#That lack of separation is the ultimate reason I have my 'types labelled fictotypes instead of median-subsystem-members

[niimda]

Exactly!

The hardest part of poking my head around alterhuman spaces after spending a while away from them is that. like.

Without any outside influence, my two "species identities"--human and Nightmare/n--don't really exist separately? They're not two parts of me that conflict and must be balanced. Even framing it as "two sides of the same coin" implies a boundary between the two that doesn't really reflect how I experience my self.

I think, to me, neither my humanity nor my Nightmare/n-ness(?) would be complete without the other. My humanity is steeped in being a Nightmare/n, my Nightmare/n-ness is steeped in humanity

and the (maybe imagined?) pressure to vivisect my identity into distinct categories of species identity feels…icky. They're different lifetimes that entail different events, but as far as my sense of species go, they're indistinguishable

which feels awkward when you're continuously met with posts treating humanity like it's inherently oppositional to alterhumanity