#Tomorrow I'll also return with the journaling thingy yayy

[saturnsringslandfill]

I've come to realize a lot of things these almost three weeks of winter break, and I think the most important one is that I am not alone.

My family is there, although not all of it. I have my friends, even if they are few, they are still important. And my best friend is probably my biggest support, although I have support from the others too. My psychologist is also there, although that is something more different (because it's her job JSJAJ).

I am 17 years old, my life is not going to end because of one or two broken or ended relationships. People come and go, but that doesn't mean they can grab and take my essence and light away from me and let me without nothing (lots of x and x things here in one phrase, sorry-).

Take this as a driver to get things done rather than a depressant to not do them and sink into negative emotions. Show those who decided to let you go without a second thought how unstoppable you are now. Show them that you don't need them anymore.

Yeah, at the beginning it may seem difficult, very difficult, I'm aware of that. You can feel bad for a day, a week, a month, two, five, eight, it's okay, it's valid. Your feelings are valid. You are valid. Please don't let anyone make you think otherwise.

There are so many things to see, to do. So many things to live for. So many experiences that await us, and it all starts with some little hope and want. I know it's hard to get thoes out of yourself to start living the way you really want, but even in the darkest moments, something always appears. Something that gives us the desire to keep going, the hope that everything will work out in the end. No matter how small it is, no matter how insignificant you may think it is, fight for it. And if you feel like there's nothing to fight for, you yourself are something, you are someone worth fighting for.

I will try to improve this year, even knowing that it'll be hard. I will work harder on my studies, and I want my mental health to be better. My stability will still have turbulent peaks and troughs, but I want to make it a calm valley. I want to work more on my physique as well. Eat well (it's not that I eat badly, it's that I don't eat- I have bad eating habits), do some exercise (I don't know, walk or run for a long time, knowing that that always calms me down a lot. Maybe dancing too), make new friends (I'm thinking of joining a club that a friend of mine is in) and start preparing for my future studies (I'm entering Bach after summer break).

I will continue writing and doing what I like in my free time. Playing video games, reading, writing poems or short novels, hanging out with friends, singing... But I have goals this year that I really want to achieve. Love live is not one of those-, but if it knocks on my door, I don't know if I'll be ready. I want to do things right.

I'm 17 years old, I have a whole life ahead of me. I'm not going to waste this year, not again. I don't want to, I refuse.

Let's start this year together. Whether it goes good or bad, we will face everything that fate throws at us with our heads held high and feeling proud of who we are.

I know we can do it ‹3.