote dat ab some rly long white person with a maroon jumpsuit. N i don’t hav the energy to post a misc connection on Queer craigslist /LEX soooooo. Whut eve.

Dis week i hav been severely depressed n isolative besides for the day that the pilgrims decided to say it wuz the day that wuz gonna b ab slaying n giving . i ate sum dead bird n made sure even their bone marrow life mattered n cartilage cuz post veganism n peta rites advocate type beat a life is a mf life . Hoe .

Mi boss at union square Market s@id she saw her nekked neighbur whilst walkin around the duck truck. whut wuld u do if ur nekkid neighbor came to ur place of werk n every1 sais he is a rly nice person but he had a big SSHLONG. Now i kno whut ima wish 4 on my wishlist. No this isn’t 4 other bitchez . Nor is it for sshlong reveal. I wish some1 wuld notice meh as the nekkid neighbur at the union Square holidey market.

I whuhz almost in luv w a gurl who luved big patty wattyz n raised awareness for autism via tiK tok last yr n also i hate lex now!!!!!!!!!!! 2 many ppl wanting to give out their used sheets n Service tops who dont wanna Host . But i do thoroughly enjoy when Ppl wanna give their free concert tickets out . So lex gonna b the new ticketmaster to me but anarchist - community fridge version Without the food . Smfh . Y it gotta take watching perks of being a wallflower to realize we regret picking the boy w the eyebrow piercing when we culdve picked the 1 who got hit by a car butt still ended up pullin up to bossa limpin .

Im in luv with club E n gave them my tiara cuz they r a tucking princess and cuz their music reminds meh of myspace era sheit. Also they name is ren like me TWOOOOOO. twinnem:-] <3

As car seat headrest sayz in its only seggs i think bc of his demisexual cusp of asexual self .

“

OK, so I've been reading all the sex blogs

And they all talk about how OK it is to be gay

And straight and bisexual and asexual

And have sex however you like

But I don't care about hundreds of hypothetical people

And their hypothetical sex deals

I care about me, and my sex deal!

What about my problems?

Baby, my body

Constantly betrays me

I try to betray it

I only hurt myself

Yeah, yeah

I can't tell you if I like it, I like it

What happens if I don't like it? I like it

I can't tell you if I like it, I like it

What happens if I don't like it? It's only-

It's only sex

It's only

It's only sex

C'mon, sexual desire, speak! “

My brain is too fried from vyvanze dependence to decipher n explain it all right meow . I jus kno i luv those lyrics n i luv when post club - post party we all come back to mi lil floor mattress in mi tiny room n we kuddle puddle!!!!!!

Saw a Zyn nicotine ad omw to my lobotomy apt at callen lourde this mornin n i miss the dude who gav tht to meh while me werkin this japanese restaurant once n holy sheit i wuz shaking n shitting n crying my entire shift . I miss werking there cuz i made $400 a shift n lowkey I could get any vacation hours i wanted. Now im like a finance bro who goes to reggae bars in the city N gets pussy on hinge . v_v RIP!!!!!

i havnt been to saint vitus penus yet but thts Ok cuz i heard someone saw pee pee juice n eyeball juice on the bathroom mirror once n ill just stick to duffz if i wanna find a punk goth giorl to destroy my Third hole . Im crying a lot these days super fragile as well as today being a significant date for me N i missh ketamine so damn much butt i refuse to sniff anymore cuz i nvr kno how to dose w the diff german strainz n i always get sickie or khole n see myself on a train n being someone’s mutha . Weird!!!!!!!!!!’

Idek if i givin up on life or life givin up on meh but im just mf done . N i kno dis cuz im in my candle era yall . Where i lie n say i’m “running errands “ but sniffin diff candles at target n burglington ALONE . all dis for some mf seratonin biotch ????!!!????? Alsoo last randomo thot but i luv one of my good friendz from nyu n they were ganged up on bc of some DUMB RUMORS n i gots to say i kant stand a fucking bully or ppl who kant extend grace to others cuz it just feels v cliquey n stupid . Lik if we rly gonna believ rumors n gossip n not see someone’s character or try to understand i don’t see how ppl can b ok wit the ppl they hav to be with when they r alone with themselvez at nite . We r constantly evolving and it’s wrong to hold things against people esp in this age and this goes for me as well. I hope to receive the grace and love and empathy that I extend .

Soooooo many more fuckin thots n ramblingz like how i wish there was a poll i could start somewhere outside of instagram ab who wuld fuck G Eazy post halsey (Cmon , “tumblr girls”was an AMAZING song!!!!!!) N how much i luv egg by the garden but. Til nxt wk Babez.

Xx , ketaminechic NOT CHICK who doesn’t do ketamine anymore but kant put the energy into changing it then changing it on all platforms cuz omfGGGGGGGggg who cares that deeply ab this social media Bullsheit anywayzzz , Renny baby <3 :-] visit me at union square market Booth c20til Xmas eve !!!

[skymade]

Willow Gone

   A drabble from Willow’s best friend, Eryk’s, point of view. It’s long, I’m sorry. These are the texts pertaining to this. 

   “Errie, how about today?”

   Eryk is lain across their bed, staring at the prune colored ceiling for the five-millionth morning in a row -- or so it feels. Little appears to be able to rouse them from their state.

   Their mother, aquamarine with cavernous holes littering her face -- a Meldonian -- stands at the doorway. Her tight, bright green hair curls with the consistency of seaweed fall from the crown of her head. They are the same curls that pull at Eryk’s own blue head. Her mouth is nothing but a large slit in the center of her face, but Eryk can understand both her question and the implications deep beyond it.

   They do not answer. Normally, Eryk’s love for their mother overrides all else, but now their love for someone else holds them, like chains, in their bed.

   “We love you, Errie,” she says, for the five-millionth morning in a row, circular fins with holes reaching towards them. Her voice always sounds as if it comes from deep underwater. “Whenever you're ready, you know. Seconds will wait for you.” She touches them, once, on the leg, then retreats. The door clicks behind her gently.

   Eryk closes their eyes and sees her. Not the mother they love -- their best friend. Dark curls, murky eyes, bright purple skin -- one of many things she was mocked for. Willow sky. She was their best friend, from the moment they met to the moment their mother told them she was gone.

   In a flash, Eryk can see their entire friendship. The moment she, in a flurry of curls and laughs, sat down next to them during lunch, introducing herself though uninvited. Trekking the mountains of Amyr, them wheezing and her laughing. Her splashing purple water at them and sticking out her tongue when they protested. Her hanging upside down in their hiding place, the storage unit, singing out of tune and changing the lyrics to fit her mood. The last time they saw her -- late at night, under the velvet sky, with stars sprinkling above them, her winking playfully at their gaze.

   Their eyes shut tightly at the images. Each memory is another chain that drags them down to their bed, leading with the terrifying crash of the moment Eryk woke up and saw their mother there. Their mother had never been allowed for extended stay upon planet -- Amyr rules -- and instantly, Eryk had felt sick.

   Dad’s dead, was Eryk’s first thought. I did something wrong. I failed my tests for Seconds. Mother is dying.

   But they had never expected the words that had come from their mother’s mouth, starting simply and gently.

   “Errie… when was the last time you saw Willow?”

   She was gone.

   Eryk presses their hands against their eyelids. Why hadn’t they told anyone when they saw the bruises on Willow’s skin? Why hadn’t they reported their fear for her life? Why didn’t they try harder? What if she were dead, as dead as her mother must be? And the most terrifying thought of all: What if she went off to Travel?

   She wouldn’t be able to survive. Not for a minute. Willow would have no idea what she’s doing. Though all evidence leads to her being upon another planet -- the loss of her mother’s tokens -- Eryk has been stubbornly refusing to believe it.

   Even with the possibility of her escaping with Tallow -- what her father currently believes -- Tallow can not care for Willow. What if he abandons her? What if he hurts her? What if she feels trapped?

   These thoughts have been circling in Eryk’s head for the eons it feels she’s been gone, but they haven’t abated, yet. Every day, Eryk wakes up to hear them repeat in perfect clarity.

   They’re sure they’re going insane.

   Eryk’s communicator chirps next to them. They never get messages. Curiosity wins over depression for the moment. They reach up, grabbing it off of the ivory table, and flip out the keyboard, making the screen light up.

   the will of the sky. (in range) 1 NEW MESSAGE.

   Eryk cannot stop the tears that immediately pour through their eyes as they select the message, quickly, shakily. They have always had what Willow called bleeding eyes, but they were sure the Terran expression was bleeding heart. And now, they are choking on it.

   It is a message from Willow.

   trvling mkes me ocean sick T_T ;-; ;(

   The words are so uniquely Willow -- down to the very last mark (or lack thereof) that Eryk begins sobbing harder.

   In a perfect world, they’d take time to control themselves. They’d wait until the feelings abated and let them breathe to reply. But they have not seen the words “in range” next to Willow’s name for a long time, so long they are afraid if they don’t reply immediately, she will disappear.

   Fuck you

   It’s all they can think to say.

   The response is so fast. 

   aw!! ;( dont b meeeeeeeean!!!

   Eryk is attempting to type a response, when another of Willow’s comes.

   i knw. i knw.

   Willow never left spell check on. Most Amyra didn’t. It came with switching languages -- it was easier to just type without having to change languages each time they wished to.

   Eryk closes their eyes, pushes their head towards the screen. Willow hardly types as… seriously… as her last message was.

   Eryk stares at the small, purple picture of Willow next to each message -- heart-shaped sunglasses, smiling at someone off-camera. Eryk took that picture for her. Eryk can still taste the air from that day, can still feel the grass beneath them. Of course, she’d taken the picture of the smoke that Eryk had always used as their picture. How many times had Eryk seen a message from Willow? Thousands. Millions. Almost constantly. Willow almost never stopped texting. But this message... these words... had such a new weight to them. 

   They hardly think as they reply.

   Where are you

   Because, of course, Eryk has to come get them. They’re already thinking to ask if they can borrow their mother’s ship when Willow replies, lightning fast as ever.

   u knw y i cnt tell u that ;C

   Just like you didnt tell me you were leaving, Eryk’s hands answer for them. They almost put a question mark -- they normally don’t because they feel it leaves the statement too hard -- but they choose not to in the last instance.

   u knw y i had 2 do that 2.

   Maybe I dont Willow, they reply. After hitting send, they add on in a new message, If you wanted to run away with someone you were dating, thats fine but you still could have told me first.

   Eryk locks the screen, sits up in finality after the period. They brush their hands at their face when another message lights up.

   ?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????? the fck r u tlkin about???!?!?! Im not d8in ny1!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

   Yeah. Like Id know that. Because you keep me so updated with whats going on in your life right

   It feels right, now, to be angry. Eryk hasn’t been angry this entire time. Only scared -- only sad. This feels right.

   At least there is some relief. Willow is not dating Tallow. Hopefully, he is not treating her the way others have treated her here.

   skies i mssgd u cuz i missed u!!!!! >:( >;c wht is ur problm????!!

   My problem is that my best friend left planet without saying anything and is now trying to pretend it isnt a big deal

   i ddnt have to mssg u u knw!!! i culdve stayed quiet!!!!!!!!!!! D:<

   Moments later, she’s back.

   lol… yes i did. ;c of course i hd to mssg u. ur my best friend eryk. still.

   And, in true Willow fashion, she launches into a tirade. They can just see her in their mind -- tongue out, concentration coursing through her body, bent over the screen as her fingers fly.

   mr. doom && gloom is gttin on my fckin nerves. im so done with him. D:<

   Officials think you ran off with Tallow, they reply.

   off. r rite. but only bcuz he hs a staff. eryk the nly reason i ddnt tell u ws bcuz i knw ud rate me out

   She means ‘rat me out’. Eryk feels more tears coming at just reading the words. They are trying to hold on to the good things: she’s alive. Tallow hasn’t abandoned her. She might be okay. They are trying not to think how far away she could still be -- trying not to wonder how close she may be to them for the first time in forever. 

   Holy skies Willow. I missed you

   i miss u 2. ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;((((((((((((((((((( emoticons arnt strong enuf :(

   I know what you mean, they type through their tears. They have to move their communicator far away enough to escape the downfall of water.

   When are you coming home, they add.

   There’s a pause.

   ……………………. eryk i cnt come bck 2 amyr. id be put to death for leavin

   Please, they try. Eryk has never been overly selfish before, but they cannot stop it. How can they live without their best friend?

   But when minutes pass and they get no response, they let out a breath of air and say, Are you happy

   its better than being on amyr if thats what you mean lol

   Her grammar improved. That means she had to think deeply about that reply. Eryk hesitates. Maybe she truly needs their help?

   I guess that is what I mean, they try. They don’t know what to say -- she said it was better than on Amyr. Better than when she was with Eryk. Better than when they were close.

   A long pause. Eryk doesn’t know what to say, but, as always, is saved by Willow.

   i hv a confession 2 make

   Okay

   i ddnt mssg u bcuz i missed u. tho i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dnt get me wrong!!!!!!!!! fckin FCK i miss u!!!!!!!! but i mssgd u… 2 say srry. ;C ;C  4 not saying gdbye. :c :c

   Eryk sighs and closes their eyes. Willow has never been very good at saying sorry.

   I dont know if I fully forgive you yet

   i knw. dnt blame u t_t

   They release a soft breath at the emotion -- runs their fingers over the image. If they had more Amyra in them, maybe they’d be blinking in and out from the intense feelings. They close their eyes and pray -- though praying was never something they did before Willow disappeared. Now, however, it seems to highlight their life. Almost every moment is spent in it. Willow believes so avidly in the sky -- it has to save her, doesn’t it? 

   Their phone chirps, calling them back. 

   mr. doom && gloom wnts 2 leave here soon.

   Eryk knows what that means before Willow types it, and immediately responds, Please

   im srry eryk

   Please dont go. Not yet

   pls dnt tell any1 i mssged u

   I wont, they type back, oh skies I wont just promise you wont go

   They will promise anything, now. Tears rolling down their face -- choking on them -- the volume of their sobs rising so much they hear their mother swaying up the stairs, coming to check on them.

   im so srry. i cnt do nythin. gates up. i love you eryk.

   She never types out ‘I love you’. Never. Never. Never.

   I love you too Willow. Please dont leave me

   bye

   “Willow!” They’re screaming at their phone, shaking it. “Willow!”

   Willow come back

   Willow please!

   Their fingers shake as the letters light up on the screen.

   Please please please. I cant do this without you

   WILLOW!

   And then the dreaded three words light up next to Willow’s name -- out of range -- and Eryk collapses as their mother throws open the door and wraps her arms around them.

[destinyc1020]

All the positive PR in the world and Kaia is still primarily known as someones gf and her moms daughter..

Its unfair the way Deuxmoi has obvious favortism towards Kaia bt her relationships r what gets her views, nt her actual career. She gets positive press from Deuxmoi and obviously her own team bt a lot of the public dsnt care for her like that. Girl was included in a Hollywood Reporter list wit upcomimg stars and folks were wondering why she was there and she had a whole Vogue cover n the interview portion wasnt talked about n folks felt like other models/actors (Z and Kaias own mother were listed) culdv dineva better job at modeling... a job that Kaias done for yrs. I mean the way we see Austin fans talk more about the girl then her own fans is telling.

Point is she gotta get positive press somewhere, even if it includes involving her bf

Yea, I def think her relationships have helped her to make the transition from model to actress lol.

I mean, it definitely works for some people. Her bestie Camila Morrone, another nepobaby, did the same thing by dating Leo. Now look at where she is today 😊

So it definitely works.

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I def wish Z worked with more POC, esp black actors bt... it is what it is. Sometimes i do wonder how much power she has a producer. Even tho Josh n Mike were great in Challengers, i do wonder if she culdv (or tried to) pulled for a black/poc actor? And if shes a producer for this film was she involved in the casting fir this one too? I guess we wont know until later lol bt just sum questions

Mayb the script was so great she knew she wanted to b involved, and thats valid too. Im glad shes involved in a new movie tho

I know for Challengers and for M&M she definitely had a hand in picking who she was working with. I actually have to take back what I said, because I think it was actually Sam Levinson who recommended John David Washington?? If I'm not mistaken... Someone can correct me if I'm wrong though.

Anyway, either way, it would have been a no-go if Z didn't want JDW cast (even if he was recommended by Sam), so that already tells you all you need to know. I know she def had a hand in picking Josh and Mike for "Challengers" though.

I'm not sure about this new film though. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Mayb the script was so great she knew she wanted to b involved, and thats valid too. Im glad shes involved in a new movie tho

Yea, and there's nothing wrong with that!! It also seems like she's enjoying these romantic dramas that have some "tumultuous romantic relationships" ROTFL (ie. M&M, Challengers, new project) 🤭

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Vanessa has never seemed... the brightest to put it lightly, bt i think sometimes certain Austin fans or Kaia×Austin fans (is Kaustin really their ship name? Lol) do like to pretend that she wasnt his longest relationship, BOTH of them were together when their parents died and thay he did genuienly loved her. Sometimes these fans act like he was with her cuz he had to b since he prob wasnt making a lot of money (we dnt know his funds lol) bt he was a grown man and if he didnt love her he culdv left a LONG time ago. Just cuz fans (or anybody else) dnt like her (and yes, she does seem very ignorant) dsnt mean he didnt

LOL I agree Anon. No offense, but V has never seemed like the brightest tool in the shed.... Just saying lol.... 👀 Some of the stuff she's said just sounds like someone who's either super ignorant, or stuck in their own little "bubble" I guess?

But she does appear to be a deep thinker of some sort (re: her philosophies on life and relationships, etc), and seems to be a pretty savvy business woman, so I'll give her that! 😅

And yes, I've noticed too that a lot of Kaustin Berger fans (yes, that is their ship name lol 😅) seem to want to just erase the Vanessa history out of the equation, but like, you can't do that? That was still someone that Austin at one time loved a lot? Just look at their old pictures together. There's no doubt that he loved her and that she was his best friend (at the time).

He didn't have to be with her in order to have living arrangements lol.... Austin moved out of his parents house at like age 18 or something... He was YOUNG. He was on his own for sure by age 18, based on what I've heard him say in interviews.

He dated V when he was pretty young. They were both pretty young when they started dating each other. I just think that over time he realized that maybe she wasn't someone who aligned with his values, and maybe they were just growing into two different people, with two different goals in life? 🤷🏾‍♀️ Hey, it happens.

Personally? I think his "woman-picker" is a little off lol.... But that's another conversation for another day lol.... 👀

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Ive heard of Jacob snapping at his previous gfs (Olivia n Z), amd i wuldnt b shocked if he had that type of temper with Kaia too. Wuldnt b shocked if her parents didnt like him bt Cindy n Rande dnt really seem like great parents. The things their son been through (that tattoo on his face and a Dui), having their underage daughter go into modeling (a industry that focuses on looks n weight) alone (shes stated this) when Cimdy clearly knows the business n culdv had someone travel with her (at least till she was of age), Rande being accused of sexual assault yrs ago n Kaia being involved with so many older men since she was 18 is really weird. For her to just b with a 20+ yr old man when she JUST turned 18, moving on to a possibly controlling bf, moving on to a man who was 10+ yrs older than her when she wasnt even 21... lawd. One thing we cant argue about Zs dad is that he clearly protected her

She is still white priviledge personified and clearly dsnt understamd her owm priviledge bt her parents played a part in clearly nt preparing her n putting her in certain situations as a child that she wasnt ready for.

I agree so much with this RE: Kaia's parents Anon. I don't know them personally (obviously), but just seeing what Kaia and Presley have been through kind of tells me that the Gerbers don't seem to have many boundaries or something in their household lol.

Presley was clearly crying out for help at one point, and Kaia seemed to have an ED (or UNDER-eating) years ago (TW). 😔

Not only that.... But my dad would have slapped me silly if I was still a teenager dating a man nearly 10 years my senior lol. 🤣 I wouldn't have seen the light of day out of my room until I was 30 LOL!🤣

Anyway, I'm sure Kaia will be fine in the long run, but yea...she was forced to grow up so fast in that modeling world at such a young age. It's no wonder she feels like such an old soul at the tender age of 22 lol. 🥴😔

So yea, Z grew up with a strict dad (her dad reminds me so much of how my own dad was lol!), but it served her well honestly in this weird Hollywood industry. It was probably for the best tbh.