#Troubled Hearts

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael is the cool FNAF older brother to Gregory

[dwuerch-blog]

Standing on our Tiptoes

I have traveled to many places, experienced many seasons, and endured many situations. My eyes have witnessed many heartbreaking, hurting, hungry, broken and neglected people. And, quite opposite, I have also seen more beauty than I could ever put into adequate words. I have lifted my eyes to the hills of God and seen His magnificent creation — both in people and His world. And in all I have…

[ruporas]

need to exist in your warmth (id in alt)

[tom4jc]

May 19, 2023 Verse Of The Day

[inkskinned]

you have to go to work so you can pay for your doctor, who is not taking your insurance right now, and if you say i can't afford the doctor's you are told - get a better job. it is very sad that you are unwell, yes, but maybe you should have thought about that before not having a better job.

(where is the better job? who is giving out these better jobs? you are sick, you are hurting - how the hell are you supposed to be well enough for this better job?)

but you go to the doctor because you had the nerve to be hurt or sick or whatever else. and they tell you that it is because you have anxiety. you try your best. you are a self-advocate. you've done the reading (which sometimes pisses them off worse, honestly). you say it is actually adding to my anxiety, it is effecting my quality of life. so they say that you are fat. they say that all young people have this happen to them, isn't it a medical marvel! they say that you should eat more vegetables. they say that you probably just need to lose a little more weight, and that you are faking it for attention.

(what attention could this doctor possibly give? what validation? that's their fucking job, isn't it?)

there is always a hypochondriac, right. someone always tells you about a hypochondriac. or someone who is unnecessarily aggressive during the worst days of their life. or someone looking "for a quick fix". or some idiot who wasn't educated about how to properly care for themselves who just abandons their treatment. and again, the hypochondriac, the overly-cautious hysteric. these people don't deserve to be treated like humans (right), and since you might be one of these people, you also don't get treated like a human. because those people can really fuck with the system, you now have to pay for it. and besides. you're actually probably faking it.

(more often than not, you find a 2:1 ratio of these stories. for every "hypochondriac", there are 2 people who knew something was wrong, and yet nobody could fucking find it. the story often ends with pointless suffering. the story often ends with and now it's too late, and it's going to kill me.)

you are actually just making excuses. someone else got that procedure or that diagnosis and he's fine, you should be fine too. someone else said they watched a documentary about other inspirational people with your exact same condition, maybe you should be inspirational, too. you're just too morbid. your pain and your experience is probably just not statistically concerning. it is all self-reported anyway, and you're just being a baby.

(once, while sitting down in the middle of making coffee, you had the sudden, horrible thought - i could kill myself to make the pain stop. you had to call your best friend after that. had to pet your dog. had to cry about it in the shower. you won't, but that moment - god, fuck. the pain just goes on and on.)

you know someone who went in for routine surgery and said i still feel everything. they told her to just relax. it took her kicking and screaming before they figured out she wasn't lying - the anesthetic drip hadn't been working. you know someone who went in for severe migraines who was told drink water and lose weight. you know someone who was actively bleeding out and throwing up in the ER and was told you're just having a bad period.

in the ER there are always these little posters saying things like "don't wait! get checked today!" and you think about how often you do wait. how often the days spool out. you once waited a full week before seeing the doctor for what you thought was a sprained wrist. it had actually been broken - they had to rebreak it to set it.

but you go into the doctor. the problem you're having is immediate. the person behind the counter frowns and says we're not taking your insurance. you will be paying for this out-of-pocket.

they send you home with tylenol and a little health packet about weight loss or anxiety or attention deficit. on the front it has your birthday and diagnosis. you think about crying, and the words swim. it might as well say go fuck yourself. it might as well say you're a fucking idiot. it might as well say light your money on fire and lie down in it. and the entire fucking time - the problem persists.

it's okay. it's okay, it's just another thing, you think. it's just another thing i have to learn to live with.

[aroaceleovaldez]

my hot pjo take is that Jason isn't a second Percy, Jason is a second Annabeth. Jason is just if Annabeth was a guy and also a Big 3 kid.

[crabsnpersimmons]

"Your heart was in the right place. Don't blame your earnestness and efforts for their lack of understanding—the right people will appreciate your heart."

EDIT: i mention this in the tags already, but please don't copy my vent tags in your reblogs. thanks for understanding.

[weensysunshine]

quick stop at the gas station, turned smoke break, turned cactus ecology talk, turned getting left behind by the tour bus

[that-random-outsider]

I have a headcannon that Red is horrible at decision making. Like most people wouldn't really notice but like if someone were to ask her like "Hey what do you want for dinner" or "what drink do you want wit that" she'll likely get paralyzed by the amount of options. Because she's so used to not being able to choose anything for herself. Chloe starts to notice this and instead of choosing for her she makes a system for Red to help narrow down her choices in a way less overwhelming like "are you in the mood for something fizzy or flat?" Or "do you want to try something sweet or savory?" And them from there she’d give suggestions one at a time until Red is comfortable enough to order for herself. Because she wants Red to feel like she has autonomy even if it takes her a while to get there. She wants Red to make the decisions she never got to back home.

[alterego77]

Day 10 Prompt: Hell

[emobatsy]

women's wrongs incarnate is real and she has a gun

[rewiredmind]

they're crittering again❗️❗️

I love the D1 Core 4 when they're fresh into Auradon so I went with those outfits🔥 (or at least I think that's Jay's? I can't remember. I'm sure it is. It's fine, he's still Jay)

[sunny1927]

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ Master Aqua *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

(Sketch version)

[panelshowsource]

the treasure trove that is bob mortimer's twitter account

[mischievous-thunder]

Ah yes, necrophilia! Not my word. You heard it from the freaky whore himself.

Deadpool took one look at Logan's skeleton and knew that he'd do anything to find an alive version of that man because necrophilia wasn't enough at that point. What genre does this sort of love fall into?

[crandairy-juice]

college au harrow and ianthe, with them being jod’s TAs