#That's been what's up with us for the past. 2-ish months. Annnnd counting.

[cosmos-collective-blog]

I'm sorry to everyone that we've been so quiet as of late. I realize that we've been reblogging our usual stim things here and there, but this is also referring to social chatter on Discord and such. I'll be putting it under a read-more since it does involve some personal things.

The one year anniversary of our grandfather's death was just a couple of weeks ago. Even when we finally haven't had anything going on for a short while, we've had that load to carry, along with other things. The emotions have been rough to work through, and draining to feel; we're really tired, and often genuinely haven't had the energy to talk or react much at all outside of chatter with people we've already known for a long time. Tonight's actually one of the first nights we managed to talk more outside of that little circle, in a while.

Our PTSD had flared up recently as well, and relapsing on that progress has genuinely been both painful and detrimental. Part of why we've been quiet is to try and prevent it from spilling out sideways onto others— no one deserves to be on the receiving end of that and made uncomfortable, or to feel forced/obligated into supporting someone through a situation they can't handle. It's not a good way to treat friends, and that stuff can really hurt, y'know?

But, I digress.

To anyone we have been quiet and distant with without meaning to be, and to those we have ultimately had to remain distant with for the sake of our health/well-being, I hope that you all know we still care about you. I promise, our silence is not because of avoidance, things have just been painful and difficult— off and on at least, if not consistently so. It's been difficult to find joy or calm in things for long, lately, but we've been trying.

Got into a new hyperfixation, recently! It's honestly been fun, and pretty refreshing. Hoping to teach ourselves to cook a few new simple things to add to our arsenal, too. Mainly omelets because... who the fuck doesn't like omelets? (lighthearted joke)

Hopefully things will ease up, eventually. We miss everyone quite a bit, but it's been hard to talk to much of anyone outside of our family system lately for all of these reasons (biggest shout-out ever to the fam sys btw; thank you all for being as caring and understanding as you've been, and for supporting us as much as you have <3). But, we do miss hearing from everyone, even briefly. I hope you're all alright, and taking care of yourselves. You deserve it.

Please stay safe. <3

[iheartsurveys]

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Whens the last time you ate bread? This morning when I had French toast for breakfast Whats the last movie you watched on your own? Probably Charlie and the chocolate factory What about the last movie you watched with another person? Alice through the looking glass What about the last movie you saw at the cinema? Was it good? Still secret life of pets. It was cute Do you attend school, college, or uni? Just graduated college What do you study, wherever you study? Criminology What industry do you want to be a part of when you’re older? I'd like to get in to intelligence analysis Are you a Hugh Grant or Colin Firth kinda girl? Hugh Grant. Though I do really enjoy Colin firth's character and storyline in love actually Kisses on the cheek or the neck? Depends on who it's from of course. Obvi neck from a love interest and cheek from fam How many girls can you trust? Like 5 ish maybe 6 What about guys? Idk really...I'd say 2 but even those 2 I'm like eh How do you earn your keep? I'm not, yet. I have some things in the works but like the job I'm supposed to start is taking forever (govt probs) so I applied to some other jobs in the meantime/just because this other job isn't really something I want to do forever annnnd I have a phone interview tomorrow morning. I'm a lil nervous If you could speak three different languages fluently, what would they be? Italian, Russian and Arabic How many texts have you ever sent on your current phone? Far too many to count Who do you usually text the most? It varies tbh Baths or showers? Showers Cheese or tomato? Cheese Shaved legs or shaved arms? Legs Did you know they’re currently shaving their arms some people on this years xfactor? I'll take a wild guess that the survey maker is from the UK since xfactor hasn't been on in the us since like 2013 Early nights or early mornings? I guess nights? Idk I don't love either How many coats do you own? 3 What about shoes? 20 ish One word to describe your most recent ex? Okay Fried, poached, boiled or scrambled eggs? Scrambled Have you ever been surprised with breakfast in bed? No Where, in your current country, would you like to live, other than where you do now? The west coast, even though I haven't been. It just gives off nice vibes Where wouldn’t you want to live? Anywhere on the east coast south of northern va. Or in like Montana or somewhere where there's a lot of nothing Has your life begun? Yes and no. It has, but I'm still waiting for the adult part to fully kick in Do you like snow? I do, until I have to do out and clean off my car and shovel Have you always got good grades? I did before college. And then in college I had like 3 or 4 eh classes out of 40+ so I mainly did okay. Do you like sheer clothing? It's alright Name three things that are over-rated: Oh man idk I'm bad at this stuff. I'll say, fit bits, Justin Bieber, and cava List four things about your facial appearance: My skin is dry, especially on my forehead. I have freckles right underneath my eyes. My eyebrows are pretty decent. My bottom teeth are a lil crooked List four things about your general appearance: I'm pretty tall. I have a bit of a booty. My elbows are double jointed. I'm pale List four things you like about yourself: I'm a great listener. I'm open to trying new things. I'm organized. I clean up nicely lol idk this was kind of difficult is that bad List four things you dislike about yourself: I over analyze everything. I dwell on the past and things I can't change. I procrastinate. I can be too self critical List four of your favourite TV programs: How I Met Your Mother, How to Get Away With Murder, Friends, SVU List four of your favourite foods/drinks: Penne ala vodka, chips & salsa/queso/guac, chocolate milk, grilled cheese This quiz is pretty different to others, right? It is and I like that What phone network are you on? Verizon Is it good? It's the only network I've ever used and it's been fine Cats or dogs? Dogs Llamas or sheep? Sheep Have you ever seen anyone famous in the street? Nope. I always hope to when I go to NYC or the hamptons but it's never happened. I've seen famous people random places like sports events, but only because they show them on the screen lol Are you hungry right now? A little, I'm kind of craving a grilled cheese and some onion rings Do any of your friend really irritate you at times? Yep little bit What do you think of couples who have entire albums just for them, with pictures of them just randomly at home, doing nothing that really requires a photo? Like personal albums or fb albums... Personal is cute I get it but on fb...eh Can you cook? I have a few things I'm decent at making Can you iron? I suck Can you work the microwave? Yes Can you work the washing machine? Yes Do you like your photo being taken? Depends, if I look good then yes lol Do you like taking photos of yourself? Not really Have you ever got into a club, whilst being underage? No, but I also never tried How many magazines do you buy a month? 0, we just get hgtv in the mail How many of them are car-related? - What about fashion? - Any celeb gossip ones? I used to buy j-14 and all those fun teen ones lolollll but that was forever ago Who will do this note after you? Idk I don't keep track of that What pets do you have? 3 dogs and a cat It’s getting pretty cold now, isn’t it? Do you have the heating on? The weather is so up and down here but it is chilly. The heat is on but I also have my fan on in my room because I like my room to be cold so I can burrow in 100 blankets Do you watch Hollyoaks? No Do you like Silus? Never heard of it Who’s your favourite? - Who’s your least favorite? - Do you watch Gossip Girl? I used to. Never finished it, but I know what happens Who’s your favourite girl? Blair because Serena got annoying. Even though I loveee Blake lively What about guy? I was in to Dan for a while. But then as you go on chuck bass just gets better and better Last gig you went to? The Lumineers Next gig your going to? Maybe firefly again? I have no plans before then as of now Favourite colour? Blue Are you regularly tired? Eh depends Are you excited to live on your own? One day When do you plan on moving out? Maybe a year or so, we'll see Do you have a onesie? No